I know.. I'm a bit on the slow side! But the suspense gives it more of an edge right? hehe, sorry I'm evil!

I won't dwell, read on and ENJOY

Rose

Nothing was working.

Three days had gone by since Lissa found out about Dimitri and I at the club. I had followed Dimitri's advice to leave her for the night, let it all sink in, hopefully she would be more willing to speak to me in the morning once she's calmed down.

We were wrong.

The morning after Dimitri had driven us over to Lissa's house where she lived with her parents. I knew her parents were out of town so it would only be Lissa and Christian there. Ringing and knocking on the door nobody answered. My shoulders dropped and I didn't know what to do.

I rung her, over and over again. I texted her several times that day too.

R: "Tried coming round your house but you weren't there. Are you ok?"

R: "Can we talk please?"

R: "Ignoring me isn't going to help"

R: "We need to talk about this"

R: "I miss you"

R "Lissa please, just call me back"

But nothing. She hadn't even read them. I was completely shut out.

Driving us to class Dimitri said we'd try again this evening. In school I texted both Viktoria and Tasha hoping they could tell me where Lissa was, but the only reply I received was silence.

In the only class I had with Lissa she was a no show, I couldn't find either of them over lunch and I was starting to get sick with the feeling that neither of them would speak to me. Didn't they want to hear me out? Didn't they want to know what was going on?

That evening I spent in my room. Dimitri offered to come over but I wanted to be alone. He'd done so much for me I knew I was being short with him and I wasn't showing how grateful I was for him but I was so torn. I felt like I couldn't do more than one thing at once. I could barely think one thought at a time instead of trying to solve several.

I ignored my parents as they tried to figure out what was going on. All I could think was, When will she talk to me?

Dimitri took me around his mother's house the day after, I was hoping to run into Viktoria but Olena said she had stayed at Ivan's.

Dimitri had texted both Christian and Ivan, they both replied but they were being short too. Christian said he was trying to convince Lissa to speak to me but she ignored him. I called him twice asking him to tell me where she was, that I just wanted to talk to her, but being the loyal boyfriend he is he obeyed her and didn't give me anything.

Ivan did confirm that Tasha and Viktoria were with Lissa but no luck in telling us where they were. Dimitri was loosing his temper with his friends, I only wanted to know where they were, it wasn't fair the way they were acting. But also I could tell he was missing his friends, he lived with them but lately all he did was glued to my side.

On the third day, one of my classes were cancelled so I told Dimitri to go to the gym, spend some time with Christian and Ivan. He didn't have to worry about me, I was going to tidy up at home and see my parents.

He could probably tell that I was lying, I was going to lie on my floor, legs resting on my bed and listen to sap music, staring into the ceiling trying to figure out how to fix this. He wasn't stupid, but I think he figured I needed some time.

"Have a good time with the guys and i'll come over tonight, we'll go for dinner or something" I said on the phone as I was going through my email. I had sent Lissa three emails and countless Facebook messages along side my texts and phone calls.

"You sure?" I could hear in his voice he was looking forward to it but he was worried for me at the same time.

"Of course, go, I know you want to. I'll see you tonight" I tried my best to sound cheerful. He'd been amazing I really needed to show him more appreciation.

"Ok I'll text you later ok?"

"Yeah, Love you" I said as my eye were glued to the sent emails that never got a reply.

"I love you to Rose"

A small smile tugged at my lips as I hung up, but it soon disappeared as I saw my call list. It said Lissa's name over and over with Dimitri's and my parents names every now and again. The only difference was that none of Lissa's phone calls went unanswered.

Feeling annoyed I threw my phone on my bed as I changed into gym gear hoping to get my frustrations out at the gym.

Blaring Kanye West through my headphones I lifting, sweating and running and it took everything within me not to go to the shop buying a few tubs of Ben & Jerry's. I wouldn't give in, so I kept going.

I had spent two and a half hours in the gym when I finally gave up and went home. Funnily enough food didn't appeal to me as I opened the fridge after I had my shower, I was itching for a drink though. I hadn't relaxed for three days and I barely slept even when I had Dimitri next to me.

A nice gin or a big glass of wine might relax me?

Shaking my head, I had never turned to alcohol like that and I wasn't going to start now…

It was afternoon when Dimitri texted saying he had just finished at the gym with the guys and he was heading home alone. I put on my leather jacket deciding to walk to Dimitri's flat. It was a half hour walk but it felt right. Putting my headphones in, Sam Smith was singing everything I felt as I walked alone.

Getting closer I saw Paul's across the street. Biting my lower lip, it felt stupid but I wanted to go and grab drink there just so I could feel a bit normal. It was always Lissa's and my place. Pushing the door opened, it was fairly busy, most tables were taken but only one person in front of me. Ordering a Mocha Latte I sighed as I removed my headphone to check through my phone as my drink was being made.

Looking up I stopped.

