A/N: Rawr! Royal Dragon here! So here we are with chapter 5! I'm so glad you guys like this story it really does mean a lot to me. I've been reading over my old stories and I see a ton of mistakes that I've made. Course that would probably apply to my stories to but not the point anyway I'm done rambling here we go with chapter 5!

Chapter 5: Awakening

Axel's POV

I remembered taking the pills and I remembered the darkness as it swallowed me whole but now I couldn't remember anything else. I didn't remember what drove me to this point and I didn't even know my own name. It was dark wherever I was being held and every once in a while I would hear a soft voice calling out to me. Sometimes I could see out of the corner of my eye a person with honey colored hair. But when I turned around the person was always gone.

One time I turned quickly enough to be met with oceanic blue eyes. It was a quick glimpse but I knew it was a boy and my heart swelled with love. Who was he? He was short with spiked hair and he was always wearing a pair of red scrubs with a white lab coat over top.

"Hey... I'm sorry. I miss you." The words were softly spoken and they sounded like they were running through my head like a marquee. He always said he was sorry. What was he sorry for? What had he done?

If it wasn't for him I'd be alone trapped where ever I was. But now I was able to listen to this angel's voice at least two or three times a day. Sometimes even more. I loved listening to his voice it was so melodic and sweet. He was never there long sometimes a few minutes and sometimes maybe an hour. But time passed slowly here and I learned to measure the time by when the angel talked to me.

I didn't know the exact time but he would start off the conversation with, Good morning, good afternoon, or even good night. Always after the conversation there was a light fluttering sensation on my lips or forehead and he would say, "I love you."

I learned after sometime that those sensations were kisses. He was kissing me but how? I was here in this darkness with seemingly no way out. There was no light and I couldn't see a foot in front of me. The only light came was from the angel that visited me. With a sigh I wandered around, there were no walls that I could feel so I had stopped reaching my hands out. The ground when I touched it was smooth.

As far as I knew I was the only one in this dark abyss. I didn't eat, or sleep I just wandered around aimlessly until my blond haired angel returned. Sometimes there were other voices but they sounded muffled or like they were on a radio with a ton of static. The only person I heard clearly was my angel.

"Good morning Axel." I stopped my walking and plopped down on the ground. So my name was Axel? That's a pretty badass name. Closing my eyes I sighed as that smooth melodious voice washed over me like a cool breeze. "Namine came to see me today again... she keeps saying she wants to get back together." For some reason that name filled me with anger. "But I keep telling her no and to leave me alone. I'll never leave you alone again I promise." He whispered as a feather light sensation brushed against my lips.

I couldn't say anything I had tried a long time ago to speak but my voice wouldn't work. So instead I would sit quietly and absorb the sweet words that were given to me.

Who was Namine? From what my angel had told me they had been together at one point. So what made them break up? Was it me? He told me time and time again that he wouldn't leave me ever again. Why would he leave this Namine for me? I couldn't even talk to him. If I was quick enough I could catch glimpses of him, but I couldn't just sit and stare at him like I wanted to.

Maybe he was afraid that I would worship him. Another odd sensation was when he would run his fingers through my hair. I loved it. When I reached up to touch his hands or wrist I hit nothing but air. That part I wasn't so fond of.

But I could feel as he smoothed my hair back and even when he whispered sweet nothings in my ear.

"Miss you. Love you." Those were always the famous words he always told me. But why would he miss me? Wasn't I here? At least some part of me?

When he stopped petting my hair I opened my eyes to the blackness and stood up. Why did he always leave? I thought he said he wouldn't ever leave me again so why did he leave? Why couldn't he just stay with me?

For the next while I meandered through the darkness praying that maybe one day I would be able to leave.

Maybe all that praying worked because as I was wandering around I found a small hole with light streaming out. It was about the size of my finger. The light wasn't super bright it was soft and when I reached out to touch it my finger slipped through.

