What I Did For Love Chapter Fourteen, a glee fanfic

A/N: HEEEEEEEEEEEEY GUYSSSSSSSSS! Wait, are my readers still here? I'm still alive I swear! I've just been focusing more on my books on wattpad and I've been kind of down and depressed since Glee ended. :( But that's why we have fanfic, right? So other than that...

GUESS WHAT'S TODAY!

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY GUYS!

I'm turning the big age of 14. (really small actually) but I really wanted to post today so here's this chapter! Enjoy!

Blaine's POV

I love Kurt.

I really, REALLY, love Kurt.

But there's been something off about him.

I'm here at the beach, where everything happened. It like the beach is our place. But besides that, I always come here when I need to think.

It's been a week since my whole romantic grand gesture and he had agreed to date me. But then this happened.

FLASHBACK TO A WEEK AGO

"I can't believe you did this all for me." Kurt says. I had asked everyone who helped out to leave so Kurt and I could have some alone time on the beach. But it's almost as if he was sad that I did this. Like he was upset to be here with me right know. Maybe he was scared about what would happen at school I guess.

"I'd do anything for you," I needed to reassure him. He looks at me with sad, depressing eyes. I took the opportunity to grab his hands and interlock them with mine. "What's stopping us?"

"Nothing Blaine I-I really want to be with you but maybe we should um, be like, a secret."

"A secret." I say with confusion. The whole glee club knows about us. All my friends at Dalton know. Practically the whole world knows. Even my parents have a clue about what's going on. I couldn't help but be hurt about this. Is he ashamed of me? Is that why he doesn't want to show me off? I want to show him off every single chance I get. But-

"Blaine. I just don't like the attention." He says.

"Kurt, the whole city of Lima knows that we have something. Everyone can see it. I can see it."

"So… you're forcing me to be public with you when I don't want that? What's next, pressuring me to have sex with you?"

I inhale and exhale slowly. I was so irritated but I wouldn't show it. I had to be calm because if not, I would alarm him and lose him forever. It was easy to see how stressed Kurt was. His eyebrows were furrowed, his eyes huge, hands shaking but, I thought he felt safe with me.

"Kurt, I would never pressure you to do anything you don't want to do. I'm just a little confused about your decision. I'll be happy with whatever you decide but Kurt please, let me understand."

All of a sudden, the discoloration in his face suddenly left and his face became more saturated. He starts to grin and his eyebrows relax I couldn't help but smile. Maybe I said the right thing after all.

"You're right. We should be together publicly. I was a fool to think we could ever be private." He smiles.

I grin and lean in to kiss him.

END OF FLASHBACK

If only I realized I was frightened by his sudden bipolar-ness. I was so engulfed with love I couldn't even think about anything else. But that's the thing. He's been bipolar and he's usually never bipolar. I mean, one second he would be flirty and affectionate and then the next second he would be remote and distant. It confuses me so much and it honestly breaks my heart. I don't wanna say anything because I don't wanna spur up another argument. We've had enough of that. But I wish I could… get him more.

I drive back to Sarah's and park my car in her drive way. Surprisingly, she hasn't been breathing down my neck about my mood. I know she senses it. But she's the only one that could possibly know why the love of my life is acting so weird.

I grab the house keys from my pocket and use them to unlock the door.

Sarah was sitting on the teal couch watching TV. Her head perks up when she hears the door close. She smiles and stands when she sees me. I give her a weak smile back and she frowns.

Here we go Blaine.

"You know, I've noticed your strange mood for like, a week now but I didn't want to say anything because I didn't want to keep barging into your life. But its breaking my heart seeing you like this and I wanted to wait till you were reading to tell me but I just care so much Blaine."

"Sarah it's okay. I was going to tell you anyway."

"Yay." She smiles warmly. She sits down on the couch and pats the space next to her. Before I spoke, she told me she already knew it was about Kurt so that made it easier. I told her everything from how I felt, how he was acting, when he started acting this way, and even the irrelevant information like the places we've been. Anything to help her dialysis.

"This may come as a shock to you but I don't know Blaine." She says.

She's lying.

She scratched her nose and blinked and I learned every time she does that, she's lying.

If she's lying, that means it's pretty bad. But what could it possibly be I mean, there's nothing that's wrong with our relationship. I'll just test all my theories before I make my conclusion. For all I know, he's just going through something and I'm being selfish and only thinking of myself.

