I wonder what the heck they asked the priest? Any ideas? Read on and figure out what these crazy kids had been thinking! All my love, OA.
Chapter 27: Present Touch.
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Elena, Elena, Elena. I heard my name being called and that brought me back from my memories from last night.
As I focus back on reality I can't help but smile at the beautiful man beside me. Then he just takes my breath away by smiling back at me.
"Good morning." I tell him as I watch him stretch. Just then I see that he goes completely still and his eyes widened.
"What is it Damon? What's wrong?" I start feeling nervous because I couldn't figure out what was wrong and what would put that look in his eye.
"Elena, ummm…, do you remember what happened last night, early this morning?" He asked me as he sat up on the bed and raked his fingers through his hair. God he has a great body and he had all of his back exposed to me and I could see the muscle of his arms work as he moved his fingers through his hair.
"Do you mean before or after we got drunk?" I asked him, knowing the answer but still wanting him to be more specific. I rested my head on my palm and looked at him as I realized what was bothering him.
"You clearly know that I mean after we left the club." He said as he played with the sheets. Wow I had never seen Damon this nervous. I wonder why. Was it because he thought I didn't remember? Was it because he didn't remember? Was it because he didn't know how I would react?
"Yes Damon. I remember everything." I kept my calm as he turned around suddenly. I could see that he was reading my face and my eyes, trying to see what emotions I was feeling.
Just as he was starting to get a little frustrated, very, very, very slowly I let out a small smile. I could see him immediately relax but he still wasn't completely lose.
"You do realize what happened last night?" He said as he kept his gaze locked up in mine.
"Yes I do." I said as I shifted so that I could sit up.
"And you are ok with this?' Damon asked hesitantly. I knew why he asked. It was all so sudden and impulsive.
"Yes. What I said last night was all true. I do not regret what happened last night one bit. If that makes me a bad person, then so be it. But one thing's for certain, I took your advice and I think that for once in my life I didn't do what I should have done, but did what I wanted to do." I told him as I smiled.
He still didn't look convinced but I could see that his resistance was falling.
"Really? Are you sure about this Elena? You know we are both lawyers so we can…" He started rambling but I cut him short.
"Damon" I said as I reached up and caressed his cheek. He closed his eyes and nuzzled into my touch. Then he opened his eyes and they were filled with so much hope that it was heartbreaking. "Marrying you has been the best decision that I have taken, well that and coming to Maui in the first place." I told him with all the love I could muster.
He grinned like a school boy and then in Damon fashion he said: "I told you that one day you would thank me for making you come and then spend a night having fun. I do think that you ended up getting a great adventure and, if I do say so myself, making the best decision of your life in marrying this catch of man that is Damon Salvatore." He said with fake self-absorbance.
I giggled and playfully smacked him in the stomach to which he faked being hurt. "Very funny Salvatore, keep it up and you will use all your money paying for spousal support after I leave your sorry ass broke." I said to which he place his hand over his heart.
"Have I been such a bad husband in our first few hours of marriage that you will leave me alone and broke? Oh what have I gotten myself into with this woman?" He said dramatically as he flung himself on the bed.
I laughed but then he went serious and reached his hand up to cup my cheek and that caught my attention and my breath.
"I am so in love with you. And I know that people will say many things about this relationship but I'm not gonna let someone else's idea of destiny stop me from loving you or being with you or building a future with you, because you are my life." He said and I smiled through my teary eyes. I know, I know I am acting like a hormonal teenager but who wouldn't after a night like the one I had. "I am so happy that my lioness went for the third option". He playfully teased.
"Oh just shut up and kiss me zookeeper." I told him as I lowered myself to capture his lips. I could feel him chuckle but that was quickly replaced with what I now recognized as desire. Who would have thought that Damon would ever feel desire for me. And just as quickly as it had started it stopped as I felt Damon gently push me away.
I should have had a very confused look cause Damon looked at me with regret and very gently caressed my hair away from my face.
