RPOV

I love him. And I hate myself for it. Ugh why is my life so complicated? Why was he so difficult? I was dealing with heartbreak. And to do deal with anything bad, all I need is a good workout.

I ran around the track and all the other normal things that I do in my workout. I was planning to leave in 10 mins, when the scent hit me. I immediately tensed up. Oh good god, fuck my life.

I exited the weights room, and there he was, standing in his glory. I need to stay away from him or else I'm going to crack and end up crying. I turned the other way and walked away.

"Roz-se" No. Just no, please. He was about to call me Roza, but stopped because he knew that I was going to get pissed off. I stopped in my tracks, but didn't turn around to face him.

"I was wondering if I could talk to you." He was really hesitant, as if I were about crack or something.

"Haven't you said enough in the last couple of days Dimitri? Don't you think I've gone through enough? Huh? Answer me!" my voice got louder and colder by the end. It was so cold, that even I couldn't recognise it.

"I just wanted to say… that…" He was speechless. Dimitri is one of those guys who like to get straight to the point. And here was, completely and utterly speechless. There is this emotion in his eyes, which I can't recognise. No way. Is Dimitri, scared? Of me? Wow, way to go Hathaway!

"Shut it, Belikov! I have had absolutely enough of your shit, okay?! Just leave me alone! All I ever wanted was to be loved. It did it happen but you took my heart and ripped it apart into little tiny pieces! I hope you're happy!" I wish I had never said that. The look on Dimitri's face was horrific. It killed me. At that moment in time, I wanted to forget everything and start from the beginning with him. Only if he wasn't this difficult.

"Rose, all I wanted to say was that I'm sorry. I truly am. I should've never said that I don't love you anymore, because I do. All I can think about is you. I know that you're probably never going to forgive me for what have done to you. You're right; I took your heart and ripped it up into tiny little pieces. I hope that someone will come along and mend it. Someone who will treat you better than I did. I'm really sorry Roza. I should've never said that. I'm so sorry." The end of his speech broke me. He was staring at the ground and soon fell to his knees crying. Oh, how it killed me to see him this way. But I can't forgive him for what he did to me. I slowly back away and ran out of the gym, leaving Dimitri behind.

I ran to my room and cried the rest of that day. Everyone, even Lissa came to get me out of my room. I just couldn't do it. I would only open my door when they brought me food. I was startled by a knock on my door. I thought that it was Lissa, but checking through the bond, it told me that she was with Christian. I opened my door to see that it was Eddie.

"Rose. How you doing?" Ah, Eddie. My brother from another mother.

"I've been better. What brings you here?" I asked him as he motioned him to come in inside. He stepped inside.

"Just thought that I would drop buy to give you your daily treat," Eddie replied with a smirk and a bag of chocolate donuts and éclairs.

"Gee, thanks Ed" I said as I hugged him. We talked a bit more before he left. I started reading a magazine to spend my time. It was around 6pm (nocturnal schedule) and I decided to get something to eat. My phone rang before I could even exit my room. It was the room's phone. It hardly ever rang; I thought it didn't even work.

"Hello, Guardian Hathaway speaking" I answered professionally.

"Roza?" I think my heart skipped a beat. But it wasn't Dimitri's voice. It was Olena.

"Olena?" I asked hesitantly. Why was she calling me? Not that I mind, but I wasn't expecting her to call.

"Oh, Roza, my child. How are you?" It felt good to hear her voice after such a long time. She was like my mother.

"I'm good, Olena. What happened? Are you ok? Is everyone Ok?" She laughed.

"Yes, everything is fine Roza. I just had to ask this to you. Is it true?" She was scared. Scared of what, I had no idea.

"What's true Olena? What are you talking about?"

"Dimitri. I'm talking about him. Is it true? Did you change him back?"

"Yes, it's true. He's a dhampir again" I continued before she started speaking again. "I know that you probably don't believe me. But trust me on this, I was there. He's not a strigoi anymore." I said with all honesty.

"Oh, Roza. Of Course I believe you. I'm not doubting you. When you came to Russia, I could see it in your eyes how much you loved and cared about him. I believe you. Your love is strong."

I sob came through my throat and I made a funny noise.

"Roza? Are you ok?" Tears were streaming down my cheeks. I quickly wiped them away and replied.

"Yeah, I'm sorry. I just… yeah. Sorry"

" We both know you're lying Roza. Now, tell me. What happened? It has to do with Dimitri doesn't it?" She knows me too well. Even my own mother wouldn't know me this well.

"Mhmm" I didn't want to say anything.

"Oh, you poor child. What did my son do now?"

I told her everything. And I mean everything.

"Well, I'm very sorry, but I have to go now. I need go look for Viktoria and Paul. Oh and yes, I almost forgot. Yeva, Paul and I are coming to Court next week. We have to see Dimka with our eyes. Take care Roza." With that she left. This is going to be so much fun! I should tell Dimitri. I went to the bathroom to freshen up. I came outside to a knock on my door. I opened it to see a Guardian. I'm not sure who he was. Guardian Cooper I think?

"Guardian Cooper. What can I do for you?" I read the little label, which was pinned to his jacket.

"Guardian Hathaway. I'm sure you have to talked to Mrs Belikov and her plans on coming to the court. They are going to be here next week and you are expected to show them around and help them settle in." Wait. Why me?

"I'm sorry to be rude or anything, but why me? Shouldn't Dimi- Guardian Belikov show them around, as he knows them better than I do? They are his family after all." I am so confused.

"Oh, you haven't heard?" Heard what? "It's a shame really. Well, I guess I should be running along. I've got so much stuff to do." And with that he left. Before I could even call out his name, he had rounded the corner. What did he mean by 'heard'? What the hell did I miss now?

I made my way to Dimitri's room. I knocked a couple of times before the door opened itself. The room was bare. Completely and utterly bare. The bed didn't have any sheets. The closets were open but with nothing in them. I saw the desk and a letter on it, which said "Roza" and a necklace next to it. Oh this is just fucking great! Of course, I opened it.

Dearest Roza,

I don't even know where to start. I love you so so much, that it hurts. I regret that I pushed you away. Pushing you away was the biggest mistake I have ever made. Roza, please, believe me, what I said in the church the other day was a lie. None of that was true.

I need get away from you for a while. I've caused you enough pain; please understand that. Please do not come and look for me. Hopefully Adrian will love you more than I ever could. He will give you what you want the most.

The necklace was my great-grandmother's. It was passed down to my grandmother and my mother. They would've wanted you to have this.

I love you Roza, take care.

Dimitri

I was balling my eyes out. It was my entire fault that he's gone. He left me, again. I was praying to who ever was listening to me. Please take care of my Dimitri for me. I've already caused him enough pain.

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