Authors note: So I have had a few things said to me about my knowledge of miscarriages. No, I do not know what it feels like and I wouldn't wish it upon anyone. My facts are probably not straight and I never said they would be. I'm not writing this to upset of offend anyone – it's merely a story from my head. I understand how it could make people feel, and if so- I apologise and you can stop reading my story if you need to.

But I have actually got a chance to write on a computer today rather than my phone, so I thought why not upload a chapter in the woods?

Chapter 8: Don't ruin this Grey

Inside the cabin was huge though the outside looked rather small. It was a tardis I swear. It was very modern inside or should I say very fifty! I had a massive smile on my face wondering what adventures we will have this weekend. I have never had sex in the woods before and my inner goddess wakes up from her nap, kicking off her blanket ready to rumble. Taylor sets our bags in the bedroom and then leaves us alone. I wonder if he is staying here with us this weekend and flush at the thought. Taylor probably knows too much about stuff he shouldn't.
"What do you think?" Christian asks me nervous.
"I love it! Thank you, it's such a sweet idea. I've never stayed in a cabin like this before" I express and actually I have never stayed in a cabin at all!
Christian kisses me on the forehead and follows Taylor outside. I look through the window and see them conversing to each other. I decide to take the time to walk around and explore. There's a huge fire place in front of two big gray couches. They look perfect for a nap. I walk into the bedroom and the bed is huge. Bigger than any bed I have seen. This cabin is full of mysteries. There is a bathroom, a library and a study – of course. I decide to make my way back to those comfy looking couches and lay down. I wrap myself in a blanket that was placed on top and suddenly I drift off into a sleep.

"Ana, Ana baby?" I feel a soft tug on my arms and a hand brush through my hair? What was going on? I flutter my eyes open to see Christian smiling back at me. His Gray eyes are huge and his smile was dazzling.
I stretch my arms out and realise we are not at home. Oh yeah! We are in the cabin and of course I fell asleep. I just feel so darn tired.
"what time is it?" I ask and Christian smirks.
"Eight" oh I've missed dinner "In the morning" and I was confused for a second and realised I was in that big bed and not on the couch anymore. I slept the whole evening away? I flush if red came to my cheeks as I felt embarrassed. What a way to waste and evening Ana!
"Sorry" I sneak out and start to get out of bed.
"I didn't have the heart to wake you, though you were out cold. I thought you had died on me" and I can imagine that Christian kept checking on my through out the night. My protective fifty.
"Well I guess we have a lot to do today then!" I say as I start to get out of bed. I walk towards the bathroom but Christian grabs my hand and pulls me back. I twist slightly and then this weird pull in my stomach gives out pain. I stop suddenly as I can feel liquid making it's way up to my mouth. I quickly pull myself away out of Christian's grasp and run to the toilet where I throw up.
"Ana?" and of course he has followed me.
"No, go away. Don't look" but he doesn't listen. Christian pulls the hair from out of my face and rubs my back soothingly. It does feel nice.
"Ugh. I hate being sick" I start after I've finish throwing up the contents of my stomach. I grab a paper towel and wipe of my mouth.
Christian looks as me worried. Oh my sweet fifty.
"I'm okay" and he doesn't look convinced.
"Do I need to call Dr Crowe?" he asks and I immediately start shaking my head. It's just sickness right.
"No need, I'm sure I'm okay! Anyway I have not eaten in a very long time so that could be why?"
"You're hungry?" and the subject is forgotten about as Christian takes me into the kitchen and fills me up with tea and bacon.

