"I like being with you"

Entry 3- Another

You don't know this but Renji is one of my really good friends. I met him at a convention a few years back (5 to be exact) and he was there with two of his best friends. They were all in the convention hall court yard where a d.j was set up in the corner. I remember pushing through the group with my friend and we watched him dance his butt off. He is a break dancer. I had a crush on him right then.

I never went up and talked to him. So how did we become friends?

Well I was invited to a get together at one of my friends' house (I met her at a convention as well) and he just so happened to be there but I didn't recognize him at first. His black hair was gone and it was now bright red and while he was break dancing I didn't really get a chance to look at his face. He moved so fast. So when I got there she introduced me and let me just say, there will never be an awkward moment with him. He is one of those guys that can talk and talk without you even saying anything. He is so open and friendly, it was refreshing.

It wasn't until we decided to hangout for the first time, just me and him, did I realize he was that guy I seen in the courtyard. I only figured that one out because we got to talking about the convention and he was telling me all the videos he makes. When he showed me one, there it was, his black hair and it hit me. When I explained to him how I first saw him he laughed and told me it was a wig. Even though I put that together already.

So here we are, 5 years later and he is here at my house. We had this weird FwB relationship up until about a week ago when he called it off. It was just a day or so before I met the orange haired hottie. Now we try and maintain a healthy friendship.

He has two best friends, Shiba and Hisagi. They are all like brothers. They are always with each other and they get along like they've known each other their whole lives. Everytime I go over to Renji's they are there and even though I've known Renji for so long, and GLANCED at his friends that day at the convention, I was so socially awkward when I met them. Shiba gave me a lot of crap all the time because of it. I clinged and was on my phone half of the time I was there till they finished their card game and he snatched it from me.

"Stop being anti-social and get off your phone" he snapped. He made me mad. I reached for it and he only held it up higher. We were at eachothers necks for the longest time, we still are, because he pushed me to be more social with people.

If I didn't already mention, I was (still kind of am) a square. I've never watched any of the television kid shows that were/are so popular like; DragonBallZ, Yugioh, Pokemon, Sailor moon, Yu Yu Hakusho. I never went out side my room unless I absolutely needed to so needless to say, I hated being around new people. I was shy and silent the whole time. I avoided all conversations and he pushed me not to. It got me so mad.

I didn't really have a connection with Hisagi. I mean, we knew each other but I always found him extremely attractive and very intimidating because of it. He always had different girls that hit on him because of his good looks and they were all so beautiful. That alone made me back off. I knew I couldn't compete so it was always awkward when we were alone.

I wish I could say that about Shiba. I would it much rather be awkward than him picking on me.

In the long run, I was thankful to Shiba. I would never admit it but because he always PUSHED me to go to parties with them and 'be social' I met all of the friends I have now. Every single friend that surrounds me and the friends I talk about I met through them and all because Shiba pushed me out of my comfort zone.

The only person that they didn't introduce me to is my roommate, Orihime. I met her back in high school.

We were sitting in my living room, all of us had our laptops out on the table in a circle facing one another, Renji, me, Shiba, and Hisagi. Our mouses intensely clicking as he stared at our screens. As I died, I could hear the lecture coming on and sure enough. I mocked Shibas words as he yelled at me.

"Really Rukia?! Stop feeding!" He shouted. I ignored him. I didn't bother replying but Renji looked to me and said.

"It's okay Rukia, you got this" He was always positive which is what I loved about him. Even though I sucked at this game he had more confidence in me than I ever will. He always cheered me on and even though I messed up he didn't yell at me like Shiba. He told me what I did wrong and made me try again till I fixed my problem.

After we wont the match the guys just sat in front of their laptops and talked about guy stuff, I wasn't paying attention. I was looking at Renji and I felt my heart dropped a bit. I liked him a whole lot and I thought he liked me and even though he wanted to just be friends, and at the time I wanted something other than that, I knew it was going to be hard NOT to think of what we had. He is a guy though, he had no idea what I really felt or how I was thinking or anything of that sort.

He is so handsome and he came over almost every other day if I didn't have someone over. We are close and I didn't want something like this to ruin that so I put on my big girl panties and decided to rid my feelings for him. He was a friend.

Just a friend