A/N: Hellloooo guys! I know, I know, I always apologize for being gone for a while but I'm here now! :D So, I just wanted to tell you guys to ignore the klaine spoilers because everything will work out in the end because klaine is endgame. Blaine and Karofsky doesn't even make sense but Blaine is obviously grieving and for some reason, he chose Karofsky but it's okay! He will come to his senses. And if all ends bad, we still have FANFICTION! :) Okay, onto my fic. So, you guys are going to LOVE this chapter. Like, LOVEEEE it. Because I love it too. My glee buddy aka bestfrand aka O.G (Original Gleek) helped me with the song choice, Stay/ Stay with Me mashup. I created the mashup all by myself and i'm really proud how it turned out. And my favorite Darren Criss instagram account, WankyCriss has this story on her alerts! I almost died! :3 So thank you WankyCriss for reading this fic and it would mean the world to me if you shared my book to your followers. My instagram account is _kimbobimbo_
And I had a quick question. Do I have to have a disclaimer? Because a lot of fics have that so... yeah.
Anyways! This is getting too long and for the people who read all of this are awesome so enjoy!
Kurt's POV
My whole world is broken.
The past week, I've been asking myself the same question.
What is life?
Rachel and Mercedes kept questioning my mood but I ignored them. I was too embarrassed to even other those words out my mouth. But what is wrong with me anyway? Why am I feeling this way? It's not like I didn't know he was straight this whole time. But I mean, to see him actually do something a straight person would do is um… well, that explains my mood. In glee club, I sit all the way on the other side of the room from him, close to the door so that when the bell rings, I have easy access to the door so he wouldn't try to get to me.
Well, part of me wants him to beg for my forgiveness. I like the attention. It makes me feel… I don't know… wanted. Now, looking back at the situation, I have no reason to be mad. He was just doing what he felt was right but I still have the right to be hurt.
"Kurt,"
I look up from my seat to see everyone staring at me. Oh yeah, I'm in glee club. How did I forget?
"Yeah…?"
"Did you not hear what I said?"
"Obviously not." I snap.
He was taken aback for a second before straightening his black tie.
"Well, I said, the whole glee club has noticed your feud with Blaine and I think it's time for you guys to sing it out. Singing makes everything better."
"No," I tell him.
"Kurt, come on-" Blaine says.
"No, you don't get to tell me how to live my life."
Blaine rolls his eyes.
"Seriously! What in the fuck did I do to you? All I fucking did was kiss a girl and now you're mad at me!"
The whole glee club gasps.
"This is why you're mad at him Kurt?" Rachel asks.
I stare down at the tile flooring, hopping to escape from all of this. Why can't they just let me think in peace?
"Blaine! You know he's in love with you! How dare you just kiss a girl in front of his face?" Mercedes yells.
Blaine's hands balls into fist. Rachel runs up to him and tries to relax him.
"So just because he's in love with me means I can't kiss a girl? I AM STRAIGHT! SO BECAUSE KURT LOVES ME, MEANS I CAN'T DO WHAT MY SEXUALITY TELLS ME TO DO? AND I WASN'T IN HIS FUCKING FACE, I WAS AT THE FREAKING MALL AND I KISSED A GIRL AND HE HAPPENED TO BE THERE." Blaine screams. He takes Rachel's hands off his shoulders and storms up to Mercedes.
"Thanks for having my fucking back. The next time you're being called a fat ass, don't come crying to me." He says coldly to Mercedes.
Damn.
That was... cold...
Mercedes mouth was open wide in shock. Blaine would never say something like that. I can't believe this.
No.
I've had it.
"THAT'S ENOUGH!" Mr. Schuster and I scream at the same time.
I walk up to the front of the choir room and I sigh.
"Guys, this is none of your business. Only mine and Blaine's so… butt out, okay?"
Everyone sighs and nods.
Rachel walks up to me and shakes her head.
"I know you're hurting but you have no right to be mad at him. You still owe him and will forever owe him after you went psycho-crazy and crashed his car and they didn't even sue you for the damage so you have no right to be mad at him for A LONG time." Rachel tells me.
"Shut the fuck up Rachel." I tell her.
I was so tired of everyone butting in Blaine and I's relationship! It has nothing to do with them and why do they have to proclaim my love over and over again?
"Blaine, I'm sorry…" Mercedes says repentantly.
"It's okay." He says.
"Okay good, you've guys have come to your senses. Now, back to the duet," Mr. Schuster says.
Blaine walks up to us and glares at me. I glare back at him. Great, now HE'S mad at me.
Sarah then walks in the room and sits in an empty chair. Blaine turns around and she waves at him. He shakes his head and turns back to Mr. Schue.
"I want you guys to sing a mashup; sing your favorite songs. You guys are musically talented so you'll figure out how to merge the song." Mr. Schue says. He then nods and walks to an empty maroon chair in the choir room. He looks at us expectantly and we both nod. I muster up all the air I could and let it all out. I can do this. I can totally do this. Kurt, you can do this. Just don't look at his eyes and you'll be fine. Kurt, you can do this. I. Can. Do. This. I turn to him, fake a smile and say, "You can go first, I'm sure you have a great song planned." Blaine then rolls his eyes and scoffs. "Kurt, cut the crap. Wipe off that fake smile and let's be real. I don't want to talk to you and you OBVIOUSLY don't want to talk to me so let's just get this over with." Blaine says. I look at his eyes by mistake. I bite my lip, trying hard not to get lost in his eyes but it wasn't the same eyes I saw before. It had fire in them. "What happened to my dapper Blaine?" I ask with tease in my voice. He automatically loses all emotion in his face. "People like you take it for granted." He says and walks to the piano.
