A/N: Hellloo guys! Omg I know today is Monday, not Sunday and I was supposed to update yesterday but some stuff was going on with friendships and blah blah blah and unfortunately, my WiFi box broke but that doesn't matter because it's fixed now! Thank you guys for waiting and for all the sweet and kind reviews! I love reviews. It always puts a smile to my face. Now, sorry for the last chapter and that plot twist but come on, you can't tell me that you don't secretly love it! It's drama and angst and you guys came here for angst and i'm gonna give it to ya! SPOILER! Sectionals is in this chapter! The songs: Smile (That duet Finn and Rachel sang back in Season One), Blaine singing Young Girls by Bruno Mars, Rachel and Harmony singing So Emotional by the great and talented Whitney Houston, and the group singing the best mashup ever, Fly/ I believe I can Fly. Well, onto the chapter! I hope you guys love it and make sure to review, favorite, and follow! ~This is the longest chapter so far so I hope it pleases you guys! I tried to make it as long as I could :)~

Kurt's POV

"I told you so." Sarah says sort-of laughing.

I think she was laughing because the fact that MY BLAINERS IS A HOMOPHOBIC CREATURE AND HATES MY GUTTS is none of her concern.

"I mean, when you did what you did, why didn't you look at all the possibilities? Sorry to say this but instead of having a straight Blaine who accepts the LGBT community, you now have a straight Blaine who hates the LGBT community."

I groan annoyingly. "Don't you think I know that?"

"Yeah I know, I just wanted to say it again." She says smiling.

I roll my eyes and lean back on her bed.

"What do I do?" I ask.

"You think I have the rulebook for what to do when you make your lover get in a car crash and now he hates you for being gay? All I can say is let him ease into liking you."

I hated/loved the way she was extremely blunt.

"And how am I supposed to do that?"

"Boy I don't know! I'm just satisfied that I have my best friend back exactly the way he was before you tried to corrupt him."

"Thanks, for nothing." I say standing up to leave her room.

"You're welcome, Sugar!"

And with that, I open the door to her room to leave. Sigh. This wasn't what I wanted at all. I didn't just lose my lover. I also lost my best friend too and that hurts. I walk down her hallway with my eyes glued to the floor until I felt my head hit something hard.

"Oww." I say looking up and grabbing my head.

When I look up, I quickly step back.

It was Blaine.

"Move." He says harshly.

I felt tears slowly come out of my eyes. This isn't the Blaine I know. I obey what he says and I move out of the doorway.

"I'm sorry," he says softly, which I barely caught because then he quickly opens and closes Sarah's bedroom door so I would hear him over that noise but I did.

I'm sorry.

He cares?!

Wait so, I'm confused.

He wants to rot but he apologizes for wanting me to rot. Does that even make a little bit of sense? I thought girls play games. That is one of the reasons I gave up on them all together. But boys playing games? That is something I thought I'd never see. Well, we are gay so you never know.

As I walk outside Sarah's house, I sat on the large rocking chair on her patio to take in the nature. Because that was the only thing keeping me sane.

I close my eyes and travel to another place. Another world. Another dimension to escape the one I'm living right now. To stand upon a mountain with the wind gently blowing through my hair, arms outstretched to the sky, two eagles flying in an elegant mating dance just 15 feet above my head.
The sun glowing bright orange as it slowly dips below the horizon leaving the sky slashed with blues, reds, oranges, pinks and golds to slowly fade to a dusky dark grey sky which turns to velvet black sparkling with so many stars and I see the Milky Way and understand why it is called such.
I breathe in the cool air and feel so light, relaxed and in awe of the fact that I'm a part of the beauty which surrounds me...Freedom

"Kurt?" I hear a voice, which interrupts my lovely daydream.

I slowly open my eyes to reveal Sarah with her arms crossed and Blaine with his head turned to the side, not even looking at me.

"So, I'm going to go…" Blaine says trying to walk away. My shoulders slouch as his fet began to move in the opposite direction but Sarah stopped him.

"Blaine, be mature." She orders.

And just like that, he listens to her. Sarah then sits down next to me on the small, light brown bench beside the rocking chair. Blaine sits next to her on the bench, barely fitting. As if half of his butt was on the seat.

