Yô minna (-o-)/ sorry for the slow update as usual ;v;

Anyways, I'll warn you now so pay attention: my beta won't be able to correct my next chapters for a few reasons, (but we have 3 more only so daijoubu) so this is NOT beta'ed; which means~ mistakes ahead :V !

Also one more important thing: I divided the chapter in two because the whole stuff had more than 9,000 words OvO yeah so… yeah xD so I will update in a few days the rest of the chap :3 (get ready for more drama xV haha it was painful to write the chap pwp)

And one last thing: I messed up things a little bit with the comparison of the song and Masa~nyan's feelings in the beginning, but hopefully you will understand what I want to portray with it x)

Now, enjoy! ;3

Chapter XXXII

Masato pressed down the white keys of his piano, and so the last notes of the song he had been playing sounded in the garage for the last time. He took a deep breath and moved to a more comfortable sitting position. His dark blue eyes remained softly closed as he re-played in his mind each one of those notes; the notes he had chosen to confess his deepest feelings towards Jinguji. With another deep breath, Masato opened his eyes slowly and his orbs were automatically directed to the same musical notes and he couldn't stop the warm smile that was starting to form in his lips. He placed his hands on his lap softly, and at the same time his dark blue eyes ran the musical paper, this time looking at each one of the letters that formed the name of the peaceful and sweet song.

"Canon" by Pachelbel; a slow waltz that increased its rhythm bit by bit, ever so slightly, always keeping its sweet, kind and romantic aura at its own peaceful pace. Masato hadn't needed to think about which song he would play to confess to Jinguji at all. Once the blue haired teen had decided to use his piano as a way to transmit his feelings to the blond, that song had come to his mind automatically. Honestly, Masato couldn't have chosen a better song to confess. "Canon" was the perfect song to let Jinguji Ren know how loved by Masato he was. "Canon" was the perfect song to describe, in a simple and tranquil way, the way Masato had come to love the blond to such an extent. Masato only hoped that Jinguji could understand the meaning behind each one of 'Canon's' musical notes played by him. He wanted, so much, to make Jinguji understand that he had disliked and judged him before, without knowing his true self, but in a way the blue haired teen had always expected more from him, just like the soft and warm melody of "Canon"; when people heard the first pleasant notes of the song they always expected more from it... A sudden change in the melody; or increase of the rhythm... Anything else, but more; always more. However, the rhythm and the melody never changed. They remained slow and peaceful, increasing always at their own pace, second after second and note after note, becoming more and more sweet and romantic just like Masato's feelings for Jinguji had increased and changed day after day until they had become something special, important and irreplaceable to him.

Masato swallowed hard, and let out one more deep breath. He had to calm down. He already knew that despite Jinguji's reaction things would change between them. But he couldn't help it. The pressure of the moment, and the nervousness possessing his entire body were more than enough to paralyze him. He was so afraid but he wanted to know Jinguji's answer; positive or negative, Masato needed more than anything to know how the blond felt about his confession.

"I-I'm ready. I cannot simply run away now. Be a man Hijirikawa Masato!" His fingers squeezed his black pants, and very slowly, the blue haired male turned around with two blue orbs anxiously looking for Jinguji's; and they found them right away. The blond was looking at him wide-eyed but intensely enough to make him shiver and flush. Masato's heartbeat fastened and he was forced to look away and deep breath again and again to try to calm himself. But it seemed impossible.

"H-He... He understood. He knows. I... finally did it." Masato's body trembled wildly as he witnessed, still in shock, what he had achieved after so long. Everything he wanted to know now was Jinguji's answer, and so, Masato looked at the blond one more time, yet different from before Masato faced him determined without showing him any weakness. He was ready to know Jinguji's answer.

Ren was facing the blue haired male astonished. He was still lost in Hijirikawa's world. It had passed such a long time since the last time he had been able to enter inside it and enjoyed his piano... He had forgotten how easily Hijirikawa's piano could drag him into it. But, this time, Ren felt that something was different. He felt it since the blue haired male had played the first notes of the song. Something about the way that his thin and long fingers had touched and pressed down the white keys of his piano, making them sound more pleasantly than ever, was different. With each pressed key; with each musical note played, Ren had felt Hijirikawa's feelings flowing through his entire being stronger than ever. His heartbeat had fastened so much, to the point of taking his breath away.

