I had some trouble with the last update. Did anybody else get two alerts? That's why I waited a while to post this.
I agreed to be friends with benefits with Ferb… again. It was completely nutty. He had been begging me to talk with him, specifically about our relationship and what happened that night. I don't know what I was expecting him to say. It had been filling me with the worst kind of confusion since the moment Ferb had shown up at my apartment at midnight. I had always tried to define my relationship with Phineas, and with Ferb I never had. I sort of avoided it. And we had been avoiding it. We fixed Vanessa and her fiancé, and never had that talk. And when we finally did, he said he wanted to be friends with benefits.
I had no idea what to feel. Would things go back to normal? Could things go back to normal? Of course they couldn't. The girls would always think of me as the one who has a fuck buddy now. The guys would always think of me as the one Ferb scored before them. And Phineas… I would go from his best friend to the one who sleeps with his brother. I'm pretty sure I couldn't win. Ferb would be treated like a hero and I would be treated like a slut. Stupid male-dominated society.
Not to mention Vanessa herself said Ferb was in love with me. The same girl I started hating for being his declared that he was mine. Is he in love with me? Can we ride off into the sunset together? If only it was that simple. But it wasn't. All I feel is confusion.
Suddenly, I felt a light nip at my ear, reminding me I was lying in Ferb's bed right now. His hand brushed against my breasts and I shuddered. My shirt was so thin; you could probably see everything through it. He peered at me, questioning me with his eyes.
"Something's wrong." He whispered.
"What!" I gasped. "Nothing's wrong!" If that stupid boy thought I could go back to life without him, it would be completely my fault. "I'm just over-thinking this." I whimpered. I ferociously kissed him, one hand gripping his hair and the other tracing his chest.
Then, the door opened. I shaded my eyes because the other room was so bright. "Phineas!" Ferb growled loudly.
"Sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry!" Phineas squealed; though each sorry got softer as he left, they continued as if he was still talking to us from the other room.
I rolled off Ferb and slid my hand down my face in exasperation. "This wasn't our best idea." He sat up next to me. "At least we're fully clothed." I pulled my unruly hair into a truly messy bun.
"Are you troubled about something, Isabella? You said nothing was wrong, but you can tell me if something is." He said.
Well, all our friends know about us, which is making everything awkward. See what just happened? Also, I am in love with you, but you won't commit. You're sending me mixed messages. And… so am I. I'm terrified of commitment. And change. We won't let this relationship happen… but I don't know if I can live without it.
"I…" I didn't know what to say. "I was offered a promotion a little while ago." I hadn't told anyone about this yet. He arched an eyebrow in curiosity. "I turned it down."
"Why?" He asked.
"It would take me out of Danville. I don't want to leave." I said sadly.
"You might regret this." He said softly.
"No, I won't. I have everything here." I said. "I could only leave if I had absolutely no loose ends here. If I had nobody I loved." He kissed me so gently. My heart fluttered. "I guess we have to go out there." I whispered, referring to the second Phineas break-in. Ferb scowled and nodded.
Everything was becoming more and more awkward and later today, we were going to have to face ALL our friends.
"Ha ha ha ha!" Buford belted out so loudly I'm sure everyone in the whole building heard him. "So you gave her the idea?"
"Yup." Milly said affirmatively.
"So you basically set this whole thing up? I think I love you." Buford joked. He crushed the soda can he had been drinking and aimed it at the garbage can. He missed.
"This is my home, Buford, not a pig pen." Baljeet complained.
"At least Phineas knows now." Adyson said coolly, as she filed her nails. "So it's not a secret anymore."
"I sort of kind of knew." Phineas whined. "I caught him at the gym."
"No, I caught him." Said Buford. "He was sneaking past you every night, Dinnerbell!"
Apparently, Ferb and I were the greatest topic to ever exist, because that was all everybody could talk about. It was probably the whole reason that we were all hanging out right now. Nobody once seemed to care about how Ferb and I felt. It almost felt like they invited us out of courtesy, despite their need to humiliate us. Ferb had gotten up a little while ago. I forgot his excuse, but whether he was going to the bathroom or the kitchen, he seemed to have disappeared fifty minutes ago. Did he sneak back to his apartment or straight up climb down the fire escape? I was thinking I would have to do the same. Nobody had turned my way or spoken directly to me, but I was turning redder and redder, desperately hoping I wouldn't be called out directly.
"I can't believe this has actually been happening." Buford said.
Gretchen chewed her nails and nodded. "I know, me too." Because she's my best friend and he's one of her exes… I hate my life.
"He said it happens a lot. Like, A LOT. I can't go into his room anymore. I've been banned." Phineas stated simply.
"She said he was the best she's ever had." Holly said, like a verbal middle finger directed at Phineas. I cringed.
"Well, as long as nobody gets preggers…" Adyson said.
"Whoa guys!" Phineas made a face. Poor boy, he really shouldn't be here, he can't handle it.
I know I can't. This was positively mortifying. I had to make a break for it. I sort of rolled off my seat and tiptoed past Ginger. I think she was the only one to see me, and I could trust her. At least I hope I can.
I made it to the hallway and almost kissed the ground. "Thank God!" I said, just relieved to be out of there. I heard an almost silent chuckle, and saw Ferb. "I knew it!" I gently shoved him in the chest. "You ditched me and escaped."
"Did it get as bad as I thought it might?" He asked.
I glared at him. "Ferb, they were trying to decide whether or not we do it doggie style."
He winced. "And the verdict?"
"No. 'Because Ferb is too gentle and Isabella is too prudish'." I quoted. "Which totally isn't true." He gave me this evilly sexy look. "No! Oh God, are you telling me you want to…"
Ferb wrapped his arms around me. "Mmm, I'm not telling you anything specifically."
I laughed. "You still ditched me." I said.
"I know. But it's terribly awkward. The girls stare at me and Phineas still hasn't got a clue about anything when it comes to women."
"You are so right." I said. "Now that we've escaped together, they're just going to assume we're fooling around. Ferb, I don't want to be the group slut!" I realized this was my absolute biggest problem with our current arrangement. Ferb wanted everything to go back to normal, but it couldn't now that the secret was out. He had to either date me or stay away from me. Those were the only options.
"You aren't. Isabella, everything is going so perfectly. Why are you still upset?"
Why are you still happy? The way Ferb was talking... how could he be so happy? Nothing had affected him. Besides being slightly irritated, Phineas finding out about us hadn't upset him. Our friends gossiping hadn't either. Our up-in-the-air relationship status hadn't. Ferb had basically been walking on air from the second he broke up with Vanessa. What's the matter with him?
Ferb is in love with you, and he's always been in love with you.
I really want finish this story, so I'll mostly be writing this month instead of updating. This would also be a great time for artists to come out of the darkness and draw more Ferbella! Anyway, please please review to help not only motivate me but also to stimulate ideas for the ending chapters.