~Just a heads up... This chapter is mainly about P Bonnie retrieving her memories back about her and Damon's relationship. So, What you will be reading are her memories...some are ones you've already read about.
So, this IS a LONG chapter...the longest yet so...bare with me.
P.S...for anyone wondering why F Bonnie didn't suggest this before...She needed P Bonnie to agree to it. She knew she wouldn't because of her strong dislike for P Damon. So...Yeah.
P Bonnie lay on the couch with F Bonnie sitting beside her with her hand on her arm,"Are you sure about this? You don't HAVE to do this."
P Bonnie glances over at P Damon who was staring at her with a look she recognized as hope,"Yeah, I do." She says before turning her gaze back towards her future self,"I at least owe him that much. Looking into my past won't kill me. "
P Damon appeared before her before kneeling so that he was eye level with her,"As much as I want you to remember what we were to each other I don't want you to feel pressured into it."
P Bonnie couldn't help the smile that graced her lips. Lifting her hand to his cheek she says,"I don't think I have much of a choose now." She says,"Not with you talking like that."
He smiles before a serious look appears on his face,"Thank you," he says,"I don't deserve to have you as a part of my life, in any way, but I can't deny how happy it makes me to know that I am still in your future."
P Bonnie glances over hi shoulder at a smirking F Damon,"Apparently, you're not the only one." She then turns to F Bonnie,"Can we get started?"
F Bonnie smiles and nods,"Sure, just close your eyes and count back from ten." She says.
So, closing her eyes, P Bonnie began counting back from ten,"10...8...7...6...5...4...3..." before she could finish she was pulled into a memory.
First Memory
They were married?
In the picture she was dressed in a beautiful strapless floral white and apple red dress that hugged her curves in all the right places while Damon was dressed in a black suit with a matching apple red tie and handkerchief. Bonnie was smiling at the camera while Damon stood behind her, his arms wrapped around her middle, smiling down at her with so much adoration and love that would make the most man gasp in shock.
"This has GOT to be a joke!" she gaped up at Damon.
His eyes widened in that creepy way they did whenever he was about to say something sarcastic or really stupid.
"Afraid not witch. Looks like we're happily married." he places the picture back onto the mantel.
Taking a deep breath, Bonnie turned away from him and started towards the stairs,"Where are you going, sweetie?" sarcasm dripped from his words.
She rolled her eyes,"Checking out the rest of the house you idiot."
Damon fake pouted,"Ouch, witch. You should be a lot nicer to me. I am your husband."
"I'd rather die all over again." she sneered.
Damon appeared in front of her at the top of the stairs,"Be careful with what you wish for. You might just get it." he grinned.
Glaring at him lifted her hand and slapped him,"Go to hell, Damon." she snapped before pushing past him and moving towards the first door to her left.
The room was huge. Huge and cream colored with a few splashes of red all around. There was a huge king sized bed set against the wall in front of her.
"The things Elena and I could do in that bed." Damon commented.
Bonnie's expression twisted up in disgust,"You're a disgusting pig." she spat over in his direction.
He smiled and leaned onto the tall dresser next to him,"Oh, honey, I've been called worse."
She rolled her eyes,"I'm sure." she says before taking one last glance around the room before making her way out and around the rest of the house.
Second Memory
'Damon?' It was Bonnie. She'd entered the room while he was doing his video.
'Yeah?' his expression was soft and there was a small smile playing on his lips as he stared at her from the door way.
'Do you want Chilli and corn bread or chicken and waffles for dinner?' she'd asked him. She was dressed in a pair of shorts, a spigetti strap tank top, her hair was pinned up into a bun and the icing on the cake was the 'I Bite Back' apron that tied around her waist.
Bonnie watched him eye her apron and smiled but raised a warning brow, 'Don't you even think about it.' she says. 'Now, chilli or chicken and waffles?'
Damon smiles. 'Chilli.' he says. 'Good because I'd already started on the chilli.'
Damon chuckles. 'Then why ask me if you had already had your mind made up?'
She scoffed. 'It's called having manners.'
'And what if I didn't want Chilli?'
She shrugged. 'I would have saved it for another day and made the chicken and waffels.' she says before came into the recorders view, kissed his cheek and walked away. 'Dinner will be ready in ten and you BETTER be ready to eat.' she calls over her shoulder.
Damon turned his attention back to the camera and there was a bigger smile playing on his lips. 'Bonnie Bennett you are the most stubborn, annoying, generous and beautiful woman I've ever met and I've met a lot of women in my days.' his smile faded and was replaced with a serious look. 'You drive me insane and to the point of destruction. You're always calling correcting me when I'm wrong, you don't know when to stop talking, you're emotional and emoitonless at times, it's why I think you're Bi-Polar, and you're soft. I wat to snap your pretty little neck most of the times.' he says.
