I know she's nervous. Hell, I'm nervous. I haven't really done this before (I've messed around with a few girls before but nothing too serious) and I want to make her feel as good as she just made me feel. Holy shit, that was amazing. I didn't expect my proper little mockingjay to be so good at that but she exceeded my expectations. And it's even better now that I know she hasn't done that with Gale. I've been wanting to taste her for ages, so I looked at this as the perfect opportunity. I slide her pants off and kiss her from head to toe. When I kiss her center, she bolts upright and is looking at me with wide eyes. I try to play it off and smirk down at her.
"Didn't I tell you not to move?" She slowly lays back down, looking confused and very nervous. Shit. Why did I just do that? She'll probably think I'm going into a flashback or something because I've certainly never spoken to her like that before. To reassure her, I kiss her again and try to show her how much I love her in those kisses. She seems to relax a little and I pull back.
"I want to try something. Trust me?" Her eyes, clouded with lust and love, search mine for just a minute before she nods.
"Okay." I grin, traveling back to that evening on the rooftop before the Games and how much I wanted to freeze that moment. I'd like to freeze this moment too. Any moment with Katniss, really, is perfect.
"Then you'll allow it?"
"I'll allow it." I smile and kiss her again, not lingering around her lips too long. As much as I love kissing her, I'm anxious and excited to kiss her elsewhere. To make her scream my name. I cup her for just a moment before sliding my finger past her underwear and I meet her soft lips. Damn, she is so wet. And tight.
"Damn Katniss, you're this wet from sucking my dick?" She turns redder than red at my words and I have to grin at her innocence. I think I'll make it a game, to see how much I can make her blush. Seems she likes it when I have a dirty mouth.
I feel myself growing hard again already, even after Katniss completely milked me for everything I had. I stroke her up and down and feel her writhe underneath me. Oh Katniss. Just wait. My finger is coated in her juices and I remove my hand from her underwear, bringing it to my mouth. I make sure she is watching me as my tongue darts out to taste the sticky sweetness that coats my finger. Her jaw drops and she blushes a brilliant shade of red. I grin smugly before I lower to my stomach and peel her underwear away. I take a moment to appreciate the beauty before me-she didn't really give me the chance to look my fill yesterday. I'm sort of surprised that she is bare down here. Maybe it's something with the prep teams. Even after the Games, I still haven't seen any hair on my chest or face. I shake myself quickly. Forget about the Games. Forget about the Capitol.
It's all about her.
I spread her wide and take a long lick, relishing the cry that escapes her throat. Glancing up at her, my tongue dives into her folds as I explore her completely. My hands find hers gripping the bed sheets, and my fingers intertwine with hers. My saliva mixed with her own sweet wetness makes it easy to slide two fingers into her, and I curve them slightly, hearing her cry out again.
"Oh god, Peeta," she cries and I close my eyes, delighting in hearing my name drip from her lips. My tongue finds that delicate bundle of nerves and after a few long strokes, I massage it gently with my tongue, feeling her jerk underneath me. I take my cues from her moans and find out what works the best. My hand moves from hers to her hip, holding her still while I work her to her climax. I remove my mouth, still pumping my fingers into her, and look up at her. Her head is thrown back, her dark tresses damp and sticking to her flushed cheeks, her nails are scratching her scalp.
"Look at me, Katniss." I want to see her when she comes. I want to watch the light in her eyes, see the waves overtake her. She is so fucking perfect. And this is a beautiful moment for me. Never in my wildest dreams did I envision Katniss Everdeen writhing underneath me, coming undone at my touch. In my wildest dreams, she was taking care of herself while I watched. Or she was taking care of me. I relish this. She is moaning and biting her lip so hard I'm afraid she'll make it bleed. I lean down and take her into my mouth again and she screams my name. Fuck. That sound. I feel her shuddering and I know she's close.
"Katniss. Look at me." Her eyes are half-closed when she looks down at me and I finish her off with a hard press of my tongue; she jerks her hips and my mouth latches onto her once more.