My angel appeared beside me and gasped. "Axel! You moved your finger! Can you hear me?" Well of course I could hear him! I just couldn't tell him that. Wiggling my fingers around I could hear my angel crying out to me and calling what sounded like others into the room. I tried stretching the hole but it wouldn't budge and the more I tried the more tired I got until finally I collapsed.

When I woke up next I was near the light again. I didn't touch it for another long while. My angel called out to me though asking me to move my finger again. But I couldn't I was scared of the light. I tried it again though after his insistence but I collapsed pretty soon after wiggling my finger around.

"Axel..." He whispered one day as he ran his fingers through my hair. "They say you can hear me. I hope you can. I miss you so much. Please wake up soon." He whispered. I could feel his lips against my forehead and then silence. I practiced when I felt like no one was around wiggling my finger until the hole grew larger and I was able to fit two in.

There were times that I passed out but finally I was able to put my whole hand through. I worked as much as I could until one day the hole was as large as me. This was it. I could walk through or I could stay here. Then what would happen? Would the hole close or remain open forever? Somehow I doubted it would stay open.

Taking in a large breath I rolled my shoulders back and strode forward. The next time I woke up there were bright florescent lights streaming down. Closing my eyes I tried to move my head but it felt like lead. Instead I just lay there until I fell back into darkness.

When I woke up again next I heard beeping in the background. My breathing was ragged and the light was still blinding making it hard for me to open my eyes. My throat was burning and dry making it so I couldn't call out.

My eyes were closed but every once in a while I would try to open them to get them used to the light. I had just opened them when the door opened.

"Axel?" That voice it was my angel's voice. "Axel!" He cried rushing over and gingerly tilting my head so that I was facing him. "I'm so sorry!" He whispered.

My hand felt like lead but I was finally able to raise it up and press a finger to his lips. I wanted to say that it was ok that everything was fine but I started getting tired and I was fading fast. As quickly as I could I reached out with my other hand and grabbed his hand in mine. I held it tightly as blackness dotted my vision until finally I fell asleep once again.

This went on for about a week. I couldn't talk but I made enough noise and racket to get my point across. Roxas worried over me like a mother hen as did Demyx. He kept apologizing over and over for sending me to the hospital but I was the one who took the pills. Reaching up I threaded my fingers through his hair and pulled him down for a kiss.

It was just the innocent meeting of lips but it was enough to get my point across.

"I l-l-love y- y- yo- you!" I whimpered as tears gathered in my eyes and started to fall.

"I love you to!" He whispered pressing his lips against mine. It felt good to say that and hear it in return. I had never stopped loving my blond haired angel. I knew I shouldn't have tried to kill myself but maybe in a way this was going to bring us together. "I'm so sorry for what I said that day! I was a jerk and stupid!"

Talking was to hard and it hurt so I settled for shaking my head. When my friends came to visit I was cuddling in bed with Roxas both of us fast asleep. Demyx was the one to wake me up.

Smiling at him I looked down to see Roxas still asleep on my chest. Our fingers were intertwined and when Demyx saw he couldn't stop squealing in delight. No matter how many glares I shot him he continued to 'ooh' and 'aww' over us.

"He barely leaves to go home and he's been working none stop and every break he comes straight to your room." Sora, Roxas twin brother offered with a sincere smile. He was dating my best friend and band mate Riku. "Every time we try to get him to go home for some rest he makes up an excuse to stay. Please don't be mad at him, you're not mad at him are you?" He asked.

When I shook my head no he smiled at me then proceeded to explain to me how their parents had sent them to a gay away program. Roxas had really thought it worked and soon he started dating Namine. But then I came along and well we fell in love. I felt bad for him and I especially felt bad that he stayed here for so long no wonder he was so tired. Finally when Riku had, had enough he slapped his hand over his boyfriend's mouth and promised they'd come back tomorrow.

Cuddling up with my angel I promptly fell fast asleep. No one came and bothered us that night or if they did I was so far gone I don't remember. When I did wake up sometime later that morning I was still holding Roxas. Looking down he slept peacefully and held me tightly. His hair was wild on his head and there were bags under his eyes and he looked thinner than I remembered him being.

