Jess still felt wide awake even though it was nearly 2 o'clock in the morning when he heard Rory knock on the diner door, he had been waiting in the diner for her, when he heard it he put on some burgers, figuring she'd be hungry after the night she'd had.
"Hey, come on in."
"Thanks, you still mad at me?"
"I wasn't mad, just frustrated, I put a couple burgers on for us, you want?"
"Yeah sure."
Jess finished up the burgers and they took then upstairs to eat.
"So, how was it there?"
"You were right, he wanted to get me back, I needed to see him though, now I know there's nothing there anymore, for me anyway."
"I'm sorry I yelled, I should have known you needed to go."
"It's alright, I know why you did."
There was a small lull in the conversation while they ate there food, it was a comfortable silence though, as it usually was between the two of them.
"You know, you keep asking me what it is that I want, with us but you never told me what you want?"
"I just want you Rory, it's always been simple for me. I just want you in my life, to be in yours, whatever way you'll have me in it. If that means being your friend then I'll be your friend, if that means being something more then I'm happy with that too."
"But what do you want it to be?"
"You already know that Rory."
"Maybe, but I need to hear it from you."
"Ok, fine. I want it all, you know this. I don't just want to be you friend, I want to plan visits and take you out, plan days or weekends with you. I want to fall asleep with you there and wake up with you beside me. I don't care about the distance or that you'll be busy with school, I want what time I can have with you and not just as a friend. But if a friend is what you need me to be for you then that's what I am."
Rory was shocked into silence, Jess wasn't one to talk about his emotions, he had said everything in one big rush but she had caught every word of it. She had always known how he had felt about her but it still shocked her to here the extent of it, she wasn't sure what to say in response to it. Jess looked at as if he expected the reaction he got from her, stunned silence. He just sat there quietly, not pushing or pressuring for any kind of response from her.
"We should get some sleep, it's been a long night for both of us." Jess got up and Rory followed. "Do you want me to take you home?"
"Would it be a terrible idea if I crashed here again?"
"No, you're welcome to stay." He went towards his bag to grab some spare clothes for her. "You can wear these again if you want, saves you wearing your dress to sleep."
"Thanks."
"No problem. Goodnight." Jess moved towards his bed as Rory went to the bathroom to get herself sorted for bed.
"Night Jess."
Rory got herself into the bed that used to be Luke's, she tried to relax but the conversation they'd had kept running through her head, she felt bad that she hadn't replied, she just couldn't put it into words, what she wanted to say back to that. She wanted to tell him about the conversation she had with Logan, how she felt about him but nothing had come out. She knew she should be tired, it had been a long day, but she felt wide awake. She had to say something to him, to tell him that his feelings weren't just one-sided, to tell him that she wanted something more as well.
She finally got up the courage and quietly got out of bed and made her way over to where Jess was in his bed, his back was too her when she approached but something told her he wasn't asleep. She could feel her courage slipping but knew it would get worse the longer shen waited so instead of turning around like she was screaming at herself to, she went around the bed and knelt in front of Jess. His eyes were open and their eyes met as she knelt there.
"I couldn't sleep."
"Ok." Jess felt as if Rory had something she wanted off her chest so he didn't want to interrupt her thoughts.
"I was thinking, about how I should have responded. I wasn't expecting that answer from you, it just surprised me, I didn't know what to say."
"And you know now?"
"I feel the same as you do, Jess. I want more than friendship, I'm just not sure how we would work. With school and work, there's too much to get in the way."
Jess hadn't expected this, he wasn't sure what he expected but it wasn't this outburst of emotion, now he knew how she had felt when he did it.
"Come here." He reached out and put his arms around her, pulled her up onto the bed with him, so she was laying next to him, facing each other. "We can figure everything out, I know there's a lot that could go wrong but we were good together. We can make this work, I can visit you whenever you want and we can have you at Truncheon when you have the time, we will call and text as much as we can. It can work."
"How are you so sure?"
Instead of answering he pressed his lips against hers, he couldn't put into words why he felt so sure about the two of them but he hoped he put his feelings across through the kiss. Rory returned the kiss in kind, it was a sweet kiss with all the feelings they both could muster into it, both were left breathless as they pulled away.
"We are really trying this?"
"Yeah we really are." Jess was happy to see the smile that spread across her face as he said that. "Now we should get some sleep, we can talk more in the morning."
Rory realised how tired she was as he said that.
"Ok, we should get some sleep." Jess laughed as he saw her yawn while that, he turned her over so her back was to him and kissed her neck.
"Goodnight Rory."
"Goodnight Jess."
