I'm very disappointed with this chapter. It sucks from the start until the end, seriously -.-''

It pains me a lot that it ended up like this, I'm very sad and ashamed because my poor writing skills didn't let me write the way I wanted [and I am not talking about mistakes, since those are expected already but don't bother me that much]. This chapter was supposed to be the most special, beautiful and angsty from my whole story; I wanted it to feel real but in the end this doesn't feel real at all. I apologize to all of you since I am sure that you expected much more from me, but especially from my story at this point and in the end I just failed in portraying what I really wanted.

I'll try to write on the next, and last chapter, and update it soon. Since it will be the last chap I think it'll be shorter than my previous chapters [it'll definitely be shorter than this shitty chapter for sure ~_~] and I'll try with all of me to compensate you for the terrible update I'm giving you today =)

Chapter XXXIV

Masato was, like usual for the past few weeks, studying. This time, differently from the other times, he decided to do it in the bedroom. Jinguji had a small desk that he rarely used and that was usually occupied with his clothes. Honestly, Masato couldn't understand why the blond couldn't try to be more organized, so the blue haired male decided to organize his things on his own to be able to use the division of the house as he wanted. He liked to study inside the bedroom a lot. From all the places inside of the house, the bedroom was the only division where he could focus properly since it was calmer and he wouldn't be always hearing their neighbors entering and leaving their houses. Plus, the bedroom had the large window right above the bed that illuminated the whole division, so Masato really enjoyed the bright and quiet atmosphere of the room. Of course, always and only when the blond wasn't at home; otherwise he would be seducing Masato with his stupid bold but irresistible actions and the blue haired teen would be forced to enjoy each one of them instead of studying.

For now, Masato was alone at home studying and enjoying his moment of peace. He was trying at least. Who was he trying to fool? Hijirikawa Masato was currently lying down on bed with his face buried in the pillow, trying his hardest to forget the agitated and emotional day he had had. He had tried to study when he got home, but his head was spinning; Jinguji and Sakura; Nana's feelings that he had selfishly ignored; Petra's words over the phone… Every single thing was driving him crazy. He was unable to focus on anything. He needed to rest. Perhaps if he slept for an hour or so he would be able to ease his mind from the overwhelming wave of emotions.

Masato turned around on the bed to be on a more comfortable position. His cheek was now lying against the soft and dark red fabric of the pillow, as he remained lying down on his stomach. He closed his blue eyes softly, trying to rest but Jinguji's face appeared in his mind. What was he doing now? Had he and Sakura talked everything already, or was he still with her? Had he read Masato's text or had he been too busy to notice his cell phone at all? Questions and more questions attacked his mind, one after another, driving him crazy. Masato was tired. He didn't want to think about anything anymore. He just wanted some peace; a moment without pain stabbing at his heart. He was aware that everything was his fault, if only he hadn't asked Nana to tell her older sister to see Jinguji, then he wouldn't be suffering now. Maybe he would be enjoying another day with the blond. But no, Masato could never do that knowing that Jinguji still liked Sakura. He missed that girl so much that he had hugged her tightly enough to make sure she wouldn't run away from him. He was afraid of losing her; Masato knew that well enough, since he was after all, in the same position as Jinguji. The blue haired teen didn't want to lose the blond ever. But now, that seemed to be an impossible dream. He had lost him forever today at the park. He was sure of it.

Masato's blue eyes quivered softly a couple of times before being opened slowly. It seemed that even with the intense wave of feelings tormenting his mind he had fallen asleep at some point. Well, of course, he was tired; mentally exhausted. Even if he couldn't bear the sadness, his body would start to give in and obey to his wishes, eventually. He closed his eyes once more and turned around on the bed before deciding to stand up. In truth he didn't want to leave the bed for the rest of the evening, but he had to make dinner and study some more, so he couldn't possibly enjoy his sadness. It was then, in the middle of laziness and thoughts, that Masato felt a heavy sensation against his hipbone. Now that he thought well about it, it felt too hot; more than usual. Summer was almost here, but still by the end of the day it was usually a bit colder. What could possibly feel so uncomfortable?

Masato opened his eyes slowly and saw, right in front of him, the cause of his discomfort. Peacefully sleeping, mere inches away from him, was Jinguji Ren. When had he returned home? Why was he lying there, right next to Masato? What had happened with Sakura? The blond stirred in his sleep, pulling Masato closer in the way, bringing the surprised male back to reality. Masato observed the sleepy teen carefully; Jinguji was really... handsome. No wonder he was so popular. His heart skipped a beat. Masato, all of a sudden, felt the urge to caress the blond's face. His hand travelled to Jinguji's face, yet he hesitated to touch him. He felt too nervous and anxious. What if the blond awoke? He swallowed hard at that possibility. His hand was shaking a few inches away from Jinguji's cheek. He could already feel the warmth of his face against his palm even without touching him directly. He knew what Jinguji's warmth felt like. But Masato wanted to touch him so badly...

He flushed intensely.

"W-What am I thinking? Tsk, such thoughts while other people are sleeping so peacefully... What am I, a perverted horny teenager?"

