A/N: Rawr! Royal Dragon here! I'm glad you guys are enjoying the story so far. Well I hope you guys enjoy this next chapter, let me know what you think. Here we go with Chapter 4! Sorry I haven't updated in a while my fiancee got sick and then passed it on to me so now I feel like shit and haven't been wanting to update. Finally feeling some better but anyway here we go with Chapter 4.

Chapter 4: Sleeping Beauty

Roxas POV

I had done it! I had broken up with my girlfriend Namine but I had lost Axel. I felt so alone so I did the only thing I could think to do, I went to work. I didn't try and call Axel although I thought about it. For a whole month I stayed away and watched from the window as he stumbled drunk into his apartment. I would dial his number only to chicken out at the last minute before I could call him. I missed him so much, I missed his kisses and warm hands as they held me. I missed his voice and those wonderful green eyes and mane of red hair. I missed him! I missed all of him.

It was a cold December day when I headed off to work, I hadn't been there long before we got a call saying that someone was being rushed in. They wanted me to take over for the ER doctor as he had been there for two straight days working. I hurried downstairs to meet the paramedics.

I wasn't prepared for what I saw five minutes later. The shock of red hair and two purple upside down tear drops under each eye. His skin looked paler than normal as if it were taking on a blue hue. They were doing CPR with grim faces and I knew he wasn't breathing. I couldn't say anything I was stunned into silence.

Tears gathered in my eyes and started streaming down. Aerith was the one who rescued me shouting orders and then sending in another doctor. She took me to the sleeping quarters as I burst into tears and screamed.

The call had said someone had overdosed on sleeping pills and that he wasn't breathing. I just didn't think it would be Axel.

Holding me tightly I tried to breathe but found it difficult. Rubbing my back we sat there as I sobbed into Aerith's chest. When the doctor called and said that they had him stable Aerith helped me walk downstairs to see the red head.

Walking over slowly to the bed I grabbed one of his hands. When I looked over at his chart I was wracked with more sobs. He was unconscious and could possibly be in a coma. They had pumped his stomach but it didn't matter he wasn't conscious.

Making my way back over I took his hand in mine again.

"I'm so sorry. I wish I could take it all back, I would have never kicked you out. I love you please come back to me." I whispered pressing a kiss to his hand.

"Well you can't take it back!" Someone shouted. Turning around I saw Axel's three band mates. "You did this to him! He loved you and he put his trust in you because he thought you felt the same! Then you betrayed him! Why are you even here?" The blond haired man cried. I knew that was Demyx.

"Because I love him. I'm so sorry. I should have never kicked him out. I wish I could change what I did! But I can't." I whispered.

"Get out." That was Riku the silver haired male. They all looked disgusted at me and I didn't blame them.

As I made my way to the door I was tackled to the ground by someone crying. "No! Stop! Guys listen!" He cried.

"Sora?" I called looking up to see my twin practically sitting on me.

"You know him?" Riku growled pulling my brother up and pushing Sora behind him.

"That's my brother!" Sora cried. "We're twins. Well fraternal. Please guys don't be angry at him." He said pulling away from Riku and crossing over to pull me into a hug.

"Why shouldn't we? Look what he's done!" Riku cried.

"You have to understand the way we grew up. Our family couldn't accept the way that we were. They told us that we had to go to some stupid Gay Away program or else they were going to kick us out. Roxas tried so hard to change and in the end he had convinced himself that he didn't like guys anymore but I knew he did. I got kicked out but thankfully I had an older boyfriend at the time who took me in. Roxas has been trying to do what's right he didn't mean to hurt Axel honest. Please don't be angry at him." Sora explained pulling me as close as he could.

"I deserve it." I whimpered, "I'm the one who did this. I'm the one who drove him to this. I'll have another doctor look after him." Pulling away from my brother I stood up and left the room.

I heard Riku's voice faintly ask Sora why he'd never told him he had a twin before.

For the next week I stayed away from Axel's room. If I saw Demyx, Zexion, and Riku enter the hospital I hid. Even if Sora my own brother came in I would hide. I couldn't do it. I couldn't face him nor could I face Axel. Aerith was kind enough to give me updates but mostly it was the same thing every day. He was still unconcious, he hadn't improved but he hadn't gotten worse either.

Another week passed in the same fashion and finally by the third week I was so desperate that I snuck downstairs and went straight to Axel's room. He was like Sleeping Beauty his skin was a pale white and his lips a pretty pale pink. Maybe if I kissed him he would awaken from his slumber.

It was stupid and I knew it but I did it anyway. His lips were soft and cracked and so warm. Pulling back I waited silently for five minutes for him to awaken but he never did.

Taking his pale hand in mine I kissed each of his fingers. "I'm sorry. What I did was inexcusable, you have every right to hate me but just please wake up. I just need to know that you're ok, and I'm sorry for what I did I should have told you that I love you but I didn't. I'm so sorry." I whispered. Turning around I was met with Axel's band mates. "I know I shouldn't be here I'm sorry."

Rushing off I was grabbed and pulled back into the small room.

"Sora talked to us a lot more after you ran off that day. I'm sorry for getting angry at you its just that Axel's my best friend. We're all friends and we look out for one another. He really loves you Roxas. When you left him that day he was devastated. Our band isn't doing well, and I tried to talk to him but he wouldn't speak to me. We were afraid that he'd go back to Sephiroth's because he stopped talking to us. We all thought that you really liked him, but maybe we were wrong. I don't know anymore I just want him back." Demyx explained.