"You guys need to talk." Sarah says strictly.

"I don't want to talk to a fag!" Blaine says balling up his fist.

God, every time he says that word, I cringe. I never thought Blaine of all people would even utter those words. I remember when we talked about gay rights and he was saying how he was all for it and he hates when people say the word… yeah. He couldn't even say it! And now it just comes easy to him.

I don't know why I'm blaming him. It's my fault. But I really want to talk to him so maybe he could remember who he was. I have no intention of making him gay. I just, I just want my best friend back.

"Blaine, come on. Please? Just for me?"

After a while, he sighs. And then crosses his arms.

"Fine. Just for you. And only you."

Sarah smiles and kisses him on the check which I wince because that should be me kissing him. She then stands up to go back inside her house. And before she does, she whispers in my ear.

"Blaine has quite a temper. If he's ever riled up, ever a little, bang on my door. Okay?"

I nod and then she leaves.

It felt like a century full of silence. I felt like I was going to die until he finally spoke up.

"I just don't understand you gays. It's unnatural and against the ways of nature. God did not create men to be this way. You set bad examples for younger generations, higher rates for diseases and-"

"Just stop." I breathe out, wiping away my tears.

By now, tears were spilling out of my ears because of what he was saying. And everything he was saying it's like, he had a strong passion for it. Like he's believing what he's saying. I created this monster and his parents are probably eating all of this up and throwing a fucking party, celebrating the fact that Blaine hates me, just like they wanted him to.

"First, I don't even believe in what you guys called God. And if I did, Mercedes told me that we are human before we are gay and God says to accept everyone for who they are and I am gay. There was a Blaine I once knew that was my best friend and loved me despite the fact that I had feelings for him but, you know, he didn't let that get in the way of our friendship. He stood for gay rights until I did something stupid and it ruined everything so please Blaine, remember who I am."

The look in his face changes from mad to sympathetic. But in a matter of seconds, it changed right back.

"Remember that you're a fag? No thanks."

I nod my head and stand up.

"One day, Blaine, you'll remember who I was and what we had. I've regretted what I've done every day. And you will regret everything you've said to me." I say, heading down the steps. When I was almost out of hearing distance, I heard a soft whisper,

"I'm sorry, Kurt."

I perk up and turn around, only to see a door shutting. I sigh, confused with my feelings and head home. In the evening I sit in front of my house and feel the soft gentle breeze caress my face and cool my body. The breeze is simply beautiful and nature gives it free to me. Actually nature gives this free to everyone, but it seems that not everyone is aware of this.
Sometimes the sky is immensely blue. White silvery clouds glide almost imperceptibly against it. The clouds are never the same as they change their shapes continuously. These things are more beauty that I perceive around me. Some days when the sky turns black with thick heavy clouds, a distance curtain of falling rain can be seen. It appears as though some unseen hand is pouring water onto the land to nourish it. The sight is beautiful and it makes me feel closer to the beauty of the Earth.

After a thunderstorm, the air is crisp and cool. Birds come out and sing out their joy to life. I sing too as I frolic on barefoot on the cool wet grass beside my house. The frogs croak joyfully. Even the insects seem to buzz and shriek louder. I am sure they are all singing about how beautiful life is. Well, it is for them, but not for me.

In the night the stars make their appearance. Millions of these twinkling jewels can be seen in the black sky. How wondrous it is to gaze at the glory of the universe. No doubt I am just a tiny part of it, but to be able to take it in through my senses makes it even more wondrous.

At night the moon often makes its appearance. Sometimes it is round. Other times it is crescent-shaped. Nevertheless its presence adds to the beauty of the backdrop of stars in the far reaches of space. It is amazing that there are such things.

The little garden beside my house is filled with the things of nature. Little bees, butterflies and other insects fly among the flowers in search of food. The flowers themselves are brightly colored with every possible combination of colors and hues. I feast my eyes on the scene of immense activity and again witness the beauty of nature's innumerable wonders.

Since the next day is a holiday, I didn't bother to do any homework. I stay up late to watch What Not to Wear. Also Dad allows me to stay up as late as I like since I do not have to get up early. I dodge phone calls from Rachel, Finn, and Mercedes. And Quinn, which I was terrified of. I just didn't want to deal with that anymore today. I may be a horrible, horrible person but I deserved a free day all to myself so I can regain my sanity.

