Elsasi, Droolia and RhizOneill who keep telling me how they feel about the story lines, it's always great to see what you think, I hope you keep it up and carry on enjoying the story.

Rory woke up still feeling Jess's arms around her, a smile came as she remembered last night. She must have moved slightly because she felt Jess's arms tighten around her.

"Hey there, sleepy." Jess had been awake for a while but had let Rory sleep on until late in the morning.

"Hmm, how late is it?"

"Just gone 10, you seemed to need the sleep."

"I did. Thank you."

Rory looked up at him and felt herself blush at the thought of last night, she was happy that they had worked out everything between them. She felt Jess's arms tighten around her again and Jess pressed his lips against hers, she fell into the kiss and moved her hands across his chest. She heard a slight groan come from Jess as she pressed her hands against him.

"I could get used to this." Rory laughed as he said that.

"Me too."

Neither had any plan to move any time soon as they began kissing again, Jess moved his hands under her top so he could feel her skin. She noticed how he remember the things she had liked when they were teenagers, how he held and moved his against her lower back in circles, it still made her moan slightly when he did it. She felt his hand start to move down and underneath her waistband. She felt herself instantly pull away.

"Jess..." She wasn't sure why she felt the need to stop, for a time she had thought Jess would be her first, this didn't feel like the right time to take that step with him.

"It's ok Rory, I don't mind waiting."

Rory just smiled in response.

"So is the blond the only guy, you've been with I mean?" The question made Rory freeze.

"Logan? No I was with someone before him." Crap. Crap. Crap. He didn't know about Dean and she didn't expect it to be a good conversation. "Promise you won't get mad?"

"Mad?" Jess was confused at the way the conversation had gone, the way that Rory was finding it difficult to make eye contact with him now, he put a hand on her cheek to attempt to make her look at him. "I won't get mad."

"My first time was with Dean." She closed her eyes as she said it and instantly felt his hand move from her cheek and the bed feel a few degrees cooler. When she opened her eyes she realised that he had gotten out of the bed and out a t-shirt on. "Jess, you said you wouldn't get mad."

He moved even further away from her, into the kitchen and still didn't say a word to her. She followed him slowly, keeping her distance.

"Jess, say something please."

"What exactly do you want me to say about that Rory?"

"I don't know, anything." He still wasn't looking at her at all.

"I thought he was married?"

"He was."

"When you were together?"

"Yeah." She could see he was having a rough time with the idea of this, he kept running his hands through his hair and still refused to look at her. "I regret all of it."

"All of it?"

"We were together for a little while, after he seperated from his wife."

"Were you the reason they split?"

"I was a factor in it." She moved towards him and placed a hand on his back but he moved quickly away from her.

"When did it happen?"

"My freshman year." He sighed and turned slightly, she had known he meant for a more specific answer to that first night. "The test run for Dragonfly."

He turned fully at looked at her then in surprise, there was anger and she thought hurt in his eyes.

"You mean a week after I came to Yale."

"Jess, it wasn't like that." She tried to move closer to him again but he moved away, towards the door this time.

"I can't deal with this right now."

"What do you mean you can't deal with this?" Jess had grabbed his coat and gone to the door.

"I need time to process all this."

"No, Jess. If you leave, then I won't be here when you get back. I'm not going through all that again." She could hear herself get louder as she spoke.

"That's unfair, and you know it." He matched her volume and tone. He was angry now, she could tell by the look on his face as he turned towards her.

"No it's not, as soon as things get rough you're out the door, again. Just like when you were seventeen, you run away from your problems."

Without saying anything else Jess was out with door slammed loudly behind him.