So, so sorry I didn't post saturday, it completely left my mind... Horrible but true! Then I did the authors note AND forgot to post... what is up with my mind today? Now this is a fairly short one but the next will be longer!

Enjoy!

Dimitri

We ordered pizza and found a film since neither of us was feeling tired. It was strange how I didn't feel like a fifth wheel with these couples around me. Sure Tasha was there but she was a friend and Vika and Ivan were suddenly surprisingly good at keeping their hands off of one another.

I still couldn't relax, I wouldn't be able to until I knew Rose and I were fine again.

I just wanted to hear her voice, to crush her lips to mine and have her in my arms. God, I've turned into such a sap. But I kinda like it at the same time, she made me want to be this great person, sure my mama raised me right and my sisters weren't that bad, but she made it all better, she always did. Whether I wanted her to or not.

"My phones dead" Viktoria grimaced, "I forgot to call mama about if I was staying here or not"

Ivan pulled his phone out and passed it to her, "Use my babe"

She gave him a quick kiss before she got up dialling mama. Christian was still eating, Lissa was engrossed in the film. Tasha kept biting her nails, nudging her with my elbow I caught her attention, "You ok?"

She shrugged, "I don't know, I keep having this weird feeling"

"Like what? You feeling sick?"

Shaking her head "No, I don't know what it is. Maybe I just ate too much"

"That happens to me all the time" Ivan chuckled.

"We all know you're a pig" Tasha chuckled as she reached for her phone and started to browse through Facebook.

Vika returned looking confused, "What's wrong?" I asked raising my brows.

"She didn't pick up, I know it's after eleven but she always has her phone close"

Waving her off, "I'm sure she's just deep asleep, just text her-"

Loud thumping noises made me stop, someone was walking like a fucking elephant up the stairs. The door suddenly flew open and Karolina was breathing hard. Anger was written over her face as she was cursing under her breath. Getting up I walked towards her as the movie paused, "Karolina what's-"

"Will you answer your fucking phone?" She half shouted at me as she bent over trying to catch her breath. "You always fucking answer and today of all days you decide not to, fucking bastard"

Frowning I shot her a confused look, "It's charging in my room, what's wrong-"

"And why isn't your phone working?" Karolina asked staring at Vika.

"It died, I'm sorry-"

Waving her hands for her to shut up, "It doesn't matter" she was still gasping for her, "Fucking shit, why do you have so many stairs?"

"Karolina, what are you doing here?" I asked sternly, she was acting so weird.

Straightening up her eyes were suddenly glossing over, "It's-" she paused biting her lower lip, swallowing hard she continued, "It's Rose"

My stomach turned, before I could speak she continued, "She was in a car crash"

Before I could react I was running for my phone in my room. Ripping the charger out I pressed the home button.

My stomach dropped, I had nine missed calls from Rose, six from Karolina and two from Mama.

Emotion was stirring within me. I felt light headed and heavy at the same time. My stomach was turning and I wanted to empty everything I had within me onto the floor. Was she alive? Was she.. No. Shaking my head. I pushed every thought possible away. I couldn't do this now, I needed to know what happened and I needed to know right now.

Rushing out into the living room, Lissa was crying as Christian held her, Viktoria was trying to speak to Karolina. "What. Happened?" I growled cleaning my phone in my hand.

"I'll tell you all I know in the car, we need to get to the hospital"

"Take my car" Christian said pulling his keys out, throwing them my way. I was already heading for the door when I felt a hand on my shoulder, looking over Lissa was there.

"I'm coming with you" Lissa said determinate as she was drying her face.

"Me too" Viktoria and Tasha were close behind.

"Ivan take Vika and Tasha in your car. Liss, Chris and Karolina come with me, we're leaving now" I said sternly calling out orders.

I was surprised nobody objected or caused delay as I was hurrying down the stairs. Everyone hurried behind as I got into the drivers seat.

Speeding away the car was filled with silence, all you could hear was Lissa sniffling in the backseat. Gripping the wheel tighter I didn't let any emotion come through. I couldn't. I didn't want to feel, I did't want to think anything. I just needed to make sure she was alright. She had to be. "Tell me" I said through my teeth.

Karolina was chewing on her lower lip as she was staring into nothing. "I don't know how is happened, I was watching tv with Sonya as mama comes running into the living room demanding that we ring you" her eyes were blank, "She had that look, that I will do anything that's needed so don't cross me right now kind of look. Sonya kept asking what was wrong when mama put her on speaker"

A lone tear fell down Karolina's cheek, "She sounded so scared Dimitri" her voice cracked.