Sometimes when I'm depressed, I think a lot about Nature. Dad says I got that from my mother. Sometimes it works, but like today, it didn't.

I didn't really know what would make this all okay because I can't wish for Blaine to be mine or for Blaine to change back. That would be too much.

"Kurt? A voice says from a distance.

I look up to see my dad, who has a concern look on his face. I tried my best to hide my tears and but on the biggest grin I have ever used in my life. It was so big, my face hurt.

"Hey Dad," I beam. "What's up?"

He sits on the couch next to me and looks me dead in the eye.

"Kurt, cut the crap and tell me what's wrong." He says strictly.

Sometimes, I hated that he knew me.

When I told him everything, he pulls me into a hug.

"Kid, don't think about it too much. Everything will be okay."

"How do you know?" I ask.

"Do you think you and Blaine are meant to be?"

"Yes!" I shout with so much certainty.

"Then stop worrying." He says jokingly.

"Dad, he's straight. Not only straight, a homophobic jerk."

"Hey now, you can't call him a jerk for what you did."

"I know…"

"Come on Kurt, go to bed. I think you need it."

I nod and head to my bedroom. I turn on the lights to find someone sleeping on my bed.

"AHHHHH!" I shriek.

The mysterious person wakes up and looks at me.

"Oh, hi Kurt."

It was Rachel for God's sake.

"What in glees name are you doing in my freaking bed?!"

"Sleeping… obviously…"

"Sleeping?! In my bed?!"

"Yeah… obviously…" she said as if I said the sky was brown.

"Rachel, why aren't you sleeping at YOUR house?"

"Because we are having a sleepover, duhh."

I smile sympathetically at her.

"I'm deeply sorry Rachel. I'm really tired and I'm not in the mood. Not that I don't love you! It's just that I'm so tired, I don't even feel like doing my night regimen."

"I understand Kurt. We can talk in the morning."

I jump into bed and snuggle under the covers. We sort of fight over the blanket for a while until we got the same amount.

"Can we at least sing a night duet?"

Ugggh! No more songs! But I wanted to be nice…

"What song, Rachel?"

"Smile!" I could feel her grinning in the dark.

"Ugh, that stupid song you sang with Finn?"

"Yep! It always made me smile, so I want it to make you smile!"

"Rachel… I don't know abo-"

"When you first left me I was wanting more…" she sings.

Ugh…. I was in no mood to sing. Especially not that song. I just wanted to dream about Blaine in a world where we were married and shoot, it's my part.

"What cha do that for…"

Now, back to Blaine.

Is it so bad wanting a guy to love you? I mean, how am I supposed to change a homophobe to gay? That's like a suicide mission.

And then suddenly, it clicked.

What if his amnesia was only temporary? So that means this whole stage could wear off and he will be back to the Blaine I love! Well, I still love his despite everything he has said to me. So, I start to grin and actually sing the song.

When you first left me
I didn't know what to say
I never been on my own that way
Just sat by myself all day

I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends
I found a light in the tunnel at the end

Now you're calling me up on the phone
So you can have a little whine and a moan
And it's only because you're feeling alone

At first when I see you cry
It makes me smile, yeah it makes me smile
At worst, I feel bad for a while
But then I just smile, I go ahead and smile

Whenever you see me
You say that you want me back
And I tell you it don't mean jack
No it don't mean jack

I couldn't stop laughing
No I just couldn't help myself
See you messed up my mental health
I was quite unwell

I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends
I found a light in the tunnel at the end

Now you're calling me up on the phone
So you can have a little whine and a moan
And it's only because you're feeling alone

At first when I see you cry
It makes me smile, yeah it makes me smile
At worst I feel bad for a while
But then I just smile, I go ahead and smile

At first when I see you cry
It makes me smile, yeah it makes me smile
At worst I feel bad for a while
But then I just smile, I go ahead and smile

"At first when I see you cry! It makes me smile, yeah it makes me smile…" she says putting her head on my shoulder.
"At worst I feel bad for a while! But then I just smile, I go ahead and smile…" I smile, brushing the small hairs out of her face.

