After dinner Chris and I walked over to the Net. His first fear was spiders. I told him mine was trouble with my family, it isn't a complete lie but it isn't the truth either. I know that my fear is only of my father and always wondering if today would be the day he lost all control and was going to kill me instead of just beating me. When we get to the net I see Justin resting on it staring out the hole in the ceiling at the night sky. How I miss the nights I would lay on the roof and stare at the stars.

"Oh wow you actually came awesome. Most transfers would be weary thinking we would prank them or something, guess you got to be a bit brave anyway to come." Justin says as he rolls off the net landing easily on his feet.

"We are going to have to leave in about five minutes to meet everyone at the train." He looks to Chris "Hey I'm Justin" he extends his hand to Chris, Chris shakes it and blurts out a little too excited Chris! Justin lets out a slight chuckle and told us to follow him and we ran up a set of stairs to the train platform where a few dauntless initiates were gathered and a good number of members. I see Six surrounded by a group of people, one of them a very hyper girl with short dark hair sees Justin and runs up to him.

"Justin, who are your friends'?

"Hey Christina, this is D and Chris. They're transfers but I was hoping since I don't really have siblings that they could come anyway."

"Of course they can, as long as they can keep up." She turns to me a huge smile on her face. "Hi D, Oh wow I love your necklace where did you get it." I look down to see which necklace I am wearing. I don't own a lot of jewelry nor do I own any make up but I was wearing this the day of my choosing ceremony, Anne wearing a matching one.

"I-I uh made it" Her eyes widen

"Oh wow can you make me one I would love you for like ever".

I smile "I guess I can if I make it through ititation".

"Well you must now, I need a necklace like that like NOW'! And with that she runs back to Six.

"Uh…Yeah, sorry about her she is a bit umm hyper. "

"I think that is an understatement." He Laughs.

"Christina was a transfer last year with Six and Will the blonde. That's Uriah the boy there dauntless born. He was my neighbor and we are pretty good friends. I was usually at his house if I wasn't at mine. Hey Uriah"! Uriah comes running over to Justin and puts him into a headlock laughing Justin slaps his arm and he lets go.

"Hey transfers" Uriah says looking at us. "You excited for some reckless fun." A huge smile comes across both mine and Chris face. "Good he says the train is almost here. Don't miss it," and with that Uriah joins his friends and everyone gets ready to board the train.

When we get on the train Chris and I head to a corner. We don't really know anyone on the train since they are all members or dauntless born so we decided to stay out of the way. We are sitting there for a moment when Justin, Kat, Buckley, and a few others come over and join us. Justin sits right next to me and bumps into my shoulder.

"Hey" he says to no one in particular.

"Do you know where we are going?" I ask.

"Naw no one tells us anything" Buckley says, "It's a tradition for dauntless born during initiation. You must have done something pretty impressive to earn a spot coming with us. Last year only Six was able to come since Uriah brought her along."

I look at Justin and wonder why he asked us to join. He is staring at me even before I turn to look at him, a small smirk on his face. I hear Kat growl annoyingly next to him. I think I will have to watch my back around her, she sees me looking in her direction and quickly changes her focus to Justin putting her hand on his leg and rubbing circles around his thigh. He turns to her and gives a quick glance to her looks down at his leg and I swear he rolls his eyes before talking to Chris and me.

"So where did you guys transfer from?"

Chris speaks up first. "I came from Candor, D here from Erudite."

"Why did you transfer?"

Chris speaks only for himself this time. "I left candor because I couldn't stand telling only the truth. You feel like you're on trial all the time and I was sick of it, I wanted something exciting so I came here."

"What about you D?" Why does Justin keep asking me questions? I feel like I want to just talk to him about everything, but I never really talked about myself to anyone other than Anne and Mari since they knew about my family.

"Let's just say I knew I wasn't going to stay in my old faction any longer then I had to."

I see a look of concern and maybe hurt in Justin's eyes. Why do I keep staring into those blue eyes? I mean Justin is obviously handsome, but I can't figure out why he keeps focusing on me, especially with Kat next to him her hand still on his leg. He slowly puts his hand on my shoulder and I feel my heart skip a beat. What is that about I think to myself? As soon as he realizes he has his hand on me he quickly moves it and my shoulder feels so cold I almost shiver, I see Justin look at his hand quickly putting it into his pocket.