I get dressed and await the excitement of what we are doing today. I'm sat on the sofa watching some breakfast show when in comes Christian dressed in hiking gear and that gives me the clue of today. I look down at my choice of shoes and realise pumps are not going to work for this.
Christian chuckles "There are hiking boots for you in the bedroom Ana" and of course he has thought of everything. I quickly run to the bedroom and Christian swats my behind. Oh I do love playful fifty.
I remember how much I hate hiking and that I am an attraction for stumbling and falling over on the rocks but Christian looks excited and I can do this for him.
I noticed Taylor was not around so I guess Christian had given him a day off or something.
"Ready?" He asks and I swallow.
"yes" I agree though my insides are squirming. Do not fall Anastasia. The trail wasn't that far from the cabin luckily and I had yet to fall over so this was looking more positive than I thought. Christian was in his element, every different type of tree we passed he told me about. Since when were I married to a boy scout? I never realise how much knowledge he actually held. I guess there are still things I need to learn about Mr Grey.
"That's poison Ivy, Ana. Don't touch it" and I giggled of course even I knew that one.
I roll my eyes and continue forward.
"Just cause we are put in the wilderness, doesn't mean I wont spank you" He says and he's set off an alarm in my groin. How does he do that?
I want the challenge though. I wanted to feel his hand make my ass red.
"Oh really? Is that a challenge Mr Grey?" and I see his eyebrows lift. He is enjoying this as much as I am.
"Oh no, Mrs Grey. I don't believe this a challenge that you could win".
"Shall we take bets?" I press and my insides are moving around rapid fire. Oh I was so hot for my husband.
"Why take bets when I know I would win" and it's true.
I bite my lip and I hear him intake a breath.
"Oh I don't think so Mr Grey, though you'd have to catch me first" and I ran ahead. I heard him laugh and he was chasing after me. I was being careful not to fall over and so far it was working. Christian was fast but for some reason I was faster. I was screaming as he nearly caught me but I wormed my way out of his grasp. We were both laughing and living care free. This is was it's about. All the shit and pain we've been through. We were a young couple and madly in love.
I stopped out of breath at the bottom of the next hill and Christian crashed into me, wrapping his arms around me and kissing my cheek.
"My Mrs Grey, since when did you get so fast?" but he kept kissing my face and it tickled me. I couldn't stop laughing. I was just so happy.
I placed my arms around his neck and stood on my tippy toes but again that feeling hit my stomach and that vile liquid started to make its way north.
I tried to hold it in and held my hand up to my mouth so Christian would get what I meant. He let go of me and I threw up yet again into a bush. Classy.
"Anaaaaaaa" Christian moans and I know it's killing him to not phone a Dr.
I really don't feel well and I just want to crawl in to bed and sleep.
"Can we head back please?" I ask and he nods. Instead of walking he picks me up and carries me like a child back to the Cabin. I like being this close in his arms. I felt safe.
It didn't take long to get back which made me realise we must have walked insanely slow to reach where we just were. Christian laid me down on the bed and got a cold flannel and placed it on my forehead. It felt heavenly. My eyes already started to droop and I was utterly knackered.
"Are you okay Ana?" and I merely "mm" in response and I hear him faintly chuckle.
"Sleep Mrs Grey, I love you" and I wanted to say it back but I was gone, drifted off into a dream about that familiar copper haired boy.

Christian P.O.V

I know something is not quite right with Ana and I really want to phone Dr Crowe but I do one better. Ana has fallen asleep yet again so I walk into the study and press dial. My mother will help me out and Ana doesn't need to know.
Grace answers on the 3rd ring. God bless this woman.
"Christian! Darling, how are you?" and she sounded ecstatic. Calm down mother. I roll my eyes.
"Hi mom, I'm fine. I actually have a query about Ana" I explain.
"Oh, what's the matter?"
"Mom, she's not well and I don't know why. She's been sleeping a lot and throwing up". The phone was silent and I didn't understand why…
"Mom?"
"How long has Ana been throwing up for?" I squint my eyes in confusion, what is she getting at?
"Just today that I am aware of".
"Hmm. Is she there?" Grave asks.
"No, she's asleep.. I can get her to call once she is awake?"
"Yes. I need to speak with her. It'll be easier that way". And I know she knows something but isn't telling me. God damn woman's code.
"What is is?" I ask knowing that she isn't going to tell me.
"I just need to talk to Ana Darling, nothing to worry about. Just give her lots of water and rest". Okay, I can do that.
"Bye mom, thanks"
"Bye Darling. Remember to get Ana to phone me" and she puts the phone down. What do you know Grace? I put my phone in my back pocket confused and irritated that she didn't tell me her thoughts.
I go into the kitchen and pour Ana a glass of water and place it on the bed side table. I take this time to catch up on emails and other work bits. I have given Taylor the day off she he's gone into the nearest town to do some sight seeing.
It's gone 4 hours and Anastasia is still asleep. I walk into the bedroom and place my hand on her chest just to check she is in fact still breathing.
Her cheeks are red and sweat is on her forehead. I wonder if it's too hot in hear but I don't think it is. I open the window slightly anyway just to give her some air. I watch her and my she is an actual angel. I've watched her sleep more than watching her awake and she is just so beautiful. I thank my lucky stars that she's mine.
I hear her whisper something and she rolls over. I thought maybe she was waking up but a snore escapes her mouth and I gather she is still out for the afternoon. I take a shower and let the water clear away any remainder from our hike. My mind started to wonder and wish Ana was in the shower with me. I'd start kissing her sweet neck and let me hands wonder around to her perfect ass. I close my eyes day dreaming and then realise that I am getting too carried away. Even with my erection growing, I try to change my thoughts. Sex is too good with Ana to do anything else. I turn the shower to cold to stop these desires and when ready get out of the shower. I grab clean clothes and face my sleeping beauty., I'm bored without her and really wish she would wake up. Can I wake her up? Mother said she needed rest but I want to be selfish and see her awake.

