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LET SLEEPING BLOOD LIE

Chapter 22 - Before dawn

The righteous perish,
and no one takes it to heart;
the devout are taken away,
and no one understands
that the righteous are taken away
to be spared from evil.

-Isaiah 57:1

They have a few drinks at the robber on the way home to Maura's after the funeral, hoping to maybe ease the pain a little. Jane drinks more than her fair share but everyone enjoys her company, seeing her relaxed, almost like nothing happened, on the outside at least. By the time they leave neither are in any state to drive so Maura calls a cab.

They finally tumble out of the Taxi at the destination, Maura giggling at Jane's un-modest behaviour on the short ride over, she had been rather 'handsie'. They make their way to the front door.

Stepping inside Maura starts to take off Jane's coat running her hand innocently across Jane's neck. Jane feels tingles run down her spine and steps towards Maura pressing her body flush, taking Maura's lips in her own. Jane's hands instantly start to search for a way below Maura's clothing, running up and down her sides and across her stomach and waist. Maura moans at the sensations. Jane pauses.

Maura looks up, "Are you ok, honey?"

Jane swallows, "Yeah, I don't know, maybe." she frowns at her own confusion

Maura smiles at her, "Stop worrying Jane. We were together for only a few days before...before you vanished, and not really much after. I don't expect things to be the way they were or might have been. I think I'd be worried if they were. I do love you though, and as much as I want you...I need you to be ok with it. Because you want to, no other agenda. I'll be ok if nothing happens tonight."

Jane relaxed and smiled slightly, suddenly feeling very sober.

"I wish I hadn't stopped us that night, I wish I'd just let you take me, before...you know," Maura whispered keeping her eyes on Jane's, "I just thought we had more time".

Jane's eyes move between Maura's eyes studying her carefully.

"Before I chickened out?" Jane questions

"No, before you started shutting me out, before things changed, before I lost you."

Jane looks down, things are different.

"You didn't loose me Maur', I'm just a little lost right now. It's a cliche line, but...it's not you...it's me."

Maura tries to smile and fails, "I know Jane."

"It's just...there is no justice", Jane groans frustrated, "I don't know whether to be sad or angry. The world is just so messed up. Starving children, war, homeless, victims treated badly and criminals set free. But without a working justice system who do you go to when you're fighting it...do you go to them, the courts? To the masons that run the courts? How do you fight it?"

Maura gently rubs Jane's arm trying to soothe her. She doesn't know what to say, she isn't entirely sure what Jane is rambling about, she has no response to give, no answer, they have both seen criminals get released, evidence be minimised or dismissed by district attorney's, seen their hard work in solving a case undone in the high courts with bias judges and confused jurors. There was no answer she could give to help Jane feel better.

Jane scowls her face up and clenched her fists to fight against the outburst looming inside her. She thinks about her breathing carefully and focuses on Maura's soothing touch to stay calm

"I just...it's just... " She squeezes the bridge of her nose

"You can only do what you can Jane," Maura says softly, "We do our job, we do our best. And just hope others try to do their best too."

"There must me more." Jane stands up pacing slowly, "There has to be more. They won't do their best...they don't care about us only about themselves and their cause and they aren't good..."

Maura stands and puts her hands on Jane's arms stopping her, she needs her to calm down. She strokes the length of Jane's arms stopping just over her bandaged wrists. Jane doesn't actually need the bandages anymore but is insistent to keep them. Maybe as a reminder or maybe to hide the skin discoloration below them and the memories that come with them. There is so much in Jane's life that has been unjust, like Hoyt, her burned down apartment, every scar on her fragile body, every kidnapping that has scarred her spirit, changed her just a little, she stares at beautiful soft twinkling brown eyes that have experienced a world of pain and injustice and wears the scars mostly on the inside. And her own life, parents that all but abandoned her, friends that used her. Everyone wears scars and bruises, there's often no-one to blame, sometimes it's just the hand life deals you. Sometime life is just not fair.

"We won't be victims... " She stops, and instead of saying something encouraging Maura just sobs loudly leaning her forehead onto Jane's chest. "I'm sorry Jane, I'm sorry," she whimpers.