"You're so perverted, Hijirikawa." The blond's words from previousdays tortured him as he tried to calm down. His already red cheeks gained a darker color. He wasn't a perverted! It was everything that bastard's fault! Why did he have to be so good-looking? He practically hypnotized Masato, so of course he couldn't resist him. His dark blue eyes watched the other teen, searching for all the unanswered questions, when Masato's mind recalled all the events of the day. He had almost forgotten about it. How he wished he could do it, for once and for all. His heart hurt again, and so much that he looked away, avoiding Jinguji's presence so near to him. How could have he been daydreaming like an idiot to the point of forgetting that Jinguji was not his anymore? He had never been in first place. He had always belonged to Sakura in some way. That girl had Jinguji's heart; Jinguji's smiles and kindness... But, in just one day, she had been able to recover what she had lost long ago. She had the blond's being all for her. How he wished to be in Sakura's place. Masato was a fool for even dreaming with such impossible things.

"Tsk" Masato's mouth emitted in a low voice as he sat on the bed decided to fight against his wishes. The blue haired teen grabbed the blond's arm softly, in order to break free from his persistent hold. Just by doing that Masato felt his heart breaking in countless pieces. His fingers wrapped around Jinguji's arm could feel his addictive warmth; the warmth Masato had wanted to feel while caressing the blond's cheek, but now he couldn't do it anymore.

"I have to stop torturing myself. I will go crazy if this continues." The blue haired male thought desperately, finally free from that unbearably addictive hold. His bare feet finally touched the cold floor, when he felt a gentle grasp on his wrist. His blue eyes widened impossibly, as he slowly looked at his slim wrist in astonishment.

"Where are you going Hijirikawa?" The blond's voice sounded gently in his ears.

"I-I'm going to make dinner. Have you bought the vegetables?" Masato looked away and tried to sound nonchalant, but clearly failed when his trembling voice made its way out of his mouth.

"Hijirikawa…" He looked at the blond when his name left Jinguji's mouth, and doing so he was caught by surprise with a kiss. A kiss that led him back to bed where Jinguji placed himself on top of him. A kiss that had Jinguji's tongue entering his mouth languidly, and caressing his over and over. A kiss that weakened Masato and forced him to give in and accept Jinguji's lips full of passion, and embrace him with equal feeling. It was that type of kiss; a kiss that drove him crazy and that he yearned for the whole time.

No; he couldn't. He had to resist, otherwise he would only hurt himself even more. Masato pushed the blond away, trying to distance him as much as possible. "Jin-Jinguji I... W-We can't. I-I have to make dinner and then I have to-"

The blue haired teen's words were silenced with the blond's gesture. Ren leaned his forehead to Hijirikawa's, softly joining them together. His large hands cupped the blue haired boy's face, and his thumbs caressed his soft cheeks tenderly.

"Stay with me Hijirikawa." His mouth murmured with a needy tone of voice, and that was more than enough to convince the blue haired teen. Ren moved his mouth to Hijirikawa's forehead planting a gentle kiss over his skin that found its way down to his nose until it reached his soft lips half opened, more than ready to accept Ren's tongue. The blond's fingers opened the three small buttons of Hijirikawa's short-sleeved polo, as his mouth left a trail of sweet languid kisses on the blue haired male's pale skin; running the warm flesh of his neck, down to his now exposed cleavage, leaving a small love bite over the skin of his collarbone. One of Ren's hands travelled inside the other boy's white polo, while his other hand remained cupping his face and sweetly caressing his cheek. Ren's lips kissed Hijirikawa's one more time, and his bold fingers pinched, ever so slightly, the blue haired teen's nipple. Such gesture made the tortured teen moan and the blond pleasantly muffled it with his mouth.

Masato's body shivered with each one of Jinguji's gestures. His hands clutched tightly the blond's shirt, involuntarily pulling him closer. Jinguji's tongue was still ravishing his mouth, again and again, sucking all the air left in his lungs, but the blond's hands were now touching the hotter skin of his body. He had goose bumps as he felt Jinguji's fingers running through his flesh; sliding downwards, only stopping when they reached the grey button of his pants. Masato felt Jinguji's fingers unbuttoning and unzipping his pants, and then he felt them sliding down over his legs slowly; he even helped the blond to get rid of them by lifting his hips slightly up. When had he gotten so desperate?

However the blue haired boy wasn't the only one desperate. Ren was also desperate; more and more in each passing second. He had been desperate to be with Hijirikawa; to feel and to touch him, ever since he finally decided to admit how much he loved him. Just by touching him in such a way, sweetly and tenderly, Ren felt his heart pounding unstoppably against his chest. And the kisses they shared; whenever his lips and Hijirikawa's met, his entire body trembled nervously and in need. When had he fallen so hard for the other teen?

Ren decided to think about it later, now he just wanted to love the other teen. His hands, now wrapped around Hijirikawa's hips, travelled all the way up in his body, pushing his polo up in way to expose his pale torso. Unable to resist, Ren brought his mouth to Hijirikawa's chest planting gentle kisses over his warm skin. His lips made their way down over the other teen's body, always kissing him innocently yet his teeth bit and sucked that temptingly sweet flesh every now and then, causing a few whimpers and low moans to escape from Hijirikawa's mouth. Ren's tongue licked all the way down to Hijirikawa's belly button, teasing the sensitive skin of his navel by licking and biting hungrily the soft flesh.