"Peeta! OH MY GOD!" She jerks upwards and screams my name once more so loud that I think the whole village hears her. And you know what? I could care less. I hope they hear her. I hope GALE hears her. So everyone will know, once and for all, that she is mine and no one else's. And it's not an act. It may have been an act at one time but now I know she loves me for real. My life can't get much better. I slowly make my way back up her body and straddle her. My cock brushes against her center and we both hiss. I lean down to kiss her, letting her taste herself. She moans into my mouth and wraps her arms around my neck, entangling her fingers in my hair. God I love the feel of her hands in my hair. When she tugs just a little, I'm on her leash. She thrusts upwards and my cock is brushing against her wet folds. Shit. I have to get off her, right now, before I do something inappropriate. But the feel of her underneath me is too amazing to ignore.
"Katniss," I gasp, as I struggle to maintain my control of the situation. Her willing naked body beneath mine is not helping matters.
"I need you, Peeta," she whispers in my ear. I pull back, my wide eyes finding hers.
"Are you…are you sure?" Seriously, what man questions the girl he loves when she says she wants to have sex?! Only a dumbass. But I want to make sure we aren't moving too fast and this seems a little fast. I mean…we only started to really make out a few days ago. My head is screaming at me to get off her and slow it down but another part of me *ahem* is telling me to give this girl every part of me, body and soul. She reaches up and strokes my cheek and I nuzzle against her palm.
"I want you. I've wanted you for a long time. Haven't we waited long enough?"
"Katniss, I-" SHUT UP MAN! She wants you! Take her!
But I shake my head.
"I don't want to push you. I am perfectly happy with what we have and I don't need more. If you want to wait." I see her face fall and I worry that I said the wrong thing. When she speaks, her tone breaks my heart.
"Oh…Ok. I understand." God. This girl. She will never realize the effect she has! The effect she has on me, the effect she has on the Capitol, the effect she has on Gale, the effect she has on the whole damn world. I gather her in my arms and press my body as close to hers as possible. With no clothes between us, we start to form a sweet sheen of sweat between us and I want nothing more than to bury myself inside her. I cup her chin and look her right in the eyes.
"Katniss, you have no idea how much I want you right now. How much I have always wanted you. But I want you to be ready, to be sure that you're giving this to…the person you think deserves it," my voice starts to shake and I am instantly frustrated with myself. Why do I have to become a pathetic mess when this girl is involved?! I clear my throat and continue.
"I love you, Katniss. Which is why I can wait for as long as you need."
"You make me feel like I'm trying to steal the virtue of an innocent boy," she said, a bit coldly. I bite my lip and shake my head but she grips my cheeks in her hands and she is not letting go.
"I love you, you idiot. So obviously I deem you worthy and choose you to share this with. Stop being so noble and take what I am offering you."
She doesn't have to tell me twice. I lean her backwards, kissing her deeply, and my hand cups her center again. She follows my movements with her hips, and I let her ride my fingers. I grasp myself and rub myself over her folds-she's even wetter now! She squeezes and I buck my hips against her.
"Peeta," she gasps and I close my eyes at the sound of it. "You're…you're going to have to help me. I mean…I'm not sure I know what to do." I shake my head and lean in to kiss her.
"Do you trust me, Katniss?"
"Of course. It's just…"
"Just what?"
"I don't…I don't have the experience you do," she says very quietly. My brow furrows as I study her and she can't seem to look at me. Wait….
"What exactly do you think I have done?" She's looking to the side and I cup her chin, bringing her gaze up. She gives a little shrug.
"Katniss?"
"What?"
"Talk to me." Granted this isn't the best time for this, as my cock is hard and pressing against her dripping center. But I need to hear what's bothering her. If she thinks I've done this with another girl, I'll lose it. She has to know that there's never been anyone else. She still can't seem to look at me so I tell her the truth.
"Katniss, I have as much experience in this as you do." The look of surprise on her face just answers my questions. I can't help but shake my head.
"You thought you were the only virgin here."
"I…you just…seem so confident and know what you're doing. You were always so popular…I just…I just assumed you had taken someone to the slag heap."
"I did," I confess. No point in lying to her. And now I see how much it hurts her so I press my forehead against hers so she can't look away. "But it was never anything serious and we never got very far. I was in love with one person. I was saving myself for that one person. Why would I throw myself away on some random girl?"