"Now, Good night, Barbra."

"Ha-ha, Good night Kurt."

When I knew she was asleep, I reached down on the floor near my bed and grabbed my phone. I opened my text messages and clicked on Blaine.

Blaine, I'm sorry. Please remember me.

Blaine's POV

As I was lying in bed, confused of my emotions, I got a text.

Blaine, I'm sorry. Please remember me.

I sigh. If only he knew…

Kurt's POV

Sectionals are next week and we are still struggling with our set list. Still.

Rachel and Harmony can't figure out a song, we can't figure out a group number, and I don't know if Blaine has a solo number, given the fact that he won't talk to me.

Quinn keeps glaring at me from across the room while linking arms with Blaine. I don't know who's scarier when they are mad. Sarah or Quinn? Blaine hasn't looked at me all day and what's worse, he didn't even defend me when Karofsky and Azimio were you know, doing their daily harassing. He just walked right by like he didn't see a thing. My eyes still hurt a little from earlier and I'm sticky and everything. On my off period, I'll make sure to go home and take a shower. And put on some NEW clothes.

FLASHBACK

I walk into school with a slight frown on my face. I didn't really know how to smile anymore. I mean, I know yesterday some things happened but it was still all too confusing to be happy about it.

I stop at my locker to put my change of clothes in if I ever get slushied today. Which is probably most likely. When I was putting in my last textbook, my locker was shut for me.

"OWWW! Shit!" I yelp.

I shake my hand to relieve some of the pain to reveal David and Azimio smirking.

"What's up, fag? I heard you and your boy toy broke up!" Karofsky states.

"Because now, he doesn't like your kind!" Azimio finishes.

I roll my eyes until my eyes land on Blaine walking by. When he caught my eyes, I am immediately shoved into a locker but I still kept my eyes on him and so did he. Then, he shakes his head and keeps walking.

My whole body stops and I was instantly heartbroken.

I had thought that maybe, just maybe, there was still a little of my Blaine in there to at least defend me. But he didn't.

END OF FLASHBACK

It's still my fault though. He can do whatever he wants and it would still be my fault. I made him this way. Then loud yells interrupted my thoughts.

"We've got it!" Rachel and Harmony says.

"I've got it!" Blaine says in unison with Rach and Harmony.

"Okay, what do you got?" Mr. Schue says running to the board.

"So Emotional, by my Queen, Whitney Houston." Rachel says enthusiastically.

"Ooo! Great song choice! Blaine, what you got?"

"Young Girls, by Bruno Mars."

"Ooo, emotional. Is that a ballad?"

"I would like it to be." Blaine says with his voice slightly cracking while staring at the floor.

That's weird…

Quinn looks at him in concern and he shakes it off.

What was that all about?

"Well I for one love all those song choices. How about the group number? I think I should sing the lead." Tina says standing up.

God, I hate Tina.

"Well, you thought wrong. I'm singing the lead. Tell her Mr. Schue." Rachel says.

"Why don't we sing a mash up?" Mercedes suggests.

"Yeah, we should sing I believe I can fly." Sam says.

"And then the song Fly! By the biggest bitch, Nicki Minaj and Rihanna."

"Ooo! I like!" Rachel says. "And then I should sing the lead."

"Rachel, you can't sing the lead in everything." I mutter.

"What was that Kurt? Yeah, I thought so." Rachel spats.

I roll my eyes. I would love to sing a solo on stage. I know this is just sectionals but you know, they'd never let me sing it at Nationals so… I'm tired of just singing at home. Well, I'll be auditioning for Julliard so I can wait till then.

"I think everyone should have a part." Finn says.

So this was the polished set list:

Blaine: Young Girls by Bruno Mars

Rachel and Harmony- So Emotional by Whitney Houston

New Directions- I believe I can fly/ Fly mashup

"Good idea, Finn. We'll break it in half at tomorrow's practice and then the day after that will be rehearsal and then after that will be booty camp and then-"

"Okay Mr. Schue. We know you're nervous but-"

"I'm not nervous, I just want y'all to do the best you can."

The whole group smiles until the bell rings.

Blaine walks past me and I don't know what made me say this but I don't know.

"Hey, Blaine."

He looks at me with an apologetic look, which I was also confused at.

