Hiii again! Excuse me being MIA, I had a week off and just wanted to relax to 100%
Now, I am updating today and I am planning on another chapter tomorrow or the day after, so you don't have to wait long :)
In this chapter Rose is really starting to struggle with the whole 'not telling Lissa' thing. We'll see how she copes..
Rose
Slowly growing conscious I felt a light pounding in my head. Stirring I opened my eyes as I stretched feeling a bit achy from last night. Smiling I closed my eyes again, trying to rub the sleepiness out of them. Propping myself up I looked around his room, I hadn't really had time last night, I was very preoccupied.
The walls were like a dark brown with black and white accents, surprisingly classy looking for Dimitri. He hadn't really cared about decorating back in the day. Clothes were piled in one corner, next to a desk that looked very neat with some books on the side of it. Curtains pulled against the massive window the was on his side of the bed.
My eyes fell onto the very naked and delicious man next to me. His legs were tangled in the sheets as he was laying on his side, his arms under his pillow. Leaning over to take a peek at his face, he looked sound asleep as I brushed my fingers against his cheek, moving a strand of hair out of his face.
He was so stupidly beautiful it nearly hurt me. I should have gotten use to his wide shoulders, big arms and ridiculously sexy chest by now but nope, not me. His skin was burning under my fingertips as I let my hand travel from his side and up his chest. I had never been one for a hair chest, I think I have looked in too many magazines of hair free men, but the hair on his chest that was traveling down to then disappear beneath the sheets. I knew exactly where it lead, I had been down there three times already.
Pressing my naked body against his back, my nails scratched lightly against his chest as I placed a kiss on his broad shoulder.
God this man had me wound up tight. Hearing the words leaving his lips last night nearly drove me mad. I wasn't planning on telling him how much I'd missed him, how I craved every inch of him and that nobody could ever do what he did to me. I was giving him the upper hand without even realising it. But I wasn't worried for some reason, whatever we've been through I just had this feeling that it wouldn't fall apart again. Or I was praying it wouldn't.
My lips lingered along his skin as I closed my eyes. Jumping slightly, I could hear a vibration, looking over my shoulder I could see Lissa's name on my screen. Just as I was about to reach for my phone Dimitri's hand landed on top of me, "Leave it" he murmured, his voice rough as he lifted my fingers to his lips, placing a kiss on each finger.
Laying on his back, he placed my hand back onto his chest as a smile spread on my lips. His eyes skimmed over my face, "I could get use to this"
My smile grew he ran his fingers along my jaw, "And what is that exactly?" I asked curiously.
Propping himself up so we were levelled, "You" chuckling at his own word he shook his head, "Wow I sound more pussy than Christian"
I could help but chuckle at that as he met my gaze again, "But it's still true" he murmured as his thumb was tracing my bottom lip. "Especially naked in my bed" he said smile tugging at his lips.
Sealing the space between us I kissed him long and deep. My hand resting on his cheek as his hand found my hip, tugging me closer. "I could definitely get use to this" I said between kisses before slowly falling onto my back, Dimitri following suit.
My phone vibrated again and my eyes moved in it's direction. Pulling back, Dimitri kissed my nose, "Who is it?"
"Liss" I said reached for my phone as Dimitri's hand was slowly tracing along the curve of my hip. Opening the message it said:
L:"Wanna meet for coffee? It's been too long since we've been to Paul's xx"
"Is she ok?" Dimitri asked as he sat up picking up a bottle of water off of his bedside table. Nodding I said, "Yeah she wants to have coffee at Paul's, it's been a while since we had girly time"
"I was planning on having alone time with you in my bed all day" Dimitri said reaching over pulling me close, kissing me just between my breasts. I smiled, "You've had me for two very long nights" I teased before he kissed my lips.
"And I'll have you for many more" he winked, "You go, I got some stuff I need to do and you can just ring me if you want company"
"Sounds like a plan" I smiled before quickly typed back,
R:"Sounds great! see you there in an hour? x"
L:"Awesome x"
"Now, since I have you for at least another half hour, I'll better put it to good use" he said before disappearing underneath the sheets. I started laughing before he took me completely in his mouth.