The blond swallowed hard, feeling his throat dry. Hijirikawa had tried to communicate with someone through that song. That much Ren had been able to understand. Ren had also understood Hijirikawa's strong feelings; as he had felt them as if they belonged to him; he could easily say what each feeling meant. However, what he was unable to understand were Hijirikawa's intentions. Why had he played that song in such a passionate way? Towards who were those feelings directed? Ren's lips quivered, as he stole a sideways glance at Otoya; for moments he thought that Hijirikawa's feelings were directed to his red haired friend, but by the way he was calmly reacting while looking and smiling at the blue haired male Ren understood that Otoya had felt Hijirikawa's song in a very different way than him. He felt strangely relieved, but at the moment he couldn't think about that. He just wanted to know why he had been the one feeling that song in such a way. Why had that song messed up with him in such a wild way? Why was he so agitated?

His light blue eyes were impossibly widened with his sudden thought.

"I-It can't be!" His body was slightly trembling and his eyes looked to the blue haired pianist in expectation. Their blue eyes met and Ren's heart stopped beating for a split second. He was clearly forced to look away and avoid any type of eye contact.

"It just... It's not possible." He concluded while he tried to calm down.

"So..." Ren started trying to disguise his agitated side, standing up from the chair where he had been sitting at a corner of the large garage. "It has been a long time since I last heard your piano."

Masato felt his body trembling more and fiercely with each word uttered by the blond.

"And..." The blond continued, pausing for a moment which tormented the blue haired teen even more. "Why did you play it so suddenly?"

To Masato the entire world stopped with Jinguji's words. He didn't feel nervous anymore; nor afraid nor anxious... It was as if Jinguji's words had erased each one of his feelings completely. Masato felt empty.

The blue haired teen stared at the shocked redhead who was still sitting on his chair placed next to Jinguji's. Masato was communicating with Otoya through their stares, and the redhead understood him well enough but he didn't know what he should do at this moment. He was too surprised. Otoya wasn't expecting the blond's words at all.

Masato realized that Otoya was probably feeling frustrated and so he decided to not bother him with his own problems anymore. He had dragged enough people into them already.

"I understand your answer Jinguji." He thought finally giving up.

"I missed my piano." Masato decided to reply.

"Just that?" Ren asked surprising the blue haired male, who faced him with a little bit of hope. But he quickly forgot about it because, what should he hope for anyways?

"Yes, just that."

"Ah, Masa-" Otoya tried to butt in the conversation yet Masato's gaze forced him to backtrack.

"What?" Ren inquired directing his stare at the redhead, but the blue haired teen prevented him in time.

"Nothing. Otoya just wanted to remind me that he has things to do and so we have to go Jinguji."

"Oh... Sure." Ren muttered heading to the door.

"Then Otoya, thank you very much for letting me come here for this while. I'll see you at school." Masato was more than ready to follow the blond when he felt a tight grasp on his arm.

"Masato why did you lie?" Otoya asked irritated and letting Masato perceive it.

"Because Jinguji understood the meaning behind the song I played. But he decided to avoid it. And I don't feel the need to tell him anything anymore; at least about this. Thank you so much for helping me until now Otoya." Masato was able to break free from the redhead's grasp and so he finished, "See you." He finally followed the blond and left Otoya's garage. He was really thankful to Otoya. But Masato had had enough already. He understood with Jinguji's answer that the blond would never return his feelings. He already knew that this would happen and he had prepared himself for this. Of course he knew it would be too hard to bear the pain, but now that he had finally let the blond know about his real feelings he felt relieved; in a way. That was more than enough. As long as he could remain by Jinguji's side, it was more than enough. Only seeing him and hearing his voice was enough to satisfy the blue haired teen. Masato wouldn't ask for anything else anymore.

And so two weeks passed and Masato began to forget a bit his painful love confession; although he was avoiding the blond and said male was not happy at all with his behavior.

Jinguji's arms were seductively wrapped around his waist and his mouth was eagerly running Masato's warm flesh on his neck, but different from before the blue haired teen couldn't feel comfortable with such actions anymore.

"Jin... Jinguji I have to..." The blond's teeth bit his soft skin forcing him to pause. "Nnh-"

"Hijirikawa, let's enjoy time in a different way..." Ren whispered in said male's ear.

Masato shivered feeling too tempted however he remembered, once again, about his love confession and couldn't help but yell at the blond as he pushed him away harshly, "Ah enough already! Can't you see that I'm trying to study? In a few weeks we have the final exams and different from you I want to study and I want to pass each one of them with good scores! Is sex the only thing your brain can think about? If you're so desperate just go look for one of your girls and leave me alone!"

Ren looked at him completely astonished unable to react. Hijirikawa's words played in his head again and again and the more he heard them, the less he could believe in what the blue haired teen had said.