"Hey, Fag." He cringes and then leaves.

Sigh.

I think it's a problem that I'm getting used to it.

Time Jump: Sectionals

"Omg I'm so excited!" Harmony shouts.

"Me too! I can't wait to hear Blaine!" Rachel gushes.

"Guys, stop." Blaine laughs.

Ugh, he was still dapper.

"I can't wait to hear him too." I say loudly. Oh lord, I meant to mutter it not yell it. They look at me with a quizzical look until Blaine says-

"Thanks." He nods.

I nod and walk over to a different group to avoid any more awkwardness.

I overhear Mercedes, Tina's, Artie's, and Sam's conversation.

"Blaine's solo will be amazing." Tina says like she's in love.

"I know right. And so will Rachel's and Harmony's duet." Sam says.

"There should be a ship name for them. How about, Hachel? Or Ramony? Or better, Bepierce!" Artie suggests.

"Ooo, I like Bepierce!" Tina says.

"And so will my rapping in the group number." Santana says walking up to them.

I smile half-heartedly. I'm glad they all love Blaine and see his talent.

"Okay guys, I checked in! Let's get our seats. We'll be performing last." Mr. Schue says.

Ugh. Of course we will. The past has proven that we always perform last.

We go in and take our seats. I tried so hard to get a seat next to Blaine but Rachel and Harmony were all over him. I sit next to Rachel and sigh. The curtains open to reveal and random show choir, TFTI's. They sing Proud Mary, Glad you Came, and Whistle. They were decent but not that good.

Then next Tie-dye Timberlands. That's our biggest competition. Their lead singer Kalie Baize is amazing. But Blaine is extraordinary so we don't have anything to worry about.

Kalie starts singing the lyrics to the song, To Love You More by Celine Dion and I hear Rachel complaining of how she should've sang that song. Kalie even made a tear spark in my eye. Blaine's going to be playing the piano, well, that's what Rachel told me. And Blaine is remarkable when he's playing instruments so we're good.

When Kalie is almost finished, we go into the green room.

"Okay, I'll admit Kalie was astonishing but you guys are all extremely talented so show everyone that you are not a glee club to mess with. Blaine, you're up first." Mr. Schue says.

Blaine nods and then we all head back stage.

Blaine walks to the stage and then people start cheering. I don't even know why I'm starting to get butterflies in my stomach. I'm so nervous I can't even believe.

He sits down at the big, black piano and starts playing the keys.

"I spent all my money on a big old fancy car…For these bright-eyed hunnies. Oh, yeah, you know who you are…" he sings. My heart already melts at the sound of his voice. There's no way we are losing now that we have him on our team.
"Keep me up 'til the sun is high, 'Til the birds start calling my name…" he sings, picking up the momentum.
I'm addicted and I don't know why
Guess I've always been this way

All these roads steer me wrong
But I still drive them all night long, all night long

All you young wild girls
You make a mess of me
Yeah, you young wild girls
You'll be the death of me, the death of me
All you young wild girls
No matter what you do (No matter what you do)
Yeah, you young wild girls
I'll always come back to you, come back to you

I get lost under these lights
I get lost in the words I say
Start believing my own lies
Like everything will be okay
Oh, I still dream of simple life
Boy meets girl, makes her his wife
But love don't exist
When you live like this
That much I know, yes I know

All these roads steer me wrong
But I still drive them all night long, all night long

All you young wild girls
You make a mess of me
Yeah, you young wild girls
You'll be the death of me, the death of me
All you young wild girls
No matter what you do (No matter what you do)
Yeah, you young wild girls
I'll always come back to you, come back to you

You, you, you, you
You, you, you, you
Then Blaine looks into the wings, right at me. I look behind me to see if there was anyone there but there wasn't. Wait, was he singing to me? No, he couldn't have. I'm probably just imagining it. But I wasn't complaining. I motioned my hands in a, "Wait, are you talking about me?" motion then he keeps singing.

"Yeah, you, you, you, you, you, you, you…"
I felt like the lyrics were directed towards me but there's no way Blaine would be singing to me but nah, there's no way. He kept his gaze on me throughout the whole song but I hated that I was so confused. Why would Blaine be singing to me?
All you young wild girls
You make a mess of me
Yeah, you young wild girls
You'll be the death of me, the death of me
All you young wild girls
No matter what you do (No matter what you do)
Yeah, you young wild girls
"I'll always come back to you, come back to you." Blaine says nodding at me.

