A/N: I'm sorry if you guys dont' like this chapter, but it's the only thing I could come up with. I will work on getting back into this to finish it. Please read and review.

'Go see him.'

'No.'

Kagome said with a sigh as she walked through the garden.

'Go see him.'

Her beast said yet again. Ever since the night of the ball her beast has been bothering her constantly to go see Sesshomaru. And to be honest, it was getting on Kagome's nerves.

'Go see him. You know you want to.'

Her beast said, trying a different tactic. Kagome stopped and took a deep breath.

'No! Now leave me alone!'

Kagome snapped at her beast only to have it laugh at her.

'Why do you refuse to go see him? Is it because you don't want to? Or are you embarrassed about the kiss you two shared?'

Her beast asked and Kagome blushed a deep red as flashes of that night filled her head.

'S-Shut up! I don't want to see him because I just don't want to. Is that alright!'

Kagome snapped as she started walking back towards the palace. Ignoring her beast's laughter as she went.

'Go see her.'

Sesshomaru's beast said once again and he growled in annoyance.

'This Sesshomaru will do no such thing. I have no intention of seeing her again.'

Sesshomaru said as he went back to the paper work on his desk, only to be interrupted by his beast once again.

'Come on, you know you want to see her again. She is different from the others, you yourself like that about her. You can't deny that.'

His beast said and despite how much he'd like to deny it, he couldn't argue with the fact that Kagome was indeed different from all the other woman that constantly threw themselves at him.

'And you also liked the feel of her lips against yours.'

His beast said and Sesshomaru groaned when his beast sent him images of Kagome and his kiss from the other night. The way she looked with a blush covering her face made her look so innocent, so enticing.

Sesshomaru shook his head to clear it of Kagome.

'Enough. I will not go see her so quit bugging me.'

Sesshomaru said and his beast growled.

'No! I want to see her! And you know you want to see her too! So stop being so stubborn and go see her already!'

His beast snapped and Sesshomaru's eyes widened in shock at his beast. It had never been so persistent on something. And if he was being honest with himself, he really did want to see her.

'Fine, I'll go see her once I finish. Will you quit pestering me now?'

Sesshomaru asked his beast with a sigh.

'Hai.'

Was his only response. He shook his head and looked over the scroll on his desk before swiftly signing his name at the bottom. He stood and left his study, heading to the Eastern gate of his palace heading in the direction that he and his beast both wanted to go.

Kagome sighed for about the millionth time in the past hour. She was restless and the fact that her beast was constantly pestering her about going to see Sesshomaru wasn't helping.

'Why the hell do you care if I go see him or not?'

Kagome finally asked.

'I've already told you. I have chosen him to be mate. We must spend time with mate.'

Her beast said and she sighed once again.

'You may have picked him as a mate, but did you ever stop to think if he feels the same? What if he's already chosen someone to be his mate, then what?'

Kagome asked and heard her beast growl.

'Then I kill them. No one but us is worthy enough to be his mate.'

'You're hopeless, you know that?'

Kagome asked as she fell back among the pillows on her bed.

'No, me just like mate.'

'Don't call him that! He's not my mate. Hell, I don't even know if I like him like that.'

Kagome said and silence followed.

'Oh what? You finally decided to give me some peace and quiet?'

Kagome asked hopefully.

'No, me just thinking.'

'About?'

Kagome asked her beast warily. She didn't like the way her beast had said that.

'Ways to help you see that you like mate as well.'

Her beast said and Kagome's eyes widened.

"W-What?"

Kagome asked in shock.

"Kaa-san? Is everything okay?"

Shippo asked as he walked into the room. Kagome sat up and looked at her adoptive son with a small smile.

"Yeah, everything's fine baby. I'm just thinking about some things."

Kagome said and Shippo nodded as he made his way to the bed and sat down next to her.

"Like what kaa-san?"

He asked curiously. Kagome smiled before ruffling her son's hair.

"About what happened during the ball between Sesshomaru and me."

Kagome said. She'd always been able to talk to her son about anything, they didn't hide things from each other and she wasn't about to start now.

"Kaa-san, I've been wondering."

Shippo started and Kagome looked at him expectantly.

"About what baby?"

She asked when he didn't say anything else.

"About your feelings towards Sesshomaru. What do you think of him?"

