Well, I'm finally back and this was so so so long overdue.. like a year at least lol I'm sorry:P
A lot has been going on with my crazy sucky life lol but I was looking through my old docs and decided to finish up this chapter. I doubt anyone will see this now with me not updating and all the new episodes and changes in the Inazuma universe but I guess this is for me and for my fun so plz enjoy (if u ever see this:P)
Kirino took a step back as Kariya advanced in his direction.
"Aww! Are you afraid of me Kirino-senpai?" Kariya asked mockingly.
Kirino took another step back, tripped and landed on Kariya's bed.
Kariya just smirked.
"Heh, just where I wanted you…"
Kariya stepped forward and put a hand on Kirino's shoulder.
Kirino's eyes were alert, looking from Kariya to the door, back and forth and back and forth.
"Senpai…"
Kariya smiled and shoved Kirino back on his bed, pinning Kirino between himself and the bed.
"You're really beautiful, you know that?" He said, stroking Kirino's cheek with one hand, pinning him down with the other.
Kirino cringed at his touch.
"K-Kariya.. what are you doing?" Kirino asked, his voice wavering, "Please stop…"
Kariya gave a laugh of amusement at the submissiveness of his senpai.
"Well, what does it look like I'm doing? I am studying, studying my Senpai!"
Kariya grinned and shoved his hand up Kirino's shirt. Kirino let out a gasp and tried to kick him off, but Kariya didn't budge.
"Senpai, stop struggling or I'm gonna have to hurt you!"
Kirino didn't stop, he didn't believe Kariya would really be so vicious but that quickly changed when Kariya slapped him hard on the face.
"Aaahhh-Owww! K-Kariya?" Kirino almost looked horrified.
"I told you to stop struggling, Senpai! It's your fault you got hurt."
Kirino's eyes started to tear up. He hated this feeling.
Hopelessness…
The situation being out of his control…
It reminded him of his mother.
She lay there in front of him, dying and there was nothing he could do to stop it.
Kirino lay still, not frozen in fear or suffering from numbness, he was far past both it was too much for such a young person to handle.
Death
Numbness
Violation
Everything was too overwhelming.
Not just a little overwhelming.
Not the kind of overwhelmingness that drives people mad.
He didn't scream.
He didn't cry.
He just… didn't.
Distress faded to nothingness… it was almost as if he didn't care anymore…
He was broken beyond repair
How is one pushed so far to their absolute limit until they don't care anymore? This was unnatural, unbelievable, indescribable…
Kariya seeing the state the boy lying before him was in, froze too, confused and a bit worried.
"Senpaaiii," he attempted to say in his normal, mischievous tone.
He paused, worry appearing on his face, making his uneasiness and fear more and more apparent.
"S-Senpai?" he said, showing concern, not caring anymore for his act.
He began to panic.
"S-Senpai!" he called as he moved to Kirino's side, shaking his shoulders.
Kirino sat up and looked at Kariya with a strangely calm and content but slightly mellow feel.
His eyes were blank… almost clear, but still there…
Kariya felt as if Kirino were staring into his soul. His eyes seemed like they could see through him.
Kariya gulped and hesitantly tried calling him a fourth time.
"s-senpai..?"
Kariya was calm but tense, worried but relaxed, scared but comfortable.
Kirino gave off such a strange mood and feel, it was almost horrifying.
"Would you like to say something, Kariya..?"
Kirino's slow but steady reply was chilling. It sent shivers down Kariya's spine, seemingly non-stop.
He seemed to make the whole room darker… depressed… but he was so calm and compliant it seemed.
"a-are you okay, Kirino-Senpai…?"
He dared to ask this question despite what he had just done but Kirino didn't seem to have any reaction to that.
"I'm fine, Kariya. Do you want anything or may I leave now?"
The blue haired boy didn't know what to say or do. His devilish side told him to let him go because at this rate, Kirino probably would keep his mouth shut but another part of him wanted to apologize and cry and just make sure this boy he cared for was okay.
Kirino's sate seemed to make Kariya conscience stronger.
He broke..
"I-I'm sorry! I-I just care too much for things that I care too little… This d-doesn't make sense, I know.. I'm disgusting, I'm crazy… I can't…. I'm sorry, Senpai.."
His eyes were flooded with tears now and his voice wavering.
"S-Sorry.. y-you can leave now if you want…" he barely choked out.
Kirino stood slowly his eyes fixed on his teary kouhai. Then he turned and left to his freedom it should have seemed but there was no happiness, no feeling of accomplishment or of relief.
Kariya on the other hand was becoming overwhelmed with this strong feeling, a strong feeling that felt heavy, weighing him down and stabbing him with a hint of fear.
Guilt? Was it?
The younger boy had become so familiar with this feeling that it meant nothing to him but this, this time it was just too much. He couldn't believe what he did or why he did it or how he could even think of doing something so terrible.
He sat there in utter disgust of himself as the lifeless boy in front of him left the room without looking back.
As Kirino left, his mind was still quiet
There was still nothing.
He walked off in the direction he came as he left the building, not giving one thought of where exactly he was going but indeed, he was going.
In his mind there was a battle going on, or rather, the ending of an uneven battle. Nothingness fought to push everything, any little bit of human, any little bit of himself out of his mind.
He let his mind go blank…
He seemingly awoke in a new place, not literally but he did feel like it. He was consciously thinking now and he found himself alone in his bedroom on his bed.
The pink haired-boy tried to think back to how exactly he got there and he did vaguely remember walking home but it was unclear.
It doesn't matter… Just sleep… all I want to do is sleep…
And sleep he did, for a long time too. He slept through the evening, night, morning, afternoon, and evening again of the next day.
But as expected, Julia and Sasha came to nag him about not going to school.
"Oh my GAAWWWSHHH! Like why weren't you there today?"
"Do you even know what you put me through?"
"Dumbass! # $!#$%&^%^#$% #"
"Are you even like listening?"
Kirino sat through their rants and bitching with ease, almost falling asleep halfway through.
It was so easy now not to care.
It was almost too easy.
But it didn't matter to him, at least it didn't hurt.
He went to school again a few days after that but it only took a week for the teachers and principal to suggest he be taken out and homeschooled.
He was in no condition to be in school they said.
The counselors suggested that he go see someone for help and rumors spread throughout the school that Kirino Ranmaru was being taken out of school to go to a mental asylum.
Everything was falling apart, his whole social life, and even his family wasn't happy with him.
Kirino had no opinion so it was settled, his legal guardian, Julia and Sasha's mother, would homeschool him.
Thanks for reading! And I apologize again for the hecka late update:P
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