Howdy readers! This might be the last update for a while, so enjoy it, while I travel Europe for three weeks! Jealous? I leave on Monday, so I will be MIA from that day onwards. Here's chapter 11!

I am the jealous type. I'm also ashamed to admit that. I get jealous over all sorts of stupid things. I was so annoyed when Melissa preferred Candace over me, I'm secretly super jealous of Adyson, Ginger, and all of the "perfect" relationships so many of my friends have, and I turn green when the boys steal my Phineas time.

Green made me think of Ferb and that brought me back to the topic at hand. And it reminded me that I really am a mess. Not the put-together girl I pretend to be, but a complete mess.

I really really want to say that I had fun with Phineas yesterday. There's no reason why I shouldn't have had fun. It was another "practically a date" moment. It was no spaghetti dinner, but it was just him and me all day. But it was just another one of his master plans that I was a part of. Yet, there was something unusual about it. Even though Phineas was so focused on finding a nice girl for Ferb, he was being extra friendly and seemed to be enjoying the fact that it was just the two of us. Maybe Phineas really does like me after all.

But, like I said, not a real fun day. He was on the phone half the time, and then we went out on a foot search for our mystery girl. I don't want to say we settled for Wynne, but she was the first girl who wasn't horrible or weird.

Wynne was so sweet and fun, almost like Phineas in a way, with their red hair and chatty personalities. He seemed to really like her. Not enough to ask her out, of course. Phineas has a one-track mind, and it was set to "find Ferb a girlfriend mode", and it would not be changing any time soon. I wonder how I would have felt if Phineas did like her. I would probably be super jealous. I mean, based on today…

After we met Wynne, Phineas said that he would tell Ferb all about the date they would be going on. That left me to go home, by myself. As I was sitting alone in my room, I couldn't help thinking of Ferb, again.

I had pretty much been all over him recently. I would be in control of him from the moment he stepped in to the second before he left. Maybe it's just our personalities; I can be bossy and Ferb can be submissive. But I knew the real reason was that I had to have my fill of him, from the kisses to the sex, before he got a girlfriend and our deal was up.

I didn't want that to happen. But I couldn't let down Phineas and I couldn't be sleeping with Ferb after he started dating a nice girl I had recently befriended. That wasn't right.

And then, suddenly, I wasn't thinking of me and Ferb, I was thinking of Wynne and Ferb. Being the perfect couple and all. I had no doubt that he would like her. And then I'd have to look at another sickeningly perfect romance between my friends. That would feature somebody else with Ferb.

And then the green monster reared its ugly head. I couldn't help it! At this point, I know I love Phineas, but I'm sure people get jealous when their friend-with-benefits is in the arms of another, right?

So I had pulled an immature stunt and actually followed Ferb out on his date. And I had gotten caught. If I was actually smart, I would've grabbed one of those ninja suits from Phineas.

I hadn't even known where to go after running out like that. I just kept walking with my head down. Why? Because I felt tears starting to come out of my eyes. I had no reason to even be crying. I was just a huge baby! This was the EXACT same way I had felt when I saw Phineas with Mystery Minka.

I had ended up at the park. I know people say the city park is never a good place to be at night, but I didn't care. I mean, there were streetlights and stuff. I just plopped myself down on a park bench. I had some thinking to do. I had to figure out if I was jealous because the boys had relationships and I didn't, OR because I wanted to be in a relationship with one of those said boys. I definitely want to be dating Phineas, and I don't want to be dating Ferb. But then why did I feel so upset that I had to follow him on this date?

Since I know I obviously don't love Ferb, I think I'm jealous because I don't want him getting a girlfriend and being in a happy relationship, while I rust away with no Phineas as a boyfriend and no Ferb as a friend with benefits. That must be it.

Now I just felt kind of bad. I had totally embarrassed myself and I was sitting all alone in a dark park. I sniffed loudly. Suddenly, I heard footsteps. Oh no, I was a girl all alone at night! Those Fireside self-defense classes better come in handy now.

A shadowy figure was walking up to me. I was terrified until I saw his face. Ferb.

"Always sneaking up on me." I said flatly. He walked over and gestured towards the empty spot on the bench next to me, asking if he could sit there. "Whatever." I sighed.

"Are you alright?" He asked.

I exploded. "Am I? I have no clue! I spend the whole day with Phineas, 'desperately' searching for a new girlfriend for you, and then, something possesses me to sneak over there and spy on you two for no real reason!"

He half-smiled. "So you were possessed?"

"Stop it! You act like you're Mr. Cool, Mr. Hilarious, Mr. Perfect! You obviously can't relate to a girl who has clearly lost her mind!" I was suddenly crying again.

"Isabella…" Ferb sighed and pulled me into his arms.

"I'm losing my mind." I muttered. "I've been trying SO hard, for SO long, to get the my guy, my Phineas, that I can't handle happy couples. And if you become one, you'll be abandoning me." I wouldn't just be abandoned by my FWB or my buddy, I'd lose the only kindred spirit I have. Ferb understood. He had the exact same love problems I had. And if Ferb never gets Vanessa, then I'll never get Phineas.

Ferb sighed and seemed to think for a minute. "Let me do something for you."

"I already owe you for a billion things." I complained.

"I want to ask Phineas to go out with you." He said.

"What!" I gasped.

"I'm not going to tell him you're in love with him. Just let me phrase it in such a way that you two go out together."

"But we've done that, and he barely acknowledges the fact that I'm a girl." I whined.

"But I've been noticing things. He seems to want to be with you more now than ever before. You two are even conspiring behind my back." He joked.

I didn't want this to happen. But I trusted Ferb. "Okay." He got up and we both started walking out of the park.

"And don't ever be jealous." Ferb said.

"What?" I said.

"Phineas, Baljeet, Buford, the Fireside girls, me, and everybody else would be a mess without you. No other girl will ever be my Isabella."

Well, now what? Will Phineas fall for Isabella? Will Ferb end up with Wynne? Has Isabella lost her mind? In Europe, will I come across a group of Canadian college students, with Dylan as the most popular among the group? And will ANYBODY realize their true feelings? All your questions... won't be answered for a long time... so, ponder it by yourself.

Anywho, please review. And also, PM and tell me if any really good stories, Ferbella or others, get published while I'm gone.

Wuv, Silver