Masato shivered and moaned intensely, getting more turned on by the second with Jinguji's gestures. He tried to muffle each embarrassing sound by covering his mouth with his hands, but it was useless. The blond's lips caressing his skin, plus his hot and wet tongue licking his body felt too good. It was an intense feeling too hard to control; so the blue haired teen let out his voice clearly filling the other teen's ears erotically.

Even though he was enjoying this too much, Masato didn't understand why but somehow Jinguji was different. He had always been gentle and caring, but right now he was even more than usually. It almost felt as if he wanted Masato and just him; almost as if... he loved him. But that was clearly impossible. Jinguji loved Sakura and the blue haired male had seen it with his eyes well enough to even try to doubt it. This had to be his unrequited feelings fooling him. That or Jinguji was pitying him and trying to compensate him for breaking their promise. Perhaps it was both things. Either way, it was painful. Yet, even though it was painful, Masato wanted Jinguji to continue. He could pretend that the blond did love him, and once they finally fully enjoyed themselves, then he would return to real life.

Ren's mouth descended on the blue haired boy's body only stopping once it reached the elastic of his boxers, that his fingers graspped eagerly and pulled down over Hijirikawa's legs. The blond grabbed one of the blue haired teen's legs, filling the upper part of it with tender kisses. Unable to resist, Ren bit and sucked on the soft flesh hard enough to leave a mark.

"Nnh- w-w-wait Jinguji." Masato tried to push the blond away.

"What?" Ren asked curiously, with his mouth still glued to Hijirikawa's leg.

"T-That's… I-I don't like it… I-It's embarrassing." He admitted in a low tone of voice almost inaudible. The blue haired male turned his face away to hide the soft flush of his cheeks.

Ren swallowed hard, feeling hotter all of a sudden. His heart raced strongly against his chest and he felt the urge to possess the blue haired male for once and for all, but he wanted to take things smoothly. He wanted to show Hijirikawa that he loved him too much. In truth, Ren wanted to tell him how he felt, but somehow he couldn't do it. When he had tried before, he felt the fear grow greatly inside him and paralyzing him. He was not ready to tell him yet, so he wanted to make the other teen feel special with each one of his gentle gestures. He didn't know if they were working, but by the adorable reaction he had received from the other male, Hijirikawa may have been feeling something different from him. And that's what he wanted exactly.

Ren placed Hijirikawa's leg over his shoulder and leaned his body lightly over the other teen's. "Do you know Hijirikawa, I can't resist you."

"Eh?" Masato looked at the blond confused, trying to understand his speech by organizing his words inside his head but the more he thought about them, the more confused he got.

Ren brought one of his hands to the blue haired boy's hard on and began to stroke it softly, making the other teen unable to think anymore. He watched Hijirikawa's face flush more in each passing minute; he felt his body heat increasing by the second. Hijirikawa's eyes fluttered softly before ending up closed while his mouth was half opened, letting escape a moan or a whimper every now and then. The blond swallowed hard before the tempting view and decided, he leaned his face between the blue haired teen's legs and wrapped his hard member between his lips.

"Jin-Jinguji what are you- aaah" Masato was unable to utter the rest of his words as he felt the blond's mouth sucking his erection vigorously, swirling his tongue over the hard member every now and then, tasting the salty flavor of the shocked teen whom was totally lost in bliss.

"Aah! S-Sto-nnh..." The blue haired male covered his lips with one of his hands as the other was supported against the blond's shoulder in order to make him stop his bold and unexpected action. However Ren didn't stop at all; on the contrary, the blond intensified his movements bobbing his head up and down faster while his hands grabbed Hijirikawa's legs widening them more and seductively and stroked his hotter and soft flesh.

The wet sounds that Jinguji's mouth was producing while pleasuring Masato, reached the blue haired boy's ears deeply and so erotically that he couldn't help but whimper and groan as he felt all the unbearably hot and vicious sensations that Jinguji's bold mouth was providing him travelling throughout his entire being. It felt mysteriously good and addictive. Whenever Jinguji's lips tightly yet viciously wrapped around his length stroked his erection frantically, Masato felt electric shocks running up and down his spine making him vibrate in ecstasy. Then there was his wet, warm and soft tongue moving erotically inside Jinguji's mouth over his cock, driving the blue haired male completely crazy. And the stimulation of Jinguji's fingertips on his upper legs, caressing his sweaty and hot skin all the way to his groin, teasingly brushing against his balls, had him on verge of exploding. Through Masato's tightly squeezed dark blue eyes tears of pure bliss began to roll down over his cheeks, and his shaking hands travelled to the blond's head being desperately entangled between his soft and long locks of hair making him groan through his nose with the sudden gesture. Each one of those new feelings and sensations felt so good; so delicious dominating his body that Masato's mind was totally blank. He had finally forgotten everything that had happened. All the unbearably sad events of the day were easily and deliciously replaced by this moment of bliss. Masato just wanted more of it.

Ren had never thought about doing such a thing to another man. Giving another man a blowjob; such an idea had never crossed his mind as the mere thought of it felt disgusting. However, doing it to Hijirikawa just felt surprisingly good. The way his mouth adjusted around Hijirikawa's cock, and the erotic heat of his hard length against his tongue sweetly flavored with his addictive taste just made an intense shiver ran his entire core from head to toe weakening his senses to an impossibly arousing extent. He felt connected to Hijirikawa in such a unique way that he just yearned for more. It was as if they were one in a different way. Ren simply loved the feeling of it.

