Your love was a lie
SHIZUO POV
You know, to be honest, I'm not really sure how it started.
Or why we're still doing it.
All I know is that one day, for one bitter sweet hour, we weren't rivals, we weren't enemies. I wasn't a monster, he wasn't a god, and neither of us were in love with another. For one, beautiful, breathtaking hour, we were lovers. Sharing passionate kisses and kind words. Giving our bodies to the other as if it were only natural.
As if it were the routine that it soon became a part of our everyday lives. You could call it love. You could call it love all you wanted, but you would still know deep down, that to him, it was just a way to fuck, blind pleasure and nothing else. My body was just a play toy to him, a substitute for his precious jewel Mikado Ryugamine.
You could say that I was in love with him, and to tell you the truth, you'd be right. Somewhere within the loveless passion, the empty words, and the hungry glances, I'd fallen in love with him.
I knew better, I told myself better. I'd betrayed myself many times because of him, punishing my body for it's awful sins. I watch as crimson liquid seeped from the same now more bony wrists that had held my beloved flea not so long ago.
No one noticed when I stopped eating. Nothing changed. Mikado still remained his prized possession.
I'm just a freak, a monster compared to the pure, perfect emperor. I tried and tried, throwing away hours of my time to become the perfect person.
But it didn't work..
I was nothing but a second glance. The emperor would beat against a monster, no matter what the challenge was. I guess that's when I realized that I couldn't win. Even though Mikado held no real love for Izaya, the informant would still be along side him until the end of time. That's just how it was meant to be. The god and the chosen one.
I guess that's what led me to this very moment, in Izaya's apartment, as I stand here with my hands around my neck. I smile sadly, tightening my hands once more before the final death grip. It has to be perfect. I'm to die alone.
'I'll always love you'
I crushed my airflow with my strength that I've been called a monster for, before a snap fills the air. I've broken my neck.
'Forever and to hell'
My limp body falls to the ground. My eyes slowly close, void of any emotion.
'Alone in my twisted love for you'
Too bad I'd never seen the loving looks sent my way from those crimson eyes before.
Yeah, too bad.
end of chapter 1
tbc :c yes there will be alot of death
next chapter is mikado's point of view arc
mikado comes back "home" to find shizuo, well, very dead.
home: mikado and izaya live in the same roof
while shizuo comes over sometimes, you know, because
shizaya bedroom things.
he just happened to be there
you know after things happened and izaya went out
next chapter will be a bang hinthintnudgenudge