Had he not been eating properly? I was probably awake for about thirty minutes when someone softly knocked on the door. Opening it up it was a pretty nurse with long brown hair and wearing pale pink scrubs.

"Good morning Axel. My name is Aerith I've been taking care of you when Roxas has been working. How are you feeling this morning?" She asked with a smile.

My throat didn't hurt as much so I attempted to reply back. "Better." I whispered hoarsely.

"That's good. I'm just here to check your vitals this morning. I'll be quick so you can go back to sleep if you'd like." She said.

Nodding I snuggled up close to my blond angel and promptly fell back asleep. Whatever they had me on made me tired and sluggish, but I guess that was the point. We slept on and off for the next week. Roxas never leaving my side. We had so much to catch up on and I didn't want to waste a minute by sleeping but I couldn't help it. We had been sleeping soundly only waking up to the sounds of Aerith coming in to check on my vitals and bring me food. It was the first day of the second week in the hosptial and Roxas and I were sleeping. Roxas was the first one to wake up. Nudging me awake he smiled when I started opening my eyes.

Reaching around the wires and tubes he pulled me into a hug. "I love you Axel." He whispered snuggling up against my chest.

"Mmm. Love you to." I said kissing the top of his head.

Leaning back he looked at me for a long minute before leaning in and pressing his lips against mine. They were soft like petals just how I remembered them being. They moved softly against mine and soon I felt a small pink tongue pressing against my closed lips. Opening my mouth I granted him access. It was a sweet kiss as he coaxed my tongue to dance with his. His hands were soft as they reached under the gown I was wearing to brush against my hips.

Sighing happily he brushed his hands against my hips and moved upwards brushing against my stomach and then over my nipples. I groaned burying my face in the crook of his neck. Breath hitching in my throat I moaned louder as he brushed against my nipples again.

"Roxas!" I groaned. The heart monitor was going crazy and I tried hard to calm myself down to no avail.

Giggling he leaned down to press his lips against mine. "Are your nipples sensitive?" He asked.

"What do you think?" I breathed as those sinful fingers trailed away from my nipples and to my taut stomach.

With a lecherous smile he trailed back up to my nipples and brushed against them again until they were hardened little nubs. A moan caught in my throat as I tried to get as much air in my lungs as possible. He continued to brush over them before pinching them with his forefinger and thumb. Squirming around I moaned as those lips captured mine.

I loved it when a man took control it was one of the most sexiest things he could do. That's probably why I fell for Sephiroth so quickly. When we first met he ended up pinning me against the alley way after our concert and we made out before heading to his place to have sex. I was a fool to think our relationship would last. But now I had a better man that I hoped would love me. I mean he already said he had and it seemed like he'd been here since I got in the hospital and when I had been out he was the one who talked to me and apologized.

He easily took control of the kiss which I loved. Wrapping my arms around his neck I pulled him as close as humanly possible. Pulling back he leaned down to nip my neck and suckle on patches of skin until I was sure I was going to be left with a hickey. Opening a part of the gown to reveal my chest he grinned at me before taking a pink nipple in his mouth. Hot, wet heat assaulted me as I cried out for more. Threading my fingers through his hair I held him down as he continued that assault while his fingers brushed over the other sensitive nub.

"Roxas!" I whimpered squirming around.

Chuckling he pulled back and slammed our lips together in a bruising kiss. Just as we were about to get hot and heavy something started to beep. Jumping up Roxas headed over to his lab coat which was thrown over one of the chairs that was in the room. Pulling out what looked like a small beeper he sighed, "I'm sorry Axel but I have work in a few minutes."

"Oh yes of course." I answered trying hard to hide the problem that was arising in my hospital gown.

Roxas noticed it right away and grinned. "Axel is something wrong?" He asked.

Eyes wide I shook my head and pulled the covers around me as tightly as possible so that Roxas couldn't get to me.

"Axel don't lie to me." He purred waltzing back over and pulling the covers back. I squeaked in surprise and attempted to grab the covers back but he threw them on the floor. "I'll get you some new sheets. Oh look what we have here." He said pulling the gown up and exposing my hardened cock.