I decided not to tell Sarah I know she's lying. She's probably doing it to protect me. Maybe if I found out whatever she's hiding, I would only make the situation worse.

"It's okay Sarah. Thanks for trying though. Your magical abilities amaze me every time but, don't wait up, I'm gonna go see Kurt."

"Okay good luck babe." She says.

I leave her house and hit the road. I just needed to see Kurt. Maybe I could get my answers from the expression on his face.

Or maybe I can even suck it out of him. If you know what I mean.

I'm joking, really.

Maybe.

Am I really talking to myself oh my god? Is this really what goes on in my head? What if someone had mind reading powers and is looking at me like a crazy person? Oh god.

But sex with Kurt is something I'd like to do but it probably wouldn't happen anytime soon. He's very… guarded with feelings and emotion.

I'll just test the waters with all my theories and see how it goes.

Kurt's POV

I love Blaine.

I really, REALLY, love Blaine.

But, I haven't been the same.

It's like I don't even know myself anymore. I feel like I'm trapped, just like how I felt in 2009; my sophomore year. I feel like I have no one, when I actually do have people but those people can't possibly find out what I'm hiding. I'm even scared to think about it in my mind, nonetheless say what it is. Because if I do, it'll only seem more real.

I wish I could tell him about everything that's going on but I can't. It'll only jeopardize the situation.

I don't know I just hate feeling this emptiness. I almost have it all I mean, I have a boyfriend! Kind of. I mean, how can a guy LIKE THAT like a guy like me? Come on, Blaine is the hottest piece of action in all of Ohio. Maybe even the world!

His brother comes in a close second.

But, I wish I could really be with him but, I'd only be hurting him.

But maybe if I tell him, he could be my knight in shining armor and save me from this mess! But what if-

"Kurt!"

I perk up at the sound of my dad calling me.

"What dad?!"

"Blaine's here!"

My body shivers when I hear footsteps coming up the stairs.

Oh fuck, what am I gonna do?

I ran to my walk-in closet and quickly shut the door just before he came in.

"Babe?" He says.

My heart melts at the sound of his voice and I squirm. He's so dreamy I can't.

"Kurt, I know you're in here." He says, footsteps moving all around my room.

I stopped breathing so I wouldn't be tracked. He let out a lot of groans and sighs but, I couldn't let him see me.

"Okay so, I know where you are, but I'm just gonna let you come out on your own time. Meanwhile, I'll be waiting here… with my shirt off… oh wait," then I heard a zip. "With my pants off…"

That was enough to get me out of the closet to see him fully clothed with a smirk on his face.

"Hi." He smiles.

"You tricked me." I say.

"Of course I did." He grins.

"I hate you for that." I tell him. And I really did. I wanted to see him but I didn't want to be forced to face the harsh reality or whether I'm going to tell him what I'm hiding.

"No you don't, you love me." He comes over to me and gives me a quick peck on my lips. When he does, he looks deeply into my eyes, as if he was trying to read me or something. My eyes search his face and he looked really stressed and compassionate.

"Come lay with me?" he asks.

"Sure."

We walk to my bed and he lays down. I lay down next to him and rest my head on his chest.

"You know I know." He says.

"What?"

What is he talking about? Is he talking about the fact that he knows my secret? What if he knows and he doesn't care? What if he's secretly trying to save me? What if this is all just a test to see if I trust him enough?

"I know you're hiding something," He says as he wraps his arms around my waist. He nibbles softly at my necks and whispers, "but I just can't figure out what."

Fuck. Fuck. Fuckity fuck.

I'm doomed.

I guess YOLO.

I look up at him and he stares down at me with concern. I move up a little to kiss him softly, but with fire so he knew I still love him.

"What was that for?" he asks.

"Do I need a reason to kiss you now?" he chuckle. He smiles and says, "No but, that kiss was different."

I sit up and he releases his grasp on me. I close my eyes and take a deep breath. This was it. I'm actually going to tell him what I'm hiding.

"Blaine, I-"

"Look, if it's life-threatening, just know that I'll always love you and have your back no matter what."

"Its sorta life threatening so um, I'm just going to say it."

He ushers me to continue.

"So, your parents are going to tell the police I purposely put you in a car crash and get me locked up. In jail. And I DO NOT look good in orange."

Blaine's POV

"Wait a minute," I say, feeling like my insides are dying. This was the whole fucking reason he was being weird? Because my jack ass parents are taunting him? When I'm finally happy, of course they're going to try to fuck it up. But, I kind of understand why Sarah didn't want to tell me I mean, this is the kind of stuff that the person that's going through the shit has to tell me.