He'll always come back to me? What? Wait, what?

The crowd cheers and when I mean cheers, they are like screaming. I saw a bunch of posters says, "WE LOVE YOU BLAINE!" splattered all over it. Wow, a lot of people really do love him. I can't believe I was trying to deprive that away from his friends, family, and obviously fans. I even saw one of the judges wiping his tears. His! As in a guy! Crying over Blaine's voice. Not that I'm surprised.

The curtains close and Blaine wipes his tears. They move his piano off stage and then Rachel and Harmony take his place. Blaine goes to the opposite side of the wings and I was a little sad. Maybe he wasn't singing that song to me after all.

"I don't know why I like it…I just do!" Harmony says, then she starts singing.

"I've been hearing your heartbeat inside of me. I keep your photograph beside my bed…
Livin' in a world of fantasies! I can't get you out of my head…" The she motions for Rachel to sing.
"I've been waiting for the phone to ring all night, why you wanna make me feel so good. I got a love of my own baby, I shouldn't get so hung up on you." Rachel sings.

I think we can actually win this. I mean, it's just sectionals but I'm worried for Kalie like, she's sings better than me and I don't say that about a lot of people.
"Oh I remember the way that we touch, I wish I didn't like it so much. Oh I get so emotional baby, Every time I think of you. I get so emotional baby! Ain't it shocking what love can do?" They sing together.
Ain't it shocking what love can do
Ain't it shocking what love can do
I gotta watch you walk in the room baby
I gotta watch you walk out
I like the animal way you move
And when you talk
I just watch your mouth
Oh I remember the way that we touch
I wish I didn't like it so much
Oh I get so emotional baby
Every time I think of you
I get so emotional baby
Ain't it shocking what love can do
I get so emotional baby
Every time I think of you
I get so emotional baby
Ain't it shocking what love can do
Ain't it shocking what love can do
Ain't it shocking what love can do
See I remember the way that we touch
I wish I didn't like it so much
No no no, I get so emotional baby
Every time I think of you
I get so emotional baby
Ain't it shocking what love can do
I get so emotional baby
Every time I think of you
I get so emotional baby
Ain't it shocking what love can do
I get so emotional baby
I get so emotional baby
Ain't it shocking what love can do
I get so emotional baby
Every time I think of you
I get so emotional baby
Ain't it shocking what love can do
I get so emotional baby
Every time I think of you
The rest of the New Directions file onto the stage as Rachel and Harmony finishes the song. I broke formation and ran to stand next to Blaine. He looks at me weirdly but looks straight ahead.

I get so emotional baby
ain't it shocking what love can do!
The crowd claps and cheers when Rachel and Harmony finish the song.

Rachel:
I came to win, to fight, to conquer, to thrive
I came to win, to survive, to prosper, to rise

Rachel with New Directions Girls (Santana):
To fly
To fly (Uh, yo, yo)

Artie:
I used to think that I could not go on

Santana:
I wish today it would rain all day
Maybe that will kinda make the pain go away

Artie:
And life was nothing but an awful song

Santana:
They got their guns out aiming at me
But I become Neo when they aiming at me

Omg its Blaine's part. Whenever I hear him rapping, I always get so turned on.
Blaine (New Directions):
(If I can see it) Me, me, me against them
Me against enemies, me against friends
(Then I can do it) Somehow they both seem to become one
A sea full of sharks and they all smell blood
(If I just believe it) They start coming and I start rising
Must be surprising, I'm just surmising
(There's nothing to it)

Blaine and Santana:
I win, thrive, soar
Higher, higher, higher
More fire
I grin and dance harder than I've ever done before. Blaine was just so amazing I just- I just can't. He had so much passion in his voice.
Rachel with Santana (Rachel):
(I came to win), to fight, to conquer, to thrive
I came to win, to survive, to prosper, to rise
I wish I had my own solo or special part. I remember when I used to fight with Rachel for the spotlight but I just got so tired and I thought, why bother. They wouldn't want a gay boy singing a solo. We'd never win that way.
Finn with New Directions (with Rachel and New Directions Girls):
I believe I can (fly)
I believe I can touch the sky
I believe I can (fly)
I believe I can touch the sky