"Aaah Jinguji stop-ah~" Masato moaned feeling his climax closer in each passing second. But the blond refused to obey him. "Mmm~ s-seriously s-stop, I... I am... Jin~guji- aaah!" Between all of his attempts at struggling to make the blond stop, Masato's climax reached his body so intensely that he was unable to resist to such temptation, so he gave in arching his back erotically up and digging his nails involuntarily hard in Jinguji's scalp, making him hum in pain but decided to continue pleasuring the blue haired male until the very end of it. Mere seconds after Masato was expelling all his lust out of his body into Jinguji's mouth with a loud and sweet moan.

The blond swallowed every single drop of his warm and salty liquid, finally letting the other teen fall into exhaustion over the bed. Ren wiped the corner of his mouth with his thumb and looked at the shocked blue haired teen lying down. Hijirikawa was heavy breathing, trying to recover from his orgasm but he looked clearly confused and astonished. The blond couldn't help but smile sweetly at his reaction. Hijirikawa was adorable.

"Hijirikawa…" The blue haired male looked at Ren, expecting him to speak, but instead the blond brought his mouth to his forehead and kissed him warmly; caressing his cheek with his thumb too gently.

Masato's dark blue eyes widened with the astonishing gesture. It was strange. Everything was strange. Jinguji was being strangely sweet and caring. Jinguji was confusing him and, without being aware of it, Jinguji was hurting him so much that Masato just wanted him to be as rude as he had been a long time ago. Masato felt his heart be painfully broken yet again.

Ren distanced his face lightly from the other male's, as a way to look him in the eyes and finally speak. "I'm sorry if I surprised you. I should have warned you about what I would do, but it was…"

The blue haired boy felt through his skin the blond's fingers shake as his dark blue eyes saw a light blush appear over the skin of his cheeks. Without much thinking, Masato moved one of his hands to Jinguji's supporting it softly on top of the blond's. He was getting more confused with the blond's reactions but he was, inevitably, getting concerned.

"Jinguji?" He spoke softly, lightly tilting his head towards the blond's palm of his hand to show him his confusion but also to let him know that he would wait for his words.

Ren's blue eyes widened for an instant, softening as a new tender smile was curved in his lips. "I seriously can't win against you. Sorry, but I didn't warn you because a sudden desire took control of my body. I just couldn't stop. It was stronger than me. I just… wanted you so much that when I realized I was doing that already."

"H-HUH? Y-Y-YOU'RE A PERVERT! Tsk, I can't even…" Masato shouted completely flustered, distancing the blond from himself as a way to prevent the embarrassment to take control over his body.

Ren chuckled with his reaction and said trying to tease and embarrass him even more, "It looks like it, but do you know? It's all your fault Hijirikawa."

"M-M-My…" As he tried to phrase a coherent sentence, he heard a hard chuckle leave the blond's mouth and clenched his teeth annoyed because of letting Jinguji embarrass him in such a way. "You are an idiot, tsk!"

"Yes, yes I am." Ren stood up from the bed and as soon as he tried to step away, he felt the blue haired male's hand grasping his shirt. The blond looked at him over his shoulder, surprised with his unexpected action. "What, Hijirikawa?"

"Where are you going?" Masato felt those words leave his mouth before he could even think about them; just like his body had acted on its own and prevented Jinguji from leaving him. The blond scratched the back of his neck and chuckled softly; he looked embarrassed even. Once again Masato couldn't understand his strange behavior. Jinguji was getting easily embarrassed over little things that usually didn't embarrass him at all, on the contrary.

"I'm going to take care of this." Ren said pointing down, towards his crotch, with his index finger.

Masato's dark blue eyes followed the gesture and he felt his cheeks getting hotter. Of course Jinguji was still aroused. He hadn't relieved himself like he had done with Masato. The blue haired teen felt his heartbeat quickening. What was he supposed to do? Should he… give in for once and for all? This could be his last and only opportunity. Jinguji was in love with Sakura and now he had recovered the most important person in his life, so it would be a matter of time before he replaced Masato by that person. Masato's hand clenched the blond's white shirt tightly between his fingers. He wanted Jinguji. Even though he would lose him later, he wanted to have him; to feel him for once in a special way. And he had the choice of deciding now.

"You can do it." He murmured lowly, a little afraid, nervous and anxious.

Ren looked at Hijirikawa astonished. He wasn't sure if what Hijirikawa had just said meant what he had been waiting to hear for so long, but by the fierce way he was shaking while clutching his clothes the meaning of such words had to be that. Yet he wanted to make sure of it. Ren wanted to confirm it one more time.

"W-What?" He was more nervous than he thought.

"L-Like I said, you can do it… until the end." Masato muttered, facing the blond embarrassed but serious at the same time, and added, "I am ready."

