Authors note: As promised a new chapter today! I finished work and now I'm home alone for 4 hours so, what else is there to do but write the next chapter? Okay, okay – a little perspective of Christian for this.. then we are back on with the story!

Chapter 10 – Mothers and Fathers.

"Mr and Mrs Grey?" I look at my wife. I can see she is scared and for once in my life, I pray to god that we get want we want. I know I'd lose her if we were not with a child. I know it would destroy her and that results into her pushing me away. I won't see my wife hurt, I will do anything to stop that.
I take Ana's hand and we follow Dr Crowe into her examination room. It's small and smells of disinfectant. I remember Grace coming home smelling like this. I used to scrunch my nose up as a child, I don't like the smell.
"Right Mrs Grey, lets see shall we. Please take off your underwear and lay under the blue sheet. I'll be back in one second" I watch Ana intently as she undresses. Dr Crowe gave her some privacy, I like this woman. She seems to have a brain cell unlike Dr Greene.
Ana hands me her underwear and I smell them. She smells so sweet. Her fragrance is wired into my brain, it's my favourite perfume. I watch her as she looks shocked, oh baby – that's nothing to be shocked about. I smile back at her. You'll see Mrs Grey, I've always had an interest in breast milk!
Ana lays under the blue sheet and I see her flush, what is she thinking?
My heart is racing a dozen and I'm nervous. I still hold Ana's hand waiting for the Dr to return.
Dr Crowe walks back in and smiles at us both, no doubt for the large amount of money I have paid her to do this. I wanted to be early, no fuss of waiting around. I don't want to talk to other couples showing their excitement for their new gremlin. This is about Ana and I, and I want it to be private. I was lucky enough that no paps were outside or following my car. I can't imagine the headlines when they realise the infamous Mr Grey is going to be a father.
That word lingers on my mind. Father.
The only one I could ever hope be as good as is my dad. Carrick was the best father I could have imagined to gain, but what if I can't do it. I look at my wife as her eyes dart around the room. Posters of whats to hopefully come scream at us from the walls.
I'm doing this for her. I fucking love her. She makes everything right and whole. If Ana wants a child, I will try my darn best to protect them both.
"Okay, lets do this. I see you think you might be pregnant Mrs Grey, what symptoms have you been having?"
Ana explains about her tiredness and nausea. I hope Dr Crowe can have some insight to when the nausea might stop cause I can't bear to see my beautiful Ana hurling her guts out over a toilet.
"Okay then Mrs Grey, lets be sure. Please part your legs. This will feel cold" Part your legs? Don't they use something on your stomach for this?
I look at what Dr Crowe is doing cautiously. She picks up a wand type thing and places a condom on top.
Oh you have got to be fucking kidding me? I get I now won't be the only one who has put tools in my wife's delectable body.
I wonder if it makes Ana horny. I know how responsive she can be. If so, I might have to drag my wife into the toilets and tell Dr Crowe to report back in 5. I wouldn't need that long, I want her already. I stiffen my legs trying to hide my oncoming erection. This isn't the time or place is it Mr Grey I think to myself.

I can see Ana look at the little TV screen so I follow her gaze. It's a black screen with white and gray lines moving around. I don't really know what I am looking for but I'm intrigued. I see Dr Crowe twist and turn the wand, looking for a heartbeat. God I hope there is one there. I see Dr Crowe sigh slightly.
Oh no, what has she found? I fucking hope to hell it's not bad..
"Ah, there we are. See there? That little tiny flutter is your baby. Congratulations Mrs Grey, Mr Grey – baby Grey is in the building!"
HOLY FUCKING SHIT. I see it, the little flutter. That, that is my child. I feel this overpowering stench of love take over my whole body.
I love Ana with everything I have and now that has been multiplied by 2. She has given me everything, a chance at more, a chance at love and now this. A chance at fatherhood.
I can't drag my eyes away from the screen. Dr Crowe takes screenshots and I want a 100 of them. I want to plaster them everywhere. One in my office, my study, my wallet next to the picture of Ana. Christ, I want to scream from the hill tops that I am having a fucking child!
I look at Ana and see she is crying and I know it's happy tears. Oh baby, I'm so fucking glad I could give you this. Since we lost blip I know she's had a void in her heart. To be honest, I didn't want kids yet, no fucking way – but once you lose something, it all hits home. I can't see my wife so empty and hollow. I felt it too, I felt it even though I didn't originally want him.
But I do. I can't fucking wait to see Ana change and grow this perfect little guy in her and I know he's going to be all her.
Dr Crowe removes the wand and gives Ana time to get herself back together. She then informs us of what yet to come. We are 4 weeks pregnant and she informs us of her due date. We are filled with do's and don't – and trust me they will be fucking don'ts. If Ana thinks she's pulling any shit that could endanger her or my child she has another fucking thing coming.
She thinks I am protective now -ha! You wait Mrs Grey.
We have an appointment for 4 weeks time for a routine check up and I can't wait to come back and stare at the scree again. I want to see how much he's grown.
Ana is quiet and I cannot for the life of me stop staring at the scan picture in my hand. Dr Crowe printed us off 10. Hopefully in a few weeks to give out to family, we don't want anyone to know yet.
"So" Ana say's beaming with happiness.
"I love you Ana. So much" I say to her and look at her watering blue eyes. She's so fucking perfect.
"I love you too, daddy". She replies and my heart swells. I am never going to tire of hearing that fucking word.
"I am a dad. Oh Ana, I can't wait" and I grab her and wrap her in my arms. I smell her hair and it smells of my Ana. Fuck, this was the best thing- other than Ana – that has happened to me. I can't fucking wait.
Baby Grey, I love you so much already.