Running his warm hands up my legs he skimmed to my thighs and to my sac. I groaned as he ran his fingers over the skin before going up to my cock.

"I have a few favors I can call in." He purred grabbing my cock and slowly stroking me. "I can come in late if you'd like. Stay here for a bit and take care of you." Leaning down he took the head of my cock in his mouth. I almost screamed in ecstasy. His mouth was warm and wet surrounding the head.

I wanted to scream yes but I couldn't stop panting and moaning. Threading my fingers through soft silky locks I began bucking my hips. He didn't seem to mind as I forced him to deepthroat me. In fact he started humming and bobbing his head up and down. Pulling away he crawled on the bed and settled down before resuming his earlier activities.

"L-L-Late." I moaned bucking my hips and pulled on Roxas hair.

I could feel the vibrations as he chuckled and my orgasm drew near. With a few more harsh sucks I came with a cry of his name. I lay there on the bed exhausted as I came down from my high.

"Give me one second let me call Hayner. He owes me a few favors." He whispered sitting up. I tried to make sense of what he was saying but through the haze of pleasure I just smiled and nodded.

I watched as he got up from the bed and made his way to the door. Making sure the blinds were closed along with the door he locked it and began to strip as he sauntered back over. First went the lab coat, then he toed his shoes off and next were the pants and finally the shirt until he was left in nothing but his green boxers and socks. His socks came off next and then slowly teasingly went his boxers.

There standing in front of me was a toned, sexy as hell man. His erection jutted proudly from the nest of blond curls and I had the pleasure of watching him stroke himself and moan.

"Like what you see?" He asked strutting over and crawling back on the bed.

All I could do was nod my eyes never leaving that wonderfully flushed cock.

"It's been awhile since I've had really good sex with a man." He groaned stroking himself a little bit faster. At my shocked looked he started giggling. "The gay away program I went to was kind of like a camp in a way. I ended up messing around with one of my roommates. I uh... well I mean it wasn't my first time but damn he was pretty good. Course that was the last time I had sex with a man until now... with you... I'm going to shut up now." He cried his face turning a bright red.

"No, no don't stop on my account." I chuckled pulling him down for a searing kiss. "I love you Roxas." I whispered.

"I love you to Axel." He responded pressing another kiss to my lips. Pulling away he made quick work of my hospital gown. From that lovely strip tease I was given I was already hard and ready.

"I'm going to fuck you so hard right now." He growled producing a bottle of lube from somewhere.

A shiver of pleasure raced down my spine and I moaned loudly at the thought. Lubing his fingers up he traced them down my entrance, when I nodded he slowly slipped the first finger in. I moaned out in pleasure and panted for him to add the second one. When two of them were in I started to rock my hips making sure to fuck myself against those fingers.

After adding the third he deemed me stretched enough. Coating his own cock he slowly began to slip inside me. He was gentle at first making sure that I had adjusted to his impressive length. Moaning I wrapped my legs around his waist and pulled him close. Our lips brushed in a tender kiss before he leaned back and smiled at me with an evil grin.

Just before I could ask what he was about to do I found out. He pulled out until only the tip of his head remained. Slamming in my walls clamped down tightly on him as I moaned.

"Harder." I whimpered as he slammed into me a few more times before slowly thrusting in and out.

"What was that?" Roxas asked pressing his lips against mine. Then again on my body, my chest and stomach then to my nipples. He paid very special attention to my nipples.

"Oh... Mmmm I uh... I... ngh I s-said... Harder." I finally moaned out. Grinning he pulled away from where he was teasing my nipples.

With a small smile he pulled back out until just the head was remaining inside. With another hard thrust my back arched off the bed and I moaned. Roxas was panting hard his hands were on either side of my head and we were chest to chest. Our lips crashed against each other as he abused my prostate over and over.

I didn't even have to reach in between our bodies as he continued to rub against my cock. I was close to cumming anyway and with a few more thrusts I came with a cry. Hot seed spilled against our chests and soon Roxas came throwing his head back and crying out. Hot cum filled my ass as warm arms wound around me. How long had it been since I had been held after sex? A long time. In fact usually when Sephiroth was done with me he would get up and leave.