As those words were uttered, Ren's body worked on its own as if someone else was assuming the control of it. When he realized, his mouth was ravishing Hijirikawa's with great desire like hunger. He could hear the other teen whimpering between their kiss. He could feel Hijirikawa trying to break the wild contact of lips on lips in order to recover some of his lost air, but Ren prevented him from doing so. Then he heard Hijirikawa's sweet low voice begging him to wait, but the blond couldn't do that anymore. He was desperate to feel the blue haired teen in a deeper way. He just wanted him, the person with whom he had fallen in love with, so much that he couldn't take it anymore. He wanted to be connected to the blue haired male in a special way. Ren separated their mouths from each other for a brief moment, long enough to allow him to get rid of his own shirt that he threw to the floor right next to the bed.

Masato observed the blond and shivered under his intense and wild gaze, completely surprised with the great desire overflowing from Jinguji to him through his desperate actions. The blue haired male felt a tingling sensation between his legs and grasped the bed sheets tightly between his fingers; he was getting clearly turned on yet again all due to Jinguji. His heart beat furiously against his chest in anxiety. He would be one with Jinguji and this time he wasn't afraid of being ditched by the blond. He already knew that that would happen sooner or later, so he decided to forget everything and enjoy every single minute of caresses, kisses and moans with the blond until the end of it. At this moment anything else mattered besides him and Jinguji. His arms reached for the blond, being warmly wrapped around his neck as a way to pull him closer one more time. Masato wanted to feel Jinguji's lips against his once again as passionately as previously.

Ren's eyes widened at Hijirikawa's action. He stared carefully at the other teen's flushed face, but somehow Hijirikawa's dark blue eyes were intensely trying to consume his being with the great desire they were letting the blond perceive through his lustful gaze. Ren swallowed hard, lightly flushing, and gave into Hijirikawa's unexpected needy action leaning down over the blue haired male's body, finally pressing their lips together once again, fulfilling their so desired need.

Masato shivered under the blond as he felt his hot skin pressed against his. It was the first time he felt Jinguji's flesh so sensually and so directly against his own. Usually the blond never undressed himself, thus Masato was the only one who ended up fully naked, yet right now Jinguji was half naked with his delicious light tanned skin touching his. Masato felt the urge to touch; to explore every corner of it, and without much thinking he just gave into his wishes and ran the skin of Jinguji's back with his anxious fingers always very slowly to enjoy every single part of the blond's warm body. He could get easily addicted to this. It just felt so good and pleasant that he wanted this moment to last forever.

Ren felt goosebumps rising on his skin with the blue haired male's caresses. He moaned into the kiss almost reaching his limit. He couldn't wait anymore. He wanted to be one with Hijirikawa soon. He wanted them to be connected for once and for all. So, one of Ren's hands travelled all the way down over Hijirkawa's body, until it reached the boy's entrance, boldly yet carefully teasing it with a finger that swirled around of it a couple of times before making its way, always very slowly, inside of him.

The blond broke the kiss and they both gasped for air. The blue haired teen whimpered and moaned lowly as Jinguji's finger explored his insides carefully. The blond licked his lips seductively as a way to save Hijirikawa's addictive and sweet taste inside of his mouth with his tongue. He then joined his forehead against the blue haired teen's, looking him in the eyes. Hijirikawa's arms remained wrapped around his naked torso, with his needy hands exploring Jinguji's skin without getting tired of such a gesture. He returned the intense stare without any fear as his cheeks flushed a bit more. It was embarrassing but he wanted everything Jinguji could provide him. He would accept every single thing from the blond. The same could be said about the blond. He would accept every single caress and gentle gesture from Hijirikawa without regretting it.

"Hijirikawa..." Ren uttered as he introduced a second finger inside the other boy's body. "Are you sure about this?" Even though he was desperate, Ren would never force the blue haired male to accept him against his will. He wanted to make sure that Hijirikawa's words were his true and deepest wish.

The blue haired male winced with the sudden intrusion of Jinguji's extra digit in his body. Nevertheless, he was used to this sensation already after sharing so many similar moments with the blond, Masato felt more relieved at the thought of accepting Jinguji inside him. However the blond's question surprised him at this point. He wasn't expecting Jinguji to feel insecure after going so far with him. He was more than ready to step forward with him.

One of Masato's hands was moved to the blond's face, being supported against his cheek warmly. The blond's light blue eyes were widened and his mouth was opened in a small 'o' with Masato's gesture, but especially with Masato's words.

"I am. I want you, Jinguji." His gentle voice murmured with embarrassment but without any fear. And this time the blond understood his wishes well enough. He smiled nervously but tenderly at the blue haired male, feeling his heart racing unstoppably inside his body pumping all the blood strongly through his veins.

"I really love you." Ren would like to confess, but somehow those words were stuck in his throat and he was unable to utter them. But he would show his feelings towards Hijirikawa with actions. People used to say that gestures were most of the times better than words, so this would be his opportunity. He only hoped that the blue haired teen could understand him.

A third finger slipped inside Hijirikawa's body in order to help the other two to stretch the blue haired male even more to finally receive him. At this point said teen couldn't stop squirming and moaning in pleasure. His cock was, once again, fully erected leaking with pre-cum desperately waiting for Jinguji to pleasure him one more time.

Ren's fingers made their way out of the other male's body, and the blond took the opportunity to unzip his pants and pull them, along with his boxers, down enough to expose his painfully erected member. His hands reached for the blue haired boy's thighs grabbing and lifting them up, as he positioned himself between Hijirikawa's legs.