I could definitely get use to his, hell I think I already have!
Paul's was only a few blocks away from Dimitri's place so I decided to walk. He offered to drop me off but I said that I didn't want to give Lissa a chance to see us. I had panicked a little about wearing the same stuff I wore yesterday, but I reminded myself that I never actually saw Lissa yesterday, which was rather strange. So wearing Dimitri's knitted sweater that look very similar to what I wear on a weekly basis I thought it wouldn't be too suspicious.
Walking into Paul's, flashbacks were hitting me left right and centre. It had been our place, Lissa and I would meet here religiously weekly through out our teens years. Finding Lissa at the back in a booth I smiled. Coming closer I gave her a hug, "Hey, you ok?" I grinned sitting down across from her. Nodding she smiled, "Yeah, I ordered some tea for you while I was waiting"
"Thank you" I smiled, "I didn't even see you yesterday, where were you?"
"Christian had been dirty texting me all day so I pretty much came there only to me locked up in his room"
Shaking my head I grinned, "I love the fact that you're both so ridiculously sweet still"
"Me too" Lissa smiled. "How was your night?"
Shrugging I leaned back as the waitress came, tea for me and a hazelnut late for Lissa. "It was good, I think Viktoria and Ivan made up"
"Really?" her eyes lit up picking her late up, "What happened?"
"The last thing I saw, they were dancing together, then Tasha left with Mark on the football team I haven't spoke to either of them since" I said as I put sugar and a splash of milk in my tea.
"So how did you get home?" Lissa asked looking confused.
Swallowing I had to think quickly, "Um, I got a lift from these girls that were there, I had a few drinks too many, McKenzie started hitting on me, so I took my chance to leave with them. My car is still at the flat, I thought I'd pick it up after this"
Lissa studied me before she took another sip. "So what about you and Dimitri?"
My brows came together at her tone of voice as I held my tea to my lips, "What do you mean?"
It was like the whole good feel between us had been stripped within a second and tension was slowly building.
"How was it at the party once all of us left? I mean you must have run into one another" It felt like the reason I was here was so she could interrogate me. Which wasn't really her style.
"What's going on Lissa?" I asked setting my cup down. She felt really tense which is weird because she doesn't easily get worked up.
"You would tell me right? If anything was going on between you again?" Her eyes were firm on mine.
Frowning I leaned forward, "I already told you, nothing is going on, we're just trying to be normal around one another-"
"But I know how you feel" she said cutting me off, "I know how deep you feel for him, how can you possibly just be friends with him?"
"Lissa-"
"And after all he's done to you?" she said eyes stern on me.
"What about what I did to him? We're no saints Lissa" I said shooting her a confused look, "You're my best friend, you'd know if anything was going on. But you have to remember he was my best friend too. I'm just trying not to be awkward since all of us hang out. You don't have to worry about anything Liss"
"But I will, you know I will" she said sadness painting her face. "Just like you would for me"
On the inside I wanted to scream, it as almost too easy to lie to her, to tell her what I knew she wanted to hear.
Licking my lips I sighed, "Look, I'll be careful, you know I will. I will tell you if anything happens, all we gotta worry about now is Ivan and Viktoria. The day Dimitri finds out won't be joyful"
"Yeah, you're probably right about that" she said stirring her drink.
Leaning closer I tried to distract her, "Without giving me too much detail, How was you're night, locked up and all?"
She was trying to hold back a smile, "It was very good"
Chuckling I loved this side of her, she never gave too much away but you could tell by the look in her eyes that she definitely enjoyed herself. "I surprised him wearing this really cute green set I got at Victoria's Secret. Drove him wild"
I had missed this so much, just our hot drinks and gossiping about whatever was going on. The knot at the base of my stomach made me feel disgusting as Lissa was going on about last night.
