To Hell with love fades mine has – chapter 4
DPOV
What did just happen? I kissed Rose. That was an amazing kiss. Wow. The feeling of her lips against mine is just perfect. We are made for each other, we're soul mates. I will do anything in my power to get my Roza back. I'm such an idiot! Why did I tell my Roza that I don't love her anymore? WHY? After Roza ran out of the cabin, I stayed there. It was my job and I had to do it. I might as well just do Roza's shift as well, by the looks of it; I don't think she's coming back.
My shift ended two hours later. I was going to the court's café to get something to eat. I needed a strong black coffee to get rid of all the stress. I took my coffee and went to guardian's quarters to get some work to do. I needed to get my mind off Roza and what happened today. On my way, I ran into Christian and Guardian Castile. They both had murderous looks on their faces. I realised tat Roza probably told them what happened in the cabin. I sighed internally. I only kissed her to prove that I was going to win her back no matter what. I gave a slight, formal nod to Castile and Christian.
"Guardian Castile, Lord Ozera" With that I left. As I was leaving them, I heard them whispering. I could only care less.
As I entered the Guardian quarters, I couldn't help but see My Roza talking to Adrian-fucking-Ivashkov. I just kept staring at him because before I knew what was happening, I was being dragged away. Dragged away than non other than Castile and Christian. We entered a room. The room looked really familiar, until I realised that it was my room.
"Sit" Christian ordered me to sit on the couch. I did as I was told.
"What am I-" I was cut off by Christian
"What were you thinking when you kissed her today? Tell me!" He bellowed. Eddie stood and stared at me. I could tell that it took everything in him not to start fighting with me.
"What do you think? I love her! And I'm going to prove it and make her mine" I said as I jumped to my feet. Christian took a step back so he and Eddie were now standing together, side by side.
"Now, please, get the hell out of my room"
They hesitated, but left. As soon as the door closed behind them, I collapsed onto my bed. I'm such an idiot for telling Roza that I don't love her anymore. None of that is true. I love Roza so much that it hurts. I remember looking at Roza in the cabin today. After she broke the kiss, I saw lust and hunger, which were then quickly changed into sadness and loneliness.
I need to get all this steam out of my system. The best remedy – a good workout. I change into my workout clothes and head towards the gym. I soon as I enter the gym, I sensed Roza was around. Yes, I can literally sense her. As if on cue, she exits the weights room from my right. I swear, my heart skipped a beat. She looked like a goddess. She was wearing red tank top, which showed the right amount of cleavage, and black shorts, which suited her perfectly. She looked sexier than ever especially with her long legs. Sadness washes over features. I need to talk to her. I need her to know that I still love her. Roza starts to walk away from.
"Roz-se" She flinched. I know how much she loves her Russian nickname. I have feeling that she's going to kill me. She stopped in her tracks. I took that as a sign to continue talking, so I did.
"I was wondering if I could talk to you." I said hesitantly. I felt as if I was asking her out on a date. My hands were soaking from sweat. I had to careful with what words I chose. You never what could set Rose off.
"Haven't you said enough in the last couple of days Dimitri? Don't you think I've gone through enough? Huh? Answer me!" Her voice got louder with every word she spoke. Venom was dripping off ever word she spoke. She was angry. It was self-explanatory. If I were her, I would be angry as well.
"I just wanted to say… that…" I didn't know what to say. I had to say sorry to her. But how? I was scared. Scared of a 18-year-old. An 18-year-old who happened to be the love of my life. Way to go Dimitri.
"Shut it, Belikov! I have had absolutely enough of your shit, okay?! Just leave me alone! All I ever wanted was to be loved. It did it happen but you took my heart and ripped it apart into little tiny pieces! I hope you're happy!" I have never seen this side of Rose before. It reminded so much of the cabin, the cabin in which we finally gave in our feelings and made love for the first time.
"Rose, all I wanted to say was that I'm sorry. I truly am. I should've never said that I don't love you anymore, because I do. All I can think about is you. I know that you're probably never going to forgive me for what have done to you. You're right, I took your heart and ripped it up into tiny little pieces. I hope that someone will come along and mend it. Someone who will treat you better than I did. I'm really sorry Roza. I should've never said that. I'm so sorry." By the end of my little speech I was staring at the ground, at the verge of tears. No woman has ever made me cry. And here I am. Before I knew what was happening, I was on my knees sobbing with my face in my hands. I could feel Roza stare at me.
CPOV
I though I would visit Aunt Tasha. I haven't seen her in a while. I just can't believe that she killed the Queen. Yes, I know that she hated Tatiana, but that's doesn't mean that you can just kill whoever pisses you off. And like the cherry on top, she used Rose's stake to kill her. Obviously the first suspect was Rose, but that was until they went through the CCTV footage. I really want to ask her why she blamed it all on Rose. When she came to the Academy, they seemed to get along pretty well, but then I don't know what happened, but I feeling that it involves Belikov. I don't think Aunt Tasha like's Belikov, romantically. But I can be wrong.
