Chapter Five

James P.O.V

After being caught they didn't stop. Kendall beside him nudged him slightly. "Hey shouldn't you like stop before you get more?" James smirked slightly.

"Oh please. She won't trust me." He went back to texting smirking over at Carlos who would roll his eyes sometimes and type a reply. He saw Kendall glance at Logan.

"May as well get used to it. They do this all the time. Even if they aren't in the same class." He saw Kendall shake his head then repeat the action several times.

After school James saw Jet and the blonde laughed. James spun around and tore away not looking back. He felt fear and self-hatred set in so he headed toward the bathroom. Slipping into a stall he dug into his bag and pulled something out. As the hatred inside grew he unwrapped the object and raised his sleeve up revealing bruises. As the razor blade materialized he touched a spot and brought the blade down slicing into his arm. He hissed out a breath, but kept going. "James?" 'Shit! Shit! Shit!' It seemed to be Kendall's voice. "James are you here?" His voice held concern.

"Uh yeah just… Just hang on." Clamping his lips closed he cut again then pulled off some toilet paper pressing it to the cuts. He sighed holding it firm to prevent the bleeding anymore.

After it had stopped he stood up and dropped the slieves, before flushing and stepping out. He saw Kendall standing seeming concerned as James zipped up his backpack and shouldered it. "You sure you're ok?" he asked peering at James closely.

"Yeah I'm fine!" He washed his hands and stepped out of the bathroom.

"Listen Ja—James I—I need to talk to you all after you and Litos get out of detention." Kendall wouldn't look up from his inspection of his hands as he said this.

"Um ok. I well I got to go." He walked off and Kendall sighed.

Kendall's P.O.V

After James left Kendall stared at the wall. "How am I supposed to tell them?" he wondered aloud.

"Tell them what?" Logan's voice asked. Kendall jumped slightly. "Sorry didn't mean to scare you. So what did you need to tell them?"

"Well I—I—I need to talk to all of you after James and Carlos get out of detention."

"Ok well we got bout two hours to kill wanna see me and Lito's house?"

"Sure!"

So that's what they did for two hours. They went and looked at Logan's house then started talking. "So you said that James and Carlos do this a lot?"

"Yeah" Logan said laughing. "They like their little western speech." Kendall saw him roll his eyes.

"So do they get in trouble a lot?"

"No actually."

"No?"

"Nope. The teachers either don't notice or pretend not too. Only a few teachers yell at them."

"Uh do you mind if I ask why?"

"Well most of the teachers have heard about James's past."

"I haven't."

"Ok well listen. His mom is a complete bitch! That was why I hesitated to be his friend."

"Really?"

"Yeah I thought that he would be just another complete stuck up rich jerk, but he wasn't! So his mom is like the owner of this company. Ever heard of Diamond Cosmetics?"

"Ugh yeah. My mom's all over that stuff!" Kendall grimaced. "I'm glad I came alone!"

"Yeah well she owns that… She wanted to take James to California with her, but he stood his ground and told her no! He said that he was eighteen and she couldn't force him to go anywhere! She said that he was still a teenager and he had to go wherever she went, but he fought her! Said that he was eighteen, he was an adult and that she needed to grow up and move on with her life! It was a really big fight!"

"Damn really?"

"Yeah! She kind of screamed that he was just like his father and James almost lost it on her if we weren't there!"

"What do you mean?" Logan grimaced at the memory.

"I mean he screamed that he was nothing, but a brutal cold hearted person and how dare she tell him that! He said that she was the one being cold hearted not him! He almost got into a fight because of it! I mean why wouldn't you with a mother like that!"

"Shit!"

"Yeah it was really bad! After that she left and said that he wasn't going to get his trust fund. And you know what he said?"

"Hmm?"

"He said he didn't care! Said he would rather work on his own then take that dirty money that she had! He's doing that too! He's paying rent on his house, payin the bills, bringing in food, and still have enough to put into his college savings! Just goes to prove that workin hard on your own is better than taking money and being dragged off to California!"

After Logan's story Kendall sat there and stared at the wall. He never had a mom like that. His mom loved him a lot and was supportive. "So what about his dad?" Logan cringed a bit.

"Well see his dad was—was well he was abusive sort of."

"What do you mean sort of?"

"I mean he would hit his mom a lot. He would get really drunk, come home, then just start hitting her."

"Damn!"