Trying to push my guilt aside I got lost in conversation, speaking about anything that came to mind until she got a texted from her mother asking if she could help her out at home. They were having some fancy dinner tonight and Christian would meet her entire family. Poor guy I had joked as she said that.
Rolling her eyes, she asked "Do you need a lift before I go?"
I smiled but shook my head, "Nah it's ok, I think their flat is only a few blocks away so I'll just walk"
Kissing my cheek she said goodbye and then she was gone. Closing my eyes let the guilt gush over me as I knew what a complete ass of a best friend I was. There was truth in what I said that Dimitri was my best friend too, only it runs a little deeper than that. Burying my face in my hands I sighed.
So many thoughts wants attention at the same time. I'm happy that we're take it slow in a sense, that we're finding our pace before the world knows, only will I hurt my best friend at the same time?
But I hurt Dimitri so much more when I left in the first place, I can't just throw what we have away just to keep Lissa happy. God I don't know. I was getting a head ache just thinking about what a mess this could be.
Pulling my phone out I messaged him:
R:"Distract me"
I know it was an easy way out, but he always knew how to make anything better. He'd shown me so much of his old self lately and even better things that he's picked up along the way, I knew he would still have the same effect on me now.
My phone started ringing, lifting my head I saw Dimitri's name on my screen. A small smile tugged at my lips as I picked up.
"Hey" I said sounding very mellow.
"Are you ok?" He sounded worried. I couldn't help but to smile, "Yeah" I cleared my throat, "Lissa's just- I don't know. I hate lying to her" I admitted. It sucked saying it out loud but it needed to be done.
"Are you still at Paul's?" he asked as I could hear him shuffle around.
"Yeah, Lissa just left" I said looking around the nearly empty cafe. "Why?"
"Meet me out front, we'll go for a ride on my bike" He said. It was something in his voice that I just loved. I think it's the fact that I know he'd do pretty much anything to make me smile again. Just as I would do the same for him.
"Ok" I nodded even though he couldn't see me.
"I'm just getting on my bike now, I'll see you in a minute"
Nodding again I bit my lower lip, "OK, see you in a bit"
Stepping outside after leaving a few bills on the table the sun was shining. Wrapping my arms around my body the smell of Dimitri suddenly hit me. Lifting my sweater to my nose I smiled. It smelled exactly like him.
I could hear the loud roar of his bike just before he came around the corner. Fuck he looked good I thought as I bit the inside of my cheek. He was wearing a white t-shirt, washed out jeans and a brown leather jacket, ray bans on and he was a classic bad boy. My bad boy.
Stopping right in front of me he passed me a helmet before I easily climbed on moving my arms tight around his waist. Without a word he took off making me squeeze my thighs together not prepared for the amount of speed. I didn't know where he was taking me, I didn't care.
The soft vibrations of the motor beneath me, the smell of leather mixed with his after shaved calmed me. Resting my head against his back as we reached a beautiful road, greens was all you could see as sun rays made their way through the leaves. It was beautiful.
Following his movements as he was taking curves felt like he were on, hell sometimes I think we were. I didn't even need to tell him what happened, he knew what I needed.
I could feel his warm hand land on top of mine as I was holding his waist. A small smile spread on my lips at it sweet gesture, he was gently stroking my hands as he kept driving down an endless road.
Not sure how long we had been going, I had lost track of time as he was slowing down as we were driving down a road the went around a lake. Coming to a stop he put his feet down, "If you get off for a minute" he said stroking my thigh.
As I did I took my helmet off as he parked the bike properly before taking his helmet off running a hand through his hair. Looking my way he moved back on the seat patting in front of him, "Come here"
I didn't protest as I put my helmet down on the ground before he helped me climb on so I could straddle him on his bike. Setting his helmet down he moved his arms around my waist as mine moved around his shoulders. Hugging me tightly I buried my face between his shoulder and neck as he was slowly stroking my back. Closing my eyes I tried to make my thoughts go slower but it didn't work.