So I wasn't to surprised when tears began to roll down my eyes. Roxas however must have thought differently because he pulled back and cried, "What's wrong? Are you ok?"

"I'm fine." I whispered as he began to wipe each tear away. "It's just that it's been a long time since someone's held me after sex. I forgot how good it feels."

With a smile Roxas kissed me passionately but also tenderly. "I'll always hold you, during sex, after sex, even if we're not having sex I'll always hold you." He responded. "I'll always love you."

"I'll always love you to." I said. We lay wrapped in each others arms for a good twenty minutes or so before Roxas had to get back up and get dressed.

"Hayner's going to kill me but he owes me." Roxas groaned as he got up and slipped his clothes back on. After helping me back into my gown and buttoning me back up he arranged the pillows and as promised got me some new blankets. Just as Roxas leaned down to kiss me the door opened and my bandmates made their way in.

"KISS HIM! PLEASE DEAR LORD KISS HIM!" Demyx screamed jumping up and down.

"I think someone's excited that we're together now." Roxas chuckled before pressing his lips to mine.

Smiling through the kiss I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him as close as I could. A moan escaped me and I heard Demyx squeal in the background.

Grinning I watched as my new lover made his way towards the door. Stopping at the open door he turned back to me. "That should hold me over until my break. Oh and I hope you don't mind I'll be bragging to everyone about my new boyfriend."

Face heating up to a bright red I nodded enthusiastically. "I didn't think you'd mind." He answered sauntering away.

Squealing in delight Demyx rushed over and crawled in the bed with me. Pulling me into a hug the others surrounded me to give me their congratulations.

"Told you he was gay." Riku said with a laugh. "We didn't even have to do anything. He just came to you of his own free will."

True to his word Roxas made his way back during break to kiss me, well make out with me. Thankfully my friends were gone to the cafeteria eating or else they probably would have taken pictures. Demyx was like a proud parent and Riku was sick at this point of hearing our story of how we got together, and Zexion was too busy buried in his book to even notice much less help. It wasn't really a magical tale, I woke up and we confessed our feelings to each other.

"When will I be released?" I asked just as Roxas break was about to end.

"We want to keep you here one more night and then we'll release you. By the way I got your friends to help me and you're all moved in to the house. So starting tomorrow you'll be living with me, I hope you don't mind." He said his face heating up to a bright red.

"No! I mean yes! I mean... I can't wait." I answered.

Roxas slept with me again that night and in the morning after about two hours and tons of paperwork I was finally released. Wheeling me down the hallway we boarded the elevator and soon Roxas was bringing the car around and helping me inside. When we got home it was just us. We didn't invite anyone over and for that I was glad for. It was just an intimate night between the two of us.

We had lasagna for supper along with garlic bread and grape juice in place of wine because apparently Roxas drank the last bottle. For dessert we made blueberry muffins together. Curling up on the couch Roxas laid his head in my lap as I ran my fingers through his hair.

He fell asleep not long after I started and I didn't have the heart to wake him up. He had been working hard since I had been admitted to the hospital and had barely made time to go home. If he wasn't with his patients Aerith told me he was with me. While I appreciated how amazing he had been I wanted him to take care of himself to.

I was weak but I was able to pick up my new boyfriend and carry him to our room. Crawling in the bed I pulled the covers over us but not before undressing Roxas as much as I could without waking him. Once he was undressed I started on myself, pulling my jeans off and then my shirt until I was left in my black and orange flamed boxers.

Gently I pulled him in the circle of my arms and wrapped them around his waist. Burying my face in his wild mane I fell asleep with the scent of strawberry shampoo and my blond haired lover on my mind.

A/N: End of chatper 5! Nooo! Haha I'm so glad you guys like this so far and thank you for all the favorites and reviews. Reviews make me happy so let me know what you think and I'll see everyone in chatper 6! Bye for now!

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