Rose is like my little sister that I never had and vice versa. And what Aunt Tasha did, I don't think that I'll ever be able to forgive her. I feel somewhat safe now that she is locked up. I know that I shouldn't say things like that. A half of me is sad and disappointed in Tasha because she's the only family I have and she's locked up in jail. The other half is happy that now she is less dangerous.
Tasha is locked up at the Court jail, for now. A trial is going to be held and that will decide her fate. I just want her to stay away from my friends, especially Lissa and Rose. Lissa because, well, its self-explanatory. Rose because she's had so much stuff going on her life. Such travelling half way across the world to find out how to restore a strigoi. The strigoi – Belikov. I felt like setting his godamned ass on fire when I saw Rose crying because he told her that he doesn't love her anymore. I realised that he didn't mean that because you can literally see love, affection and lust radiating off him when he talks or is around Rose. That's the same with Rose. I know it sounds cheesy, but I can tell. And so can Lissa and Adrian.
I feel sorry for Adrian. The poor guy. But I can be sure that he will never leave Rose, because if he will I will make sure that he will regret making that decision.
Before I know it, I reached my destination, the prison area. It was located right in the middle of the court. Weird, I know. I enter the place and the guardians know that I'm here to meet my aunt. They all know me. Who wouldn't know the Ozera's? After all the disgrace they have caused to the Moroi world? First my parents and now my only favourite relative.
The guardians take me to a cell. A cell, which was the farthest away from all the other ones. I stood in front of the bars. Aunt Tasha's back was to me. Thankfully the guardians had given us some time alone. I needed some answers.
"Aunt Tasha?" I called out her.
"Chrissy?" I could tell she was surprised that I came to meet her. I've been very busy lately. The people here have put a restriction on me visiting Tasha. I am only allowed her to visit once a month. Its horrible. But she did deserve it.
She turned around to see me and her face lit up like a Christmas tree. I examined her. Her hair was a bird's nest, the clothes look and smelled horrific, and her nails had dirt in them. She got herself into this.
"Why did you Aunt Tasha? Why?" I demanded. I'm pretty straightforward and I like to get to my point as quick as possible.
"What do you mean Chrissy?" Ah, she was playing the 'innocent' game. Not happening.
"Don't bullshit me Aunt Tasha. You know exactly what I mean. Yes, you hated Tatiana for always humiliating us and making a new law for the dhampirs. But that does not mean that gives you the right to go kill her! I know there is a real reason behind all of this. Why did you blame it on Rose? What has she done? Now would be a good time to tell me." I snarled.
"You're right. Yes there's a reason. Chrissy, if you haven't realised, Rose is a slutty –whore. She took my Dimka away from me! I could've given him so much! But he chose to go after that slut. I should tell Liss to keep an eye on her. You never know, she might take you from Liss." I can't believe she just said that. It's all because Dimitri chose Rose over Aunt Tasha? Jesus Christ!
"So, you are trying to say that you hate Rose because Dimitri chose her over you? You know what? I can't believe you! I know that you would do crazy things to get what you want, but this, is the lowest of the lowest." I said while I took some steps back. "Oh and for your kind information, Rose is like a sister to me. She knows me better than you do. You come anywhere near her, I will make sure that you don't leave alive." I said with all the sarcasm I had. Man, it felt good.
"Christian! Listen to yourself! You're choosing that blood whore over your family?" She yelled. I could see the anger in her eyes.
"Enough! I have had enough of you Aunt Tasha! Rose has been more of a family to me than you've ever been! And she is not a blood whore .You are the most selfish person I have ever met! You stay away from her. If I see you near her, I won't hesitate to set you on fire." With that I left. I was trembling terribly. I went back to Lissa and my room to see her sitting on the bed, reading a magazine.
"Christian, oh my god, are you okay?" she must've noticed me trembling. I was staring at ground. She put one arm my neck and used her other hand to lift chin so I could see meet her eyes. Those big, beautiful jade green eyes, filled with worry. I could feel tears swelling up in my eyes. She puts her arms around me and hugs tightly. I felt a bit better. I bury my face in her neck.
"Do you want to talk about it?" I nod. She leads the way to our bed and motions me to sit down. I did as I was told. I told her everything. Why Tasha – I don't think I will call her aunt anymore – killed the queen. And her jealousy.
"Oh my goodness. Chris, I'm sorry babe. Is there anything you want me do?" I nod.
"Just hold me through the night." I leaned into give her a kiss and it soon deepened. You can pretty much guess what happened after that.