Artie:
See, I was on the verge of breakin' down

Santana:
Paint they own pictures, then they crop me in
But I will remain where the top begins

Artie:
Sometimes, silence can seem so loud

Santana:
I am not a word, I am not a line
I am not a girl that can ever be defined
Omg yes, Blaine again.
Blaine (New Directions):
(If I can see it) I hear the criticism loud and clear
That is how I know that the time is near
(Then I can do it) See we become alive in a time of fear
And I ain't got no motherfickle time to spare
(If I just believe it) Cry my eyes out for days upon days
Such a heavy burden placed upon me
(There's nothing to it)

Blaine and Santana:
But when you go hard your nays become yays
Yankee Stadium with Jay's and Kanye's
I felt myself half-erected and a small blush forms on my cheeks. Rachel was dancing next to me and she looked down and almost started laughing but then she went back to character.
Rachel with Santana (Rachel):
(I came to win), to fight, to conquer, to thrive
I came to win, to survive, to prosper, to rise

Finn with New Directions (with Rachel and New Directions Girls):
I believe I can (fly) (Mercedes: Fly)
I believe I can touch the sky (Mercedes: Ooh, yeah)
I believe I can (fly)
I believe I can touch the sky (Mercedes: Fly)

Finn (Mercedes):
I believe I can fly (Fly)

Artie (Rachel with New Directions Girls):
(Get ready for it, get ready for it) Then I can be it
(Get ready for it, I came to win) If I just believe it
(Get ready for it, get ready for it) There's nothing to it
(Mercedes with New Directions Girls: Get ready for it)

Artie and New Directions Boys (with Rachel and New Directions Girls):
I believe I can (fly) (Mercedes: Oh!)

Finn and New Directions (Rachel and New Directions Girls):
I believe I can touch the sky (Mercedes: Fly)
I think about it every night and day (To fly) (Mercedes: Oh)
Spread my wings and fly away (Mercedes: Ooh, whoa)

Artie with New Directions (Rachel and New Directions Girls):
(New Directions: I can fly!) I believe I can soar (Fly) (Mercedes: Get ready for it)
(New Directions: I can fly!) I see me runnin' through that open door (Mercedes: Get ready for it, fly)

Finn with New Directions (with Rachel and New Directions Girls) :
(New Directions: I can fly!) I believe I can (fly) (Artie: Woo!) (Mercedes: Get ready for it)

Artie:
(New Directions: I can fly!) I believe I can fly

Artie with New Directions:
I believe I can fly

We all take huge breathes and then the curtains close. We all start hugging and laughing, congratulating others and grinning. I'll admit, I had fun. Everyone was talking to Blaine and I'm pretty sure I broke a nail trying to get to him. His face was beaming until I got to him. But I didn't care. I wanted him to know how amazing he performed.

"Blaine, you sounded beautiful out there." I tell him.

He smiles. "Thanks." Then he quickly walks away.

At least he didn't call me a fag.

Small Time Jump: Awards

"Okay, now it's time for the awards!" A woman judge announces.

Rachel squeezes my hands so hard, my hand was becoming a shade of purple.

"In third place…"

Oh God. I'm so scared!

"The TFTI's!"

The New Directions all take out huge breaths and grin at each other. Okay, this is what we are all waiting for. Think about it. If we are this nervous for Sectionals, imagine Nationals.

"First Place…"

Omg my stomach has been swimming and just went on a rollercoaster and threw up. Rachel basically tears off my hand out of nervousness.

"THE NEW DIRECTIONS!"

I felt like passing out. Thank God. Rachel jumps for joy and so does the rest of the new directions. I was hugging everyone and when I came to Blaine, I thought that since we are all celebrating and happy, he will at least let me feel his warmth against me. He walks up to me with a smile and for a second, I thought he was going to hug me. Then he walks behind me and hugs his sister, Quinn. I turn around to see the smirk on Quinn's face. I nod and walk away to where Finn was, holding up the trophy. I was too happy to let the Andersons kill my mood. Well, not now anyway.