Hi hi :]

So, couple things. I'm rethinking the ending to this fic, because I'm getting attached to them and want them to have a better ending then originally planned, so that being said, I'm thinking of adding a bit more feels, but it won't stray too far from what's currently happening.

Second; Just wondering if anyone wanted like a flashback of the backstory of Ciel losing his eye? Not sure if anyone is interested in that, but if you are, let me know and I'll add it either to the end of the fic, or somewhere in there.

Third; Thank you for the reviews on both Ao3 and . It really does mean the world to me when you guys say such nice things, but criticism does too! Don't be shy to tell me things you don't like. I want to improve and create better stories, so please don't hesitate to call me out on my bullshit.

Anyway! Here is the next installment. It's gonna be focused on thoughts, from both point of views. I'm trying to write more about Sebastian because I want you guys to understand him better and his conflict going inside his head. He's supposed to be a complicated character.

As always, thank you for reading. It's nerve wrecking to put your work on a public forum and have people read the story going on in your head :)

Hope you enjoy this!

Ciel doesn't know how it happened, but they somehow went from kissing in the street to in Sebastian's bedroom. He didn't want to end up here, in fact, he planned on being anywhere BUT here.

Ciel had shit to say, but he just had to kiss the big motherfucking brute and seem like he forgave him pretty damn quick.

He fucking thought.

"Wait, stop." Ciel said, pushing Sebastian away from him and crossing his arms over his naked chest, shivering a little once he realized how cold it was in the room.

Cold as Sebastian's fucking heart, asshole. Ciel thought.

"What is it?" Sebastian said, looking a little disgruntled. He definitely expected sex. He really wanted sex. Ever since he met Ciel, sex has been really boring and not the same and he honestly can't think in the correct head at the moment.

"I'm not sleeping with you unless we make rules. You know, determine what this is? What we don't want and do want? Compromise?" Ciel said, huffing a little when he saw Sebastian roll his eyes like feelings are the worst thing ever to discuss.

"I already told you want I don't want." Sebastian stated calmly, stepping closer to Ciel and looking in his eye, getting distracted by the feelings he sees swarming in them.

"Okay, then how about we switch it up and you tell me what you DO want? Because it just seems like you want to fuck me and other people whenever you like, despite where I am at the time, and that won't fly with me. I don't want that and I deserve better."

Sebastian felt his blood run completely cold. This is exactly what he didn't want to deal with. The first time sleeping with Ciel, they had a talk after and he completely got the vibe that Ciel had no problem with what he wanted. That was why he continued it, why he slept with him more than once and even slept in the same bed with him.

He can't deal with this. The words he wants to say is caught in his throat, staying in his brain and refusing to accept them. He knows what he wants, he's set on what he wants. He's never been so sure of anything in his life and that fact scares the living fuck out of him.

He wants to be... fuck buddies... With Ciel Phantomhive. He never thought this day would come. It's been fuck and go for years. He's never been in a commited relationship or a... partnership where there was rules. In fact, he's never even slept with the same guy twice.

What could Ciel possibly believe will come out of this? How does he know that he won't invite someone over when he's sleeping and fuck them quietly? How does it know he won't fuck everyone in the entire god damn world in the other room without him knowing? How can he expect, Sebastian, to simply live by rules that semi tie him down?

Sebastian feels a headache coming on, and he's never been more confused and agitated with how things are going. He can't see all possible outcomes, he can't see what the future holds or how things will make him feel or lead him to do.

He needs more control, he needs this on his own terms. He needs to know what the fuck this means at all. He feels like a fucking child and it's driving him insane.

"Um.. Alright.. What would your terms be, exactly? If I were to agree upon a partnership, where we have sexual encounters and that is all that comes out of this, what exactly do I have to agree to? Considering the kind of person I am, how are you so sure this would work despite any rules that may seem fair to you?" Sebastian said, cocking his head to the side and eyeing the boy, keeping his face calm and looking uninterested and uneffected when he's really fucking screaming internally from frustration.

Ciel bites his lip while he thinks of possible rules. There's only 2 that he can think of, but what if he changes his mind and wants to add more and can't because Sebastian is a stubborn asshole? Ciel huffs.

"Alright. You make a good point, but I don't ask much of you. All that I request from you is that you don't have sex with anyone else when I'm around. I don't want to walk out and see you fucking some guy. I have feelings, you know. And insecurities. You can't just fuck me and decide I wasn't enough and invite someone else. Tell me to leave first at least, it isn't difficult." Ciel stated, watching how Sebastian sighs, tilting his head back and groan.

"Second, I.." Ciel fidgets, biting his lip shyly, "I want to explore kinks. I had a pretty vanilla sex life with Claude and you seem to be okay with exploring.." Ciel was so embarrassed, his mind in jumbles. He likes to consider himself pretty innocent. Until he met Sebastian, anyway.

Sebastian mulls over these rules. Simple enough, not too demanding or time consuming. They're fair, and don't ask anything emotionally from him. A perfect situation that he can easily be on board with.

"I agree. As for kinks, I think we should go over what you want to try and complete a list of what's in out comfort area, and whether you want to go into a BDSM branch. If you decide so, I need time to study subspace and the recovery for it so I can properly take care of you." Sebastian says, making Ciel's eyes go wide in surprise.

Ciel was ecstatic. Sebastian didn't even give one judgemental look or even hesitate. And subspace? What the fuck is that exactly? I guess he'll find out one day. Ciel was just excited, walking closer to Sebastian and getting on his tip toes to give a soft kiss to those pink lips.

"Thank you, Sebastian." Ciel whispers, smiling and grabbing his hand, leading him to the bed.

"Now eat my ass to celebrate."