Love and Danger
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Chapter 12
Elliot leapt up from his chair when he realized her heart stopped beating. "HELP! SOMEBODY PLEASE, HELP ME!" he begged. Nurses and doctors flooded the room and lowered her down onto her back. He was pushed back into the hall, and slowly leaned back against the wall. His eyes filled with tears as he slowly fell down the wall.
Twenty minutes later, the doctor came out with a solemn look on his face. He slowly made his way over to Elliot. "Mr. Stabler, I am so sorry. We did everything we could. Unfortunately, it wasn't enough. I am so sorry." the doctor said before slowly walking down the hall.
Elliot burst into heart wrenching sobs. He had felt pain when he divorced from Kathy, but this was a whole new level. His heart was shattered, his entire soul broken and empty. He slowly lifted his head upwards.
"HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME!" he yelled at God. He was so infuriated at God. "I LOVE HER! I LOVED HER!" he screamed. In the back of his mind, he could hear her softly calling his name, almost as if she was beckoning him to join her in death.
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Elliot awoke with a start, his heart pounding and his eyes filling with tears. He recognized he was still in Olivia's hospital room, his hand still holding hers. His eyes darted to her heart monitor, and he let out a sigh of relief when he saw the steady, rhythmic, beating signifying her wonderful heartbeat.
The next thing he saw made his heart flutter and brought a smile his face. He looked up to her face to see her beautiful, chocolate colored eyes looking at him with concern. He had never seen anything more beautiful.
"Hey." she croaked, giving him a small smile.
"Hey, sweetheart." Elliot breathed, slowly standing up to lean over her. He watched as scooted over with a wince, making room for him to sit on the edge of the bed. He sat down slowly, not wanting to cause her any pain. She slowly lifted her hand to his cheek, wiping away his tears.
"Why are you crying?" she asked, her voice sounding incredibly weak.
He had to smile It was so typical of her to worry about him, even though she was the one who almost died. "It's nothing. I will tell you later. Get some rest."
"Only if you join me." She said with a small smile. He slowly laid down beside her, their hands still entwined. He looked down at her and smiled when he saw that she had already back to sleep. He placed a gentle kiss to her forehead, reveling in the feeling of her body lying beside his.
"I love you." he said, before slowly drifting off to sleep himself.
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Olivia woke up the next morning to find Elliot softly snoring beside her. She grinned and slowly reached up to stroke his face with her hand. She watched as he stirred under her touch, and ever so slowly, his baby blue eyes opened up. He looked around the room, taking in his surroundings, before slowly looking down at her.
"Hey. How are you feeling?" Elliot asked her, his voice rough with sleep. Olivia couldn't help but notice the way he kept looking at her heart monitor, almost as if he was checking to make sure she was actually there.
"I feel like I drowned, was stabbed, frozen, and died. Other than that, I am great." she said, her voice dripping with sarcasm and pain. Elliot frowned down at her, not enjoying the reminder of how close he was to losing her, nor did he like how she was so calm about it.
"Liv…" he started, but suddenly he realized something. She hadn't been awake long enough for a doctor or himself to tell her that her heart had stopped beating. She had no way of knowing. "Liv, how do you know that your heart stopped?"
Olivia looked up at him, her eyes filled with realization. "So I actually did die? It wasn't a dream. I left?" she whispered under her breath. Elliot looked into her eyes.
"What do you mean?" he asked.
"I had this… dream. It was so weird. There was this terrible pain on my chest, it was like somebody was pressing down. And there was this light pressure on my lips that was cold. Then, everything went white. It was a blinding light. I thought it was going to burn through me, turn me into ashes. I just kept my eyes shut tight and just… let the light overtake me. When I knew that the light was gone, I opened my eyes, I was in this beautiful field. It was surrounded by this forest, and was filled with all sorts of beautiful flowers. I was laying on the far side of the field, and I couldn't see anyone. I was completely alone. I stood up, and just stood there. I felt so good, Elliot. There was no pain, no sadness, and no anger. Just this incredible warmth that surrounded you on the inside and on the out. When I looked around again, there was this woman on the other side of the field. I watched as she slowly walked towards me, almost as if I was in some sort of trance. When she reached me, I knew her face. She was so real, looking just like she used to. Only one thing was different." Olivia stopped talking and turned her head away from Elliot, looking out the window on the opposite side of the room. Although Elliot could not see her face, he knew that there was tears in her eyes.
"Who?" Elliot asked. "Who did you see?" He slowly brought his hand to her face, and turned it to face him once again. "What was different about this person?"
"My mother." she said, her voice cracking. Elliot never met Serena Benson in person, and in some ways, he felt sorry for her. He knew that she was a victim, and dealt with that throughout her entire life. In other ways, Elliot hated the woman. He knew the pain she put Olivia through, whether it had been emotional or physical. He could never like someone who ever hurt his Liv. He snapped back from his train of thought when she continued. "Her breath, it didn't smell like alcohol."
"Liv, what did she tell you?" Elliot asked, concerned.
"She told me… she told me that it was not my time, that I had a lifetime of happiness and joy waiting for me here."
Elliot knew her well enough to know she wasn't telling him the entire truth. "She said something else, didn't she Liv."
"She said she loved me, and that she was sorry for being a terrible mother." Olivia said, the tears she had been holding back springing forward and dripping down her cheeks. Elliot drew her into a comforting hug, rubbing her back as her tears soaked through his shirt.
"It's ok Liv. She always loved you, she just had a hard time showing it. I think that deep down, she loved you almost as much as I love you."
They sprung apart when the door opened to reveal Cragen, Munch, and Fin. They slowly walked towards the two lovers.
"I'm afraid we have some bad news." Cragen said, his eyes unable to meet Olivia's. "We received this, this morning." he said, handing a folded up sheet of paper to Olivia. He watched her with weary eyes as she unraveled the face of paper.
Olivia's face paled instantly as she read the letter.
"What does it say?" Elliot asked.
"No hard feelings."