Jane holds her tightly feeling a pang of guilt that her combination of hurt and anger has affected her usually composed best friend. She is confused, holding Maura who is sobbing softly in her arms. She is at a crossroads which she has been battling all week.
One path is to walk away and carry on with life, pretend it's all ok, bottle up the anger and continue forward with her head for the better part in the sand...for Maura's sake. And hope she doesn't lash out at someone who deserves it.
Or the other path...Vent this anger at the people who deserve it whoever that is, or someone else that deserves it...and possibly hurt Maura.
She squeezes Maura tightly, it's a decision she can't make right now. She kisses Maura's temple softly and caresses her cheek until the sobbing stops completely.

"I'm the sorry one Maur. You don't need to be sorry."

Maura lifts her gaze slowly meeting Jane's, Jane smiles at her

"I want you Jane...I need you. I'm ready."

Jane's smile stays frozen while her brain turns.

Maybe it was the anger within her or the sadness in Maura's eyes, while she doesn't completely regret it, it is possible she made love with Maura for the wrong reasons that night. Guilt or the fear of loosing Maura, the possibility of never seeing her again. For whatever reason, Jane gives her everything to Maura. Anything Maura asks for. It is raw and passionate sex, beautifully vulnerable, passionate, yet gentle.
Until exhaustion forces them both to sleep warm in each others arms...safe.

Your Maura, She does deserve to be safe

And after Jane wakes up a few hours later, she lays on her back with Maura curled up beside her, a blond head on her stomach. She stares at the ceiling, she had to question if her happiness was more important than truth and justice. Had she made a mistake walking away, submitting to evil? To protect herself and Maura had she allowed evil to prevail? Did it make a difference?

She had betrayed herself, her code, the cop code, everything she had once believed in. Truth, honour, Justice for the strong and the weak.

She couldn't go backwards, she couldn't go forward either, she desperately needed air.

She carefully got up to not disturb Maura and put on some clothes, wandering into the backyard, bare feet enjoying the wet dew on the grass. She stared up at the sky, stars twinkling above her bright and pure. Her breath was a white puff and it lingered in the air. She wrapped her arms around herself.

"I don't want to loose you Maura" her whisper carried into the silence.

Unsure how long she stood there lost in her thoughts, it was the light of dawn that finally caught her attention.

Maura wakes to the sweet scent of Jane wafting from the sheets beside her

"Jane" she smiles sitting up. Looking around the room, it's empty. She puts on a dressing gown and wanders her house looking for Jane, but Jane is gone.

Today's newspaper was folded nicely on Maura's breakfast counter when she went downstairs. She unfolded it slowly and read the front page.

"BOSTON DAILY NEWS - HEADLINE - Four Boston College students were charged with hazing this week in connection with the possible suicide of Roy Hamish Jones the Third. The four students already have name suppression. There is a good possibility that the lawyers representing the four members of now revoked charter, 'Phi Kappa Beta', will seek to have the charges reduced from a first-degree to a second-degree misdemeanor. That would carry a fine of a few hundred dollars. It is equivalent to pleading guilty to disturbing the peace. The four would have no criminal record. Boston College officials have withdrawn recognition of the Fraternity chapter. Effective immediately, the fraternity, must cease all activity on the Boston College campus and any possibility of reinstating the chapter can be decided no earlier than April 2021. The investigation, conducted by the Dean of Students Office, found that chapter members engaged in hazing and conspired to not cooperate with University officials and University police. The violations occurred while the chapter was under probation. "The probation period was their opportunity to remedy the situation and they did not take it. The withdrawal of recognition is the most serious punishment any college can enact on a student organization" he said yesterday. The College principle resigned yesterday but indicated his leaving was for personal reasons and not related to the incident around Phi Kappa Beta."

Jane had written in red text at the top of the page 'I hate this'. She hated it too, everything to do with the case angered or hurt her. The biggest hurt was the loss of Jane.

...to be continued...

Sorry it's a bit short, but the next one is extra long and I didn't want to split it :)