One week later

I haven't seen Mac a lot these days… First, she got tested for the transplantation, and was a compatible donor. Then, she had to talk to her parents and brother. She told me her parents weren't really happy about her decision, but that they understood that she had to do it. They are supporting her in her decision. Dick had a rough time, when he heard that Mac had been switched at birth. Maybe because at one time he was (probably) in love with Madison? I don't know. I can't seem to be able to think clearly anymore. Anyway, he seems even more in love then he already was. That's a good thing. About Madison? Nobody has seen her or heard from her all week. She's hiding in her bedroom. I would have thought she would want to at least meet her biological parents and her brother, but that's just one more proof that I'll never be able to understand that girl. Lauren is getting a new kidney in 3 days… Just enough time for Mac to prepare some stuff… She's has to stay in bed for a while to recover. They Sinclair's offered to pay for everything, including one of the best rooms of the hospital and everything Mac could need. It seems logic they pay for the operation, but her parent's clearly weren't happy about the everything she could need. I can easily imagine what they're thinking… Now that everyone knows that Mac is in fact their daughter, that they want to give her everything she wants, that they're rich while Mac's parents aren't. But enough about the Mac situation. I haven't heard about Duncan all week… Maybe he's hiding too. I'm a little bit sad not to have seen Lilly. That girl has already made me love her! Logan doesn't talk about him anymore… I think he's trying to pretend he never came back, which is perfect for me.

It was the middle of the night, like almost 4 am, when I woke up from a terrible nightmare. Normally, I wake up screaming, but not this time…

"Logan, Logan?" I said to wake up my boyfriend, which was sleeping like a baby right next to me. If I don't talk, now, I'm going to freak out even more than I'm already doing, and I do bad things when I'm freaking out.

"What?" He finally answers with his eyes closed.

"I can't do it…" Try to calm down Veronica… Calm down… Breath in, breath out… Breath in, breath out… It's not working!

"Do what?" I think the tone of my voice made him alert… Something was going wrong and he knew it.

"I can not have this baby!" No way! I can't have this baby now! I'm in college! I don't have a job and I'm barely even 20! I can't have a baby!

"Okay, just try to calm down…" Calm down? Really? If that would work, I would be calm don't you think!

"I will not have this baby! No way I'm giving birth now! This baby will have to stick inside for like one or maybe two more years!" It wasn't the first time I panicked about going in labor… At all, but the further I get in my pregnancy, the more I panic. I'll not have this baby! Not now! I've been through enough pain in my life.

"Fine, than don't." don't? Like I can prevent myself from having that baby!

"Don't? Like if it was that easy!"

"Veronica… Look at me." He said taking my face into his hands. "Look at me." He repeated so I lock my eyes to his. "You are going to calm down, try to breath like me." Breathe like him. I can do that… I follow his lead for five minutes, till I'm less freaking out and more calm. "That's better. Now tell me, what exactly are you freaking out about?" Well, the good old badass Veronica seems real far now doesn't she?!

"It's going to hurt, a lot." That's number one on my list.

"I know, if I could give birth for you, I'll do it… But I can't. So I'll do my best to make it as easy as possible for you… Or at least let you scream and insult me, and maybe even punch me in the face if you feel like it." He made a slight smile appear on my face.

"You'll let me punch you?"

"At least, we'll both be in pain that way…" It's a sweet thought, but I'm not going to do it.

"I know people use to say that women have always have to go through that, and I'm sure that doesn't make you feel any better. What could make you feel better is to know that you'll be under painkillers… and the face of this little baby when it will be on this world. You have to focus on that. Not on the pain, but on the fact that you'll finally be able to look at that perfect little girl and hold her in your arms. That's what you have to focus on, nothing else." That does make me feel better. "Anything else?" So much, but they seem less important now.

"What if I suck at being a mom?"

"First of all, you don't suck at anything… And I've seen you around kids… You're great. Just think about how you were with Lilly. You are already a good mom, you just need the child that goes with being one."

"What if I ended up being an alcoholic that's cheating on her husband?" Like my own mom… She wasn't even sure I was my father's daughter!

"You don't drink, and if you do never more than one glass… And who would cheat on me? Have you seen how sexy I am?" And there my face started to smile again…

"You are pretty sexy…" And a real beast when you need to.

"See, who would cheat on me?" A dumbass…

"Not me." Why would I cheat on the guy I love?

"You're not your mom Veronica… Just like I'm not my father." He says that when a few months ago he wasn't even sure to be a good father… He grew up, and fast. "Now, I'm going to take you in my arms, you'll close your eyes and try to sleep." And while he said that he let go of my face to take me in his arms. My head resting on his shoulder, while I try to find a comfortable position to stay like this.

"Thanks Logan." I don't know many people I can wake up in the middle of the night just because I'm having doubts. I closed my eyes and let myself go. "I love you…" I whisper already falling back to sleep.

"I love you too Veronica. More than anything." And with that, I fell back asleep.

I woke up before Logan, he was still holding me in his arms while sleeping. How cute, he had held me close all night long. After what I did tonight, I felt like doing nice for my man. I slowly, really slowly, got out of bed so I wouldn't wake him up. After putting up a robe and some socks, I had cold feet, I went to the kitchen to prepare some pancakes and some bacon. I had been careful enough and closed the bedroom door before turning the radio on. I don't know what woke him up first, the smell of the pancakes and bacon or the music… Or maybe it's because of me singing along with the music.

"Good morning!" I said all smiling while I serve him a plate of pancakes/bacon along with a cup of coffee… The smell of coffee, its soooooo goooood. Researches say I'm authorized to have one cup of coffee a day without doing anything wrong to the baby… But still, if two cups are bad, one cup can't be good.

"Okay, who died?" He asks me taking a seat around the table.

"Oh, because I can't bake you breakfast just because I feel like it?"

"Sure…" Now that Logan is served, I took some pancakes for myself and sit next to Logan.

"About tonight…" I'll have to say something about it anyway.

"Don't bother… I get it. I've read somewhere that every woman is scared during their first pregnancy. Besides, you'll have to expulse a little human being, not easy…" Expulse… Not great.

"Yeah, don't say expulse ever again… Please…" To expulse… I hate that.

"Of course. Thanks for breakfast, it's delicious." Thank you.

"After what I did, I figured I had to do something to thank you… You were great." What? He was wasn't he? Why shouldn't I tell him?

"So, how is my baby girl doing?" Is he talking about me or the baby?

"She's sleeping, now that I'm awake, she sleeps… So young and already doing her best to annoy me." I think she's started to sleep when I song along with the music…

"Already like her mommy!" Haha, not funny… He's right, but not funny.

"You'll notice that instead of taking my car keys and ran away, I woke you up and talked…" I did something that I would have never done a few months ago… Logan isn't the only one to have changed…

"I know… And you'll notice I did my best to help you, to be there and held you in my arms all night long…"

"I know… Did I mention how awesome you've been?"

"Maybe… I can't remember."

"You're awesome." I repeat.

"You're not bad yourself!" He said kissing me gently, between to pancakes.

"I'm going to go check on Mac later today… Wanna come? I think Dick is going to be there." Dick has become a little bit more mature since he's with Mac, but still, it's easier to be around him when Logan is there to keep him busy.

"Of course…"

End of this chapter… I hope you'll enjoy this one as much as the others. Some more LoVe in this chapter… Don't forget to review!