"I love him. I shouldn't have told Namine that was stupid of me. It was just my parents picked her out for me. They told her everything one night at a family dinner I was so humiliated. But she took it well, until we left then she screamed at me for not telling her. I told her the program had worked but she didn't trust me around guys or even girls for that matter. It was a toxic relationship but I thought I loved her, that was until I met Axel." I said walking over to take Axel's hand back in mine.

"What's going to happen to him?" Zexion asked.

"When he wakes up there going to send someone to come talk to him. If they feel that he's still a danger to himself which they probably will there going to send him to a mental institute for a while. But I know some people and I can pull a few strings so that he doesn't go. Aerith is fully qualified and she's already said that she'll help." I answered.

"So you mean he won't go away?" Demyx asked hopefully.

"No I'll make sure of that. But he will need counseling. If he doesn't get it I could get in big trouble, I could get in trouble for this anyway but I care about him so I'll do anything." I whispered brushing a few loose strands of hair away from Axel's face.

He didn't even stir. There were clear little tubes in his nose and a small monitor clipped to his finger that measured his pulse. Machines were beeping and pushing air into his lungs as he still wasn't breathing on his own yet. But even still he was beautiful.

That night I pulled up a chair and fell asleep holding Axel's hand in mine and resting my head on his bed. He wasn't awake the next morning or the morning after that and soon a full month had passed. He hadn't moved an inch.

When I wasn't working I was sitting with Axel reading to him and just talking to him about my day. Even when I was working I spent my breaks in his room, kissing his lips, touching his hair and holding his hand. His band mates were a constant there and I always tried to give them alone time with him when they were there.

At the beginning of the second month I was working upstairs near Axel's room when the door opened and Namine walked in. Raw fear gripped me as she looked around. The nurses station was just a foot away but I wasn't going to be able to make it in time. There was a room behind me but I couldn't go in unless I knocked first.

Slowly I took a step back my eyes trained on Namine but soon enough she looked over and found me. The fight between us raced through my head.

As soon as Axel had left and the door had closed Namine slapped me hard. "Roxas how dare you! I thought you took those classes! I've been here a lot longer than you think! I saw you two curled up on the bed sleeping in nothing but your damn boxers!" She screamed.

I figured the door closing when we woke up was Namine actually coming home.

"You want him don't you? I heard what you said!" She screeched her voice was like nails on a chalkboard.

"I don't want him! I want you! I'm not gay I'm straight. He went after me! He kissed me first!" I had whispered sinking down to my knees. "I'm straight."

"Then I don't want you seeing Axel anymore." She said sinking down beside me and pulling me into a hug. "He's not good for you. He's just poisoning your mind."

"Ok." I said as tears streamed down my face. "Ok I'll tell him..."

Shaking my head I looked up to see Namine coming toward me a small smile on her face.

"Roxas." She whispered reaching a hand out. Backing away so that she couldn't touch me I nodded. I had stayed with Namine for another month before breaking it off with her.

"I love Axel!" I had cried. "I love him so much that it hurts... I'm gay Namine I went to those classes but they didn't work. I've always loved men not women and I'm not sorry. I want you out of my house!"

"But Roxas!" She cried hurt shining through.

"No! I don't love you. Are you really telling me you still want to be with me knowing this?" I asked laughing without humor.

"Yes because I love you Roxas and I know that I can help change you!" She started with tears in her eyes.

"Oh god how stupid can you be? I don't want to be changed! I don't love you and I never have. Your a bitch and you're controlling! You don't like gay people why? Because that's how you've been brought up? What? Tell me? Or is it because you dated me that you started hating them? You were so kind to me until my parents told you. Then you became this bitch! I've resented you for so long and now I'm finally going to get rid of you and it feels amazing! I want you out of my house, lose my number and never speak to me again." I growled. Turning on my heel I left the house and went to work.

When I came home that day Namine was gone, there was no trace of her left.

Now she was standing in front of me a tentative smile on her face. I wanted to turn around and run but my feet were frozen to the floor.

"Roxas." She whispered taking a step towards me.

Couldn't a nurse come by and grab me? Or perhaps one of the doctors? Couldn't fucking Axel wake up? I didn't want to be here! I did not want to be here! But I didn't want to be rude because in all honesty I hadn't seen Namine in a while, and I was curious about what she had to say.

"What?" I asked taking a step back.

She stopped where she was about a foot away from me which still felt to close. There was a sad smile gracing her features as she reached her hands out. When I didn't take them in mine she lowered them slowly.

"I miss you Roxas." She whispered.

"I don't miss you." I answered. "You can't accept me for who I am then I can't be around you."

"But Roxas this is just Axel talking! Sweetie I want to work things out." She whispered.

"Stop!" I shouted. A few nurses turned around to stare but when I shot them a glare they scurried off. "Just stop." Grabbing her hand I pulled her down the hall and into Axel's room. "Look at him. This is what I've done to him. He's unconscious now... no they've already pronounced him in a coma and he has been for a month and no one is sure if he'll even wake up. I can't leave him not again. I love him Namine not you, I love Axel."

"So there's nothing I can do?" She asked. "No second chance you'll give me?"

I laughed without humor and shook my head, "I just told you I'm gay Namine. Always have been and always will be, so no there will be no second chances just leave please." I whispered going to sit by the bed and taking Axel's hand in mine.

"I love you." I whispered just like I did every day I was here. "I miss you. Please wake up." Leaning up I kissed his cheek before laying my head back down on the bed.

After my break was up I left but not before kissing Axel's soft lips. "I'll see you after my shift." I whispered heading out of the room and down the hall.

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