Alright! Chapter 6 is finally finished! It took me like soooooooooooooo long to finish… such a short chapter…
Disclaimer: I do not own Inazuma Eleven/Go or any of the characters (Do I still have to write this thing here?)
No, Mother! I don't want to go see them! I don't like our neighbors!
Ranmaru, listen. We're going to go to the neighborhood potluck. You can avoid them if you're still angry at them, but you still have to come.
But, Mom! I don't want to even get close to them!
Ranmaru, I know you're still mad at them, but I want you to forgive them. Everyone makes mistakes and you should forgive them and move on! You shouldn't hold grudges against people. Instead, you should use all the energy from being angry to figure out what you can do to prevent them from hurting you again.
Okay… I'll try…
Ranmaru, I'm proud of you for coming to me to talk about your issues! Remember, I'll always be there for you!
… why doesn't dad ever talk to me anymore, Mom?
Hmm, your father… he… well, he doesn't want anything to do with our family anymore… that's why he left…
Does he hate us?
No, he doesn't… he just doesn't want to see us anymore… at least I think so…
… Mom, why isn't he ever here for me?
Ranmaru, he doesn't see how special you are!
I- I don't like him!
Ranmaru, you used to be very close to him, remember? And let's not judge people without seeing things for their point of view, okay?
… oh, yeah… you said that before… I'm sorry, Mom… I forgot…
It's fine, Ranmaru. Just remember, I'll always be there for you! I'll never leave you like your father did. You can always talk to me about anything that's troubling you.
Promise?
I promise!
Kirino hated these memories that kept on coming back, nonstop. "Mother… Mom… Mommy…" Kirino mumbled through tears.
Why did you have to die? Father already left me… you were all I had left… why?! Why?! WHY DID YOU HAVE TO LEAVE?!
Kirino punched his pillow with his trembling fist. "I… I just can't… I can't… I can't live without you, Mother…" He looked at the clock hanging on the wall in front of him… 1:45pm…
School… I'm already late... really late… I shouldn't bother to go now…
Kirino was feeling extremely negative at that point and it seemed as if nothing could get his mind off his mother.
I just need to forget! Forget my mother…
He lay motionless on his bed a few minutes, thinking.
I can't… I can't forget mother…
Kirino stood up and walked in circles around his room. "AAAAGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!" He screamed. He ran and jumped onto his bed. He lay face-first on his bed and didn't move from that awkward position for a couple of hours.
Meanwhile, at school, Shindou was very disturbed by Kirino's absence.
Is Kirino avoiding me? Is that why I don't see him anywhere? ….. No, that can't be it… I'm in his class, so I would have seen him by now… Why was he absent today? He's a very good student… maybe he's sick…
Shindou's head was focused on Kirino the whole entire school day. He was deep in thought when he heard someone snicker behind him.
"Thinking about Kirino-senpai, right, Shindou-senpai?" smirked Kariya, "You've been thinking about him all day today!" Kariya remarked, scornfully.
"Kariya," Shindou said, teeth clenched together forcefully, "Mind you own business." Shindou turned, facing the opposite direction.
"Well, captain," started Kariya, with a teasing tone in his voice, "I was only going to say that Kirino's strange absence is probably your fault."
Shindou's eyes went wide as he realized that what this sneaky defender was saying actually could be true.
No… It can't be… I-I didn't know…
Shindou glanced at Kariya once more before walking away, hastily.
Kirino… I scared him, didn't I? When I confessed… maybe he hates me but he doesn't want to tell me because we've been friends for such a long time!
Shindou apologized to Kirino in his mind.
Kirino… KIRINO, I'M SORRY! I'm sorry that I scared you by telling you how I truly feel…
Shindou's eyes watered up as he felt a stab of pure pain through his heart.
This, this is one-sided love… painful one-sided love…
Shindou went home that day, his mind never leaving Kirino, very, very heartbroken.
Kirino, on the other hand, wasn't thinking of Shindou at all. Not even once that day. His mind was on his mother, his mother only. Kirino's depressed state didn't get any better the next day, or the next, or the next. Kirino didn't do anything for the next few days. He couldn't, a piece of his heart ripped out like this.