The three of them were sitting in the corner.

It was like a film. They were deep in conversation, Viktoria looked up and they all stopped talking. Lissa looked up, sitting next to Vika, giving me an emotionless look.

Tasha looked over her shoulder and I could tell she was giving me an apologetic look but it still hurt the way they were acting.

But this was my chance, what I'd fought to make happen over the last few days and I wasn't going to let to pass. They would speak to me and they would listen. Especially Lissa.

Walking over, my drink forgotten, I stopped in front of their table. Face sober. When not a word was uttered I sighed heavily, "Thank you for making this so easy for all of us" Sarcasm was dripping off my voice.

None of them looked at me.

Looking out the window I felt like I was the only one trying here, for once I was trying to be rational but nobody wanted to act on it with me.

"I know I was wrong not to tell either of you, but I have my reasons and without hearing me out you can make up whatever reason you want but it might not be right" I paused for a second before I continued,"I never meant for this to go down like this-"

Lissa suddenly came to life, "It's not about the fact that you didn't tell us anymore. Or the fact that you had these reasons" she made a face as she said the last word as her eyes were hard on me. "Do you know what the real problem is Rose?" before I could answer she continued, "The problem is that you lied. You lied straight to my face time upon time again and you didn't even flinch while doing it. Real friends don't lie to one another!" Her voice grew louder as she finished her sentence.

"Real friends don't ignore their friends for three days either" I said in return crossing my arms over my chest feeling a hint of anger spark in me.

"I had my reasons" Lissa said looking away from me.

My shoulders dropped, "All I ask is for you to listen and ignoring me isn't going to help-"

"Fine, talk" she said turning toward me as if I had her full attention.

I felt like she was acting so childish but would I act different if I knew she'd lied to me? I don't know. I don't even know when I got some reasonable and calm. I had always been the hot head, but it was like we had swapped places.

"All we wanted was to have some time to get use to one another before we told anyone. To find one another before it turned into a huge they're back together thing that everyone would talk about. It's been six years, we needed some time"

Lissa's mouth was a straight line, "You could have still told us that"

"Could I? Because you of all people wasn't very keen on him what so ever, would you really have supported my decision? Because I don't think so" I said challenging her.

"What disgusts me the most is that we've sat here, at this table or at the Red or in school, I've asked you about it, it was only a week ago the last time I asked about the two of you and the way you lied, how easy that was for you, how do I know you haven't lied about other things?"

"Are you serious?" I huffed, "Lissa you know me, I hated every second I couldn't tell you but I did it for us, I needed to make sure Dimitri and I were making the right decision before we would put anyone through anything close to what we went through the last time." My heart was pounding in my chest, "Every time I had to look at you, either of you and not tell you, killed me-"

"Then you could have told me! That's what a real and a good friend would have done"

She was working against me. I knew I had hurt her by lying to her, I knew that but right now I didn't see how she was going to let that go. She was acting more irrational than I ever thought she would.

Feeling thrown off I sighed before looking at Tasha and Viktoria, "I assume either of you have nothing to say?"

Viktoria sighed, "The only thing I don't get is the fact that Ivan and I had exactly the same situation you guys had, in a way. You were being so supportive and you were urging me to tell everyone. To be honest and open and proud over what we had. But then when Lissa told me that you and Dimitri have been a thing all this time it just-" she shook her head, "It just makes you look like such a hypocrite Rose"

Hearing those words leave her lips hurt. I could feel the thickness in my throat closing up but I refused to cry right now.

Licking my lips I forced my arms to my side, "I know that's what it might seem like and I would never ever encourage you not to be open with what you have with Ivan, because look how happy the two of you are now"

She was about to open her mouth but I held up my hand, "But you had your time to get happy before you did come out in the open, to figure yourselves out. Don't you think I deserve that too?"

I was met by silence.

Biting the inside of my cheek, I was having trouble believing the side that my friends were showing me. How could they all be acting like this towards me? I know that whenever you fight you're not acting like normal, but I barely know who these people are.

Tasha spoke for the first time, "Was is Dimitri you spoke about when we went to their house party?" Her voice was flat which was a surprise to me. She's usually the hot head like me, but her voice was surprisingly even and emotionless.

"Does that matter?" I exhaled looking at her.

Meeting my gaze she nodded sternly.

"Then yes, it was still fairly new then too, so it haven't been as long as you guys might think. But you would have known that three days ago if you would have called or hell even replied to any of my messages" my voice grew harsh as I spoke.

Before either of them could speak again I continued,

"I'm happy for what I have with Dimitri, I'm so happy we found one another again and that we actually have a steady foundation to build on instead of rocking backwards and forward maybe not being able to last-"

"What makes you believe you'll last now?" Lissa's voice sounded so snobbish, it felt like she'd slapped me.