"Elena, I have to ask you something, and please don't get mad at me for asking." He said as he softly caressed my hands.
"What is it Damon?" I was trying really, really hard to concentrate on his words since his touch was making it hard to think.
"You know that you have some difficulty with touch. I just wanted to know if last night, I um, hurt you in any way or if you felt pressured or obligated. Either way I am sorry." He said with his eyes looking downwards. His hands had also dropped mine and where lying lifeless beside him.
I bent down so that I could catch his eyes and, because he was avoiding me, I took both of my hands and cupped his face while gently nudging it to look towards my direction.
"Damon, I in no way, shape or form, felt obligated nor pressured to make love to you. Honestly you could have not been any sweeter if you tried. You know how many times you asked me if that was what I wanted before we even started? Five times and you kept asking if I was ok during the entire thing. I am fine, actually more than fine because I know that I am safe with you and that you will never hurt me. You yourself said that if I needed space it was ok with you and if I needed to wait it was fine. You told me that if I decided that I was to never do it, it was perfectly acceptable since you only wanted to be in my life. Damon no man would do that and yet you did it because you put me first." I pause to catch my breath and try to get my thoughts together so that I convey my message to Damon. "You know, a day like today 12 years ago, you came into my life. Even when I pushed you away, you kept coming back because you were preoccupied of this stranger and your heart told you that I was in trouble and needed help. And I did. That day was the start of a new beginning for me. You became the light in the end of the tunnel to which I directed my life, you became the best part of my day, the breath of fresh air that I needed to survive and the first and last thought in my mind each minute. You saw me when I didn't want anyone to see me, my dark side, my worst side and you didn't run, in fact the complete opposite, you believed in me when I wasn't able to believe in myself. I can honestly say that I would not have the life that I have right now and I wouldn't be standing here if it wasn't for you. I love you and I knew what I was getting into when I decided that I wanted to make love to you last night and I am happy that it happened and especially that it was with you. I…" I was in my monologue when I was cut short by his lips crashing into mine.
After a little while we had to pull apart to breathe.
"Hun, I have loved you since we were children. I could picture myself someday pulling a veil over your face and saying "I do". I know that it sounds creepy since I was older than you but at first I thought that it was just brotherly love and that it was different that what I felt for Caroline because you were my sister by choice not blood and because of your past I felt that I needed to protect you more. But as you grew up and became the woman that you are today I noticed that it was more than brotherly feelings, that for me, you were the one. I should have told you before but I always thought that it wasn't the right time or that you weren't ready and then Klaus came and the whole thing with him and I thought that I would prefer to be your brother for the rest of our lives than lose you forever. You have become my life and the thought of not having you in it is one I can't even bear to think. I would be lost without you as you are the compass of my all. You are my present, my future, my always and forever. I love you with all of my heart, mind and soul and I will continue to love you until I take my last breath and even beyond that, in the many lives that will come next. I know that lives aren't perfect and lives aren't fairytales, but I promise you that I will love you for all time and I will work with you to overcome any and all obstacles that life may throw at us. " He confessed.
I smiled with tears of happiness in my eyes as I said. "I felt the same way Damon. I knew that you had to be special since you were and still are the only person in the world that can so freely touch me and make me feel safe. You are the only person that knows me, all of me and loves the way I really am. It took me the almost marriage with Klaus to be able to really let myself acknowledge what I had always repressed, that I have loved you since you first moved to the house in front of me. That I fell in love with the boy that was so tender and loving to me even though he was the most popular guy in school and I was the nerd. That I fell in love with the man that with only one word could make any crisis I was going through become just a stupid problem that could be dealt with in a second." I confessed to him.
"I love you more than my own life. I would do anything for you hun." He said and I could see so much love in his eyes.
"I know. And I hope that you know that I love you and I would give up everything and even my life for you." I told him.
"I know." He said before he pulled me back down to him and all talk and confessions was transformed into kisses and caresses of love.