Okay, so this is where we start to get really really confusing. You might be like "Wait…what's going on here?" in this chapter a bit, but I promise it will all make sense sooner or later. At the bottom I'll try to give an overview of what's going on so far.

[Rewind]

Eiri looked down at Tohma with soft eyes. "So what else is it that you want from me other than that no one else can have me, Tohma?"

The older man ran the gun across Eiri's thighs. "I don't want you to be sharing your body with anyone but me."

He eyed the gun noticing Tohma's finger wasn't on the trigger. "But you have Mika to take care of you. Not to mention the travel time that would keep us apart."

"My darling Eiri; there are plenty of rooms here. You could run Tokyo from here," he said softly.

Eiri started to laugh as he walked away from the table. "I don't think Mika would want to share her husband with her younger brother."

Standing, Tohma pushed Eiri to the wall. "I don't care what she thinks, Eiri. I married her because she was convenient and to link our families. I married her to get closer to you."

He swallowed hard. "Tohma, you aren't my type. I like finding people that will submit to my will. You are too…dominant for me."

Tohma narrowed his eyes. "You like used whores," he mumbled.

Carefully he slid away from the blond. "I've dated people that aren't previous whores, Tohma. Shuichi was meant as a joke from Tatsuha. He is the only male I have ever slept with…."

"Kitizawa," he said as he turned away from the younger. "I know what happened between you two," he mumbled.

Eiri closed his eyes as he fell to the floor. "That wasn't planned," he whispered. "I never wanted to do that…he…he…."

"I know Eiri. I'm sorry I brought it up," Tohma whispered as he phone started to ring. "Seguchi," he said into the receiver. "He what," he yelled. Turning, he glared at Eiri with cold eyes.

"Tohma," Eiri said innocently. Emotions were still built up inside of him from remembering the past to keep a straight face.

Tohma closed the phone and walked up to Eiri. "How could you," he said as he kicked the blond in the stomach. "You distracted me to let your little whore get away," he said as he pointed the gun at the younger.

Eiri forced a smile onto his face. "I will do everything in my power to keep you away from Shuichi. I want the kid to be happy, whether that means with or without me."

"Sorry, but when I find him, I will kill him," he said as he pointed the gun at Eiri. Taking a moment, he pulled the trigger as a single tear streamed down his face from his left eye.

[Fast forward]

…

Ryuichi held Shuichi close as they both cried. Both kept repeating words of apologies to the other, neither even listening.

This had been going on for the better part of ten minutes. "Ryuichi," he whispered as he rested on the brunette's chest. "I'm sorry you got shot protecting me."

He started to laugh as he ran his fingers through Shuichi's hair. "It's alright, Shu-chan. I still love you," he whispered as he held the teen close.

Shuichi closed his eyes as he tried to sleep. He silently snored away as he finally fell asleep.

Slowly Ryuichi hummed a soft song as his eyes closed. He was happy that Shuichi was safe in his arms again. He had been scared that the teen would never come back. After a few minutes he pulled out his phone, opening it up to dial Tatsuha's number.

"Hey Ryuichi; just hold on a minute. I'm on my way up to your room," Tatsuha said when he answered.

Ryuichi was surprised. "Alright, see you in a few," he said as he closed the phone. He eyed the time on the screen, noticing that an hour had passed. "Time flies with you, my dear Shuichi," he whispered.

As if on cue, Shuichi rolled around a bit on the edge of the bed. After a few seconds he settled, taking deep breaths again. "Eiri," he whispered softly.

He was about to say something when the door opened up. "This is a privet room," Ryuichi said when he noticed a nurse walk in, bringing items to set up a second bed.

"Ryuichi," Tatsuha said as he ran into the room. He quickly kissed his lovers lips and looked down at Shuichi for a second. "They are bringing Eiri in from the Emergency room. Even as much as you two don't get a long, you will have to share a room for the next few days."

He was surprised. "What happened to him?"

"Tohma shot him," he mumbled as the bed Eiri was on was rolled in. He waited while the doctors finished up with his brother before speaking again. "Honestly, I didn't think Tohma would do that," he said as he picked Shuichi up.

Ryuichi's eyes teared up like a child that had just lost his toy. "Where are you taking him, Tats?"

Tatsuha stared. "I'm setting him on Eiri's bed so I can sit on yours," he whispered as he set Shuichi down on his brother's bed. "Ryuichi, be honest with me. Do you like Shuichi more than me," he asked as he turned on his heals to look at the brunette.

He looked down at his hands. "It's not that I like him more than you, Tats. I'm just…protective of Shuichi. He reminds me of me when I first joined…before I met you," Ryuichi said as he held his arms up.

It took a second for Tatsuha to get the hint. He happily fell into the older man's arms and closed his eyes. "I'm sorry. I just feel like you like Shuichi more. And I don't want to lose you, Ryuichi," he whispered as he kissed Ryuichi's neck. "I love you too much."

"I know you do, Tats," he replied with a soft smile. "I love you too, my darling."