Ana P.O.V

We decide to head over to the Grey's family home. It will be so hard not to tell them all. Of course Grace has her suspicions but she doesn't officially know – though I will take bets that she will as soon as I walk in her home.
The whole drive their Christian was nattering about being a father. I never thought he would take it this good. I feel so happy but also a little sad that I didn't get this reaction with blip. I wish he'd have said all this the first time round, hey- Things could have been different?.. I push those thoughts aside. Don't dwell on the past Ana, I say to myself. I look down at the scan and trace my finger around the little flutter.
This is my second chance and I am going to grab it by the balls and be the best god damn mother there was!
"I wish we could tell my mom and dad now" Christian lets out. Oh fifty, you are excited
"Me too, but it's too early Y'know? We should wait till like 12 weeks or something" and Christian groans.
"That's ages away" he replies and I laugh. Oh fifty, you have 36 weeks left yet and that is definitely going to drag.
"It'll be here before you know it baby. Just stay quiet for now" and I try my best to do an impression of his serious face. Which clearly didn't work cause Christian laughs straight back at me.
We arrive at the Grace's home and head inside. I love this house. It honestly feels like home to me though I don't visit as often as I should.
We step about 5 foot into the house when we can hear Grace shuffling towards us.
"Oh Christian, Oh Ana! I didn't know you were coming" she squeals and hugs us both. I see Christian roll his eyes and make a mental note to say he should get a spanking for that later. Two can play at that game.
"Is dad here?" Christian asks and I frown. Poor Grace, we did actually come to see them both. I nudge Christian in his side and he looks at me confused.
"He's out darling. So you'll have to do with me. Though your brother and sister will be home in 20 minutes. It is Monday" she replies and I wonder what is so special about Mondays in this household?
My thoughts are cut short as my bladder starts to protest and I need to go pee. I start to jiggle.
"excuse me, I need the bathroom" and I turn away from Christian and Grace, heading upstairs to the gigantic bathroom.
Since being pregnant I can sleep, eat and pee for England. I hope this phases out soon cause I would like to go ½ an hour without my bladder wanting to burst.
I just finish up washing my hands when an intruder comes into the bathroom. Did I really forget to lock it? I must be so used to Christian at home now, that I forgot here.
"Er hi" I speak and I know that look in his eyes. He wants to fuck. Here? Really, in your parents bathroom. I snort in my mind, you're married to fucking Christian Grey, of course he wants to fuck you in his parents bathroom.
He shuts the door behind him and flicks the lock. Ha ha my inner goddess laughs.
Christian walks over to me and takes my hands in his. He's different. Softer. He touches my skins so lightly but that doesn't stop the fire building inside.
"You know Ana. I didn't think it was possible to be this happy". I look at my husband with such pride, hoe did I get so lucky to find someone who worships me? I have no idea but I owe them fucking everything.
Before I could reply his lips were on mine and his hands on my cheeks. Oh, this is really going to happen.
It felt like we were both on fire, hands and tongues everywhere but yet he was still so gentle with me. It felt like a nano second but we were both undressed and Christian was evidently ready to show me how much he loves me.
"This will be quick. But I just need to get lost in you Ana" and he picks me up and throws himself into me. Oh, he's made love to me countless of times but this time it's different. He's rough but still gentle. Every now and then he puts his hand on my face and strokes my cheeks but I can't concentrate on that. I can feel him, everywhere and I now the suspense is going to be released soon.
"C'mon Ana" he growls and his words, as they always do – tip me over the edge. Oh fuck, that was.. something.
Christian lets out a moan and ejaculates. Wow, what was that? He is quickly rummaging around putting his clothes back on and I stifle a laugh. I feel like we've been really naughty and in Grace and Carrick's bathroom too! Oh wow Ana, you've hit a new level.
