Our tears are just part of the game

IZAYA POV

So I come home and see red.

Two dead boys, one my lover and the other my love.

They're dead.

'Of course they're dead.' I tell myself. 'You killed them.'

Do I feel remorse with guilt? Of course not.

How could I mourn them, when they're laying right here with me? I bend over and lay on the floor with them.I stare at the battered bodies in my arms, stroking Mikado's hair with my free hand. He stares up at me, eyes empty, without a spark as if he was tired and worn out.

"Why so quiet, Mikado-kun?" I ask.

He's silent as ever.

Of course he's silent, he always has been. You're so silly Mikado, you're such a shy boy. I turn to Shizuo's body. He felt colder than Mikado, he's never this cold, the brute was always like a heater. His head was slumped awkwardly to the side, and I laugh at the blank look on his face. Pfft. It doesn't fit him at all. I lean down, planting a small kiss on his numb lips. I got no response from him.

"See Shizu-chan, even though Mikado's here, you can still kiss me. You can still love me and I can too." I smile as I parted. You're so silly Shizu-chan, you and Mikado both are.

I laugh.

I laugh long and hard. I laugh until it hurts to breath, and even then, a smile remains on my face. You're just too funny. You're just too funny for your own good. And that is why, I love you both so much.

Human beings and monsters are so much fun and interesting, it makes me wanna puke.

I push the two away slightly, staring down at my blood stained hands. Bringing one to my lips, I lick it slightly. It tastes bitter, and it's cold. Mikado's ocean pool blue eyes stare at me as I stare back at them. They're still empty, but I ignored it.

"I love you, you know." I mentioned as I stroked his left cheek. You've heard it before, I know, but I just can't keep from saying it.

"But I love you too, very much." I turn towards Shizuo. His head's bent all the way back now, the outline of a bone jutting out from his ice cold skin. I do love him. Maybe not as much as I do humans, but I do love him.

Something glimmers in Mikado's stiff hand, and I stare down at the small, black gun that was suppose to be in my office drawer. Silly Mikado-kun, playing with guns. If you weren't so funny right now, I'd just have to yell at you. You could blow your brains out, afterall.

'They're dead!'

I shake my head. Of course they're not dead! What are you talking about ore. They're sitting right here, making jokes and having fun. Shizuo's pouting and Mikado's laughing timidly with a smile. Everything's normal, as always. I snatch the gun from Mikado's grip.

It really is a pretty gun. Lovely enough to be killed by it's bullets. Oh my, it's still loaded.

"Izaya I'm letting myself in!" A cheerful voice calls from the doorway. Oh look who decided to come visit us. Shinra came in.

"Oh, dear God." His voice cracks, and he falls to his knees.

Why?

Was he that surprised about our love?

"What's wrong? Everything's okay, Shinra." I spoke cheerfully. "It's more than okay, actually. Shizu-chan, Mikado-kun and I can finally be all together now."

BANG

Oh.. whoops. I forgot about the gun. My hand must have slipped on the trigger. How clumsy of me. I stare down at Shizuo and Mikado and their lifeless eyes.

I'm sorry.

I give one last bitter smile.

I guess we can't have fun anymore.

...

The game's over now.

And nobody won.

end of chapter 3

technically the end but

tbc with an epilogue

one last chapter next to end this depressing thing

and everyone deads

surprise

the tragedy is real

shinra be like: oshiete yo oshiete yo

be prepared -scar was not prepared to be killed by hyenas

so be prepared always kappalings c:

review your gun loads of bullets to the three on the floor

-kappalord ghouls