The blond grabbed his arm roughly feeling rage boil inside his body. "Hijirikawa you..." Ren could not believe that Hijirikawa was telling him openly and loud enough to break their promise. "You are..." But before the blond could utter anything else, Masato's cell phone rang saving him from Jinguji's words.

"Excuse me, but I really have to answer this call." Masato said rushing out of the room amazed with his own words and with Jinguji's reaction to them. While yelling them Masato hadn't realized what he had said, however as soon as he they left his mouth, he had been aware of them. But of course, it was too late to take them back.

Masato took a deep breath and tried to ignore his shock as much as it was possible, as he answered finally his phone.

"Nana-san, good evening."

"Hi. Sorry to call you so suddenly but I-"

"There's no need to apologize. We are friends after all, so we can call each other whenever we want." Masato said gently, leaving the girl at the other end of the call completely frustrated. Damn boy and his damn kindness. Why did he have to be like this?

"And I was supposed to hate him. Tsk" The brunette thought squeezing her cell phone against her ear. "How will I tell him this now? I'm pretty sure that he will get depressed. AH! I don't care anymore! I'm also suffering here, and half of it it's his fault."

"L-Listen I… I…" Nana hesitated, squeezing her green eyes shut as a way to avoid her nervousness; her sadness but especially as a way to prevent Masato from hearing the news that she knew it would hurt him. Yet, he had been the one asking for them right? He had been the one whom had begged her to do such a thing. It wasn't her fault if he would suffer with them. It were his own choices, so of course he should be the one to bear with all the sadness. But Nana couldn't help it. She was suffering as well. And it was everything because of that stupid innocent boy.

"Nana-san?" He waited but the brunette kept silent. He was getting worried at this point. She wasn't like this. He didn't know her too well, but from the little time he had talked with her honestly, he had understood that she was someone straightforward, determined, honest… What could possibly be happening with her?

"Did something- Eh…?" He listened to, finally, Nana's voice telling him what he had been expecting to hear. His heart stopped beating for a brief moment. Honestly, Masato did not know how he felt. He knew, indeed, that sooner or later he would listen to something like that, but he thought he would have a different reaction. But instead, he felt… empty.

"Oi, Masato?" Nana tried but everything she received back was the soft sound of Masato's breath. "Oi, are you there-"

"I see." The blue haired teen muttered softly. "So, tomorrow huh… Thank you for telling me, Nana-san. Above all, thank you so much for helping me. I'm really thankful to you. Then, I'll see you tomorrow at school. Bye."

"Eh? W-Wait! Masa-" The blue haired teen didn't wait for the girl's words. He was on the verge of tears, and he didn't know if he would be able to restrain them anymore. But he didn't want Nana to know that he would cry; though she would definitely think that by the rushed way he had acted on the phone.

"I can't." Masato muttered softly but determined. He wanted to cry; he could feel his tears gather in the corner of his eyes. Yet, he wouldn't cry. Not yet.

"So, who was it?" Ren asked lightly annoyed as the other boy entered in the living room one more time. He knew that like everyone else Hijirikawa had a cell phone; hell it was normal! It would be strange if he hadn't one. However, the blond had rarely seen the blue haired male using his phone. Yet, today, unexpectedly, Hijirikawa had received a call. And the worst of it all was that he had left the room to answer his phone in private, and he hadn't even told Ren who the hell it was!

"Could it be the imbecile of his cousin?" The blond asked himself as he observed the blue haired boy carefully. "No; if it had been that idiot he'd have announced it. Then, who...? Hum... Maybe Syo? Or Otoya?" Ren pondered to himself getting more and more frustrated and annoyed second after second.

Masato looked at the blond and felt the emptiness inside him being replaced by a sharp pain.

"Control yourself Hijirikawa Masato."

"Hijirikawa, I asked you a question. Who was it?"

"Why should I tell you, Jinguji?"

With that answer, Ren exploded. He stepped towards the blue haired boy and cornered him against the door and himself. His angry state could be easily perceived by Hijirikawa but he couldn't care less about it. He was annoyed and he wanted the other boy to know it.

"You've been avoiding me for the past two weeks. It's either because you're tired, or because you have to study but you've been practically avoiding my existence. You talk to me only because you're educated enough to do it. And I, Hijirikawa, I am getting more and more angry. And I have my limit you know?"

Masato felt an intense cold shiver run up his spine. However, he wouldn't show Jinguji any more weaknesses.

"And what will you do once you reach your limit?" He knew he shouldn't say such a thing. He knew he was being unfair because everything the blond had said was the pure truth, but Masato couldn't hold it back anymore. "Will you rape me?"