"Because the last time it was nothing he did, it was me, I left Lissa. Yes we didn't start off great when I came back but we worked through that. What I'm having more trouble to believe is that one of my best friends is acting like the stuck up bitch she never wants to be seen like, but right now you're not being that good friend you keep talking about"

Looking at the three of them neither of them would meet my gaze, "I would have told you every step we've gone through once I told you. And believe me, I was going to tell you, I was going to tell the three of you because I wanted you to hear it from me and nobody else. I'm sorry I lied, I'm sorry you found out the way you did, I can't change it no matter how much or hard I try. But I was going to tell you, I promise you, I was" My voice had gone more towards a plead than that confidence I was going for to start with.

"But you didn't"

My face was flat. My emotions were flat. Why was she acting like this? Why couldn't she try? Why were they all

"I know it took time, hell Christian was urging us to tell you sooner but Dimitri wanted more time-"

"Whoa, whoa, whoa, hold up" A spark lit up in Lissa's eyes, "Christian knew about this? You told my fucking boyfriend and not me?"

Fuck.

Fuck Fuckedy fuck fuck.

Taking a deep breath, why didn't I think before I spoke? Of course Christian didn't tell Lissa that…

"Lissa, it-it wasn't like that, he came home and the wrong time and we just happened to-"

But Lissa wasn't listening to me anymore, I could see the anger rising in her eyes as she was getting up, "How long has he known?" she said through her teeth.

Sighing, "Liss, it doesn't matter, I didn't tell him on purpose-"

"How long?" She said through her teeth, she was standing in front of me. Since she had her modelesc body she was towering over me in my shortness.

I wasn't going to put Christian in the dirt. "It doesn't matter" I said shortly. "It wasn't their place to say"

"They?" Viktoria frowned, "Who else knew?"

Damn it! Why did I have to say that?

Swallowing hard I couldn't hide from it now. "Ivan was there too when Christian found out"

"We're leaving" Lissa said shortly. "Or at least I am"

"Lissa it doesn't matter, it wasn't their place to say" I said saying trying to reason with her.

"Oh it does matter, it matters because other people knew and yet you didn't tell us! What kind of friendship is that Rose?"

I was stunned.

The way she was holding this over my head was something I'd never seen coming. I felt like I was fighting a battle where I was clearly out numbered.

Viktoria and Tasha got up, neither of them looking at me as they were moving with Lissa.

My shoulders dropped as I was biting my lower lip. I felt defeated. I was trying so hard but nothing seemed worth what I was trying to get across, that or they just weren't getting it.

Was I being to relaxed about this? Was I more of a horrible person than I thought?

The door closed as my three best friends had left.

Then it was only me.

Alone.

I had been sitting down for a few minutes just staring into nothing until one of the baristas had come and said I forgot my drink.

As soon as he spoke to me I felt like crying. I gave him a sad smile before I picked up my drink before I headed for the door.

Dimitri's flat wasn't far away, I wanted to be alone but I wanted to see him at the same time. Hell I was such a mess!

Putting my headphones back in I took a big sip off of my drink as the damn tears were filling my eyes again. Sniffling, I kept my head low. Why was she working against me? I didn't she understand what and why I was doing what I was? It wasn't even about her! I was about us, but maybe she didn't want me to disappear into that boyfriend bubble. But everyone goes there when they find someone new right?

I knew she meant well, she only wanted to look out for me, make sure I was making the right decision. Or that's what I kept telling myself. Judging how our talk went at Paul's maybe I should be thinking differently? She didn't even want to discuss this, it felt more like a blame game. Or was it Karma? I had lied so many times now it was all coming back at me? Not that I have ever been one to believe in karma…

Getting close to Dimitri's place I opened the door to the flight of stairs. I dried my cheeks as I walked up the steps, walking in with tears isn't really the best way to greet your boyfriend.

I knocked twice before I opened the door, pulling out my headphones I said, "It's just me babe I-"

Stopping dead in my tracks I got that fucking film feeling again. Because the scene in front of me seemed like such a fucking joke it had to be a film.

My sex god of a boyfriend was before me, only a towel wrapped around his waist, his hair damp and brushed back. Looking hot as fuck. Then there was Camille in the skimpiest black lace set imaginable and a big coat pooling around her heel clad feet. Her hands were strategically placed on Dimitri's chest as Dimitri was holding her wrists. She looked disgustingly proud as she was smirking my way.

Dimitri on the other hand looked like a deer caught in head lights, that with a mix of someone had just kicked him in the balls.

This had to be a fucking scene from a film, but I couldn't decide which was worse, the one before or now…

There was only one thing I could say, "Wow, Karma really is a bitch"

Was the wait worth it? A lot happened in this chapter in the end, what did you guys think? How was Rose reaction? What would you do? What will happen now? What did you think of what happened at Paul's?

Also, I know it can be a bit cliche with the whole 'blaming yourself' and 'what if's' scenario's but, don't we all do them? Whether we like to or not?

Lot's of Love x