I have nothing left… I'm all alone… alone…
Kirino's attitude didn't change one bit, even when the detectives told Kirino that they were coming closer and closer to finding the murderer. Kirino began to feel less and less, trying to block out memories of his mother, but blocking out many other memories in the process. He ended up blocking out not only memories of his mother, but also memories of his childhood. His memories of Shindou vanished, buried deep in his mind, trapped and locked up, never to come out again without lots of effort.
What did I used to do to cheer myself up? … sakka! I'll practice sakka!
Kirino stood up lazily and clumsily grabbed his soccer ball. He walked to the soccer-field by the riverbank and practiced. He ended up only practicing a few minutes.
This… this isn't fun… why?!
Kirino stood there, in the middle of the field.
What's wrong with me?! Why can't I cheer myself up?! Why can't I stop being so depressed?!
"AAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHH!" screamed Kirino in frustration. He stood still, not moving a muscle.
I-I feel so… numb…
Kirino gathered all his things together and headed home, no longer motivated to find a way to live happily.
When he arrived at home, he was unexpectedly greeted by his Aunt. "Welcome home, Ranmaru!"
"! Eh? Auntie, w-what are you doing here?" asked Kirino.
"Well, I'm living with you now!" Kirino's Aunt explained, "I'll be staying in the room next to yours. I am your official guardian now."
"Ah… okay…" Kirino said as he walked up the stairs to his room, impolitely 'dismissing' himself.
"Oi, Ranmaru! It's dinner time! Don't go running off to your room so quickly! You just got home!" his Aunt called after him.
Kirino paused and answered a few seconds later, "Auntie, I'm sorry but… I don't know how to say this nicely… well, I know it is dinner time… I just don't feel like eating… and I'm… depressed right now so please expect me to go to my room very often…" Kirino sighed, "And… I hope you'll understand but… seeing you reminds me of… M-Mother…"
He quickly ran up the staircase and into his room before he broke into tears.
"Why?!" Kirino sobbed, "Why, mother?"
Seeing his Aunt had triggered memories of his mother. Memory after memory was stuffed into his mind as he sat on the floor, his fists clenched. He was trying so, so hard not to scream like he was inside.
MOM! MOTHER! WHY IS MY LIFE SUCH A MESS?! MY LIFE IS SO FUCKED-UP! IT'S MEANINGLESS! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Kirino couldn't hold it in anymore. He had barely opened his mouth as his pain-filled voice filled the room. Kirino's agonizing cries resulted in his Aunt rushing into his room, to find her suffering nephew lying on the floor, unconscious.
"RANMARU!" she gasped. "Ranmaru, are you awake?! Talk to me, Ranmaru! Ranmaru! Ranmaru!" His Aunt was now bent down beside him, pulling him up to a more comfortable position. "RANMARU!"
"What have I done?" she cried, "I shouldn't have come! This is all MY fault!" Kirino's aunt cried on the floor next to Kirino. She later picked him up and laid him on his bed.
"I'm sorry, Ranmaru… I truly am sorry…" his Aunt whispered.
When Kirino finally woke up, he found himself lying on his bed, alone in his room… or so he thought. He lay there, silent, thinking about that day's activities. He sat up in his bed and shut his eyes, trying to fill his mind with peaceful thoughts to replace the chaotic ones flying around in his mind. As Kirino slowly drained all the worries from his mind, Sasha stealthily crept out of Kirino's bathroom, up to his bed. She then decided to straddle him, being her crush and all, and wrapped her arms around his neck, smiling.
"Hey, Kirino-senpai!" Sasha whispered seductively.
"E-EHHH? What are you doing, Sasha?!" Kirino demanded.
"What does it look like I'm doing, Kirino-senpai?" She asked.
"Ugh, Sasha, Please get off!" Kirino begged, struggling to get free.
"Nope! I don't wanna get off. I wanna stay!" Sasha said, very innocently.
"Sasha, Get OFF!" Kirino said, raising his voice a bit, trying to sound stubborn.
"No, I'm not getting off because I don't feel like it!" Sasha argued.
At that, Kirino gave up trying to talk her into getting off. Instead, he decided to just try and shove her off. He placed both his hands on her hips and pushed to the left.
"Oi, Kirino!" Sasha exclaimed as she clung onto Kirino. "STOP!" She yelled.
Kirino stopped a second later when Sasha began to yank on his hair.