Moving his hands to my hips he eased up a little so he could see my face. I sighed heavily as I put some strands of hair behind my ear, not meeting his gaze.
"Talk to me" he murmured as his lips grazed my forehead. Shrugging I didn't really know what to say or where to start. There was too much going on inside my head, but somehow I just started talking.
"It's just frustrating the way I know she's keeping an eye on me, how she somehow doesn't want us together because it for some reason wouldn't end well" Looking out over the lake, I licked my lips before I continued. "She thinks the first chance I get I will just jump back into your arms and forget about the world, because that would be very bad for some reason" I huffed.
I could hear the small smile in his voice as he spoke, "Well from a friend point of view I would probably ask you the same thing. But no offence but you didn't really jump back into my arms" The light tone of his voice made a smile tug at my lips.
"It wasn't really a warm welcome you gave me" I said sheepishly. "But I know very well why"
He was stroking my thighs reassuringly as the word left my lips. Taking a deep breath his eyes traveled out across the lake, "It's like you said, It happened and there isn't anything we can do to change it. Did it hurt? Yes, Like fuck to be honest. Does it feels good that you're back? No" my eyes met his as my brows came together, "It feels incredible"
A smile spread on my lips as he continued, "We're doing it this way because we want to find our feet before everyone starts asking any questions. I want to know you one hundred percent again and not this six year gap version I know now. Fuck what everyone else things if it's right or not, if it works for us it works"
Nodding in agreement I sighed, "I just don't like lying to her"
"Just give it some time ok? She will come around, you're best friends, she might not like it now, but when she see's you happy again it won't matter how it happened, just that you are"
Placing my hands on his forearms I smiled, "Since when did you become so zen lesson like?"
Chuckling he gave me one of those smiles that only I got, "Fuck knows" his eyes met mine, "I'll do pretty much anything to get that smile back again"
Looking deep into his eyes I breathed a chuckle, shaking my head slowly, "The things you say sometimes, I could just-" stopping myself for a moment I bit my bottom lip. But I had to say it, "I could just fall for you all over again" My voice was thick with emotion as I could feel his hands squeeze my hips.
We were just sitting there looking at one another for a few moments. It wasn't awkward, it felt so peaceful. I wasn't stressed he hadn't said anything yet, it was just sinking in to me as much as I assumed it was to him.
With a smile tugging at his lips he said, "I thought you already fell for me over ten years ago?" his eyes moved to my lips as his smile was contagious making mine grow.
"I did" I murmured as our eyes met. Lifting my hand it landed on his chest, "I still do"
Swallowing hard my heartbeat picked up, "Dimitri I-I'm sorry for-" shaking head I didn't know where to start, "everything" I breathed. "I'm not just saying I would take it all back if I could, I would. But for whatever it's worth, I'm sorry I did whatever I did to you. It hurt me just as much as it did to you, if not more knowing it was my fault. I ruined something that I can't find anywhere else, no matter how hard I look every way leads back to you" For some reason I could feel tears slowly building up in my throat, "And even if it wouldn't work out, I'd do it all over again, just to feel everything you make me feel"
Before I could say anything else his lips crashed onto mine, my hands holding his face as his lips showed me exactly how I felt. The need to be close, to taste and touch each other. A single tear ran down my cheek as I kept kissing him like my life depended on it.
Slowing the kiss down, his lips lingered on mine for a few moments longer. "I would too" he murmured against my lips before stealing one more kiss. "No matter what anyone says I wouldn't give you up for the life of me, it's not a about sex, even though I feel like I'm addicted to you. We have six years worth of sex we need to catch up on"
I giggled at that as he chuckled against my lips. "It will work though" he said then sobering up as he held my gaze, "I know it will"
Hearing the reassurance in his voice I knew it would. We would give it all, no matter what.
Not a very action filled chapter, but not all can be! Not that this story has a lot of action in that sense.. hehe :)
What did you think? Is Rose a bad person for keeping this from Lissa or is she right to feel the way she is? Will she be able to keep it in until it's the right time to tell her?
Lot's of love xx