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Days went on like this.
Never-ending.
Torturous.
He found himself starting to slowly lose track of time.
…
Another day…
It was just another day, just another day like the others and yet something seemed a bit different. He shrugged the thought off, not thinking much of it at the time but little did he know that this one thing came creeping slowly and changed him more than just a little thing that he hadn't known or realized.
The thing that was so off or wrong was the so familiar dread and pain he felt getting up every day. He didn't do anything, nothing changed. It wasn't a good thing as it might seem though. He was becoming more and more stoical.
Pleasure.
Pain.
Happiness.
It all meant nothing.
All the same…
"Ranmaru! I'm being a good mother now so I took te time to write you a To-Do list! I put it on the fridge so you better get it done… and uhh- I'm goin gout now! Ta-ta!"
Kirino lifted his head up a second and let it fall again onto his pillow with a sigh. He stood up, dressed, and readied himself for the day. After slowly wobbling down the stairs in a strange fashion, he reached the fridge and read down the seemingly never-ending list…
-Math
-History
-Science
-Language
-Social Studies
-Cooking
-Psychology
-Economics
-Government
-Religion
-Music
-you just figure out the rest my hand is getting tired
And for the groceries today
-chips/snacks
-jello
-noodles
-rice
-bread
-chicken
-beef
-dry fruit/fruit: strawberries, pears, mango, oranges, etc.
-cakes
-cookies
-sweets (for little Sasha)
-milk
-juice
-veggies
-broccoli
-sausages
-seaweed
-eggs
And you figure out the rest of this too and remember to buy only the good quality foods
He sighed…
I better get to work… and quickly…
Kirino yawned.
6 hours?... started working at 7… now it's 1… yeah, 6 hours straight… I'm so tired, I can't think anymore and I'm only halfway done with my work…
Kirino stood up and walked to the kitchen to cook up his lunch.
"I'll… I'll go to the grocery store after this…" he mumbled.
He finished his meal fairly quickly and grabbed the small pouch of money he was to use for buying groceries. His mind was blank throughout his walk to the store and little could interrupt this nothingness, not vociferous children or even absurd sights on the street. He just didn't care. He couldn't care… nothing… nothing could stop this trance… seemingly nothing until a familiar face appeared…
Shindou.
…
Shindou…?
Kirino's eyes rose off the ground slowly but didn't make it all the way up. He unconsciously knew who it was and he was reacting naturally.
Was this… embarrassment?
Was this feeling?
As he looked up, his eyes met Shindou's for a brief moment before he quickly turned away
No… no, I look like shit right now. He can't see me like this!
He then stepped away into another aisle before Shindou had time to say a word.
"K-Kirino?" Shindou managed to blurt out. He stared after him, not quite believing his eyes just yet. How long has it been? He hadn't even heard his voice for what seemed like forever. It used to be every day that they saw each other or talked on the phone but now, it felt like never…
When Shindou had finally snapped out of his daze, he quickly went down the aisle Kirino disappeared into moments ago but he found nothing. His initial reaction was to whip out his phone and dial his friend's number but he remembered the reason why they hadn't talked over the phone in forever.
He recalled that day when Kirino was first noticed missing from school and he was worried sick about him. He kept calling his friend's phone over and over without any results until someone finally picked up, although it wasn't Kirino.
"Hello?"
"uh hey, this is Shindou Takuto, a friend of Kirino's… who is this?"
"Ahh, Shindou! I'm Ranmaru's mother and I'd really appreciate it if you didn't call again because the ringing is started to annoy me and I don't want my little boy to be distracted from his studies. Thank you."
She ended with a snap before she hung up. Shindou was shocked but over time since there was nothing in his power to do, he accepted his current situation but he never gave up hope of one day being able to be so close and seeing Kirino's smile once again.
Shindou was almost walking frantically down the halls in attempt of finding his lost friend again. Kirino, on the other hand, was just about up and out of the store with all his grocery bags, walking quickly in embarrassment of his condition. He didn't look terrible but he definitely didn't look particularly good either. Since his mental health was depleting, it would only be natural for his physical condition to as well, sure, his mental health and unstable body chemistry made a difference, but his thinking and self-worth affected his appearance more.
He had only now become aware of just how much different he looked as he remembered his look the last time Shindou had seen him at school. To Kirino, this gross, sloppy, careless look was considered a disgrace and shame, a stigma of some sort from his time of this confusion.
A few minutes passed. Minutes filled with eager steps. Kirino's steps were to get away while Shindou's were searching. Shindou slowed to a halt after some time and quite a few glares sent the franticly bustling-about boy.
He stood still in the doorway of the store, his heart still beating fast.
Kirino… is he okay?
He walked home, deciding to take this time to think instead of giving his chauffer a call to pick him up.
Kirino… why won't you talk to me… why can't I see you
He walked a while, stopping at a park nearby his home. Shindou slowed to a stop as he reached a spot under a big tree. Slumping to the ground the boy gave a long, deep sigh. Kirino was so close yet so far…
Does he not want to see me? Does he hate me now? Was it because I confessed to him? Auugghhh!
….. Kirino…. Please…. Just please be okay…. Even if you hate me….
Shindou brought his knees up to his chest and buried his face in his arms. He hated feeling so out of control, but he couldn't do much about it either. If Kirino didn't want to see him, what could he even do at all? Tears welled up in his eyes and slipped down one by one as Shindou sat silently still under the shade of the dark tree, wishing he could sink into the shade and shadows of the cold but peaceful tree.
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