I want to say thankyou to MutteringsofMadness for the review and the advice, I hope this is enough family love for you!
Fili
His voice is deep and soft, as he sings about his woe,
Tales of home and family, that I will never know,
He stares towards the mountains, and roaming plains wide,
And I know that in his heart, with defeat he lost his pride,
Sometimes when the lights are dim, and he thinks he's on his own,
He speaks to his lost brother, of how he feels alone,
And I want to console him, and let him know I'm here,
But often I feel that it's of no use, he has lost all he held dear.
At night in dreams he cries, and manages to fret,
For Frerin's death he blames himself, his past full of regret,
And my brother wakes in fear, that Uncle won't be alright,
That the monsters in his dreams, will come for him one night,
And when the fright is over, and his panicked screams cease,
You hear his heavy footsteps, and for a moment there is peace,
Until he comes to find us both awakened in our beds,
imagining the things he's seen fills us both with dread.
He comes to see the two of us knowing we were woken,
Standing in the doorway, his body hunched and broken,
He stares at us with tired eyes, shallow, black and vague,
The terrors that he faces are like an endless plague,
And yet he manages a smile and my heart skips a beat,
For I know that his false expression is no mere feat,
He pulls my brother closer, and I stare at his arms scarred,
And this is when he tells us "boys you need to keep your guard."
"The world is full of dangers that some men don't believe,
and there is no place in this life for one to be naïve,
You need your wit, ferocious strength and courageous heart,
a determined mind with goals in sight, don't forget your smarts,
but don't be blind or fail to see that family matters most,
nothing should change a brothers love, not even the kings post"
It is then his icy stare finds its way into your soul,
And I know that's it's his love for us, that keeps our family whole.
Thorin has loved and he has lost, but most of all he led,
All those who follow him with faith, know that he has bled,
Paid with lives of those he loved so that others might be spared,
And that is show of the heart he has, one that really cares,
He runs his hand through my hair and holds me at arm's length,
And the expression on his face reveals, what he says next requires strength,
"Fili lad you have your fathers hair, and his joyous grin,
I could try to tell tales of him, but don't know how to begin"
He then releases me from grip, as if about to cry,
"There are people that you will meet in life, that don't deserve to die,
You would do anything within your power if you could see them live,
My life in trade for you fathers, I would without thought give"
I see the sadness in his eyes, now my love for him must show,
"But Thorin you're the only father that we really know,
You've shown us what it means to lead and what it means to care,
and life without you? Honestly… the thought I cannot bear"
Its then his smile changes and its real and full of life,
"I never did have children, and had no time for a wife,
And yet my sisters sons I have raised you as my own,
there will be a day when you see our kingdoms throne,
I would make a promise but it's something I can't keep,
And so for now I think it's time you both returned to sleep,
Dream of stars and the moon, remember nothings out of reach,
But that is still a lesson, that I still have yet to teach"