The blond's shock shocked him back and Masato was forced to avoid his stare.

"I went too far." The blue haired teen though letting out a sigh. "You're imagining things Jinguji."

Instead of feeling angry, Ren felt sad, disappointed and hurt. Even though Hijirikawa denied it, he knew that he had been avoided this whole time. Being avoided by Hijirikawa pained him too much and strangely. But what pained him the most at the moment were Hijirikawa's words. He couldn't believe that after all this time, the blue haired teen could even dare to think that Ren would ever hurt him like that. Hijirikawa was different. Ren felt like they were getting more and more distanced from each other day by day. Maybe he was being replaced. Had that call from before have something to do with it?

The blond leaned his head to the blue haired boy's shoulder, supporting his forehead softly against it. He didn't feel strong enough to face Hijirikawa while asking what he intended.

"Hijirikawa, who was it on the phone?" This time he made sure to use a soft and calm tone of voice. He didn't want to hear more offensive words from Hijirikawa's mouth.

"Eh? Again with that? Why do you want to know so much?" Masato asked feeling irritated with the blond's insistence.

"Shit! And I wanted to be calm." Ren thought trying to control himself but in vain. "Tsk, to the hell with it!"

Ren faced the blue haired teen once again leaning his face to his, their noses practically brushing against each other.

The blue haired teen startled, suddenly static before the blond's intense gaze. He didn't know what to do, so he remained quiet waiting for the blond to speak.

"Fine, okay I will tell you. I'm jealous okay? I'm jealous of whoever talked with you over the phone, but not just that..." Ren wrapped the other teen's waist with one of his arms, pulling him closer, while his other hand remained supported against the door of the living room possessively cutting any possible route of escape.

Masato's hands were instinctively supported against Jinguji's chest, trying to distance him a bit from himself. The blue haired teen's eyes were widened in surprise and he could feel countless shivers travelling up and down his spine. But strangely, Masato was not afraid. Despite of what he had said before, Masato knew that Jinguji would never hurt him in any way. Those words had left his mouth before he could even think well about them. They were words that had been uttered in the heat of the moment. Masato didn't feel them.

"J-Jin-"

"I'm jealous of whoever gets close to you. I'm jealous of whomever talks to you or to whomever you look and smile at. I can't take it. I just can't ignore it. I'm jealous of everything and anything that touches you. You are mine Hijirikawa. Mine and only mine."

Jinguji's words took Masato's breathe away and the blue haired boy felt his heart stop beating for a split second and then its beats fastened more and more to the point of being painful. The blue haired teen was shocked unable to think, to talk, to move... Masato was unable to stand straight even; his whole body was trembling so fiercely that if he wasn't being supported by the blond, he believed that he had fallen to the floor already. Even though Masato knew that he shouldn't be hopeful, the way Jinguji had said those words; so deeply and so intensely, Masato couldn't help it. He had intended to give up... No, he had given up already but right now he felt like everything was possible. Jinguji, like always, stole his heart in the easiest way possible.

Masato's fingers clutched the blond's clothes tightly, unwittingly pulling him down and closer. He just felt the urge to have him closer, to feel him and to be touched so gently and so intensely by Jinguji. Masato wanted him so much at the moment that he wasn't able to control his impulses anymore. He wanted to feel Jinguji's hands caressing him like they had done so many times before; he wanted to hear his deep and seductive voice whispering in his ear bold and possessive words about him. Masato wanted to feel Jinguji's mouth warmly pressed against his; he wanted to feel Jinguji's tongue trying to find its way between his lips to be able to caress his in an addictive way. Masato wanted to feel Jinguji's mouth marking his entire body, over and over again, with countless kiss marks. Masato just wanted Jinguji so bad that when he realized he was already hard and tightly pressing his body against the blond's.

Ren's eyes widened with the blue haired teen's reaction, but he didn't resist and leaned his body against Hijirikawa's. His face was more lowered to the other's and once again, before kissing him, Ren whispered, "You are mine and only mine Hijirikawa."

Masato let out a high pitched gasp that was quickly muffled by the blond's mouth. Jinguji's teeth bit and sucked his upper lip softly, earning from him a low moan followed by a whimper. The blue haired teen wrapped Jinguji's neck between his arms; his long fingers were quickly entangled between soft locks of hair. Masato was eagerly pulling him down; closer and the blond deepened the kiss by introducing his tongue inside his desperate mouth. Masato moaned in the kiss once Jinguji's tongue collided against his. The aroused male had goose bumps and shuddered against the blond's body. He felt butterflies appearing in his stomach once the blond grabbed him by the waist with both hands, pressing him hard against the door and kissing him hungrily and viciously. Masato couldn't suppress his moans and whimpers. He could feel his breath be sucked by the kiss, but he didn't want to break it. Yet, in each passing second it was getting harder and harder to breathe.

