~Chapter 5~

As you and Thorin walk back to your room you walk much slower than normal and are holding your broken throbbing arm close to your body. "Thorin if you would like I can have one of the servants show you to a room more suitable for you." You say as you near the room. "No. You shouldn't be left alone in the state you are in. I will stay here tonight." He says as he holds the door open for you. You walk over to the bed and sink down on to the edge, you hear the click as the door shuts and locks behind Thorin. "As you wish, my king." You say drowsily. You stand back up slowly and sway a little before making your way to the washroom. "I need a bath. I'm still covered in wrag spit and blood." You reach for the door handle only to find Thorin already opening it and helping you stand. "Let me help you. You can't wash properly with that arm." You feel your face turn bright red. "No, really I'll be fine." Thorin sighs, "You can't fool me, you are barely walking on your own. I promise I won't do anything other than help you wash. You have my word." you nod hesitantly and sit down so he can reach. "There is something I'll have to explain when you see it. Please be careful of my arm." You stammer feeling nervous. Thorin is very gentle while handling your arm. He helps you pull your two blood stained shirts off and puts them with the other bloody items of clothing from earlier. You are now shirtless in front of him. The old claw scare marks on your abdomen are now visible along with the arrow scars on your right shoulder and left hip. You feel his hand feather touch over your shoulder's mark. "You have seen battle." He mutters as he examines the white scares. You take a deep breath trying to calm yourself but your words still come out shaken "There is more you should see. But please don't touch them." You turn around back facing him. Your back's marks stand out more due to the cold. The underlying white thin cross slashes, the long deep cut under your ribs on either side, the deep healed gash just above your left hip and the two identical gashes from the bottom of your neck down the back of your rib cage they all burn from the exposed air. The two identical wing scars are very puffy and look new. "Yes, I have seen my many battles. Many that I would not wish on another living soul." You sigh and reach out your hand "Help me up please. And could you no watch as I get in? Just knowing our watching um…. I get embarrassed." He grabs you good arm and helps you up. "Of course, let me know when you are in. I'll be right outside." When he leaves you strip your pants and underwear and quickly get into the hot bubbly water, gasping loudly as the water rushes up on your back. "Thorin I'm in the water, you can come back in." you call out to the closed door. You sat in the water back to the door. You heard him enter and the ruffle of clothing. You kept your head down and tried to focus on the little bubble tower you were making in front of you. You felt the water rise around you as a naked Thorin joined you in the bath. When the company would stop at a river or lake to bathe you would always stay back at camp. You never had a relationship before, regardless you always liked privacy and respected the privacy of others. You didn't look at him; you knew he was looking at you. You face was still as pink with embarrassment. "You don't have to be shy, Icarus. It's only us two here." He spoke calmly. You moved closer to him and handed him the soap. He took it and started washing your arms and shoulders. "Y-you can wash my back to if you would like. Just…. Gently please." You stuttered as you washed your legs. You felt his hand slid slowly down your back softly and slowly, testing how soft you meant. When his fingers glided over the double wing scars you flinched instinctually and sat up right sharply. You relaxed a little and pressed back on his hand. "You did not hurt me; it was just a surprise. No one's ever touched them like this. Please keep going." You explained. He washed you gently being very soft on your arm and back. "Face me, let me wash your chest." Thorin ordered softly. You turned to face him and moved closer. You tried to keep your eyes from wondering down his body. You tried to keep your eyes on anything but him. Tried not to look at his long black hair and beard with starting silver, his strong but gentle deep blue eyes, his rough delicate hands as they glided up and down your toned chest. Tried not to stare at his hair covered chest and strong arms. You felt your face heat up more as you took at him. "You haven't seen a naked dwarf before, I'm guessing." He remarked when he caught you staring. Your eyes grew wide with embarrassment and you looked away quickly. "Sorry. Um… N- no one's ever been this close before." You breathed out. Your head felt dizzy and light. "Here this will be easier to wash your hair." He said as he turned you facing away from him and pulling you closer. "Now, lean back on me. It's okay." He cooed gently. You leaded back slowly till your full weight was against him. You could feel the warmth coming off of him, it felt strange sitting in the lap of a king. He started working in shampoo with his hands and fingers into your hair and scalp. The soap smelled of Lilacs and it relaxed you. The rhythmic circles and rubs on your scalp felt like a massage and you could feel yourself melting into his hands. You started to purr deeply and moan under breath. "So that's it." Thorin purred as he massaged your head more, "You like this?" he teased, as one of his hands slowly massaged the small of your back. "Let's finish up, If I fall asleep in here it's not going to be an easy time getting me out." You say pulling yourself up from his chest. You rinse the soap from your hair and turn to face Thorin. "Let me return the favor." You say sweetly as you take the soap from him. He lends back as you wash his chest. Your soapy fingers running easily through the hair on his chest. As you wash his back you can feel how tense his muscles and shoulders are. You begin to work them with your fingers and palms trying to relieve some of the built up stress. Thorin's breathing deepens as you palm and kneed his back. "Is this alright, your highness?" you whisper in his ear and you work your thumbs down his spine and lower back. You work your hands back up his back and give his shoulders one last kneading. You grabbed the shampoo and started washing his hair like he did yours. You could only use one hand most of the time when scrubbing hard. You made small little circles all around his hair line and head. You felt him lean into your hands more and small little pleasure sounds emanated from his lips. "Looks like I'm not the only one who likes this Thorin" you teased as you finished up and rinsed his thick hair out well. Thorin got out first wrapped himself in a towel then helped you out. You struggled a little trying to dry off with one hand but you insisted you could do it yourself. You dressed in your pants and sat down on the bed so Thorin could set and wrap your arm up again. You winced in pain a few times but when he was done it felt a lot better. Thorin goes back into the bathroom to braid his hair and bread. You sit there shirtless on the bed and start to hum The Dancing and The Dreaming. Get up and stand in the middle of the room and stand in the dance's ready pose. You start to sing aloud and dance slowly alone.