"Blaine-"

"Kurt, I'm so sorry." I say, moving over to hug him. I wanted to cry because I just wanted to be happy for once. I finally found out who I am and now, it's about to be ruined.

"I don't know what to do." He pulls away from me, looking more broken than ever. "I love and want to be with you so bad but, if I do, I'm gonna go to jail."

"No you won't, not on my fucking watch."

"I honestly deserve to go though I mean, you could've died."

"But I didn't."

"You could've though."

"I don't care about the situation anymore. So we need to figure out how to get you out of this mess."

"Can we just, not think about that right now?" he asks, with so much plead in his voice.

"I know, love. I know. But I want to be able to hold your hand in public, to hug you, to kiss and/ or make out with you, to wrap my hands around your waist I, want to be with you and show you off and make the whole world jealous. But there's always that one obstacle in my damn way."

"But we're in the safety of my home so we can do whatever."

"With your dad five feet away from us." I tell Kurt.

"That's right!" Burt yells.

I'm not even gonna wonder how the hell he heard me.

"He's so embarrassing."

"WE COULD RUN AWAY!" I yell.

We really could run away I mean, didn't he always rant about how he wants to go to New York, I mean, I know this is slightly the beginning of our senior year but, we could find a school in New York!

"What about all our friends?" he asks.

"We have each other."

"You're not willing to give up Sarah for me."

"You can't make me choose!" I laugh, desperately trying to lighten the situation.

"Don't worry I won't," he laughs. "Although it's clear that you'd obviously choose me." He grins.

For a moment, just a quick moment, I almost forgot about everything that is happening. It was like everything was back to normal and I wanted it to be so badly but, I'm going to have to do something about this shit.

And that's when it hit me.

"Wait, does he have any evidence?" I ask.

At first, he looks at me blankly and then his eyes widen with shock.

"No he doesn't! Well, at least I don't think he does!"

I shut my eyes and grin. Thank God, thank God, thank God.

"So we don't have anything to worry about but, I had a little song prepared just in case you were going to break up with me and I really wanna sing it."

"There's no possibly way I could say no to you singing."

"Yeah, given the fact that you have every single song I've ever-"

"Shut up Blaine." Kurt says, hiding his face.

I laugh and climbed off his bed so I could stand. I played the melody of the song in my head, took a deep breath, and sang.

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this boy can you tell him where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don't understand,
I'm not, broke I'm just a broken hearted man,

I rest my right hand on my diaphragm and belted out the words. Kurt looks at me with sadness and amusement. I didn't really have this song planned. I just wanted to sing this to him so he'd know that I'm not moving.

Ever.

I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you

He stood and got ready for the chorus. It was so nice to see that smile again in his eyes. I hadn't seen it in so long so, I loved it.

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

"So I'm not moving," I sang.
"I'm not moving!" He sings. I smile at his high note and he smiles back. I let him take the next verse just so I could hear his beautiful voice.

Policeman says son you can't stay here,
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If he changes his mind this is the first place he will go!

So I'm not moving
I'm not moving

I'm not moving
I'm not moving

People talk about the guy
Who's waiting on a boy

There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world

And maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved,
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news,
And you'll come running to the corner
'Cause you'll know it's just for you

I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved

So I'm not moving
I'm not moving

I'm not moving
I'm not moving

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move…

When I finish the song, he quickly hugs me.

"I'm not moving either Blaine." He tells me.

I smile and bury my head into his sleeve. I think I finally know what it means to love.

*** Choir Room ***

"Alright guys! This week's lesson is… DROM ROLL PLEASE!" Mr. Schue turns to Finn and he gives us a droll roll.

"Celine Dion!"

A bunch of the guys groaned loudly when Mr. Schue announced our weekly lesson. I personally love Celine I mean, literally every single one of her songs are so breath taking.

"Come on guys, we need to look at her for inspiration. Every one of her songs were a hit and that's what we need to be at Nationals. We need to realize that this is the last year for some of you, most of you actually so, if you want to win Nationals, pick one of her songs and sing it."

"I'll start it off." Quinn says, emerging from her seat.

I'm pretty sure I know what song she's going to sing. She cries almost every night about Finn. The first four nights she always called me about it but it was getting annoying and repetitive. She's a pretty girl so I'm sure if she pointed at any boy in this school, she'd get him. And I see the way Puck looks at her.