As if understanding the blue haired male, Ren broke the kiss separating their lips lightly.

Masato gasped and panted with difficulty. Jinguji's half-opened mouth was still pressed against his trying to recover all the lost air just like him.

They stared at each other through their half lidded blue eyes. Hijirikawa did not remove his arms from the blond's neck and Jinguji did not remove his hands from the blue haired teen's waist.

Ren observed carefully the erotic visage of the other teen and unable to control himself, he moved his mouth to his exposed collarbone sucking and biting on his pale skin.

Masato moaned sweetly, grasping Jinguji's soft strands of hair tightly enough to make the blond wince and, as a consequence, bit harder on his flesh. Masato moaned and whimpered louder, unable to suppress his voice but not caring about it. Unwittingly the blue haired male thrust his hips forward, creating a delicious friction on his hard length as it collided against Jinguji's.

"Aah s-shit… Hijirikawa!" Ren groaned quickly moving his face to the blue haired male's and joining their foreheads together.

Masato flushed deeply as he witnessed what he had just done, and truly ashamed he shut his eyes tightly.

"Open your eyes, Hijirikawa." Ren panted expecting the blue haired boy to obey him. However, Hijirikawa simply nodded negatively.

"Open them, Hijirikawa." The blond demanded receiving the same answer from the other teen. Ren noticed, though, the darker flush on his cheeks; ears and neck. He found Hijirikawa completely adorable and so appetizing that he didn't know if he would be able to restrain himself for longer.

Not receiving another reaction from Hijirikawa, Ren moved his hands downwards, taking a deep silent breath before grasping the blue haired boy's buttocks and pulling his hips forward as he thrust his deliciously against the blue haired male's, earning from him a sweet and intense groan. Of course Ren controlled his voice, hardly but he did it. However he wouldn't stop there; Ren slid his hard on, over and over again, over Hijirikawa's transforming the vicious friction into something unbearably good.

Masato moaned again and again, pulling on the blond's hair and moving his hips along with him without being aware of it.

"H-Hiji…rikawa… open your eyes or I won't stop."

"Aah-nnh… N-No."

Ren chuckled and panting he teased, "'No' what? 'No don't stop' or 'No I won't open my eyes'?"

"Aanh~"

"So shameless, aren't we?" Ren stopped all his movements over the other teen's body, and distanced himself from Hijirikawa lightly. The blue haired male opened his dark blue eyes right away and stared at Ren frustrated. "You're so perverted Hijirikawa."

Masato's eyes widened and feeling too embarrassed to face the blond, the blue haired male looked away.

Ren snickered satisfied with the adorable and tempting reaction. He leaned his mouth to the other teen's ear that was now facing him, and licked its earlobe softly before sucking it roughly. The blond felt Hijirikawa trembling languidly and whispered seductively in the abused ear, "You're so perverted Hijirikawa." He received a lustful moan from said male's mouth.

"Né, will you look at me, Hijirikawa?" Ren purred in his ear once more, hearing from the other teen's mouth one more erotic moan. So, he tried again; this time more erotically, "Hijirikawa, look at me."

Masato's fingers twitched against Jinguji's hair while he listened to his seductive tone of voice. He tried to resist, harder than before, but it was impossible at this point. Masato was embarrassed, but he wanted Jinguji to touch him so much that he didn't care about his embarrassment anymore. So, the blue haired teen looked, very slowly, towards the blond with half lidded eyes.

Ren swallowed hard before Hijirikawa's erotic reaction, and moved his mouth against the blue haired teen's pressing them together once again and whispering the same words that had aroused Hijirikawa so much and in so little time.

"Hijirikawa, you are mine and only mine."

Masato groaned strongly being hungrily kissed by the blond. He knew that Jinguji would respect him but still drive him crazy the rest of the day, throughout the night, but Masato was more than ready to accept and enjoy as much as he was allowed each one of Jinguji's caresses; kisses; whispers and addictive tortures.

I'm sure that you all know the damn song xD it's a song usually played on weddings *3* it's so beautiful I love it x3

Anyways, thank you so much for reviews, favs and follows and OMG SO MANY QWQ I can't believe it! I never thought this would be possible! I'm really happy that you enjoy this so much pwp!

Jaa, bye~bye ヽ(*'､^*)chuu*

PS:. Sorry about the smexy part pwp I got a tiny bit carried away ~/v/~