Ninety Two

It was a long sleepless night. I opted for sleeping in the hay loft of the barn alone, instead of bunking up with someone in the house. Considering the only person to bunk with was Spangles, and I still had my issues with him. There was still no explanation for what he had said. How had he helped Thor get rid of Loki? What did that mean?

Loki. Every time I closed my eyes, I saw Loki dying in front of me. His silent cry for help, etched into my retinas. I've done him wrong and I would never see him again. I idly wiped the tears from my cheek.

I missed his wide smile, his bright inquisitive green eyes, his soft skin against mine. I missed our conversations, I missed cuddling on the couch with him. It wasn't just about the sex. The glorious sex. Shit, if I could just see him one more time to apologize, I'd give up sex for the rest of my life.

I sat up, gazing at the moon. Wondering if he was on Midgard and could see the moon too. Something moved behind me. I called my gauntlet to me. The light of the moon combined with my Arc Reactor revealed a cat. I breathed a sigh of relief. I settled back into my own thoughts, staring at the moon. The beautiful moon I had so missed while on Alfheim. The cat brushed my side, looking for affection.

"Come on, kitty. Can't you see I want to be alone?" I shooed him away. He persisted and worked his way into my lap. I scratched the top of his head, he purred. I continued to think about Loki and gazed at the moon. I found a collar buried in the cats thick fur. I followed it around to the charm on front.

"So what has Barton named you?" I fingered the charm. It wasn't an identification tag, it was a small blue stone encased in sliver. A circle with a triangle embedded in it. This was the Arc Reactor I gave Loki, but he never opened it.

"Where did you get this?" I demanded of the cat.

"You gave it to me." The cat spoke softly. I threw the cat off me and backed into a corner with my gauntlet pointed at him.

"You spoke! Speaking cat! I'm going crazy, that's it. Going crazy. I've lost my mind." I rambled.

"No, you haven't." The cat spoke again, but this time he was growing larger and losing his fur. In a manner of seconds, a man took his place. "You haven't lost your mind. It was the only way past security." He smiled.

"Loki?"I sat bewildered.

"Yes, love. It's me."

"Loki!" I all but ran into his arms. "I've missed you so much."

"I know."

"I'm so sorry for everything. You don't have to take me back, just know I'm sorry for everything that's happened."

"It wasn't your fault. I know what really happened, but now's not the time for you to know. I've said this once, don't you remember?" He spoke into my shoulder.

"No. Yes. I don't know. That day with the scepter?"

"Yes, you don't remember?"

"I was awake for three days, I figured it was a dream."

"No, darling it wasn't a dream. The scepter has great powers. But now is not time for a lecture. I've missed you too." He sighed into me, his fingers working their way up the back of my shirt. He began kissing my neck, his tongue gently tasting me.

"You've forgiven me?" I asked, shocked at his touches. So passionate and needy.

"You never did anything wrong for me to be angry about. I must ask your forgiveness for jumping to conclusions." He said, lifting the shirt over my head.

"Why won't you tell me what really happened that night?"

"Because you will need your team's help to defeat this new threat. After Ultron is gone and things are settled, I'll show you." His kisses on my open flesh became more feverish.

"How do you know about Ultron?"

"I've been watching. Trying not to interfere. Thor knows my signature. Now stop asking questions and let me love you." He said finally clasping my face and kissing me deeply. Our tongues touching after many weeks. My fingertips were drawn through his hair, pushing him closer to me. He magicked away the remains of my clothes, and I sat straddling his lap, enjoying the closeness. His strong arms supporting my back, his fevered kisses placed along my shoulders and neck.

He suddenly stopped, holding me at arms length. He drew a finger down my jawline, his face set in awe.

"So beautiful." He murmured. I leaned in again, crushing our lips together. I pushed him down into the rough straw. I wanted him, I needed him. Loki was my drug and I was about to overdose.

I kissed over his smooth skin, savoring in the feel and taste of him. He adjusted me over his hips. I felt his cock right at my opening. I rocked back teasing him, as I kept kissing his chest. I looked up to see his smirk just before he rocked me back, sliding deep inside my body.

"Sneaky little bastard." I moaned. "Cheating using magic."

"It's been so long, I couldn't wait." He smiled again. I missed that smile. I kissed him deeply again, driving my tongue into his. I found a rhythm, rocking against him, enjoying in the sensation. It was a slow rhythm as I wanted to savor this as long as possible.

Loki wrapped his arms around me, rolling me over on my back. I laughed a little as he hoisted up my legs. Again, we picked up the slow pace of lovemaking.

My night of wallowing in sorrow, was replaced by a night of making love. Each of us worshipping each other until the sun just peeked over the horizon.

"Tony, I'm going to have to go." Loki spoke with sadness in his voice.

"No, you can't." I pouted. "You can help us. I need you."

"I need you too, love. But we're not going to be left alone until we're both miserable."

"I'll quit. I won't be the Ironman anymore."

"You… You'd do that for me?" Loki stumbled over his words.

"After the destruction Ultron's done, I'll be branded a war criminal for creating him. The government will demand I give them my suit anyway." I somehow knew this would be the truth. "I mean, what more can they do?"

"I don't know what to say."

"Say nothing. Just kiss me." I grabbed his shoulders, kissing him deeply once more. We parted, panting against each other.

"Tony, you have to put a stop to Ultron. Then you can quit, and we can be together." He lectured.

"Yes, yes. Fuck now, stop Ultron later."

"No. They're starting to wake. You must go." He kissed me one final time, magicked back my clothes, and shimmered into a cat once again. "I'll wait for you at the Tower."