"When I was young…I never needed anyone…And makin' love was just for fun..." she sings.

I knew she would sing All By Myself! Her voice goes so perfectly with it so, it works. She practically sings the whole song to Finn, while Rachel was suspiciously eying her. I know Finn just had to be uncomfortable.

I went along with the rest of the group and sang the background vocals while raising my eyebrows as my sister waltz up to Finn and emotionally sings.

She starts breaking down in tears and I silently sigh. Kurt whispers to me to go save her so I did. I stood up from my chair and guided her out the choir room and TRIED to console her.

"He doesn't get it," she sobs. "It's not supposed to be like this! He's supposed to be with me!"

I frowned as her tears fell off her cheeks.

"Quinny, you are strong. You can't let a boy define you. Do you really think you're going to marry your highschool crush?"

"Do you think you're going to marry Kurt?"

I stare at her in silence.

Okay, she has a point.

"You know," she says, pulling off my bow tie to use it as a handkerchief. I fumed in my head and I wanted to yell so badly because I take them to be dry cleaned every other week and I was planning on wearing this one on my date with Kurt tomorrow but you know, I'm cool. I'm chill. It doesn't matter you know I can just find another one to wear. "You're right. I don't need him." She puts my bowtie back on and sighs.

"I was waiting for so long…For a miracle to come…" she sings. She turns away from me and struts down the hallway singing, "Everyone told me to be strong…"

You go girl. A new day has come.

I walk back into the choir room. Waiting for me was intrigued faces, with embarrassment from Finn.

"She'll be fine." I tell them and I go back to my seat next to Kurt. As soon as I sat down, the bell rang. I took my satchel and slung it on my shoulder. I entwined my fingers with Kurt and we left the choir room.

"Can I kiss you?" Kurt asks.

I felt my cheeks burn up. "Of course you can."

"I feel like as soon as I do, I'll get slapped."

"By me?" I ask, with concern. I hope he doesn't hold that against me when I slapped him months ago.

"No, by Karoskfy."

"Don't worry, I'll protect you."

He nods and leans in. I let go of his hand and grab his cheek so I could kiss him. I pull away and smile, "See," I look around and everyone went on with their business. "No one cares."

"Or maybe because he's not here at the moment." He says.

I hated that he was so threatened by Dave. I wanted to kick his ass again but I know Kurt is all about no violence and what not.

All of a sudden, Rachel appears out of nowhere and approaches us.

"Hey Kurt, can I borrow Blaine for a moment?"

"Um…"

"It'll only be a second." She says.

He looks at me with dejected eyes and I smile. He could stand being away from me, even for a second.

"Fine. But be quick. We have a scheduled make out session."

I laugh because he's such a total liar. He lies like that just to see the look on Rachel's face, which is dramatically shocked.

"Kurt what the- why? Come on," she looks at me. "That has to be a joke."

"What can I say? It gives me something to look forward to in the day." I laugh and wink at Kurt. He blushes and turns away. Rachel scoffs and pulls me in the other direction.

"So I'm not one to share the spotlight but we should totally sing 'Its All Coming Back To Me Now'. It would complement our voices perfectly."

"Yeah that'd be great! Just tell me when and where you want to practice."

She squeals and grabs both of my hands. "This is so exciting! Imma go get some sheet music," she smiles. When she walks away, she calls out, "Singing with you is always a pleasure, Blaine!"

Sometimes I wonder if my voice is even as good as every says it is. I know I have talent but sometimes, when most of the guys in glee club call me the most talented, I get confused because there's Kurt, and Rachel, and Harmony, and Mercedes but, mostly Kurt.

"What did she want that she couldn't say it in front of me?" Kurt asks.

"She just requested to sing a duet with me." I told him.

"Damn, she beat me to it." Kurt says.

"If you want I'll quickly cancel-"

"No, it's fine actually. I want to watch from the audience to see how hot my sexy boyfriend is." He grins.

I blush and hide my face. He always knew what to say to get me red.

"So, how about we have an unscheduled make out session?"

"Wouldn't that make it scheduled?" I ask.

"Just kiss me you idiot." He says.

I pull him to the auditorium and capture his lips.

"Guys, this room is obviously occupied!" Rachel yells, hands around Finn's neck.

"This room you're talking about is pretty large so I think we can make it work!" Kurt yells back, then he kisses me again.

"Ugh, let's go Finn." Rachel says, storming out. I giggle against Kurt's lips and he smiles.

Songs: The Man Who Can't Be Moved- The Script,