Tell me how you REALLY feel, Damon.
He looked like he was thinking about something.' I guess that's why I fell in love with you as hard as I did.' he finally admitts out loud for the first time since he realized that he'd started falling for the spunky Witch.
Wait - WHAT? Did he just - did he just say what I think he just sad? Bonnie rewinded the video and listened closely to him admit to her, over again, that he had fallen in love with her and hard. She begen shaking her head, "This CAN'T be happening right now."
'Have you had enough time to digest what I've just said? If not then that's your problem because I can't take it back nor will I. I'm in love with you, Bonnie Bennett and I have no idea WHEN or HOW it happened. All I know is that...I want you in ways that I've never wanted any woman before. I want you in my life, I NEED YOU and am willing to do whatever it takes to have you with me.
Bonnie sat up and gazed at his reflection. Damon was in love with her? How had she not have known? Yeah, she noticed all the attention he'd been giving her and how more comfortable they'd gotten to each other and all the flirting he did with her but she thought he was just being...Damon. She thought that because they were now some what friends that the flirting and kindness came with. She never would have guessed that he'd fallen in love with her.
'If you're watching this video I must be dead and you're angry for me admitting this a bit too late. OR we got out of this place and are back home and I've made a complete ass of myself and you don't feel the same way about me that I feel about you.' Damon offered a weak smirk. 'Either way, I can't help how I feel and I can't take back what I've said. I'm in love with you Witch and if I am being honest with myself...I hope you feel the same way.'
Third Memory
Bonnie kissed her grandmother's cheek before walking out of the front door, "Holy watercraft, wife of mine, you look ready to drop like a sack of potatoes." Damon's voice drifted to her ears the moment she stepped out onto the porch.
Bonnie rolls here eyes,"Thanks, annoying husband of mine, I didn't think you cared." she spat as she makes her way down the walk and out into the streets.
Damon appears beside her,"Of course I care." he says looking at her,"You're our only way out of this hell hole they call an afterlife." he says.
"Drop dead, Damon." she hissed, picking up her pace.
"Oooo, sorry sweet heart, already did that." he teases.
Bonnie rolled her eyes as she wraps her arms around herself. The air had gotten chilly since she'd been inside with her grams. Damon noticed her shivering so he dramatically took off his coat and wrapped it around her.
"Can't have you getting sick and annoying me even more than you already do." he says.
Bonnie ignored his remark and snuggled into his jacket,"Thank you." she says.
The House:
Bonnie stood over the stove stirring the pot of Spigetti and popping out the corn bread for her and Damon for dinner tonight. And because Damon was a vampire she mixed his portion of food with a bag of the blood bags he had stored in the basement.
"Dinners ready." she calls to him as she sets their plates down.
Damon appears in the kitchen and sniffs the air,"Smells amazing in her wife." he says as he takes a seat at the table.
"Wash your hands first, Damon." she scolds.
Damon glares at her before moving towards the sink and washing his hands.
"Happy?" he says with a fake smile.
"Very. Now shut up and eat." she says.
"You do know I won't be able to ACTUALLY enjoy this, right?" he groaned.
Bonnie just looked at him,"Just eat it, Damon." she says.
Sighing rather dramatically, Damon picked up a portion of spigetti on his fork, looked at it, then put it into his mouth. He began chewing slowly but then stopped and lifted his gaze towards Bonnie who was busy looking the news paper.
Swallowing his food, Damon opened his mouth to say something but Bonnie beat him to it,"You're horrible at hidding things. I found the blood bags hours ago." she lifts her gaze to meet his,"I thought seeing as we are stuck here together, I mind as well make it a little easier on you or at least make you feel...human again in some way. So, I added blood to your portion of the spigetti and cornbread." she says.
Damon glanced sown at his plate then met her gaze once more. He hadn't expected that from Bonnie at all. "Thank you, Bonnie." he says.
Bonnie gives him a small smile and a nod," You're welcome, now eat before it gets cold." she says before turning her attention back to the newspaper.
Fourth Memory
Bonnie lifts the recorder and turns it on,"It's probably a waste of time recording anything but...Damon, Caroline, whoever finds this and you figure out how to work this stupid thing...first tell everyone that I'm sorry. Tell them that I tried, I really tried to make it work...um...you know I just miss it too much," she chokes up,"I miss talking to you, arguing with you, ordering take out... LAUGHING with you but um, spending every day here with no one to talk to, going WEEKS without speaking it's," she shakes her head.