I put my clothes back on and straighten out my hair – I do look flustered. Of course you do, you just got royally fucked!
"You look beautiful. You always do" Christian says and I flush. He kisses my cheek and unlocks the door, holding it ajar for me.
I make my way back downstairs and I can feel the heat rush to my cheeks. I feel so embarrassed, as if the whole neighborhood heard us!
"Oh there they are" and in walks Elliot. Of course Mr sexpert has a grin on his face. It's like he enjoys making me feel awkward. How does he know we've just had sex? Ana, really – it's Elliot.
"Hi Elliot" I squeak out.
"ha, nice shade of red you are there Ana. I wonder what you've been up to?" Well if my cheeks were not red before they fucking are now.
Christian frowns and hits his brother on the arm.
"Shut up Elliot. Like you wouldn't know". I pull a face. I don't want to imagine Elliot fucking thank you.
"Wheres Kate?" I ask and it was obviously too quiet for her to be around.
"At her brothers. She's gone fucking weird on me. Just going to let her cool down. You know what Kate's like" Elliot's eye fall and I wonder what has gone on between them both. I make a mental note to phone Kate when I get home.
"Anyway bro, where were you this morning? I went by your office but they said you had the day off! Becoming a fucking part timer now are we?" Elliot laughs. Christian looks at me and I shake my head slightly. No, Christian – he cannot know.
"I was busy. I'm not always at work" he explains.
"You both coming to mom's party on Friday evening? Mom has something planned, a surprise or something. I dunno. You know what that woman is like". I didn't know of a party. I eye fifty and he has his poker face on.
"I'm sure we will attend- only if Ana feels up to it". They both look at me as if my word is do or die.
"Yeah, of course we'll come"
"Ah, gotta get the okay from the wife. Good man – it's nice to know Kate isn't the only wife to have their husbands balls in their purse" and I laugh.
"You can have my balls anytime" Christian whispers into me ear and I chuckle. Filthy.
Elliot continues muttering to us about football and other shit I really don't understand. I can't seem to spot Mia so I guess she didn't come over today.
The evening went on smoothly, we ate dinner – which was delicious. I even asked for seconds, much to Christian's liking. Though I didn't stop there. Desert was a must and now I'm pretty sure I'm carrying a 10lb food baby too.
We left at around 7pm and even though I had a lovely time, I couldn't wait to crawl into my bed. I was beat.
I grab one of Christian's t-shirts and throw it over myself. I look in the mirror and place my hands on my stomach. I better enjoy the flatness as it is cause we all know soon I am going to get fat. I pout. I don't want to get fat. I wonder if I'm still beautiful to Christian then?
I can't notice anything different about me, and I know no bump would form yet but I try to imagine one there. One day Christian's t-shirt that fits me comfortably, won't be able to go over a huge bump. I sigh, I am going to be a whale.
"Ana, are you okay?" and I should have known that I wouldn't have been alone for long.
Christian walks over to me and places his hands over mine on my belly. He is staring me in the eyes through the mirror.
"I'm going to get fat"
Christian laughs and for some reason that pisses me off.
"Baby, it's part of being pregnant"
"What if you don't want me when I'm the size of a whale?" And his eyes bulge slightly. Yes Grey, that is what I am getting at.
"Ana, you'll always be beautiful to me and I will never not want you. So shh. There will be more of you to love and I will". He kisses me forehead. Nope, no Grey, I'm still pissed.
"I don't want more of me" and I pull out of his grasp and lay back on the bed.
"Ana, you're going to have to get bigger. The baby will grow. I will still love you. Of course I will" I know he's trying to reassure me and I know he will always want me but I just realised that I am going to get fucking fat.
I continue to pout.
"You promise you'll love me when I'm fat" I say like a small child.
Christian again laughs. It's not funny god damn it.
"Yes, I love you even you are fat".

Authors note : Just a little chapter cause I wanted to update. Nothing fancy, nothing exciting. ...