"Yeah, but then it got worse. He didn't start hitting James until he was five! He would hit him and beat him! He was friends with us back then and he would stay at our house for a week or so! When he came home though he would be beaten worse than the morning he left! I guess that I should've realized that he was being hurt. I was only six though at the time and all I knew was that Jamie ended up in the hospital a lot."

"When did you realize it?"

"Well one day when I was nine and he was eight I kind of maybe on purpose lifted up his shirt when he was sleeping over and there were all those cuts and bruises! I knew then that he was being hurt on purpose and not the excuse I fell down the stairs! When he woke up I confronted him and he just broke down!" Logan covered his face for a minute. "When—when he told me all I could do was rock him and hold him! I—I told my mom and she said that he was going to stay here for a while."

"That's good right?"

"Yeah, but it didn't stop!"

"Wait what?"

"Yeah he would be distracted by something and go to somewhere in the park and come back with more bruises!"

"Shit!" Kendall hissed angrily his eyes were blazing.

"Yeah I followed him one day and saw his dad pinning him to a tree and beating him. I stepped in and hit his dad really really hard! I took him back with me and from then on I kind of watched out for him. Trust me he wasn't the self-confident man he is now! He was scared of a lot! I kind of well protected him from a lot of shit!" Kendall sighed. "Well as time went on and some therapy he got over it. He was fine until he met Jet Stetson!" Logan growled the last few words.

"Oh you mean that blonde that you guys told me about?"

"Yeah him! I'm pretty sure he's still not well you saw him!" Kendall nodded sighing again. He glanced at the clock. He sized himself up before pulling out his phone and making a group text

Hey Jamie Litos come to Logie's house I need to talk to you all. Kendall

K I'm comin over there anyway. See you in a bit. James

I'm kind of here now. Carlos

As Kendall received the text the door opened and in came Carlos. "Litos!"

"Hey! My hand is cramped up."

"Lines again.!"

"Yeah!"

"It sucks!" James said coming in. He glanced at Kendall before flopping beside him.

Once they were all settled with snacks James looked at Kendall. "Ok so what did you need to tell us?" Fear instantly clenched Kendall and he cleared his throat several times before he said

"Uh listen I well promise you won't laugh at me?"

"Of course not!" they all said together.

"Ok here goes…." Kendall took a deep breath before just blurting it out. "I have Tourette syndrome!"

James P.O.V

James stared at Kendall for a long time. They all did. Finally he looked away and stared at the wall. He didn't know what to say. He had had his suspicions, but he wasn't sure completely. "So there you go." Kendall said blandly.

"I-I kind of thought you did…" James said quietly.

"You—you did?"

"The way you cleared you're throat, the head shaking, the hand jerks and stuff. I thought, but I wasn't sure."

"Oh well-"

"Why would we laugh at you?!" Logan asked angrily.

"What?"

"Why would we laugh at you?" James saw Kendall look down at the coffee table.

"Well the friends I used to have did and called me a freak!"

"You're not a freak!" Logan snapped angrily.

"I'm not, but people said I was!"

"Oh!"

"What's your problem?!"

"Nothing! Let's just order pizza and watch movies and stuff!"

"Logie?"

"Not now Litos!" Logan pulled his phone and dialed.

Carlos's P.O.V

Tears appeared in Carlos's eyes as Logan snapped at him. He jumped up and ran up the stairs slamming their door shut. He dropped onto the bed and let the tears fall. No one had ever really snapped at him except that one day where she never came back. He knew and she hadn't listened. Choked sobs racked his body. He curled up and let the sobs take him.

Carlos sobbed until he felt a soft hand on his shoulder. "Litos are you okay?" It was Logan and he burrowed into his arms sobbing. "Listen I'm sorry I snapped at you. I just—just I had someone who had what Kendall has and he died because of something."

"I—i—it's n—n—n—not th—th—th—that!"

"What is it? You know you can talk to me right?" Carlos nodded and looked up.

"I—I haven't been truly snapped at since—since him and her!"

"Oh. Listen Litos I know she may be gone, but just know that I won't let anyone least of all him hurt you." Carlos buried his face into Logan's shirt and sobbed.

He sobbed until he couldn't. He felt Logan rubbing soothing circles into his back. When he looked up Logan wiped his tears away gently. "I promise I won't let me or anyone hurt you ever again!"

"Promise?"

"I promise Litos!"

So what do you think? Who are these mysterious people Carlos doesn't talk about? Who Logan's friend? Read and find out!