"The loneliness, it's uh, I can't take it," she chokes on her words before taking a deep breath,"And I only know one way to turn it off. I'm sorry." she cries.
Bonnie lets out a long and much needed breath,"I love you, Damon Salvatore. " she says,"And I promise to tell you I love you the moment I get out of here." she says.
Fifth Memory
"How many times must I tell you to stop calling me that?" Bonnies voice sounded from behind them.
Damon quickly turned around and met a pair of green eyes. She was dressed in a pair of black skinnies, a black top with a black leather jacket,"Bonnie?" he questioned in disbelief.
She offered a small smile,"The one and Only."
Bonnie touched Stefan's hand before he disappeared out of the room, leaving her alone to Damon."Bonnie-"
"You're a jerk." she says.
He knew that she was talking about the video he made about how deeply in love with her he is,"I know." he says.
"How could you leave a video confessing your love for me? I mean who does that?"
"I was out of options." he says.
"Options? What was so hard about just telling me?" she asked.
Damon shrugged,"I'm complicated." he says.
Bonnie just stands there staring at him. She missed him. Having no one to talk to for nine months had been hard on her. She took a deep breath when Damon took a step towards her.
"Damon." she says softly.
"Bonnie." he says with a smile while opening his arms.
Letting out a chuckle, Bonnie rushed forward and jumped into his arms, wrapping her legs around his middle and her arms around his neck. "Hahahaha." he laughs. "Oh, you made it!" he states.
Bonnie smiles as she tightens her arms around his neck, "I've missed you." she says.
Pulling away, Damon lowered her to her feet as he gazed into her eyes, "I've missed you, too, witch." he says.
Bonnie smiles as he cups her cheeks in his hands, "I'm still mad at you." she says.
He smiles, "I still love you." he says and lowers his lips down onto hers. Bonnie wraps her arms around his neck as he pulls her closer to him, their bodies pressed into each other. Bonnie melted into him, her knees going out beneath her. Damon chuckled against her lips as he held her up.
"Shut up, Salvatore." she says as she tilted her head to look at him.
He smiles down at her before his expression grew serious again,"I'm never letting you out of my sight again." he says seriously.
Sixth Memory
"Elena, listen to me!" she says.
"Why should I listen to a word you say? You took Damon from me!" she hissed as she began banging in the invisible wall between them.
"I didn't take Damon from you! We're not even together!" she snapped.
"I heard you guys! You're MARRIED!" she screamed.
"On the other side, yes but that wasn't our doing. We woke up to find that we were married to each other somehow. We didn't knowingly get married!" Bonnie spat.
"So, you don't love him?" Elena questioned.
Bonnie glanced at Damon over her shoulder. She'd made herself a promise that she would tell him she loved him the moment that she saw him again. Here was her moment. Should she take it and risk pissing Elena off even more? Or should she lie and spare Elena's feelings like she's always done their entire friendship? Sighing, she turned her attention back to Elena,"No, Elena, I don't love Damon," she says.
Damon felt his heart drop just as Elena smiled,"I knew you didn't feel the same way about hi-"
"...I'm in love with him." Bonnie finishes. She knew Elena would flip her lid but she no longer cared about sparing her feelings anymore. All she's ever done is try and please everyone in her life and where has that gotten her? Dead on so many occasions, the death of her parents, grams and being trapped on the other side alone for months. She was done. It was finally time for her to start thinking about herself and what makes her happy...WHO makes her happy.
And it just so happens that Damon Salvatore made her happy. "What?" Elena snapped.
Bonnie shrugged,"You heard me, Elena. I'm in love with Damon." she states again. "Now, am I so in love with him that I want to get married, no but I am in love with him enough to want to be with him for as long as my life will allow me to." she says dropping her hand and the barrier that separated them.
"Why you little-"
Caroline snapped her neck once again before she could cause any harm to Binnie,"At this point, no one likes Elena." she says with a shrug before glancing back at Damon,"I will do my best to keep her away from Bonnie but in the meantime, you need to make her understand that no matter what she does or says you will NEVER want anyone else but Bonnie. Explain to her that you're in love with Bonnie, that you JUST WANT BONNIE." she says before picking up her limp body,"I'm going to take her home."
Damon nods,"Thank you." he says.
"You're welcome." she says before disappearing out of the room.
Bonnie turned to face him,"When did you and Caroline become friends?" she questioned.
He shrugged,"Blondie's-"
Bonnie folded her arms over her chest,"Damon." she warned.
