"Maybe one day"

Entry 15- Renji and Kagome

When Renji informed me that he would be coming over later on that day, I was more than excited. I knew right away he would get along with Kagome. It was hard to get on Renji's bad side because he had seen everyone for the better person they can be. As I may have mentioned, Renji is an all around outgoing guy. He is one of those types that can strike up a conversation about anything and is ALWAYS positive. He is straightforward and blunt but in the most kindest of ways. I had never seen anything like it. When the time came, I opened the door and there he stood, soaking wet outside my front door with a case of beer and a smile plastered on his face. His energy is out of this world. He would always greet you as if he hadn't seen you in ages even though you might have seen him the day before.

He stepped inside, set down the case of beer and as Kagome came around the corner, he threw his arms around her and introduced himself right then and there, and the rest of the night was history. As I sat between the two it was like i wasn't even present, which I didn't mind at all. They were both sitting at an angle to where they faced each other, and myself, then talked about everything and anything there was. Kagome was wearing a KORN shirt that she had modified, just so it could be her own, and he complimented it and we sat there and they talked about music for an hour or so. As I gazed at the two I felt thankful. I smiled from ear to ear as I listened to their nonsense chatter about music and...me. When the time grew later and later we all found ourselves in my room, all three of us on the bed, staring at the lights in my room and the pictures pinned to my pegboard above my desk. There were only a couple empty spots but the rest was covered, from corner to corner, with pictures of my loved ones.

We smoked a lot that night and in the end, all three of us ended up passing out on my bed in all different directions. Like we had known each other our whole lives.

The week following that night was one of the best in my life. Renji was attached at our hips every waking moment he wasn't at work. Us three did everything together. We laughed about the dumbest stuff and did it a lot. We showed Kagome everything there was to see in our little town and she was interested in all of it way past my imagination. Everything I suggested we did, she was so on board as long as all three of us were together. When we remembered the photographic memories that had to be documented, it was over. We took pictured everywhere we went and made Renji take them with us, even if he was lightly embarrassed he was still as good of a sport as I know he could be. When he had suggested the goth club downtown, that was it for Kagome. I had never seen or heard her more excited in my life. I knew Renji and the guys went to it because thats what they were into, the dancing thing, but I was more of a home-body. I owned not one piece of black clothing, let alone anything remotely goth. We were to be heading out by 9pm that night and we needed to get me something "goth" to wear. Even though we had been on a time limit, it didn't stop us from goofing around. We made Renji try on ridiculous things that we had no intentions on buying and he went with it until it was time to go and after i got a dress.

That afternoon, Renji parted ways from us. He informed us that he would go back to his place to get ready, pick up the guys then we would meet at the club afterwards. The prep took forever. I would consider myself, talented, when it comes to makeup. I did it often because I had the tools for it (even though 90% of the time I was going absolutely no where) but I had no idea what to do for the gothic look. I couldn't ask Kagome for help because she took longer than I do and Orihime was at work, again. I was left to fend for myself and when I got a general idea down it came out way better than I expected. I looked completely different. Given that most of the time, because I am a home-body, I wore loose, or semi-loose clothing, It was rare to see me dressed up let alone in a completely different style than what I normally go for. I walked into the bathroom where Kagome was and, being the lesbian that she is, she looked at him as if she wanted to tear everything off me right there. I cleared my throat to get her googling eyes off my chest area and she smirked and turned back to fixing her eyebrows. I was ready and now waiting for her. She smirked at me after she was finished and the next thing we had in mind, is to drive to the club.

We found it easily and parked around back, down an alley and in a back parking lot behind the brick building. Renji, Shiba, and Hisagi was already walking down the alley being as loud as they can (as usual). Kagome was the first out and I stayed in the car to finish rolling up a joint, listening as she introduced herself and listening as Shiba, shamelessly hit on my friend. I got out the driver side and smirked as I finished twisting it up. "Shes gay jackass" The look Shiba gave me was that of a smirk.

"Oh you think cause you're wearing black you can act like a bad bitch now?" Shiba asked, amused at my attitude. I rolled my eyes and handed Kagome the Lighter and rolled up weed. Renji stepped closer as I leaned against the car, looking at my phone for messages from Ichigo. No luck. I sighed irritably and shook my head.

