-Saya-

I stared at myself in the mirror and frowned at what I saw. The black and purple haired, forest green eyed teenager staring back at me looked like nothing more than a former shell of herself and I hated it.

"Alright, enough of this pity party."

I said to myself before turning away from the mirror and stepping into the shower. I'd been nothing but an emotional wreck for the past three weeks and I was sick of it. I was sick of crying. I was sick of wondering if things would go back to the way they were. And most of all, I was sick of hurting all the time.

I shut the water off and dried off before walking back into my room and picking out my clothes. I pulled on a pair of black jeans and a dark blue and black stripped long sleeve tee before heading downstairs. The looks of utter shock on both of my sisters' faces was enough to make me smile.

"Well? Are we going to stand here all morning or are we going to go to school?"

I asked as I grabbed my bag and headed out the door with them following.

-Sheera-

I'm not sure what happened for Saya to suddenly go back to her old self, but whatever it was I was grateful for it. She was laughing and smling and cussing again. Hell, I was even happy to see her kick Sandy's ass for commenting on the dark circles under her eyes caused by all the nights she'd spent crying herself to sleep. My sister was back, but I wasn't stupid. I could tell she was only pushing her pain away instead of dealing with it, but Saya was back and I'd take what I was given.

-Gaara-

Saya had gone back to smiling and laughing. Cussing and fighting. It seemed like nothing at all was bothering her, but I knew differently. Is aw how when she smiled it didn't have the small hint of sarcasm and confidence it used to. When she laughed, her eyes didn't have that spark of mischief in them. She was acting like she was okay and the fact that I knew that was pissing me off.

After two classed of hearing and seeing her lie about how she felt and where she was I caught up to her in the hall and dragged her into an empty classroom.

"What the hell Gaara!?"

She snapped at me and I narrowed my eyes at her.

"You're acting again."

I said and saw her look at me confused before looking away.

"I have no ideaw hat you're talking about."

She said and I growled at her.

"Dammit Saya! Stop acting like none of this effects you. Don't act like you're happy we broke up because you and I both know you aren't!"

I snapped at her and she turned adn glared at me.

"Shut the fuck up! What the hell do you know!?"

She snapped back and I looked at her in shock before regaining my composure.

"A lot more than you'd think."

I said and she scoffed at me.

"Well apparently you don't know as much as you think you do because I am happy we broke up."

She said and I stared at her in shock.

"What?"

I asked.

"I see no point in being in a relationship when all I am is a piece of ass! I want someone who loves me and we both know your incapable of that."

She said before walking past me and heading back out into the hallway. I just stared blankly at the wall as what Saya had just said replayed over and over in my mind. I couldn't believe it, but she'd said it herself.

-Saya-

Why? Why did he have to point out that I've been pretending? I was doing so well.

I thought as I leaned back against the observatory on the roof. I wiped angrily at the tears streaming down my face.

Damn him. He probably knew I wasn't telling the truth.

I thought and sighed when the final bell rang and students started filing out of the school.

I grabbed my bag and wiped my eyes again before heading back down and heading home.

-A WEEK LATER-

-Saya-

"Bye Saya!"

I heard my sisters call from downstairs and wlaked out of my room to see them wrapped in Deidara and Itachi's arms.

"You guys have fun. And Deidara, Itachi, if you guys hurt my sisters just know I know where you live."

I said and smiled when I saw them both pale.

"Bye!"

I called after them as they headed out the door. Once they were gone I headed downstairs for something to eat when I decided to go for a walk. Spending so long inside could not have been good for me. I went back upstairs and changed clothes only to stop when I couldn't find my favorite jacket. I tried to remember the last place I'd had it and cursed when I realized I'd been at Gaara's when I last wore it. Sighing to myself I grabbed my keys, locked the door, and headed for Gaara's house to get my jacket back.

I knocked on the door once I got there and sighed in relief when Temari answered the door.

"Saya? What are you doing here?"

She asked and I gave her a small smile.

"I forgot my jacket the last time I was here."

I said and she looked at me confused.

"You weren't wearing a jacket last week."

She said and my smile fell slightly.

"The last time I was here when me and Gaara were still going out."

I clarified and she gave me an apologetic look.

"Oh. Come on in."

She said, stepping back and letting me inside. I saw Shikamaru by the door and gave him a small smile in greeting.

"Temari, weren't you guys just leaving?"

I heard Kankuro ask from the living room.

"Yeah but..."

She started, but strailed off and looked at me. I looked at Shikamaru pleadingly and he nodded before pulling Temari towards the door.

"Lets go. They'll be fine."

He said and pulled her out the door before she could protest further.

Silence followed and I shifted my weight from foot to foot a little uncomfortable.

"Hey Saya, what brings you here?"

Kankuro asked as he looked at me over the back of the couch and I walked further into the livingroom to see him watching something.

"I came to get my jacket I left over here."

I said and saw him nod.

"Go on up, you know where everything's at."

He said as he laid down on the couch and continued watchign his show. I couldn't help but smile at him.

"Thanks Kanki."

I said before heading upstairs.

I silently made my way to Gaara's room and after knocking twice and getting no answer I pushed the door open and walked inside. I saw my jacket hanging off the back of the chair in his room. I walked past the large coffin-shaped bed and grabbed my jacket. As I turned around I froze. Gaara was standing in the doorway with his arms crossed over his chest and his eyes locked on mine.

A/N: There's another chapter. things will get better soon, i promise. please review and stay tuned for the next update that will happen very soon. Love you all muches, later.