"I'm…I'm your first?" I kiss her hard on the lips and give her a smile. She looks so hopeful and it makes me giddy to know that this is what makes her happy. Knowing that she is the first girl to have this part of me, that she'll be the only girl to ever share this with me.
"My first and only," I assure her. She reaches up and runs her fingers through my hair and I kiss her again.
She spreads her legs wider and I rub myself against her. I'm instantly hard and wanting again. But my brother's voice suddenly echoes in my head and I gasp.
Don't ever sleep with a girl without a condom on, little bro. Mom will kill you if you knock a girl up and give us an extra mouth to feed.
Her eyes widen as I back away from her.
"Peeta, what's-"
"Just a second, Katniss." I reach into my drawer and pull one out. I take a moment to thank my brothers for giving them to me when they'd heard of my engagement. I didn't have the heart to tell them I would never need them because the girl I was engaged to didn't return my love.
Blinking, I tear the wrapper with my teeth and cover myself. I return to between Katniss's legs and lean down to kiss her. I try not to let her see me trembling. Truthfully, I'm clueless and really want her to feel amazing. But I've never done this before and am afraid this will just be awkward and painful.
"Where were we?" She smiles up at me, betraying more confidence than I'm feeling, and reaches between us to grasp me, guiding me to her. I start entering her as slowly as I can and the feeling is beyond incredible. I see her eyes widen and then tears appear there and I feel terrible. I press my forehead to hers and whisper my apologies. She just shakes them away.
"Just do it, Peeta. Please." That's Katniss. Not the do it slow type of girl but rip the bandage off completely. I remember in our second Games, when we had all been poisoned by the fog, she had dove into the water while Finnick and I found it nearly impossible to submerge just our hands. I look down at where we are nearly connected and back at her. She gives me a little nod and I lean down to kiss her, swallowing her cry as I sheathe myself completely. The feeling is intoxicating. She is so tight as she surrounds me and I do my best to be completely still to allow her time to adjust. Her face is screwed up in pain and I feel so guilty.
"I'm sorry," I whisper but she shakes her head.
"Just…just give me a minute," she replies, biting her lip. I kiss her again, gentle at first and then nip at her bottom lip, taking it between my teeth and tugging slightly. She moans and bucks her hips upwards and I gasp as I'm pushed even deeper into her. I rest my forehead on her chest so that I won't move and wait until she is ready. A few seconds later, she is moving her hips and I know immediately I'm not going to last long. I pull out slowly, then push back in and soon our hips are meeting and clashing together. We find a rhythm that has us both panting and moaning and we are both racing toward the edge. When I tumble over it, I want her right there with me. So I hold on as long as I can, gripping her breast as I thrust into her. I look down at where we are joined and I can't help but moan a little at the sight of me entering her like this.
"Oh god, Peeta, I'm...I'm..."
"Me too," I grunt as I thrust even harder. I reach down between us and find that little nub that drives her mad. Pressing my thumb against it, I hear her scream again and she tugs on my hair so hard I think she may have just pulled a few strands out. I feel her clench around me and I pull out quickly, knowing full well that if I release inside her we may have even bigger issues to deal with, ones that we are most certainly not ready to face. I don't know how long condoms are supposed to last but I'm not taking ANY chances. With a few strokes of my hand, looking at Katniss panting underneath me, I follow her and cry her name as I join her in bliss. I collapse on top of her, our hearts racing together, our damp bodies sticking together, truly making us one. I quickly jump up and dispose of the condom and run to the bathroom for a wet rag. I come back and kneel beside her, prying her legs apart so I can clean her up. She blushes and I bite my lip at the sight of the blood on both of us. I quickly clean both of us up and toss the cloth aside before I'm back on the bed, rolling us to the side so that I am not squashing her and I wrap my arms around her. Her damp hair is spread over my arm like a dark waterfall and between her gasping breaths, she leans in to whisper "I love you" in my ear.
Fully satisfied, my heart so full and complete, I drift off to a peaceful sleep with the love of my life safe in my arms.