"Get ready to jump"

With that we all start to stand Justin extending a hand out to me to help me up. I nervously grasp his hand and he pulls me to my feet. A warm feeling like a fire burning my skin as soon as his hand leaves mine the fire is gone I look back into those eyes and I see excitement and think it has to do with whatever we are doing and quickly get excited as well I look at Chris and he gives me a slight nudge towards to door of the train. I give me a small punch in the arm and with that we jump and run to keep us on our feet. Then we join the rest of the group Justin on my right talking to Buckley and Chris on my left, him and me silently looking at our surroundings. That is when I see the old Hancock building and I just know we are going all the way up and I feel my heart fall to my feet. God I hate heights. I keep going though, there is no way I am going to show my fear, I want to be dauntless and I am not going to show anyone any weakness in me if I can help it, that way there is nothing for them to exploit me with later. The members all climb into one elevator while the rest of us take another. Kat gets in last pushing me out of the way and into the wall of the elevator. I stare at her wanting to punch her in her smug face as she brushes Justin's hand with her own.

While the elevator climbs to the top floor I keep thinking to myself why do I seem so agitated when I she Kat so close to Justin. And why do I keep thinking about him. I wonder if he felt the warmth of our hands together, and something hits me,CRAP, I like him. How can I like him I barely know anything about him and he is obviously a popular guy in the dauntless community not just with the initiates but he seems to be in a central circle with some members as well. He can't like me, I am nothing special and I have nothing to offer him that he can't find from other people, not to mention I think he has something going on with Kat. I keep thinking well he could at least be my friend, Six did say I needed more friends and a popular and nice, hot guy seems like he wants to be my friend to why not let him. The doors open and we start to climb a ladder onto the roof and I see…Zip lining.

We all return to the dauntless compound hair completely windblown smiles still on our face from the adrenaline rush of zip lining. I can't believe how amazing it was, and I feel like I actually can belong here and I know more than ever that this is where I am meant to be. Buckley and Justin give me a quick good bye while Chris and I head back to the transfer dorms.

"That was amazing" Chris semi shouts. I raise a finger to my lips in hopes he realizes I want to keep my ear drums intact.

"I don't think I have even done something that nuts before." My smile getting wider as I speak. "Though I wish that Kat girl would stop trying to set me on fire with her eyes, did you see how she was so mean to me, I can't figure out why she barely spoke to us."

Chris lets out a slight chuckle. I look at him questioningly. "Dude D, you are so oblivious to some things, you act like just one of the guys so much I wonder if you even have a feminine bone in your body." I raise an eyebrow and punch him in the arm, a bit stronger then I intended to. He sighs and continues rubbing his arm.

"Kat, was not happy with you because Justin was only really paying attention to you and only knew she was there because she wouldn't leave him alone. Buckley told me that Kat has been trying to get into Justin's pants since they were like 14, he never even gave her a time of day. He said a lot of dauntless girls both younger and older then him are always trying to get his attention but he doesn't think Justin has ever even looked at a girl that way and he doesn't really talk to any of them other than Uriah and Zeke's friends. He usually just trains and hangs out with Buckley and friends in the pit."

I think about what he told me and as we enter the silent dark dorm I smile a bit. He talked to me and seemed pretty interested in what I had to say, I think about Justin till sleep takes me.

At breakfast Chris and I were joined by Buckley, Justin, a guy name Brandon and another name Kory. We don't really talk about anything in particular but I find out that Brandon is a great artist and that he hopes to get a job in the tattoo parlor after we finish training and that Kory is really funny. Justin Chris and I have the same sarcastic humor and Buckley is a really cocky guy but in a lovable way. We spend every meal together that day laughing and talking and eating cake. Man, I never thought something so simple would be so amazing. I realize that Justin and I are always sitting next to each other at every meal and when he laughs at something his hand always finds a way to touch me and I have to say I like it when it does. During dinner I notice Six and Four looking at our table I catch Six's eyes and she gives me a slight nod. I smile and return to the conversation at the table happy for my new friends. The rest of the week continues the same way I sit with the group of guys for meals then sit with Chris on the transfer side of the room during training.