"Hijirikawa, I don't really know how much this will hurt you, and honestly I don't want to hurt you at all but the pain is something inevitable. So, if it's too painful, just hold as tightly as you can onto me okay?"

The blue haired teen nodded simply and the blond leaned his body over Masato's lightly as his length caressed the blue haired male's twitching entrance softly, making him moan with the hot feeling of it against such a sensitive place. Masato's arms entangled Jinguji's torso between them as he felt the blond's cock entering, very slowly and carefully, inside him. The thickness of his member was stretching him painfully bit by bit, but the hotness of Jinguji's hard on felt amazingly good as it reached deeper and deeper inside him. From his tightly closed eyes, a few tears rolled down through his flushed face, and his nails dug hard in Jinguji's sweaty and hot flesh. The unknown painful and pleasurable sensations running throughout his whole body completed him to such an extent that he doubted he could put it into words. It hurt a lot but it felt so right that Masato didn't mind the pain anymore.

Ren gasped bringing the other teen back to his senses and face him as he spoke.

"H-Hijirikawa, i-it's all in." The blond muttered and a few drops of sweat fell all the way down through his face, falling over the blue haired male's body. "It's all in." Ren repeated with a warm smile on his lips. "We finally-"

"-are one." Masato completed the blond's speech heavy breathing and staring at Jinguji wide eyed as he observed on his face tears rolling down over his cheeks. Why was he crying? Was it so painful that he couldn't control himself? Masato could tell how painful it was for him, it was almost unbearable but he had decided to accept everything from Jinguji; be it pain or pleasure, it'd be more than welcome to his heart. But maybe Jinguji was suffering much more than him... But he wanted to give him pleasure as well. Would he be unable to even, at least, achieve that wish?

Masato swallowed hard nervously. "Jinguji...?" His lips murmured as both his hands cupped the blond's face sweetly.

"Damn I just... I'm sorry... I'm sorry, Hijirikawa."

"Is it so painful?" Masato asked frowning.

Ren's eyes widened for moments and with that the last tears fell down from them. His lips formed a tender smile as they spoke, "Not at all. I mean it's kind of painful yes, you're tighter than I thought, but I was not crying because of that."

Masato furrowed his brows in incomprehension.

Ren flushed lightly but decided to admit his deepest feelings at the moment towards the other boy. "I was crying because I am happy. I am so happy."

"Happy?"

"Yes; happy. Thank you for accepting me, Hijirikawa."

Jinguji was happy because of him. He had made Jinguji happy. He couldn't have wished for something better than that. This moment was pure perfection to him. He would save it inside his heart forever. If there was someone happy here right now, that someone was Hijirikawa Masato.

"Me too... Thank you, Jinguji." Masato said softly, smiling kindly at the blond who returned the gesture.

"Né Hijirikawa, how do you feel? Does it hurt?"

"I think it's alright if you move now." Masato tried to assure the blond the best way he could, hopefully working.

"Then can I make love to you?" Ren asked leaving the other boy too surprised to possibly react. His already flushed cheeks gained a more intense color, making him feel too embarrassed to reply with words, thus he felt forced to simply nod positively and close his dark blue eyes as if trying to hide his embarrassment with such a gesture.

Ren didn't utter any more words; he simply positioned both their bodies in the right way and began to move his hips carefully, thrusting out and in Hijirikawa's body slowly, increasing his movements bit by bit as he witnessed they wouldn't hurt the blue haired teen so much anymore.

Masato moaned, and squirmed in pleasure totally forgetting the previous pain he felt, and hold Jinguji's body tightly against his. His pale legs broke free from Jinguji's grasp and wrapped the blond's waist between them pulling him closer and deeper inside him.

"Jinguji... Jinguji... Aah~mmm-"

Ren's mouth muffled the rest of the blue haired teen's groans with a hungry kiss. One of his hands, now supported against the bed on each side of Hijirikawa's body, was moved to his hard cock stroking it sensually and addictively, and the other male arched his back unable to ignore such an irresistible friction. The blond separated their lips, gasping and panting for air, and murmured the blue haired teen's name seductively against his ear.

"Aanh... Nnnh... Jin...guji..."

"Hijirikawa t-this is bad... I-I don't think I can hold it for longer."

"Jinguji!" Masato moaned louder than he had intended, pulling the blond closer against himself.

"Hijirikawa..." Ren uttered panting, biting the pale skin of the blue haired male's shoulder desperately, and sucking the abused spot hungrily. He felt the blue haired boy's nails scratching his back and felt the need to thrust his hips faster, intensifying the movements of his hand over Hijirikawa's member as well; driving him crazy.

"Aaah!"

"Hi-Hijiri- unngh-"

Masato reached his orgasm with a loud and satisfied moan, tightening Jinguji's cock inside him who came moments after the blue haired teen with a struggled groan.

They panted and gasped with difficulty, trying to recover lost air and energy, but clearly too exhausted to do it properly. They heavy breathed in pleasant silence, the blond still on top of the blue haired teen; none seemed to want to move from their current positions. Their intense blue orbs stared deeply into each others as if communicating what their mouths felt unable to speak. All the deep feelings and sensations of their most special moment, overflowed from one another letting them know how precious this moment had been to both. They would never forget it.

