WARNINGGGG! This chapter contains explicit language and some triggering themes... READ AT YOUR OWN RISK! (k bye... :))


Okay so what if we had one argument over text? It was just one argument, we can forget about it right? But it was a pretty serious one too. Shit, oh god I don't know what to do.

"Are you okay there Elsa?" A voice interrupted my thoughts. For a minute there I forgot where I was, but then the walls of the study hostile came into my vision, and I was sitting next to Hans.

"Oh, yeah. I'm okay, why do you ask?" I replied.

"You lost focus and were mumbling to yourself... again." He answered as he started to pack up his things.

"Sorry. It's just thing have been crazy lately." I apologized as I checked the time. I still had 20 minutes until I had to meet with Hiccup.

"You know you can talk t me right? I've been known to be quite the listener." He smirked as he started shoving books into his bag without an ounce of organization.

"I've vented to you too many times. I'll feel awful if I do it again."

"From what you've been telling me Elsa, it's not venting." He laughed. "It's okay, you can tell me." I opened my mouth to speak, but then closed it remembering why I was upset.

"I didn't think that' a good idea, maybe when I'm ready I'll take up your offer." I smiled. He gave me a quick smile before nodding and standing up.

"Well, I'll be here if you ever need to talk. I'll see you next time I guess."

"Okay, sounds good." I said to him before he walked out.

It's good to know that he's always here to talk when I need to. I know I can talk to my sister, but sometimes I need a 'person who isn't related to me's point of view. So if you want to know if I've been speaking to him about Jack, then yes I have.

I walked out of the hostile and went to the lot to get in my car. I had just the right amount of time to get to Hiccup's so we could do our paper, but I got a knot in my stomach thinking about seeing Jack there. Should I text him, or just let fate do it's job and just go.

Screw it I'm texting him. I fished my phone from me bag and turned it on.

'I'm going to be at your place with Hiccup. We can talk when you come.'

I sent the text and put my phone back in my bag. I didn't want any distractions from him until I actually see him. I sat in my car still on the side of the road where I dropped off my sister to see her boyfriend for the day. I didn't really want to move at all, but I knew I had to get my assignment done with Hiccup since he wanted to finish up too. I just couldn't stop thinking about Jack though.

I knew I loved him and yeah I've said it before, but I can't recall ever saying it to him again... or him even saying it back to me. Maybe when I said it that time in the park, I didn't really know what I was saying? No that's bullshit; I meant what I had said tom him that night...but what kept me from saying it again to him after that?

Before I knew it, I had nearly passed Hiccup's apartment. I didn't even realize I had started driving... maybe this is a sign that I should seriously speak with Jack because I am clearly losing my mind. I got out of the car and just made my way into the apartment. I knocked on the door and not even two minutes later, a very happy... and sweaty Astrid opened the door.

"Hey Elsa!" She panted/smiled as she tried to fix her shirt.

"Hey... am I interrupting anything?" I said trying not to blush as my imaginations began to run wild.

"What are you talking about?" She questioned.

"Were you two... um...?" I think she got the point because that's when she laughed at me.

"Hic! Elsa's here! She thinks we were doing it!" She yelled as she opened the door to let me in. When I walked through the door, I saw that the TV was on and Just Dance was on the screen. Hiccup was still trying to catch his breath when he saw me.

"Hey Elsa." He practically wheezed. "Sorry, one game ended up being ten, then we started the just sweat program, which then ended up to a competition of who could get the most points."

"I get it, Anna and I used to play that at home." I assured him as I put my bag on the couch. Astrid shut off the TV and the X-Box while Hiccup went to his room to get his research.

"Do you want me to go away or can I stay with you guys?" Astrid asked as she sat down on the couch.

"It doesn't matter, we're just trying to finish up this paper." I said just as Hiccup started to put his things down on the coffee table. When I took my books out and started flipping to the pages I had saved, I caught Astrid giving me a funny look.

"What?" I asked when I looked up at her.

"Nothing, it's just weird that you haven't said hi to Jack yet since you got here." She explained. "Are you two okay?"

"Jack's here? I didn't even know that." I questioned.