So far I have had fear simulations of my father, heights, being trapped in a fire, being a failure and small spaces. I have learned to conceal my divergence and still have been able to keep a pretty good time. Today, when I entered the simulation it was of my father like my first one except it was more like a memory then a fear. It was back when my brother was there and it was the day I was sure my father was going to kill me. He was choking me in the living room while my mom was out of the house, and my brother was upstairs studying. I tried screaming to get his attention to try and help. My brother came down to help me but then instead of helping me he seemed to help my father instead. It was the first time my brother ever hurt me and my father disappears and now it is just me and Eric but he looks like he does now with piercings everywhere and greasy hair. He lets go of me and looks me dead in the eyes.

"I always knew you were something else, Just cause you're my sister doesn't mean I won't kill you." He walks away leaving me on the floor crying I lower my heart rate and open my eyes with Four staring at me I see sadness, worry and shock in his eyes. He walks me to the door and whispers into my ear as I pass him to meet him at the train tracks at 11 tonight. I nod slightly and go back to the dorms.

I grab my jacket as I sneak out of the dorms surrounded by sleeping transfers. I put it on as I get outside and shove my hands in my pockets, feeling something inside and I remember the note my mother gave me on visiting day. I slowly remove it looking around to make sure I am alone. I look at it and it just has a bunch of dashes and lines all over it, I automatically realize it is in Morse code, something I learned from the survival guide. I put it back in my pocket to cypher later. I get to the train tracks and see Four and Six waiting for me. A moment later I hear the train coming and start running to get into the same car as the both of them.

I sit in the corner of the train Six sitting close to me and Four standing by the door. We sit in silence for what seems like ages, finally Four turns to Six and she looks at me concern on her face.

"D, Four tells me you had a very interesting simulation today. I want to ask you something very important." I look at her and nod slightly. "Is Eric the leader of dauntless your brother?"

I look from Six to Four and see them both looking at me intently. I sigh.

"Yes, Eric is my brother, but I swear I had no idea he was here let alone a leader of a faction. My mother lied to me after his choosing day and I found out when I was on the roof after the choosing ceremony. "

The silence is deafening.

"D, Eric is the one who is hunting divergents. He is working closely with Jeanne Matthews. Four has been watching the security systems trying to figure out what they are doing and why. He is a cruel leader and I don't think that you being his sister will stop him from harming you."

"He didn't used to be like that. I always thought he was at Amity. He was always so happy and wanted everyone else to be happy, it is what my mother told me he chose and it made perfect sense. On visiting day my mother told me that he hated her for not letting him have a choice in his life and he forced her to promise him that I would. When he saw me the first day, he woke me up in the middle of the night and wanted to know why I was here, I think he thought I didn't have a choice either he was angry, but he didn't want to hurt me. Doesn't that count for something?"

"Do you know that you and I share similar fears" Four says softly as he turns away from the door and sits next to Six their fingers lace together perfectly. I knew it, but his words shake me out of my thoughts of victory.

"Which ones?"

"Heights, Small spaces, and…my father" Six looks up at him shock on her face, not of his fears I can tell but of him telling someone else about them. He looks at her and smiles before continuing. "Before this moment right now only Six here knew what my fears are."

"Look if Four is telling his secrets then please don't call me Six anymore call me Tris. It is my name after all."

"Why are you telling me your fears Four?" It is a simple question, but I know the answer can't be simple.

"When I came to dauntless I came to escape my father which in turn was an act of cowardice, I felt like I didn't belong here due to that, while I was training last year's initiates I was thinking of leaving and living factionless till Tris here literally fell into my life as the first jumper. I realized how much I needed her and I had to protect her from people who wanted people like us dead. We know something is happening with the erudite and dauntless leaders but we have yet to figure out what, but we know they are actively seeking divergent a lot more than they have been in previous years. Because you share so many similarities to myself I feel the urge to protect you as well, not in the same way as Tris but more like as a little sister, but now that we know your brother is in fact the same person who wishes to do you harm, I knew we had to talk to you and let you know how dangerous it is for you right now. Do you think Eric knows that you are divergent?"

I think about what Four says quickly. Does Eric know what I am and if he does and Four and Tris are saying how bad he is then shouldn't I be dead or is he protecting me as a brother that I love should.

"I don't know"

The rest of the train ride was in silence.

Before falling asleep I go to the bathroom, pull out the paper from my pocket and look at the numerous dots and lines that fall onto it.

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Anne