"OWWW, SASHA!" Kirino screamed.
"It's your fault for trying to push me off!" Sasha blamed. "Humph! You're starting to annoy me."
Sasha sat, her arms crossed, on Kirino lap. She didn't move for about a minute and neither did Kirino, in fear of having his hair pulled again.
"Sasha?" Kirino whispered, "What are you doing?"
"Kirino-senpai," Sasha sighed, "You are just so ignorant, aren't you?"
She leaned forward and pressed her forehead against his, her arms still around his neck.
"Kirino-senpai," She giggled, "You're so kawaii!"
"S-Sasha," Kirino asked, uneasily, "What are y-you doing?"
Thoughts and memories were chaotically flying around his head at this point.
OMG What is she doing? This feels similar to what Kariya was doing to me… "kawaii" AGHHH, That was so embarrassing! Why did I have to say that about Shindou out loud? Gahhhhh! What's going on now? What's Sasha going to do?! She's acting so weird! My head hurts…
Kirino snapped back into reality as Sasha spoke again.
"Guess…" She whispered as she leaned in completely and kissed Kirino.
Kirino, shocked at Sasha's abrupt and forceful actions, froze.
Sasha slowly pulled away, her eyes locked on Kirino's.
"How was that, senpai?" Sasha asked.
Kirino stuttered, "S-Sasha! Wh-"
Kirino was interrupted by another one of Sasha's dreadful kisses.
Despite all Kirino's discomfort, Sasha decided to go a bit further this time by forcing her tongue into his mouth. She didn't stop for what seemed like forever.
"mmn, senpai!" Sasha said, enjoying the after-taste, her eyes squeezed shut.
Thoughts of disgust were quickly filling Kirino's mind.
Ugh! Why's Sasha doing this? SASHA of all people! She's so bratty and spoiled! And, and she… I think she's somehow involved with Mom's murder…
At that, Kirino could take this anymore. He wouldn't let her do this to him anymore.
"Tastes so good!" Sasha squealed, her eyes still shut.
Kirino gratefully took this opportunity to fling her off his lap.
"Uuuuaaa! Kirino-senpai!" Sasha complained, "That hurt! Why'd you do that?!"
"Sasha," Kirino sighed, "You really need to learn that people have boundaries… boundaries that you shouldn't cross…"
"Whatever, Kirino-senpai!" Sasha said, with slight arrogance.
"When will you ever learn?" Kirino mumbled, as he walked out the door.
He paused, staring at the door of his mother's room.
Mother… Why is it so hard to forget you?
Kirino glanced behind him at the small girl sitting on the floor.
"Thinking about your mother again, Kirino-senpai?" Sasha asked, teasingly.
"Sasha, I'd rather you not mention her in front of me… Please…"
"Aww, Kirino-senpai! You are just sooo innocent! You do not know when to stand up for yourself!"
Sasha sat on the floor staring into Kirino's eyes.
Kirino held the stare for only a few seconds before turning away and walking to his Aunt's room.
"Um, Excuse me?" Kirino asked, as he knocked repetitively on his Aunt's door.
"Ranmaru?" His Aunt opened the door.
"Auntie, uh... what happened?" Kirino asked, still not exactly sure what had happened to him.
"Ah, Ranmaru… come inside, I'll tell you…"
They went over his Aunt's bed and she told him that he had fainted. They talked a while longer about 'moving on' and how to deal with this pain.
"It's going to be very hard, Ranmaru… but I… I don't think you have much of a choice…"
Kirino solemnly nodded in response to his Aunt's words.
The conversation ended at that as Kirino walked out the door.
He turned to face his Aunt.
"I'll try going to school again tomorrow… I'll try to make it through the day, hopefully I'll succeed…"
Kirino stayed in his room the rest of the day, skipping dinner again in his depression.
He sat there on the floor, numbing his feelings and emotions.
Okay! Done with this chapter… Hope you guys liked it!
Thanks for all the reviews! Really cheered me up and gave me motivation to continue J
Do you guys think the chapters should be shorter? I'll be able to update sooner if the chapters aren't as long…
[pulling my hair] SO FRUSTRATED WITH SCHOOL! SO LONG! SO MUCH WORK! NO TIME TO WRITE!
Anyway, Thanks again for all the reviews!