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CHAPTER 15

Insecurities

"You've grown so much!" Sue said enthusiastically while rubbing my now big belly. I was about six months pregnant, and I already felt like a freaking house.

"I still don't understand why you don't want to learn the gender." She took a sip from her wine. We had just finished eating dinner, and it was Charlie's turn to wash the dishes, so that left us girls to talk.

"I want it to be a surprise, something to look forward to," I explained. I wanted to find the gender until up a few months ago, but then I changed my mind. I didn't want to know the sex. I didn't care if my baby was a girl or a boy. Just like Edward had said, I wanted it to be healthy. The rest were just minor details. Having a girl or a boy wouldn't change anything.

"I thought Edward wanted to know. Your father and I want to know," she whined. Sue and I had become even closer lately. She was the mother figure I had always craved in my life. She was there when I needed to ask her something and she didn't act like a bitch when I called her in the middle of the night to ask her if it was normal for the baby to kick that much. Even though she didn't have children of her own, she knew so much about it.

"Well, Edward understands, and you and Dad should do too," I answered, not missing a beat.

Just as Sue was going to remark, the bell rang. It was 22.00 pm. Who could it be this late? Please, don't anyone be hurt! I prayed under my breath.

"Angela, are you okay?" I heard Charlie, ask.

"No!" Angela sobbed, carrying a sleeping Nathan into the living room. Sue immediately took the poor boy away from my aunt and took him upstairs.

"What's going on? Are you hurt? Is Nate hurt? Is Ben okay?" I started firing questions. Angela started crying more when I mentioned Ben, and I felt my knees giving up on me. I walked back to the couch I was occupying minutes ago and sat down carefully.

Charlie wrapped Angela in his arms and tried to soothe her. They always had an amazing relationship. It grew even stronger when my mother died. They became one force to raise me and helped each other deal with their loss. Charlie was like a big brother to her. I would have smiled at the scene in front of me if I hadn't worried sick.

"Do you want to tell us what happened?" Charlie asked. Angela was now sitting on Charlie's legs like a little girl, and up and down her back. I knew that his legs would be killing him, but he didn't say anything or so it. He didn't care about that, but only what was wrong with Angela.

After putting Nathan to sleep in my bed, Sue came downstairs and was sitting in front of me. When she sensed Angela's hesitation about talking about what happened to her, Sue spoke. "I should go, let you talk."

Sue, even after all these months, still felt like she was out of place, no matter how many times we told her that she was family now.

"No, Sue, don't go." Angela sniffled. "You're family, get that in your head. It's that it's so hard to talk about it!" She started crying again. What could have possibly happened to make her cry so much?

"You know you can talk to us, right? We're here for you!," I said, trying to make her open up to us.

"Ben is cheating on me!'

"WHAT?" Charlie stood up and lifted Angela of his feet. "Where are my keys?" he asked furiously trying to find them.

"Charlie, please, calm down!" Sue hissed at him, seeing how miserable Angela was. "You'll wake up Nathan!"

"Yes, Charlie, please. Calm down!" Angela looked at him with her bloodshot eyes, trying to make him stay. We all knew what he was going to do, but violence wasn't always the answer. Even though I too wanted him under the ground for what he did.

When Charlie sat down again, Angela started explaning everything. She and Nathan had gone to a friend of her to spend the weekend. Her friend was moving to New York, and they had a last slumber party. When she returned home, a little earlier than expected, she found Ben and his secretary in their bedroom going at it. She explained everything in full detail that almost made me puke.

Angela and Ben were such a happy couple. They were the most perfect couple in Forks, after the Cullens. They were always happy and so in love! They were even planning to have more babies. I felt so disappointed in love. If Angela and Ben divorced, the rest of us wouldn't have a chance at love and a happy marriage. And that brought me to this: would Edward ever cheat on me?

The next day was Monday and I had to go to school. Angela and Nathan had stayed with us and I didn't get a lot of sleep, despite all of them wanting me to sleep. I couldn't!

"Edward, will you ever cheat on me?" We were in the libary. Edward had to study for a paper he had due, and I was reading my pregnancy books. The library wasn't filled with people, so we didn't have to whisper.

"Where did that came from?" he wondered aloud. Edward didn't know about what happened to Angela. She didn't want people to know yet, and I respected that. I wouldn't want to know that I got cheated either, if it happened to me. She needed her to time to think about it and come to terms with it before everyone else stuck their noses in her business.

"Nowhere. I was just wondering."

Edward closed the book he was reading, though not before he marked the page he was at, and turned to look at me. "Is this one of the hormonal moments where you'll either start crying or yelling?"

I narrowed my eyes at him. "You're avoiding my question!"

"No, Bella. I would never cheat on you. I love you! I wouldn't betray you and our baby like that. If, for some reason I didn't want to be with you anymore, I'd tell you. I wouldn't cheat on you. Although, I doubt I could live without you. So there, you've got your answer. You're stuck with me!" He kissed my cheek and returned to his reading.

"You don't know that!" I continued talking. "I'm changing. My body is changing. I'm getting fatter. Soon enough I won't be able to stand up on my own. I'm already bitchy, and I don't want to have sex with you because I feel so damn uncomfortable. Then the baby will come and my attention will be on it. I'm not going to be able to pamper myself, and I'll be covered all day with spit and poo on me. After a short while, you'll get tired of me, and you'll find happiness in someone else's arms," I said in one breath. I could feel my eyes sting. I didn't mean the conversation to go that far. Edward was going to leave me alone with our baby, and I would die unhappy!