"Yeah he's here, he's in his room getting ready for the day. I figured it was to hang out with you, or something." She looked up at me. I didn't even realize I was standing until Hiccup stood beside me and put his hand on my shoulder.

"Go on, I'll be here." He encouraged me.

"Thanks Hic." I walked away from them and made my way to Jack's room. If he really is here, then why didn't he-? Okay now you're sounding like the clingy girlfriend you didn't want to be. I knocked on his door and sure enough there was some rustling going on behind it proving that he was in there. However he didn't open the door to greet me, he just opened the door and walked away so I could walk right in.

"Hey." I greeted as soon as I shut the door. Jack was still getting ready for wherever he had to go, but he didn't face me for his greeting.

"Hey." He practically murmured as he started shoving his wallet and keys into his pockets.

"I didn't even know you were here. If you did then I would have planned it-"

"It's okay. I'm just heading out anyway, when income back we can have the talk." He said finally facing me but he looked pained as he looked at me.

"Okay." I nodded. "Are you going to be long?"

"Maybe. I have to talk to a few friends about some stuff. We'll see when I get back."

"How will you know if I'll be ere when you get back?"

"I don't." He said walking towards me. My heart started to race the closer he got to me, but my disappointment fell over when he walked right past me to open the door. He just walked right out and left me standing alone in his room. I couldn't help but think about what the hell just happened, but after a few seconds of thinking I finally said the words I wanted to say to him again.

"I love you…"

**********Jack's POV********

I wasn't lying to Elsa when I said I would be out talking to a few friends… But that isn't the whole truth either. Last time I hung out with them, I got shitfaced drunk and everyone else was so messed up they couldn't tell which way was up. Truthfully I'm not sure how fucked up tonight will be; I don't know if we're just going to be chilling at someone's dorm or fucking around the neighbourhood like last time. I know it's a shitty thing to do with anybody, I don't even know why I still put up with this bullshit.

"Jack!" I heard Hans call my name the minute I parped the car. I looked over to his usual parking spot; there he was with Pitch and Drago... the guys who invited me to see them tonight.

"Hey." I greeted as I walked up to them. They had a few six packs on them, probably signing that we were staying in tonight... thank god.

"Come on. Goth's waiting for us inside." Hans said as he pretty much led us inside the dorm building.

"Are you two still going at it?" Pitch teased. "You know it's a lost cause man."

"It's just a fuck deal, nothing emotional." He assured us as he took out his keys to unlock the door.

God I hate this dorm. It always reeks of either booze, weed or sweat, the walls are pretty much crumbling apart, and I don't even want to know what's happening to the plumbing lately. I got lucky with Hiccup's apartment. I saw his ad for finding a roommate, and I thought 'yeah anything is better than living with these dickheads.'

"Finally you guys made it." Goth's voice chirped once we walked in. Behind her 'Du was laying on the couch, probably high out of his mind.

"We were grabbing a few, don't worry." Hans tried to comfort her as he started passing around cans of beer. I got one but didn't open it like everyone else.

"Is there anything going down tonight?" Drago asked.

"Nah, it's a fucking Sunday, of course there's nothing going on." Pitch reminded everyone.

"It's still the weekend, why don't we make something go on?" Goth suggested.

"What? A gangbang?" Hans smirked resulting in him getting a beer can to the face. Although I'm not very fond of Goth and I don't really give a shit about her getting around, I have to applaud her for defending herself like that.

"Okay jeez I was just kidding."

"Fuck off." She hissed as she sat down beside the coffee table. "Let's just do some lines or some shit like that."

"I'll go get my stash." Pitch announced as he got up to go to his room. "Who's getting fucked up tonight?" Everyone raised their hands or gave some sort of response except me.

"Okay Jack, what's wrong with you?" Drago interrogated.

"Don't fucking worry about it." I responded too quickly. "I just don't feel like being high tonight."

"Fine, but if you're not gonna do this shit, then you gotta at least drink something stronger." Drago insisted as he took my unopened beer can from me.

"No. I'm driving tonight."

"Relax. If you get smashed then I'll drive you home or some shit." Drago insisted. He didn't break his gaze from me, adding more pressure to my answer.

"Fine, shit." I sighed. He put the beer on the table and went to the kitchen to get either vodka or whiskey. Pitch came back holding bags full of drugs.

