Anne's POV
I woke up after what felt like all day.
I looked down and Saeki was asleep in the chair leaning on the bed.
"Saeki?" I said slightly shaking him.
"Hmm?... your awake." He said sitting up yawning.
"Where you here all night?"
"No, I went home and changed, got something to eat and came back."
"You don't have to stay here." I said.
"I know, but I want to be here for you."
"Why?"
"Isn't it obvious…"
"Saeki…"
"I know. You are married to Kuni love him."
"I am married to Kunihiko. I called him last night. We talked for a while and I found out that he has been cheating on me with Grace for 3 years. I don't know what I am feeling." I said looking down at my hands.
"Anne…"
"Don't get me wrong, I am grateful for everything that you have done for me and the boys…its just, you're his best friend Saeki. Even if I did feel the same about you as you feel for me…I could not do that to Kunihiko.
"I understand, but I am still going to do whatever I can for you."
"Will you take me to see my daughter?"
"Let me get a wheelchair." He said walking out of the room to grab it.
He wheeled me down to the NICU where Ayana was.
We went into her room and I looked at her and started crying.
My little girl.
She was so tiny, a cover over her eyes.
Tubes and wires attached everywhere.
"She is doing really good Mrs. Aikawa. Her stats are way up, and she started breathing on her own."
"She did?"
"Yes mam."
I smiled and started crying again.
"Can I hold her?"
"Do you want to try an feed her a bottle?"
"Yes."
She unhooked some wires and wrapped a blanket around her and handed her to me.
"She is so small."
"She is, but she is adorable." The nurse said handing me the little bottle of formula.
I tried to get her to eat but she wouldn't.
"What am I doing wrong?"
"Nothing, she hasn't got her sucking motion just yet."
"She will though." I said handing the bottle back to the nurse.
"Yes she will." The nurse said walked out to give us some privacy.
"She is adorable." Saeki said looking at her.
"Yes she is."
I sat there for I don't know how long before we had to leave. The nurse had to change her and change some of the tubing.
"Here you go." Saeki said helping me back into bed.
"Thanks."
"Knock knock." My mother said walking in. "These two wanted to see you so bad, I hope it was ok?"
"Of course, Hey boys."
"Mom.."
"Are you ok?"
"I am fine."
"Where is Ayana?"
"She is in another room. She was born a little early so they are taking care of her."
"Can we go see her?"
"I don't know…I just got back in here and they are changing her."
"That's ok, why don't I take the boys down to the cafeteria and then take them to see her." Saeki said.
"Are you sure?"
"I was getting a little hungry anyway."
"Thanks. Be good boys."
"Bye mom." They both said leaving.
"Where is Kunihiko?"
"At home I guess."
"You don't know?"
"No mom, I don't."
"What happened?"
"I don't know what I am supposed to do." I said starting to cry.
"O Anne." She said handing me a tissue. "Tell me what happened."
"Well…"
I told her everything that I had found out and that had happened over the last few months.
"And with Kunihiko doing what he did and Saeki being so…amazing… helping me and the boys, I am just confused on what I am feeling."
"I don't know what to tell you sweetie."
"But you left dad when you found out."
"I know but there weren't two little boys and a newborn in the mix."
"So you're saying I need to stay with him?"
"I'm not telling you to do anything. I am just saying that before you do anything…think about how it will affect the boys and Ayana." She said giving a hug. "I better go, the boys probably want to go and see Kunihiko."
"Thanks mom."
"Anytime." She said as she smiled before she left the room.
I laid in bed and just stared at the ceiling.
What am I going to do?
Should I leave Kunihiko?
Should I stay?
Should I act on how Saeki is feeling?
But then I remembered everything that my mother had said
"Just think about how it will affect the boys and Ayana."
If I did leave Kunihiko, the boys will be devastated and then Ayana would only see him part of the time.
If I stay than everything will be as it always had…well almost.
If I act on Saeki's feelings, then I could hurt what relationship I have with the boys. And if I don't feel the same I could hurt Saeki too.
I just laid in bed and cried not knowing what to do anymore.