He asked and Kagome looked at him in shock before regaining her composure.

"Well, to be honest baby I don't know him all that well. I mean, sure we've met a couple of times while we were still traveling with Inuyasha and the gang, but all those times he was fighting with Inuyasha."

"Were you ever scared of him?"

Shippo asked and Kagome shook her head.

"No. The first time I met him in Inuyasha's father's tomb I knew he was a powerful and dangerous demon, but I wasn't afraid of him even then. Though, I think that was because at that time I thought Inuyasha could take on any enemy and would protect me."

Kagome said remembering how she felt when she first met Sesshomaru.

"There's never been an instance where you were afraid of him?"

Shippo asked and Kagome thought about it. She honestly couldn't think of a time she had ever been afraid of him. She shook her head and Shippo put a hand to his chin and thought quietly to himself for a while.

When he finally looked up, he had a thoughtful look on his face.

"What about Inuyasha? Was there ever a time when you were afraid of him?"

He asked and Kagome blinked in surprise at the question before answering.

"Yes, there were a couple of times. But the majority of them were when he had lost himself to his inner demon. Every time that happened I was so scared I was going to lose my best friend. And the times when calling his name didn't do anything I felt like there was nothing I could do. He could turn on us at anytime and there would have been nothing I could have done about it. I don't know what it is, but seeing his eyes bleed red and his face being covered in jagged marks and having a feral look on his face just scared me."

Kagome said truthfully as she recalled a couple of the times that had happened to Inuyasha.

"How do you feel about him now?"

Shippo asked and Kagome looked at him curiously.

"What's with all the questions suddenly Shippo?"

Kagome asked and he just shrugged.

"I got bored and wanted to talk."

He said before looking up at her seriously.

"So?"

He asked and Kagome sighed.

"I can't stand him. For him to have chosen Kikyo over me. I mean, she's dead for crying out loud. I was by his side constantly for the better half of three years and I wore my heart out on a sleeve, but he never took notice of it. All he ever cared about was Kikyo, or the jewel shards. He never cared for me. Once I realized that, it hurt, but I did what was best for me and left. It was hard, but I wasn't going to stay with him. Of course, you coming with me did ease the pain of leaving everyone."

Kagome said with a smile at her son that he returned.

"Do you still love him?"

Shippo asked and Kagome smiled at her son sadly.

"No Shippo, I don't love him anymore. At least, not in that sense. He broke my heart too many times for me to forgive him. I love him as the friend I knew and fought with everyday for the shards of the jewel. I love him as the Inuyasha that used to risk his life to save me and the Inuyasha that would care for me when I was sick. I love him for how he was, but not for who he is, if that makes any sense."

Kagome said and Shippo looked at her confused.

"It doesn't."

He said and Kagome laughed.

"Let me see if I can't explain it better. Inuyasha was mean, we all know that."

Kagome said and smiled when Shippo nodded.

"But he was also kind in his own way. It wasn't very often that he'd show his kind side, but that is what made me love him. I may no longer love him the way I did, but I still love the kind side of him that would worry over his friends and risk his life for them."

Kagome said and understanding shined in Shippo's eyes.

"Oh, now I get it."

He said and Kagome smiled.

"If you ever see him or Kikyo again, what will you do?"

He asked and Kagome sighed.

"I don't want to do anything, but if I have to I will. Kikyo still wants to kill me and if I have to I will kill her. I don't want to kill Inuyasha, but if I have to I will."

Kagome said and Shippo nodded.

"If given the chance, would you take the time to get to know Sesshomaru?"

Shippo suddenly asked and Kagome looked at him in surprise.

'Where did that come from?'

'Answer him.'

Her beast said and she sighed.

"I guess. He does seem to be different, but he also has an air of arrogance around him that I can't stand. But…"

Kagome started, but trailed off.

"But….?"

Shippo prompted.

"But there's also something about him. I don't know what it is, but I feel like I can trust him. It kinda scares me to be honest, but I like having at least one person that I feel like I can trust."

Kagome said and Shippo smiled at his mother.

Kagome felt a very powerful, very familiar aura heading their way and sighed.

'Looks like you'll get to see Sesshomaru after all.'

Kagome thought to her beast and it smiled in her mind. Kagome looked back at her son to see he had left. She sighed once again before heading out of her room to the courtyard.