"Who's ready for this?!" He announced. This was going to be a long night...

********** Elsa's POV*******

"Okay so what exactly did Skinner conclude?" Hiccup asked as he flipped through his notes.

"That through giving rewards and punishments, one is able to train any living organism to do as they please." I summarized. "He went through some extreme lengths to prove it though."

"No, Zimbardo went to the extreme with the prison experiment." He countered.

"And that's my cue to make a sandwich because I have no idea what you two are talking about." Astrid sighed as she got off the couch. "You two realize that you've been fighting over psychologists for the past two and a half hours right?"

"We have?" Hiccup checked his phone. "Oh... yeah. And we've barely started our paper." I dropped my pencils and took a moment to stretch. This assignment should have been done hours ago, but knowing that the both of us just weren't on our game today really means it won't be done for several more.

"Take a break guys." Astrid practically demanded. "You two have been working really hard."

"Good idea. Do you want anything?" Hiccup asked me.

"No, I'm okay." I sighed as I got my phone out from my bag. "Why?"

"Debating on if I should make food or order in." He explained.

"Screw ordering, let's just make food babe." Astrid said as she gobbled down half of her sandwich.

"But ordering food means no work." He countered as he took a bite off her sandwich.

"Fine... pizza?" She suggested.

"I'm in if you're doing that." I chimed.

"Any topping requests?" Astrid asked.

"Whatever you guys get is okay." I said as i put everything back down on the coffee table so I could stretch. When I heard Astrid hang up the phone from the pizza place, I opened my phone and immediately I felt a vibration in my hand. And then another. And then another. Someone was calling me.

"Hello?" I answered without looking at the caller ID.

"Where are you?" Jack's voice demanded. I heard a door slam, meaning he was getting in the car.

"You're dorm working on a paper with Hiccup... just like I was when you left. Why?" I answered with much confusion in his voice.

"Stay there." He spat before he hung up on me... Okay.

"Is everything okay?" Hiccup asked me as he and Astrid started pouring drinks

"I think so..." I trailed looking back at my phone. He didn't text me or anything, just called me randomly in a fairly angered tone.

"Okay well I'll go get the pizza from downstairs." Astrid said. "You two can talk it out."

"Downstairs?"

"The parlor literally right outside. They said they have our regular ready for us." She said as she got her wallet and phone. Hiccup threw her a ball of paper and she caught it mid air when her back was towards us.

"Text me if you need any help." He told her before she walked out the door.

"Does she normally go down to get the food or are you being a jerk and letting her do that?" I teased as I got up to head for the kitchen.

"We take turns. I did it the last two times, so she pretty much volunteered for this trip."

"You two are a well oiled system aren't you?" I poured a glass of root beer.

"After being together for a few years one understands how the other works." He concluded. "And by the looks of our progress, this paper won't be finished any time soon."

"No, well we both have our problems right." I joked, but then regretted it as soon as I felt the tension from his side.

"Hiccup I'm sorry."

"It's fine Elsa." He tried to brush it off. "But yeah that's what's going on."

"… Did you tell Astrid yet?" I asked.

"No." He looked down ashamed.

"Hiccup the longer you hold it off, the worse it will get. You have to tell her." I pushed.

"I know, I know; but you should know that it's easier said than done." He fired.

"No kidding." I sighed. "Who told you?"

"Who do you think?" He left it to me to put it together. "But I didn't ask, more he came back to the dorm in a pretty pissy mood and I just put the pieces back together." Well, that made a lot of sense, but I still felt super uncomfortable for him knowing.

"So are you two...?" He trailed.

"Done? I don't know." I truthfully said. "It's been confusing lately."

"You two can work it out." Hiccup said just as Astrid opened the door.

"Sorry this box is just really hot." She huffed as she set everything down on the counter. Hiccup got up right away, but I stayed on the couch just because I was still thinking about everything.

"How many slices Elsa?" Astrid asked as she was loading her plate.

"Just take what you want, I'll have what's left over." I called out. Suddenly the door burst open with Jack standing at the doorway.

*********** Jack's POV a few moments prior********

I sat in our usual circle of friends. They were passing a joint or taking swigs from a bottle of cheap vodka while I tried to reject their offers as much as I could. I don't even remember why I came here, but I do know it was a mistake.