He sighs,"For some unknown reason she reminded me of you." he says. "She was a part of you that I had that gave me hope that you would come back to me."
Bonnie smiles,"I never thought I would see the day that Damon Salvatore and Caroline Forbes would become friends." she gaped.
"Don't sound so shocked. A vampire and a witch fell in love with each other. Now, anything is possible." he says.
Bonnie playfully pushed him,"That's different." she says.
"How?" he questioned.
"You and I were forced to spend time together for four years."
"True but we could have chosen to live separate lives but we didnt. We chose to stay together." Damon says.
Bonnie shakes her head,"No matter what, you're going to find a way to make it seem like we WANTED each other all along, aren't you?"
He smirks at her,"You know me so well." he says.
Rolling her eyes, Bonnie looks down at his hand and intertwined their fingers. Damon looks down at their hands before meeting her gaze,"Are we really giving us a shot?" she asked.
"Yeah, I guess we are." he says.
"Just because we are giving us a shot doesn't mean I'm going to let you get away with anything." she says.
Damon smiles and lifts his free hand to cup her cheek,"I don't ever expect you too, judegy." he says before lowering his lips to hers in a sweet kiss.
Seventh Memory
"I don't remember loving you." she says blatantly,"I don't remember being trapped on the other side with you and or by myself. Nor do I remember forgiving you for every horrible and nasty thing you've ever done to me, my family and this town." Damon's face falls but he covers it with his famous poker face.
" All I remember is hating you and despising the ground you walk on. I remember wanting to end your existance -"
"If this is your way of making me feel better about you not remembering our relationship, I'd rather you keep it to yourself." he says, "I have to drop Stefan off." he says turning around to leave.
"...but a part of me; the part of me that loved you, that forgave you, that wanted you in my life; won't shut up. She won't let me walk away from you, she won't let me end whatever this is between between the two of you." she continues, stopping him in his tracks,"I can't stop thinking about you, about what we had, about what could have possibly changed between us that resulted in me falling in love with you. No matter how hard I try to just shut the door on you, I can't, that door just won't close." she admits.
By now Damon is gazing at her, along with everyone else, with wide shocked eyes. He was not expecting her to say any of that nor was he expecting it any time soon but she did. The part of her that still loved him couldn't walk away, which means that that side of her feelings are stronger than he could have imagine. "What are you saying, Bonnie?" he had to be sure she was saying what he was thinking. He didn't want to jump to any conclusions.
Bonnie took a few steps forward and stood directly in front of him,"I'm saying I - I want to be with you...or at least try and find what we had before." she says.
P Bonnie shot up gasping, before falling back down onto the couch as more images flooded her mind. They were all of her and Damon together in some way. Not only did she remember their time together but she could FEEL everything. She wasn't just seeing images but she could FEEL what it was like being with him.
She felt her heart beating rapidly every time he uttered the words...I Love You. It was the best feeling in the world.
"Bonnie?" She glances up to find P Damon kneeling beside her on the floor.
She turns her head to meet his gaze,"Yeah?"
"Are you alright?" He questioned with concern as he lifted a hand to caress her cheek.
She nods,"I'm fine." She says,"Just a little winded is all."
He let's out a sigh of relief before F Bonnie spoke up,"So...do you remember anything?" She questioned, hope in her eyes.
P Bonnie forced back a smile and sighs,"I - I can't," she says softly.
P Damon face twists up in disappointment before he covered it with a blank look,"We tried." He says , moving to stand but before he could P Bonnie reaches out and grabs a hold of the collar to his shirt.
"I can't believe you haven't kissed me yet." She says with a smile before pulling his lips down onto her own. His hands instantly cupped her face as he crushed his lips onto hers with much more urgency. He'd gone far to long without her lips on his and he'd be lying through his teeth if he said her lips weren't his every day craving.
In need of air, P Bonnie slowly pulled away, resting her forehead against his,"Hold...on...for...a minute." She breathes, her chest rising and falling quickly.
Damon smirks at how out of breath she is,"I always knew I could take away a woman's breath."
P Bonnie lifts her head and playfully glares at him before flicking him on the nose,"Ass butt." (Shout out to Supernatural)
He chuckles,"I love you, too."
Her heart almost burst from her chest at what he says. She missed hearing those words escape his lips and being directed at her. With a small smile she cups his face and gazes into his eyes,"I love you, Damon Salvatore." She says softly, caressing he is cheek,"I will forever love you."
He smiles,"I love you, too, Bonnie Bennett." He states,"I will love you forever...well, that is until Stefan bores me to DEATH talking about his squirrel diet."
She chuckles softly before pulling him into another passionate kiss.