"Bella, you're out of your mind!" Edward huffed frustrated. "I would never get tired of you. Stop worrying!"

"Why are you yelling at me?" I whimpered. I knew I was pissing him off, but he didn't have to yell at me. I just wanted to talk to him.

"Look, Bella. I really have to study. Can I deal with you later?" He ran his hands in his hair getting more and more angry.

"You'll deal with me later?" I yelled, offended.

"Not you! Your ridiculous insecurities and mood swings," he hissed. Tears continued to run down my eyes when I put my book in my back and stood up from my chair.

"Where are you going?" Edward asked. His voice was calmer now, but that wouldn't change anything.

"I'm going home. I don't want to distract you anymore from your paper. I don't want you to resent me when you don't get a good grade." I started walking toward the doors of the library.

"How are you going to get home?" Edward followed me. "We came with my car."

"I'm going to walk," I mumbled, wiping my tears. I didn't want people to see me crying. The librarian who didn't do anything but look at while we were "fighting" was bad enough.

"You can't walk to school, Bella. It's a long walk, and you're pregnant. I'll get my stuff and I'll drive you back, okay?" he asked, hopeful.

"No, Edward. You have to study. I'll call Alice to pick me up or something." I took my cell phone from my bag and started dialing.

Edward took the cell phone from my hands and put it in his front pocket. "I'm taking you home. I couldn't concentrate on studying anyway. Having you sit next to me being so sexy was distracting enough." He smirked. Bastard, knew exactly what he had to say!

"See, I was distracting you!" I pointed a finger at him. He grabbed it and kissed it.

"That was a distraction I loved!" He started kissing my neck.

The moans that started escaping my throat were embarrassing and inappropriate for a library. "How long will it be for you to pack up your stuff?" I asked breathlessly.

Edward pulled away from me quickly. "We don't have to do this, if you don't want to!" he told me, but I could see how much he wanted it in his eyes.

"Oh believe me I want to!"

"You never told me where all that came from. Back in the library." Edward stopped kissing my big belly for a few seconds to ask me. We were in his bedroom lying naked on his bed after our lovemaking. He was showering our baby, even though it was my belly he was kissing, and I was playing with his wild hair.

"Ben cheated on Angela. She caught them Sunday night," I blurted. Uh uh! "Please, don't say it to anyone. I'm not supposed to talk about it," I pleaded with him.

He chuckled and placed one more kiss where the baby had just kicked. "Don't worry! I won't breathe a word. But you know I'm not Ben, Bella. I would never cheat on you."

I snorted. "That's what he was said also and look how things turned out."

"Do you really believe that after everything we've been through I would leave you for someone else? I wanted to be with you for a long time, Bella. I'm not going to leave you, ever!" He promised and I believed him. Edward would never cheat on me. He loved me and our baby. He was right! He wasn't Ben and we weren't Angela and Ben. We were Edward and Bella. A different couple from them. Now I felt stupid!

"Even when I'm as big as a house?" I teased him.

He laughed out loud and kissed me on the lips. "Even then!" He lay next to me then and wrapped me in his arms.

"Where are your parents?" We were in such a hurry when we came that I didn't ask him where they were. For all I knew they could very well be in the kitchen eating lunch.

"Mom went to eat out with Dad. They'll be back probably late at night. Are you hungry? I could order pizza!" He kissed my forehead.

"I knew there was a reason why I loved you!"

While Edward was ordering out pizza, I took the opportunity to go take care of my human needs. Being pregnant really messed up my bladder. I wanted to go to the bathroom all the time. It was getting tiring!

"Have you talked to Tanya lately?" I wondered while I put on one of Edward's shirts.

"No, actually. We haven't talked for about a week or so," he said while he got dressed also. It wouldn't be nice to answer the door naked, now would it?

I grabbed my phone from my back pocket and dialed Tanya number.

"Hello?" she answered.

"Hi, it's Bella. How are you?" I sat back on the bed and started rubbing my belly. That child of mine was really active at that time.

"I'm good. You? Edward? The baby?" She sounded so happy. That only made me smile.

"We're good. We haven't talked in a while, and I called to see how you are. How is everything?"

"Everything's good! I'm good." She laughed, and I heard her whisper to someone.

"Aren't you alone?" I asked confused. Who was she talking to?

"Wait a sec. I have to change rooms." I heard noises and doors being closed and opened. "Okay, I'm good to talk."

"Spill everything. Who was that?" I asked excitedly.

"Remember when I was telling you a while back that I had met a cute guy? Justin?"

"Yes!"

"Well, we are kind of a thing now."

"Shut up!" I exclaimed. "Oh my God! I'm so happy for you?" Edward chose that moment to come back with the pizzas in hand. He leaned his head to the right looking at me confused. I mouthed him that I'd tell him later.

"Yes! He's perfect, Bella!" she said.

"I'm so happy for you!"

We talked for a little while about everything that had been going on before we ended our conversation and I could finally eat my pizza.

"Who would have thought, huh?" Edward asked while he was wiping his mouth with a paper towel.

"Who would have what?" I asked while I was putting the boxes away.

"That you and Tanya would have become besties."

Yeah, who would have thought?

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