"Yo Frost, what's wrong with you?" Pitch asked before lighting up a cigarette.

"Nothing you need to worry about." I snickered.

"Not buying it, usually you'd be battling me in a shots off by now." Drago pointed out.

"Not much of a battle since we'd know I'd win." I snapped. Everyone gave me pride for that comeback because they knew it was true.

"Seriously though, what's up Jack. You've been acting weird these past few months." Hans joined in.

"Like how?"

"Well we barely see you anymore." 'Du answered. "And when we do you're boring as fuck."

"Define 'boring as fuck' for me." I said.

"You're not high or smashed right now... like how you'd normally be." Goth said.

"I'm just over that shit."

"You barely talk." Drago added. "We used to laugh about all the girls we've fucked." The memory of those conversations made me cringe. I normally would have brushed them off, but after meeting Elsa I've never done anything like that... especially after her story; now that gave me some sight towards it, not that I've ever done that with other girls, but I do have my fair share of one night stands.

"Maybe because you weren't getting laid at the time." I snickered.

"Oh fuck off." He scoffed before finishing his beer.

"No but in all seriousness Jack you know they're right." Goth interjected. "What's up? You got a chick under your arm you're not telling us about?"

"Yes he does." Hans cut it. I glared at him as he held a smug smile on his stupid face.

"No fucking way! Are you serious?!" Pitch exclaimed.

"Yeah that's right. Jack has daddy's little girl under his arm. Or should I say under his belt." Hans smirked. Everyone else was now focused on me.

"How the hell did you find out?" I asked.

"Seriously? She talks about you in the study hostiles, and I've seen you two walking out of classes. It's pretty obvious Jack."

"Wait, wait, wait, who is she?" Goth butt in. "Do I know her?"

"Why do you care?"

"Yes." Hans answered at the same time.

"Who is she?" Drago cut in.

"Don't worry about it." I snapped. "Why does it matter who I'm with? I found a girl who's hot as hell and likes to keep things private." Everyone stared at me. I hate talking about Elsa like that, but it's the only way I could get them to shut up.

"Jeez, buzz kill much." Hans snickered. I had to resist the urge to chuck a bottle at his head, I'm not looking for a fight today.

"Whatever man, you started it." I grumbled.

"And subject change please." Goth interrupted. "When's the next party? I'm tired of buying my own booze."

"This Friday. Apparently it's some frat's birthday or some shit." Pitch announced.

"Aw boo. I ain't going to some frat's party. They're lame as fuck." Drago whined. I had to hide my smile, thinking about Flynn's party a few days ago. It wasn't so bad... it was actually really fun.

"What are you talking about? You get the best hook ups at those parties." Hans disagreed.

"Really? With all those sweaty bodies condensed in a small house?" I asked.

"I didn't say I fuck a chick where everybody is. I take her upstairs or someone's car."

"Or that time where you took her to the shed by the lake." Pitch remarked and the two high-fived each other.

"Whoa, you had a threesome together?" 'Du asked.

"Well I didn't fuck her, but I did cup a feel." Pitch explained.

"Walk us through it bro, when did this happen?" Goth encouraged.

"Okay, so this girl I met at some lake house party was just standing alone at the drink table. I swear the first thing I could actually focus on was her hot ass figure in that tight blue dress." Hans began.

"That night I wore this form fitting dress my friend made me wear."

No. Impossible.

"We talked and danced for a bit. I seriously had no clue how smashed she was until we were on that dance floor. That honey could seriously move her hips."

"We danced and kissed on the dance floor."

Please don't let this be true.

"We drank a little more and met up with Pitch. Seriously, I don't think anyone could drink as many vodka cranberries as she could."

"He handed me a vodka cranberry... that's why I don't drink them anymore."

I can't hear anymore of this.

"We took her to the shed by the lake; and the rest is history." He finished.

"Probably the hottest virgin I've ever seen." Pitch added.

"Not anymore." Hans chuckled

Before I could stop my body's reaction, I lunged over the table and tackled Hans to the floor.

"You asshole!" I screamed as my fist kept colliding with his jaw, letting out every ounce of rage I had; only to have more fury rise thinking about his hands touching my girl.