Ren pulled his cock carefully out of Masato's body, who hissed with the feeling of his large length sliding out of him; it hurt a bit more now... Masato would clearly be unable to move properly for the rest of the evening. Ren's cum was leaking slowly through Masato's entrance and the blond flushed intensely with the erotic view. The blue haired male closed his legs tightly as a way to hide the embarrassing view from Ren's eyes, but it seemed it had been too late. Masato just wanted to die due to the unbearable embarrassment.

"Wow, that was hot." Ren said without realizing it, covering his mouth and blushing deeply as his heart pounded suddenly.

Masato, on the other hand, glared darkly at him feeling more and more embarrassed and lightly irritated. The damn bastard had to spoil the moment with his unnecessary observations over stupidities.

"Tsk." The blue haired boy clicked his tongue clenching his teeth tightly together.

"Eh? S-Sorry, sorry! I didn't want to upset you." Ren's hand caressed the blue haired male's cheek as he lowered his lips to Masato's forehead and planted a soft kiss over it. "We should shower."

"I am too tired to do it." Masato muttered closing his dark blue eyes and leaning against the blond's warm hand.

"But you can't stay like this. It will feel uncomfortable later." Ren tried to convince Masato, yet the blue haired teen fell asleep easily unable to resist to his tiresome state.

Ren smiled warmly looking at his beautiful features. He would just clean Masato's body then. He couldn't possibly let the other male sleep with all the load he had discharged inside him. Ren's cheeks got even redder with the sudden thought. He would take care of the blue haired teen. He would treasure him from now on like the precious person he was to Ren's life. He would, definitely, make Masato feel how loved he was by him.

Ren's mouth rested against Masato's for brief seconds, and once he separated them, he whispered sweetly, "I love you, Masato."

The time passed and they were closer than ever, or so Ren thought, but an unexpected new destroyed all the gained intimacy they had between each other.

"W-What did you say?" The blond asked astonished, not believing in what his ears had just listened.

"I'm going to study abroad." Masato repeated avoiding any type of eye contact.

"What do you mean by 'study abroad'? How will you even do that? What about the final exams you've been so focused on lately?" Ren asked, question after question, feeling too desperate for answers. The situation he found himself in at the moment, was too unbelievable for him to consider it.

"I mean exactly that. Petra called me a few weeks ago telling me that a friend of her whom lives out of the country got very interested in my skills with the piano after my performance at that contest, and so he talked with her and told her to ask me if I would like to be his student. I think this is a unique chance for me to grow up and to learn new things. So I decided that I want to go." Masato explained astonishing the blond more and more. In truth Masato could feel his heart breaking painfully as those words left his mouth. But he believed that this was the best thing to be done. After their special and unique moment, nothing else had happened between both. Masato had been very busy with his studies and the blond, hopefully, seemed to understand that leaving him in peace. However, he always left the house whenever that happened. He would usually say he had things to do outside and so he would get back home late at night. Masato had an idea of what those 'things' Jinguji had to do were, but honestly he had been more than ready for that to happen since the day he gave himself to the blond. On that day everything had begun but also ended. And he had accepted that fact long ago without any more complaints. The blond had the right to be happy with the person he truly loved, thus Masato didn't have the right to interfere in his life. So he decided to distance himself from the blond. He needed to know more about the world; how the real life was, what other people were like... Masato just wanted to learn how to live without depending of others. He had bothered Jinguji and all of his friends more than enough with his own problems, and that should end for once and for all.

"As for the exams, as you said, I've already done and passed them with high scores. I've talked with my father and he talked with the principal of school to allow me to do everything in time to be able to travel and-"

"Your father? What do you mean? Weren't the two of you in the middle of a fight? When did all that happen?" Ren asked raising the tone of voice, letting the other teen perceive how angry he was getting.

Honestly, Masato didn't understand the reason behind his sudden anger; but with all Jinguji's questions he was able to understand for once that Jinguji Ren wasn't paying him any type of attention even if they lived in the same place. This was a clear proof that Jinguji was no longer concerned with Masato and his life. Yet he had been prepared for this.

"We clarified all the misunderstandings between us. My father apologized to me and I did the same, as I'm sure that he is not the only one to blame since it was also my fault for not being more honest with him nor my mother. Jinguji..." Masato explained muttering the name of the blond at the end of his speech, making said boy face him more astonished than ever as he finished, "There's no need for you to worry over my things anymore, as you can see all my problems are solved. I'm really thankful to you for all the help and support you gave me. Let me apologize if I ever bothered you more than I should. I'm sorry and thank you." He smiled gently at the blond, even though his heart hurt more than he could ever have imagined before.

"W-When will you go and to where?" Ren asked feeling too lost to possibly try to argue back and fight with Hijirikawa.

"I'll leave in three days. I'm going to Europe."

"To Europe?"

"Yes."

"O-Okay, but where exactly?" He asked too incredulous.

Masato, on the other hand, simply gave him a small smile and avoided his question by packing the things he had at Jinguji's house. He couldn't answer him. He couldn't let Jinguji find out to where he would go to study or else he would always be waiting for him and he shouldn't. He didn't want that.

"I see." So Hijirikawa wouldn't tell him his destiny. That proved how unrequited his feelings towards the blue haired male were. Thankfully he hadn't confessed on that unforgettable day, otherwise he would never be able to recover from a second painful loveless relationship.