I run up to him and ask, "What song are you singing?"
"You'll see."
"But we have to merge the-"
"All along it was a fever… (7 beats in-between)
A cold sweat, hot headed believer…," (7 beats in-between)
He cut me off! Ugh. Well, I ran to the other piano and I told the guy sitting there to start playing Stay with Me by Sam Smith right after Blaine finishes his stanza.
"I threw my hands in the air I said show me something… (7 beats in-between)
He said, if you dare come a little closer…" (7 beats in-between)
I take a deep breath and belt out, "I guess it's true, I'm no good at a one- night stand…"
"Round and around we go…" Blaine sings to the beat of my song.
"But I still need love cause' I'm just a man-" I sing, facing Blaine although he was just staring at his piano keys.
"Oh now, tell me now!" Blaine sings, faster than the usual songs' beat. I waltz up to him and sing, "These nights! Never seem to go to plan…"
I hated that our friendship always had ups and downs. Why can't we ever just be happy? There's no night that seems to go to plan…
"Oh now, tell me now, you know!" He says as if it took me a while to figure it out. I don't know why, but it feels as if I'm talking to him through song.
"I don't want you to leave, will you hold my hand?" I sing, extending out my hand to him. He looks at me but quickly looks away to Sarah and mouths to her to take over the piano. Sarah runs up and takes over the piano.
"I want you to stay…" He sings, looking into my eyes.
"Oh won't you stay with me, cause your, all I need." I sing, right after he sings his verse.
"Not really sure…" He sings, shaking his head and walking to the other side of the choir room. What wasn't he sure about?
"This ain't love, it's clear to see…
But won't you, stay with me." I sing. I know this isn't a relationship but I don't care. I won't give up on us. Sarah picks up the beat of the song Stay, and Blaine sings right along with it.
"It's not much of a life you're living!
It's not just something you take, it's given…" He sings, walking back up to me, so close, I can smell his minty breath. But these lyrics mean more to me than it did before. My life isn't much of a life. Just chasing after Blaine like this. Tears start to form in my eyes.
"Why am I so emotional?" I sing with my voice slightly cracking, turning away from Blaine.
"Round and around we go…" he sings with annoyance in his voice.
"No it's not a good look, gain some self-control!" I turn back to him and wipe away my tears. I felt like I was telling myself that I needed to gain some respect for myself, to be my own person. Because my life, my story, is revolved around Blaine.
"Oh now, tell me now, you know!" he sings with more annoyance as if again, he's glad that I've realized.
"And deep down I know this never works…
But you can lay with me so it doesn't hurt…
Oh won't you-"I know relationships like ours never works. But I guess if he's around, it won't hurt as much.
"It's something in the way-"he interrupts, walking up to me.
"With me…" I sing, finishing what I started. I look at the ground in shame.
"You move!" he belts out, faintly angry. As if for some reason, he was angry with himself. It's something in the way I move? What does that even mean in our situation?
"Cause your all I need!" I tell him. I extend my voice when I sand the word, all.
"Oh, I need this hole gone…" he sings, rubbing out the creases on his forehead.
"This ain't-"I shake my head, but he cuts me off.
"It's funny you're the broken one, but I'm the only one who needed saving!" he sings, pointing at himself. He needs saving? Why would he need saving?
"Oh, won't you… stay with me…" I sing.
My song then goes into the break, and Blaine uses this as his chance to continue his song. He walks around the room and when I looked at the glee club, everyone looked so mesmerized. As if they were enjoying the drama because this is, a drama.
"Cause when you never see the light, it's hard to know which one of us is caving…
Not really sure how to feel about it
Something in the way you move
Makes me feel like I can't live without you
And it takes me all the way," he says, slowly walking back up to me.
"Oh won't you, stay with me
Cause you're all I need…" I sing, walking up to him.
"I'm not really sure-"He sings, slowly walking backwards.
"This ain't love, but it's clear to see…" I sing, slowly filling the distance between us. Our face were millimeters apart. If I moved a muscle, our lips would touch. Should I make the move? I'm so scared to even try.
"Oh won't you, stay with me…" We sing, I look at his lips and I felt him look at my eyes. I was glad extremely glad that this song was over. When I was about to turn away, he grabs my neck and pulls me in for a deep, lingering kiss. His lips were soft and I could taste the mint in his mouth. I fell deep into the kiss as it makes a loud, smacking sound.
I was so confused. I didn't know how to operate anymore but I kissed back, for what it was worth. I can't even. I lost the ability to even, even! He's kissing me right now. Blaine is kissing me right now. Blaine Devon Anderson is kissing me right now. No, this isn't right. This isn't how it's supposed to be. No, I can't.
I break away from the kiss and run out of the choir room. Scared to see the look on his face and/or everyone's faces in the choir room. Was he kissing me because he felt bad for me? To make me feel the love I needed? Or was he actually… gay?
No.
Impossible.
Blaine wouldn't be gay. Not after all this time! I would've sensed it by now! I have a strong gaydar!
I reached the double doors of McKinley High, ready to step out of it before I heard a sweet, gentle call of my name.