Sets of hands were on me and pulled me off of him before my fist could collide with his cheek once more.

"Jack get off him!" Gothel exclaimed ass eh tried to push me off.

"What the hell's wrong with you?" Du' yelled as he finally pulled me off. Drago blocked me from moving forward while Pitch helped Hans sit up. Both nostrils were bleeding and there was a huge gash on his right eyebrow, not to mention his busted lip and his swelling eye.

"What the fuck." Hans hissed. "What's wrong with you?"

"Don't even try to play innocent! I know what you did that night!" I fumed. "I know you met a girl, got her drunk then slipped rohypnol in her vodka cranberry! I know you took her to the shed! And I know you raped my girlfriend!"

Either everyone was looking at me or Hans, but all of their expressions showed horror.

"I don't know what the fuck you're talking about." He glowered as he wiped away some of the blood from his face. Gothel seemed to flinch away from him if he got any closer to her, a first that I've seen of her.

"Whatever. I'm done here." I grunted pushing past everyone to get to the door.

"Jack, you don't have to leave." Goth said grabbing my wrist.

"Actually I do." I snarled. "If I stay here any longer I know I'm going to kill someone tonight." I quickly slammed the door in her face before she could stop me again.

I made my way out of the building as fast as I could and dialled her phone. Hearing her voice would calm me down, it always has since the day I met her. She didn't answer until the third ring.

"Hello?" Elsa answered. I felt myself relax and then my heart hurt.

"Where are you?" I asked climbing into my car.

"Your dorm working on a paper with Hiccup... Just like I was when you left. Why?"

"Stay there." I pleaded and ended the call before she could ask any questions.

The drive back to my dorm was torture. I just needed to see her; hold her in my arms so I know she's okay and safe; tell her I I can protect her from now on.

My feet moved faster for me because all I could think about was her. How she's so passionate about some of the craziest things. How her big, beautiful eyes are focused on you if you tell her something. How she hid behind her smile because she was broken into pieces.

God I love her, and I need to tell her today.

"Jack?" Here voice called as I opened my door. She was sitting on the couch with her laptop and books on the table. I walked up to her and pulled her into an embrace. She quickly returned it.

"What's going on her Jack?" She laughed with some nerves laced in her voice.

"I love you." I said in her ear. Her body tensed against mine and she broke the hug to look at me.

"W-what?"

"I love you Elsa." I repeated. "I'm sorry it took me so long to say it." She smiled.

"I love you too." She murmured before kissing me. It felt so good to have her here in my arms, where she's safe and loved. I love this woman, she's the first person I've ever truly loved and nobody could change that.

"Should we give them some privacy?" I heard Astrid whisper.

"Yeah, let's go." Hiccup responded.

"Remember to use protection guys!" She called out. I let go of Elsa with one hand to flip her off. When we heard the door close, Elsa finally broke apart from me.

"Where did this come from?" She asked.

"It doesn't matter." I shook my head. She opened her mouth to protest, but then closed it.

"Okay." She nodded. Without another thought I pulled her into my chest and held her tight.

"Do you really love me?" She asked.

"Yes. And if you let me, I will do anything in my power to show you and protect you. You're the greatest thing that's ever happened to me, it just took me a bit longer to figure it out. I-"

She stopped me mid-sentence by kissing me; showing me that I am not the man I thought I was, a man that was cold and broken, but a man who was put back together by the woman he loves...

Author's note: Well i haven't done one of these in a while. Well i should start by saying, thank you for reading! I really love you guys i do... and i showed it by spelling 'love' not 'lurv' or 'luv' or 'luveykadoodles'. I really love you guys and i hope you all know that. This is the longest chapter I have written, like ever... so that's good because it's crunch time in school now. I literally won't be writing for a long while because of all the stress, however i had this chapters thought out for the past few weeks and i just wanted it out before it bothers me, so here it is. I hope you enjoyed it as much as i loved writing it. To all of those people who are trying to contact me, i am sorry for not doing so, I am currently isolating myself so i can focus as much as i possibly can. When i get the chance to i will, i promise you that. Well this is all i really have to say; I'll see you all in a few weeks (maybe)! Luv ya! Happy Rading ;)