"I... I have to go out. I'll be back later."

"Hum."

The blond left their shared room and the blue haired teen, who kept packing his things, inside of it without uttering a single word and without listening to anything else in return as well. It was as if that was their farewell already. He wondered how a few days ago they had been so closer and now, suddenly, they were so distanced from each other over again; even more than before. This was clearly the end of their life in common.

"Do you have anything you need?" Ren asked with his hands inside the pockets of his pants.

"Yes."

"Will you take only those bags with you? Is that enough? Don't you need anything else?"

"No, I have everything I need." Masato replied calmly, eyeing his four large bags next him ready to be transported to the airplane.

"Well if you say so..." Ren gave up on trying to insist anymore. In truth he was nervous. He had passed the last three days counting the hours and the minutes for this moment; he didn't want it to come ever, yet this day; this exact instant had reached his life sooner than he had always wanted.

"Then, I need to go-"

"Hijirikawa!" The blond shouted preventing Masato from even thinking of stepping away.

"Y-Yes?" He asked surprised at the sudden loud tone of voice.

The blond's light blue eyes widened impossibly as he realized the deperate tone of voice he had used to draw the other teen's attention. All he had wanted was to tell him something important and not screaming it to the whole world hear it. He took a deep breathe and took out of his pocket a small and orange mp4, extending it to the blue haired male.

"Here. There's a single song inside of it. I've not written it nor anything, but I've asked lady to change a few parts so I could sing it better. You know the song inside of this mp4 very well. I've only chosen it in first place because I know it's one of your favorite songs. I... want you to listen to it only, and just only, when your airplane reaches your destiny." Ren explained in detail and the blue haired teen listened to everything carefully while staring at the small mp4.

"A-Alright." He said accepting the orange object. "But I have a question. Why can't I listen to the song before?"

"I don't want to make you feel guilty after listening to it." Ren replied simply, smiling gently at the blue haired male, confusing him with his unexpected words. What could they possibly mean?

"Okay." Even thought he was confused, Masato accepted his reply without complaints. Perhaps after listening to the mysterious song he would come to finally understand that incoherent explanation. "Then I have to go now. Thank you once again for everything, Jinguji."

"Hum." Ren felt unable to speak any more words, thus he hummed instead.

"Oh and it's true..." Masato closed fist bumped softly over the blond's chest as his lips formed the gentlest smile ever. "You are free. Thank you for keeping your promise until the end."

As the blue haired male removed his hand from his body, Ren understood finally: this was the true end of their unique relationship. All the fights, all the shared words and smiles, all the shared moments they had had this whole time were now part of the past. It was all over even without starting as it was supposed to.

"Yeah. You too, Hijirikawa." Ren said trying his hardest to suppress the unexpected will to shed tears. He never thought that would happen to him. "Take care okay? See you."

"Hum. Goodbye, Jinguji." Masato said, finally grabbing his things and heading to the required place where he should be to leave.

Ren's eyes widened bit by bit as his heart beat painfully against his chest as if it was being tightly squeezed by someone. It was unbearably painful seeing Hijirikawa's figure disappearing from his view with such unbelievable words.

"'Goodbye' huh? So this is really the end, Hijirikawa." Any ray of hope that still remained inside him, was easily crushed yet again. "If I knew things would end up like this, I'd have make you mine by force. How pathetic, tch." Ren walked in the opposite direction to where Hijirikawa had headed, finally giving up as he knew that there was no way back anymore.

"What was that song chibi-tan wrote like...? If I'm not wrong it's something like:

'You're vanishing toward the distance.
You're leaving me,

And the night is perfectly blurring this time around too.

I shouldn't cry.
I shouldn't cry.
But the truth is I wanna say it.
"Don't go!" '

Pfft! It's so pathetic. How can this depressing song fit this situation so well? I dunno if chibi-tan can see the future."

Ren clenched his fists as tightly as he could, hurting himself even, and put them inside his pockets one more time. He would control himself. He was not a fucking girl to cry over nothing. He had suffered enough in the past with Sakura, so he didn't want to suffer all over again because of the blue haired teen. He should have never gotten involved with that idiot. Who told him to succumb to his damn geometry teacher's words in first place? If he had ignored everything since the beginning, Ren would have never fallen so hard for Hijirikawa Masato. But now was too late to complain. The done, done was and no one could do anything to go back to the past.

"Tch, this is pathetic." He wanted to cry so much, yet he wouldn't do it; at least until he was at home, lying down on the bed where he used to sleep with the blue haired teen he loved so much and whom had abandoned him. Perhaps then he would finally give in and cry until his heart was content. However, for now, Ren would suppress his painful and unwanted tears.

About the song Ren sings to himself by the end of the chapter... The song is "Ikanaide" and the version I've listened, and that I believe it fits better this chap and Ren's situation, is by Fagagie. I'd give you a link if ff allowed me to do it -.- but if you're interested in searching by yourselves then just youtube this and click on the first video or any video with Eng subs ^^ - Fagagie - Ikanaide (piano version)

Anyways, once again I apologize for the chapter and I promise I'll try to compensate you on the last one!

All in all, thanks for reading this neverending chap until the end =')

Bye~Bye, ⌒ヽ(*'､^*)chuu*