I place my hand back on her cheek and kiss her closed eyes.
"Ana. Ana, baby – Wake up" I coo softly and notice her eyes flutter slightly.
"come on sleepy head. I'm lonely here without you" and then her big blue eyes are staring at me. She is so fucking beautiful.

Ana P.O.V

I fell asleep again? Whose idea was it to bring me away cause I'm proving such a party pooper right now.
"sorry, I'm just so tired. Maybe it's the fresh air" I laugh and stretch out my limbs. Oh that feels good.
"Don't be mad at me" and I frown, what have you done now Grey?
"Mad?" I question.
"I phoned my mom whilst you were asleep and explained your symptoms" Oh fifty, you just couldn't help yourself could you"

"And she wants you to phone her. I don't know why" and I knew that bothered him. I nodded my head.
"Let me brush my teeth and I'll phone her". I continued to the bathroom and freshened up and then headed into Christian's study. He was sat on his chair and chose to sit on his lap. I picked up the phone and phoned my mother-in-law.
Ring.. Ring.. Ring..
"Hello?"
"Hi Grace it's Ana" and for some reason I felt rather nervous. I knew Christian could hear the conversation.
"Ana, Christian told me about your symptoms and I just have a couple of questions for you". What did she think she knew? Yes definitely nervous now.
"okay".. My stomach was churning with nerves. Christian was rubbing my back. I'm sure he could sense my feelings.
"Ana, when was your last period?" Oh what a weird question to ask. What was she getting at. Christian looked at me and I saw that he knew instantly what she was getting at. I started to count in my head and realise it was roughly 4 weeks ago.. and I never re-got the shot. Oh shit. My mind clicked. We hadn't been using condoms. I don't think either of us thought about this. I looked at Christian in the eyes and I'm sure his face mirrored mine.
"Ana?" Grace calls noticing how quiet I was.
"Um" was all I could choke out. Of course I would be happy but that doesn't stop the worry of what happened last time. What if I loose… No Ana. Snap out of it.
"I think you need to see Dr Crowe when you get back Ana. Just to be sure". I let out a big breath not realizing that I had been holding it for a few seconds.
"Okay"
"I'll speak to you soon okay, Phone me if you feel anything else at all" Grace sounded excited. Second time lucky right?
"I will. Thank you" and I pressed end call. Christian was silent but his expression was unreadable. Happy? Sad? I couldn't tell.
I let out a whimper and that snapped fifty out of his daze. He kissed my cheek and pulled me close. It's not that I wasn't happy. I'm now terrified of what could happen. I needed to see Dr Crowe soon and confirm this. I mean, maybe I'm not pregnant? Maybe I just have a bug and this is all just a dream. But maybe you are pregnant my subconscious spoke and that thought lingered. A baby? I smile slightly. I didn't want to get my hopes up but it's hard not too.
I look at fifty.
"Christian.. What if I am?" I speak and he answers me with the most remarkable smile and kisses me passionately.
What a weekend in the woods? I didn't expect this on my little adventure but this could be the best adventure yet.
As the evening went on we ate chicken soup and sat in front of the fire. It was hard not to be excited by this news and Christian was beaming. We had one day left here and then when Monday rolls around Dr Crowe will be investigating into my little dream.

"We are going to have a family" Christian lets out and if he weren't sitting I know he would be jumping up and down on the spot.
"Possibly" I say bringing the factor of reality back in the room.
"We are going to be parents" and I smiled. We were already parents to little blip but just not in how we figured. This time, I am doing this right, just like I should have with blip. I know my little baby is up there watching and looking down on his sibling. Together we are going to protect this little life and I can't wait.

Is it Monday yet?

Authors note:

Next update will probably be Wednesday. So long little loves. Do not be harsh on me. If you do not like or agree with my story then please don't read. The comments you leave, I do read and they can put me down – to some points where I don't want to continue, but I will cause I enjoy writing.