Pressing the gas pedal further, I clenched my teeth as I was fighting back tears.

"She just kept saying how she was sorry and that everything was hurting. Mama got into the car soon after, Sonya's home with Paul as I hurried over here since you didn't pick up. She called me just outside saying that they'd were on their way to the hospital, she didn't say anything else"

My hands were shaking as I kept a firm hold of the steering wheel. We were nearly there, just keep it together for just a little bit longer, c'mon Dimitri! I told myself.

I sparked in first available parking spot I could find before I hurried out. Throwing the keys to Karolina I went into a full sprint. I couldn't wait. I needed to get to her, I need to be there.

I should have gone to see her tonight, like I originally thought. Fuck!

A tear escaped and I instantly brushed it away as I reached the hospital doors, hurrying inside I asked the lady behind the counter to lead me in the right direction. The fact that she was being so calm was winding me up, lying to say I was family, I tried to create an urgency. When she finally told me where to go I sprinted off again.

She was shouting after me not to run but I didn't care.

Hurrying around a corner I came to a stop as my eyes fell on my mama as she had her face burried in her hands.

"Mama?" I was breathing hard.

Her head snapped up, she had definitely been crying and it only made it all so much worse. I could barely swallow as my feet where nailed to the floor. Biting her lower lip she opened her arms wide taking me in.

I couldn't speak, I couldn't move. I couldn't do anything.

My breathing was hard, tears were filling my eyes as she said nothing.

"What-How-Is she-?"

"She'll be ok" She said, I could hear the thickness in her voice that she was holding back tears.

Exhaling heavily I felt slightly relief, clearing my throat I swallowed my emotion, "What happened?"

Pulling back she was shaking her head. Lissa, Christian and Karolina appeared but I didn't look up, I needed to hear everything she knew.

"She had been driving on the back roads, fast from what the police could tell, she's some how hit the embankment on the other side of the road and the car flipped"

Cleanching my fists I kept quiet, I could hear Lissa gasp as she was crying again.

A dark look fell over her face, I've never seen my mother like this before, "I don't know how long she had been lying there, but she was so cold, I thought-" she stopped herself and shook her head, "I thought she was dead" she sniffled, "She sounded so scared when she called, she said she didn't know what to do, she kept apologising and saying how everything was hurting. She said that all she wanted was to see you"

I felt like throwing up again. My lip started to quiver but I clenched my jaw tightly, but that didn't stop my fist from shaking.

"She kept going in and out, I tried to keep talking to her until I found her but she stopped answering soon after that"

I felt a hand on my shoulder but I couldn't look away, Christian spoke, "Have the doctors said anything?"

"Her right arm was dislocated, she had deep cuts along her side and on her left thigh as well as bruising on her lungs. She had a bad concussion and cut to her forehead. She lost a lot of blood as one cut was near a big artery in her thigh. They said they had the bleeding under control in the ambulance, they also need to run further tests to ensure there was no swelling of the brain"

"That's good news" Christian squeezed my shoulder, "She will be fine"

She would be, my eyes were drawn to the floor, but all I could keep thinking was I should have been there. I should have fucking been there so none of this could have happened.

"There's something else"

My head snapped up to look at mama again. Her tone of voice was different, a grim look at replaced her sad one. Frowning I narrowed my eyes at her, "What's wrong?"

Sighing crossed her arms over her chest, "She wasn't sober Dimitri"

It was as if she'd slapped me, I took a step back as if I'd lost my balance, "What?" I hissed.

"She was d-drunk?" Lissa asked ludicrous filling her voice.

Mama nodded slowly as her eyes never left mine, "They told me right before you came that a high amount of alcohol was found in the first tests that came back. I don't even know how long we've been here but, why would she be drinking so heavily Dimitri? And why would she make the decision to get in a car in such a state?" I could hear the anger in her voice. My mother saw Rose as immediate family, so she would have reacted the same if it was Viktoria or any of us.

Lissa was bursting into tears as I was shaking my head. The tears were too close to the brim, turning away I couldn't have them look at me right now.

Anger was seeing through me as well as sadness. Turning into an empty corridor, I was chewing on my lower lip as tears spilled over.

Clenching my fists as hard as I could, I punched the wall as hard as I possible could. Strangling a scream I groaned loudly as the pain burned on my knuckles.