Eiri let out a scream of pain. "That bastard," he moaned as he moved his hands to his stomach. "Can't believe he fucking shot me," he said as he leaned his head back.

"Shhh," Ryuichi said as he glared at the blond. "Shuichi's trying to sleep," he said as he ran his fingers through Tatsuha black locks. "If you wake him, I'll never forgive you."

He glared at the brunette, than looked down at Shuichi. 'Good, he's safe,' he thought as he tried to move on the bed to give the teen more room. "Fuck," he groaned as pain shot through his body.

Slowly Shuichi's eyes opened and closed. He pushed his face into the man's arm, trying to hide the light. "You're trembling," Shuichi whispered as he looked up at his lover.

"Would someone call for a damn nurse," Eiri ordered as he closed his eyes tight.

Shuichi sat up as he nodded. "Yuki, why are you in the hospital now," he asked as he jumped off the bed. He turned back to the blond, just to see the fresh blood staining the blankets. "Yu-Yuki! You're bleeding," he cried as he stared at the blood.

He rolled his eyes. "Thank you, idiot; now get me a damn doctor," he yelled.

Tatsuha started to laugh as he pushed the Call button above Ryuichi's head. "There, one's on the way," he said as he noticed Shuichi was still panicking. "Don't worry, Shuichi. Eiri will be fine."

Stopping, Eiri looked at Shuichi. He was surprised to see the tears pouring down his little lover's face. "Hey, stop crying Shuichi. I'm not going to die from something this minor…."

"You don't get it," Shuichi whispered. "None or you get it," he repeated as he ran from the room. "I hate you all," he yelled as he ran through the door.

Ryuichi glared at Eiri. "I told you not to wake him," he mumbled as he pushed Tatsuha off the bed.

"Hey! I'm not the one that woke him, so why are you mad at me," Tatsuha cried out as he stood to avoid falling.

"I'm going after him," Ryuichi mumbled as he swung his legs over the edge of the bed. Carefully he tried to pull the tape off of his left arm.

Tatsuha just stared at him. "No you aren't, Ryuichi. You are staying in this bed until that gunshot wound in your chest is better."

Ryuichi ignored him as he finally got a piece of the tape free. "Just hang on Shu, I'll make you feel all better."

Shaking his head, Tatsuha grabbed his lover's wrists. "Ryuichi, stop this, please," he whispered, nose to nose with Ryuichi. "You need to rest. I will take care of Shuichi," he said as he pushed Ryuichi back onto the bed.

Immediately he started trying to get his arms free from the teens. "You won't ever understand what Shuichi is going through! Neither of you will," he called out as he finally broke free. With one deep breath, he ripped the tape off. "Shuichi and I have been to hell and back," Ryuichi cried as he closed his eyes. "Before either of us met you…you will never understand what we went through."

Eiri closed his eyes as a nurse finally walked in. "About time," he said as he glared at the woman.

She looked at the two occupants and sighed. 'Why me?'

…

The gentle breeze played with Shuichi's hair as he sat on the roof of the hospital. So much had happened…two of the few people he cared about were hurt because of him. And there was nothing he could do but further trouble everyone.

Silently he looked over the silver gun resting on the concrete next to him. It wasn't that he wanted to leave Eiri or Ryuichi, but there were just something's he knew he was better off doing. And removing him from their lives…removing them from harm's way would be best for them all.

With shaky hands, he picked up the gun. 'It feels so heavy,' he thought as he held it with both of his small hands. Taking a final deep breath, he pressed it against his right temple and closed his eyes tight. Finally he pulled the trigger.

"Idiot," Tatsuha said from behind him.

Turning, he pulled the gun down to look at it. He had turned the safety off…and pulled the trigger but nothing happened. "I can't even kill myself right," Shuichi whispered.

Tatsuha started to laugh as he sat next to the older male. Carefully he took the gun and set it on his side. "It wasn't loaded, Shuichi," he said as he wrapped and arm around the small shoulders.

"Don't, Tatsuha. I don't want you to get hurt next," he replied softly.

That made him laugh harder. "You dolt. The ones we love always hurt us. It doesn't matter how, but it always happens. It's a sign that you care."

Shuichi looked down. "I've only ever hurt Eiri. He got arrested because he was protecting me…shot because he was protecting me…Ryuichi even got shot because of me," he whispered as tears poured down his face. "I'm such a failure."

Tatsuha looked around for a second. "Shuichi, I'm not going to pretend I know what you went through. Or what Ryuichi went through while you both worked for our family. But you're past all that now. Eiri cares about you more than he shows," he said as he laid his head on the pink hair. "If you died up here, than why did he get shot? Why did he confront Tohma today?"

He looked down as tears streamed down his face. "I don't like people I care about getting hurt."

"I know the feeling," he replied as he picked up the gun. Opening it, he slipped a single bullet into it. "If you truly have the desire to die, than I can't stop you. But before you pull the trigger, think about everyone who is around you that would miss you. Eiri…Ryuichi…me…not to mention your little sister who will likely start working for us since you can't send her money when you're dead," he said as he set the gun in Shuichi's lap. Standing, he headed back inside. "Whichever you decide, Shuichi," he said as he closed the door.

