I sat there on the bed, watching Ayana sleep in her basinet.
They boys were in their room sleeping.
"I think that's everything." Kuni said sitting his bag on the bed.
I didn't even look at him.
He walked out of the room and headed toward the front door.
"You're really going to leave…" I said as he grabbed the doorknob.
"Anne…"
"I get that you don't love me anymore but how can you do this to the boys and Ayana?"
"She needs me Anne."
"So do they, Ayana is not even a month old Kunihiko!"
"This is something I have to do. I'm sorry." He said walking out the door.
I can't believe it, after almost 10 years he left.
I sat there on the couch and just cried.
I woke up a few hours later hearing Ayana cry.
I went into our…my…room.
I picked her up and sat on the bed to feed her.
I looked around the room and tears started to fall again.
The closet was half empty, his shoes and ties…everything was gone.
I didn't get any sleep that night.
I finally gave up and got up at 5:30, took a quick shower and started making breakfast.
I went in the boys' room and woke them up at 6:30.
"Boy's, it's time to get up." I said turning the light on.
"No, I want to stay in bed."
"I know Ethan but you both have school." I said opening their curtains. "Be up and dressed in 15, I made pancakes."
I went into the bedroom and got Ayana dressed.
The boys were dressed, fed, and ready to go when the bus arrived.
After they left I got Ayana ready and went to take her to my mothers.
"I don't know why you didn't take more time off Anne, it has not been a month yet."
"I know, but I am going to go stir crazy at home all the time."
"I'm surprised Kunihiko didn't argue with you about this." She said picking up Ayana from her car seat.
"…Yea…" I said sitting the diaper bag down.
"Is he not taking off to help with Ayana?"
"He can't, He has a major client he is trying to persuade so…"
"Anne?"
"Yea?"
"Is everything ok?"
"What do you mean?"
"You seem…sad."
"I'm fine mom really. There are bottled in the bag that need to be refrigerated and I will be back to pick her up after I pick the boys up."
"Why can't Kunihiko pick her up?"
"Mom…I can't do this now. I have to go to work. Bye." I said kissing Ayana on the head and leaving.
I managed to make it through work even with everyone saying I should still be at home.
I left early and went and grabbed some groceries before picking the boys up.
"Where is dad?"
"Yea, he usually picks us up."
"He had to work boys so I came to pick you up." I said starting the car back up.
"But he always picks us up."
"I know Ethan and I am sorry but he couldn't pick you up today okay!" I said raising my voice a little.
"…ok…"
"I'm sorry, mommy is tired. How about we go see grandma and pick up Ayana."
"We're going to go see grandma!"
"Yay!"
When we got there they boys jumped out of the car and ran inside.
"Grandma!" They both said hugging her.
"There are my two favorite boys. How was school?"
"It was cool, we went on a field trip to…"
They were telling her what they did when my cell phone rang.
"Hello?"
"Anne."
"Hi Kunihiko. I'll be right back mom." I said walking into the kitchen. "What do want?"
"You're at your mothers?"
"Yes, she watched Ayana while I was at work.
"You shouldn't be going back to work so soon Anne."
"I don't think you should be telling me what I should and shouldn't do Kunihiko. What is it you called about?"
"I was at work today and I called our lawyer."
"Lawyer?"
"Yes, I talked to him about starting the process for divorce and…"
"Divorce?"
"Anne, there is no point in staying married if we live in two different houses."
"Then move back home. They boys asked why you didn't pick them up today."
"What did you tell them?"
"That you had to work."
"I can't move back home Anne, you know that."
"Why not?"
"Because…I do not see any point of dragging this out if there is nothing left between us."
"Kunihko…"
"You know how I feel and I think this is for the best."
"…What did the lawyer say?" I asked looking down at my hands.
"He said it should be pretty simple process if we figure everything out. Like the assests, filing taxes, and custody…"
"Custody?"
"Yes, how we are going to share custody. When they will be with you and when they will be with me and Gr…"
"I won't allow you to bring them around her Kunihiko."
"Ok, I understand. But we still need to figure everything out."
"Ok."
"He can meet with us next week."
"…Next…week?"
"Yea, will that work with your schedule?"
"Yea…that will be fine."
"Good….huh…yea I will be there in a second. I have to go Anne. I'll see you next week." He said hanging up.
I sat in my mother's kitchen crying in my hands when she walked in.
"Anne, what's wrong?"
"Nothing." I said wiping the tears away.
"It's not nothing. What did Kunihiko want to talk to you about?"
"There is a lot that I have not told you mom."
"Like what?" She said sitting down next to me.
"You remember what I told you at the hospital right?"
"Yes."
"The reason Kunihiko didn't argue with me about working, or stay home with Ayana, or pick the boys up himself is because he moved out."
"What?"
"He left last night."
"You kicked him out?"
"No, I want to fix our marriage mom. Kunihiko left on his own. I tried to stop him but…"
"Why would he leave?"
"He left to be with Grace."
"What?!"
"She told him that she was pregnant and he left."
"He still shouldn't leave his family just because his mistress is pregnant."
"He fell in love with her."
"…"
"He just called me asking me to meet with a lawyer next week to start the process for divorce." I said starting to cry.
"Oh Anne."
"I don't know what I am going to tell the boys." I said crying.
My mother pulled me into her chest as I cried.