Why would she do this? How could she be so damn stupid? Why would she drink herself stupid and then get into a car? Did she try to ring me before? Is that why she decided to drive to see me? Why was she taking the back roads?

Would she be ok?

Leaning against the wall I felt emotionally drained, holding everything in and suddenly deciding to feel was a bad decision. Sliding down I hurried my face in my hands as tears escaped.

How the hell did this happen? Why the hell wasn't I there?

"Dimitri?"

My head snapped up heading Lissa's voice. She was chewing her lower lip as her eyes were blood shot.

Running a hand down my face I tried to erase any sign of tears. She made her way over and joined me on the floor. Pulling my legs up I rested my arms on my knees.

Sighing she started fiddling with her bracelet before she spoke, "She'll be ok right?" I could hear the sadness in her voice as I looked over. She met my gaze as I nodded slowly, "She will be, I know she will"

She tried to smile but failed before she rested her head against my shoulder.

It felt strange. Not too long ago we had been arguing to why she should speak to her best friend and stop such a brat, and now we were sharing the same emptiness as we were waiting for our best friend to get better.

We both love her, in slightly different ways but we love her. Nothing will change that. I knew Lissa must feel awful for what's happen, Hell I know I do. So there's no point in arguing, we'll forgive and forget. As long as she'll be ok, that's all that matters.

Rose

It was all so hazy.

Put the pain was clear as day.

Trying to open my eyes it was all a blur. It felt as if I'd been thrown into a concrete wall several times over. As if someone had driven a truck over my head a few times again.

Driving…

And it all came back to me. The crash, the phone call.

Sitting up suddenly I inhaled heavily. Looking around, I was alone, I was at a hospital. Looking down there were several IV's and cords in my arm. All I had in the fore front of my mind was one thing.

Dimitri.

Why wasn't he here? Looking around, it was all empty. Silent. The door was open but showed no sign of movement.

Where is he?

My heart was speeding up in my chest as I was getting out of bed. I couldn't stay here, he had to know I was ok. Did he get my calls? Does he-

Hissing in pain as the IV's pulled me to a stop, closing my eyes I suddenly pulled them out, one at a time. Ignoring the pain I stumbled out into the hall. Limping, pain was shoot up my thigh but I tried not to think about it.

"Dimitri?" My voice was barely audible, my hand came up to my throat as I cleared it. My lungs were burning, speaking again it went better, "Dimitri?"

Walking down the hall I was looking around, walking a bit faster, I felt panic rise. Would he not be here? Why wasn't he here?

"Dimitri?" I yelled feeling panic take over as tears were starting to cloud my eyes. "Dimitri!" I yelled again as I grew dizzy, tears were blurring my eyes. I felt a sudden pain in my side, gasping I strangled a scream, as I leaned against the wall. Instead of feeling relief further pain was shooting up my arm, crying out I fell against the wall.

What the hell was wrong with me?

Looking down, blood was trailing down my arms as a few large bruises covered me.

"Rose?"

Looking up I collapsed against the wall falling onto the floor, the pain was now everywhere when a shape came closer.

"Dimitri?" my voice cracked.

He was hushing me before he spoke, he was bending down, before he could speak the tears were rushing down my cheeks and I was speaking too fast, "Dimitri I'm so sorry, I was so, so stupid I-I"

Breathing heavy I had to stop as the pain was pulsating through me, "I'm so sorry" I sobbed, "I'm so so-"

"Rose, it's ok" His hands cupped my face, his thumbs quick to brush my tears away, "It's ok love, you need to slow down your breathing ok?"

"I I-I don't want you to leave me-"

"I'm not going anywhere" His voice was so warm and reassuring. "Let's get you back to bed yeah?"

Shaking my head, "I don't want to go back-"

"I won't leave you, I promise. I'll stay baby, don't worry" Then I felt his arms around me, "I'm going to lift you now ok?"

Nodding I was suddenly in his arms and I think it was the first time in three days I actually relaxed. I felt safe again.

His lips brushed against my temple, "It's ok love" he murmured, "I'm right here, just focus on my breathing"

Grasping onto his shirt I rested my head against his shoulder. Focusing on his breath I tried to slow down all together. The haziness returned as I felt him about to put me down. Clinging to him, his warm hand landed on mine, "I'm not leaving, I just need to put you down so the doctor can have a look at you"

I let go as I felt the softness of the bed beneath me. Before I could hear anything else blackness took over, and I was out again.

I hope you guys felt that as much as I did! Any thoughts are welcome,

Lot's of Love xx