Shuichi stared at the weapon sitting atop his knee.

…

"So why exactly do I have to share a room with the mental case," Eiri asked as he looked over some reports that had been brought to him.

Ryuichi rolled his eyes as he flipped through channels on the Television. "Not exactly the highlight of my life here either," he mumbled.

Tatsuha smiled innocently as he read over some papers. "It's easier to protect you both from Tohma's men when you are in the same room," he said as he looked from bed to bed. "Apparently Tohma wants both you dead, plus Shuichi's head on a stick for trying to take his precious Eire."

"And on the other side, he wants me dead for letting Shuichi get away," Eiri mumbled as he tossed the papers on his lap. "This is too much for me to handle. Just give me his location and a trustworthy sniper, and let's take him out."

Ryuichi turned the TV up as he glared at the blond. "Oh yes, please take Tohma Seguchi out. That will solve all of our problems. Instead of him breathing down our necks, we'll have police and other region bosses coming after us."

Tatsuha pointed at his lover with a smile. "And that is why Eiri isn't making these choices until he is off the drugs."

Silently Eiri looked over the papers again. "Something needs to be done about Tohma, weather its kill him, or just leave him alone. But we need a plan soon."

"I vote drop his body in the ocean," Shuichi mumbled as he closed the door.

Ryuichi sighed. "Shuichi, there's a reason we have the TV turned up and are talking quietly. He has eyes and ears everywhere," he said as he held a hand out.

Shuichi turned red as he stopped dead in his tracks. "I…sorry," he whispered. "I wasn't thinking."

"Well that one we knew," Eiri said as he crumpled a paper and through it at the pink haired teen. "Brat, can you go get me a drink?"

Tatsuha sighed. "I told you already, Eiri. You can't mix alcohol with your medicine."

"I don't care. I want something to take my mind off this…Shuichi, come here," he said as he dropped the papers on the floor. "I have something you can take care of for me."

"How the hell could you possibly be able to think like that with a catheter in," Ryuichi said as he sat up. "I mean, I sit here and think about all the things Tatsuha and I can do, but the stupid thing won't let me erect…so how are you able to?"

Eiri smiled as Shuichi crawled onto the bed. "I don't need to be erect to get satisfied by my idiot," he whispered as Shuichi straddled him.

"Yuki, I just want you to get better," Shuichi whispered as he rested his head on the man's chest. "I want to go home with you," he said softly.

Carefully he ran his fingers through the teens pink locks. "Soon my dear Shuichi," he said under his breath. "Hey brat," he said as a thought occurred to him. He waited for the reply but never got one. "Brat," he repeated as he pulled on the pink strands.

Ryuichi leaned forward to look at the teen. "He's asleep, smart one," he mumbled as he lay down in his bed. "Just leave him be," he whispered as he turned off the television. "Tatsuha, come lay with me."

Within a second Tatsuha was at the bed side, ready to crawl in. Looking over the soon to be sleeping God, he smiled. Carefully he crawled on the bed behind the brunette and wrapped his arms around his stomach. "My Ryuichi," he whispered.

…

Mika ran into her Husband's office, eyes full of tears. "Tohma, cancel…please," she said, not caring that there were other people in the room.

He glared at her for a minute. "Mika, I'm busy right now. Can't we talk later?"

"Call off that hit," she cried. "You can't kill my Brother!"

Tohma sighed as he stood. "Pardon me for a minute," he said as he walked around his desk. He led Mika into a joining room and sat in a chair. "Mika dear," he said with a gentle smile. "The order on your brothers isn't to kill, just to capture. The only kill orders are out for Ryuichi and Shuichi."

She wanted to pull her hair out. "I thought he was your son."

"Oh heavens no," he said with a long laugh. "I did away with that problem years ago."

"What," she gasped. "What do you mean?"

Tohma smiled. "As if I would let a child interfere with my future. The brat wasn't going to hold me back, so I got rid of it when I was a teen."

She stumbled back a bit. "But what about his mother? She killed herself because of you being so selfish!"

He couldn't help but laugh as he stood. "My dear," he whispered, "she wasn't that hard to trick. She wasn't the smartest, just the most beautiful."

Mika was floored. "You're nothing but a monster," she whispered.

"No my darling, I am nothing but the head of the Yakuza. My feelings for anything as trivial as her were cast away years ago," Tohma said as he headed towards the door. "Now, why don't to tend to your brothers rooms?"

So I lose everyone :D?

K so what's going on here:

No, Shuichi is not related to Tohma

Yes, Tohma did kill his child and girlfriend

Tohma is trying to get Shuichi out of Eiri's life, so he can have him

Now I warn you all. There are a few more confusing scenes coming up in the next chapter. But they get explained in the same chapter…I believe. I can always work it out that way anyways.

Have fun ;D