"Something wrong?" he asked my silently, as the other three talked among themselves. I smiled and nodded to him after looking up, into his eyes. Somehow the reassurance wasn't enough for him, we both could tell but I wasn't about to tell him about Ichigo. I didn't want anyone knowing. We dropped the subject anyway and he looked at me from top to bottom. "I've never seen you like this" he smirked nervously and I shrugged. "You should dress this way more often" He playfully nudged me then Shiba grabbed his attention by passing the joint. I looked at my friends as they laughed about something Shiba had said then started walking down the alley.

The night was a fun experience. When it was over we said our goodbyes and Kagome and I got in the car and started on our way home. As we drove past the city lights, I heard Kagome chuckle, she sighed then I felt her staring at me shortly after. I gave her a quick glance then nervously laughed, questioning the reason behind her stare.

"You remember that time I told you I was really a girl?" She asked. I laughed at her question and nodded, as if I could forget. "You weren't mad at me at all Rukia and I treated you like shit" She said softly. My face grew soft as I kept my eyes on the road, attempting to forget the times she was referring to but it was inevitable that she was going to bring them up. "I've hurt you so many times and-"

"Zavi-"

"-No. You need to know this" She said. I swallowed my thoughts and nodded.

Kagome and Sasuke were both one of the same people almost. Which is why I think they clashed so much. One thing about them is that they are stubborn. They never admit anything aloud and arent very affectionate people to begin with. They rarely apologized, if at all, and never admitted their true feelings to themselves or others for that matter so, hearing Kagome be so stern about this conversation really put me in a weird situation. I braced myself as she continued. "There have been times where I've left you, i've mistreated you and the fact that you are still by my side today makes me hate myself and everything I've done to you. I love being here Rukia. I dont want to leave I dont want to leave you and Renji" She smirked. "I'm so miserable back home and I always feel like i'm walking on glass and it amazes me that being here can make me so sure and so calm about everything I do"

That was it. That was the moment I realized I loved her. Zavier was part of me, She will forever be apart of me. I grew up with her in my life i've learned from her just like she had learned from me and at that moment I knew I wanted her in my life forever. I would be nothing without my friends, without Renji, Sasuke, Shiba, Orihime, without Zavier I would be the most miserable person in the world.

"I love you Zavier."

That next day Renji had let himself into the house and walked to the back of the apartment where he found Kagome and I taping a tone of pictures on the long empty wall in my room. All the new ones that we took from the night at the club , her past week here, and the original pictures from the Peg Board. It wasn't big enough so we were currently a mural of a bunch of pictures. I told him I had a vision to cover the whole wall with people I love and the pictures of memories I shared with them. He helped tape and was all for the idea especially because of the idea that he had and the whole reason why he was here.

The beach.

It was such a brilliant idea because we were so close to the beach and she had never been. It wasn't even a debate because at that moment we got up, got ready, and drove the hour and a half to the beach where we parked and explored the discovered yet deserted parts of the oceans short, moving through caves that were formed by many giant rocks and the giant cliff above us. We ran through the sand and even though the skies were grey and the sun was hiding behind the clouds we laughed and danced around like it was the times of our lives. I stood on the shore as they climbed on top of GIGANTIC boulders and rocks that eventually overlooked the whole ocean and cliff side. We took many pictures and after climbing up there with them, we sat and looked at the ocean, talking and laughing until it was time to head back to the car and back home. Tomorrow was Kagomes last day and as I pulled out my phone I glanced at the messages that were non existent from Ichigo. I texted him to confirm if he would come and at least meet Kagome then put my phone away so I could drive us back home.

The goodbye was so hard. We stood outside the airport with her giant suitcase at her side and standing before one another. She was off to fly back to the other side of the country again and I wasn't sure of the next time I would see her. We smiled before embracing each other tightly and staying there until we felt it was time to say bye. We wiped the tears from our eyes and chuckled lightly as she stepped back to grab her suitcase.

"Alright Yumi..." She mumbled.

"Alright Zavier..." I replied.

When I got back I walked into my room, closed the door behind me and face planted the bed, staying there till I realized I had to take off my shoes. I pushed myself up off the bed and turned around to sit on the edge and there it was. I paused and slowly stood from the bed and looked at the note taped on the back of my door. I felt my heart race and my eyes water as I noticed the black writing. I read it and sat on my bed as I read it over and over again, tears rolling down my face. I looked up and took in a deep breath before grabbing the tape from the other day and taping it to the section of the wall right above my bed.

Yumiku,

You are the best thing that's ever happened to me.

You bring me peace and happiness.

I miss you already, I promise I will be back again

-Zavier 2/10/16

Ill wait for you to come back Zavier

I miss you