I'll swim and sail on savage seas
With never a fear of drowning
And gladly ride the waves of life
If you would marry me
No scorching sun nor freezing cold
Will stop me (on my journey, sorry!)
If you will promise me your heart

And love
And love me for eternity
My dearest one, my darling dear
Your mighty words astound me
But I've no need for mighty deeds
When I feel your arms around me

But I would bring you rings of gold
I'd even sing you poetry (oh, would you?)
And I would keep you from all harm
If you would stay beside me

I have no use for rings of gold
I care not for your poetry
I only want your hand to hold

I only want you near me

To love and kiss to sweetly hold
For the dancing and the dreaming
Through all life's sorrows
And delights
I'll keep your laugh inside me
I'll swim and sail a savage seas
With never a fear of drowning
I'd gladly ride the waves so white
And you will marry me!

Thorin watches from the bathroom door as you dance in slow circles and sing from memory and heart. You sing with a smile and dance eyes closed. You dance in slow circles still humming till you reach the bed and stop. Your arms drop and shoulders sink down. Climbing back into the bed you wrap your shoulders in the blankets. You stare off in deep thought and are startled when Thorin taps your shoulder, "Sleep, we have a long journey tomorrow." He says softly. You lay next to Thorin in bed and you hear him softly humming your song as you drift off to sleep.

When you awake it is late, high noon you guess from the sun through the window. You are alone in the room, no surprise there. You unwrap your arm, the bone is mostly healed now. It is still sore but that will go away in a few hours. There are very light scars on your arm from where you were bitten. You get up and notice a small pile of fresh clean shirts on the table across the room, along with your purple head scarf now clean of blood. You pack the extra shirts away and pull out a deep navy blue shirt from your pack along with a pair of black pants. Both made of heavy cloth, the company must pass over the Misty Mountains soon. You throw on the blue top; it is big on you but very warm. You sit and start to pull on your pants when suddenly Kili and Fili open the door and come without knocking. "Shi-!" You quickly pull up your pants the rest of the way, "You ever heard of knocking?" You say turning away and quickly trying to do up your belt. They both blush and apologize as Dwalin and Thorin come through the door behind them. "Did I really sleep almost all day?" you say partly to yourself as you finish getting dressed and putting on your gray chest vest. "yes, we came to wake you up and help you pack." Says Kili. You drape your purple scarf around you and your gray cloak on your shoulders, "I'm already packed. So we are leaving soon without Gandalf?" You ask turning to face the dwarves. "Yes, we were going to leave as soon as you were ready." Responds Fili. You grab your pack "Then let's go. We have a lot of ground to cover." You say as you pass them out the door.