Chapter 6
That night, I heard Koz unlock the door and come into the house. I was in the bedroom, laying on the bed, tears still in my eyes. Walking into the bedroom, Koz walks to my side, leans down to kiss me when he sees that I have been crying. "Hey, what's wrong?" He asks sitting me up and putting his arms around me. I tense in his arms, which is something I have never done before. Pulling back to look at me, he wipes the tears from my cheeks with his thumbs and whispers, "Talk to me baby. What happened?" Looking down at my hands, I feel myself going into another panic attack. Knowing it's coming on, he looks me in the eyes, "Breathe baby. Slow, deep breaths. Come on. Breathe with me. In. Out. In Out." Once my breathing slows I pull away from him and pull my knees up to my chin. I have not been this withdrawn since my rape. It's like it happened all over again.
Placing his hand on my knee, he says "Baby, what happened. Please talk to me." I can tell he is worried so I finally find my words and tell him. "He's here." Koz looks at me for a second before it dawns on him. "Shit. Babe. Where did you see him?" He asks as he pulls me back to him and this time I let him. "I was in town doing some shopping and I bumped into him as I walked out of one of the shops. He spoke to me and I just freaked and came straight home, locking myself inside the house." I tell him. "Hey, look at me. I am not going to let him get to you again. You hear me? I got you." He tells me, as he caresses my cheek. "He's not supposed to be anywhere near here. I think we need to tell the club." He tells me and I know he is right. "Will you be with me when I tell them?" I asked him. "I'll be right there beside you. I won't leave you." He assures me. Pulling out his phone, while still holding me close, he calls Jax. "Brother, I need everyone in church. We have a problem." He tells him before hanging up.
Thirty minutes later we are all at the clubhouse and the guys head into church. "Wait here. I'll come get you when it's time to tell them, okay? Rat will be here with you. " He tells me. Turning to Rat he says "Don't let her out of your sight until I call for her." Rat nods his okay and they head into church. A few minutes later, Koz comes to the door and calls me inside. I have been inside the chapel before but not during church. Koz pulls me to his lap and speaks. "Guys, Savy and I need to talk to you all about something important. I came home today to find my Old Lady upset and scared and I can't have that." He says. They all look at me and I know it's time for me to talk. "When I was 16, right before Opie was locked up, I was attacked, here at one of the parties. Ope was at home and dad, you were gone, and I was here during one of the parties. I had walked outside to get some air and one of your brothers followed me out. He dragged me to the back of the building and raped me." the tears start falling again and Koz squeezes my hand to tell me to continue. "After he was done, he walked away like nothing happened. One of the croweaters found me and took me inside the back way and cleaned me up but I begged her not to say anything. The only ones that know about it were the croweater and Tig. But no one knew who it was or that it was even a Son." I tell them. "The night before Koz and I officially got together I told him about my attack and I told him who it was. I never said anything to anyone. I had not even let another man get close to me until Koz. The reason you need to know this is that I ran into him today and it triggered my panic attacks again. Koz said I needed to tell you all about it now and I agreed." I tell them, trying to control my breathing. "You said it was a Son that raped you? Who was it?" Clay asked as they all start looking at each other wondering who would do this to me. "Kyle Hobart." I tell them as the tears come down harder. Koz pulls me closer and whispers "It's okay baby. You did good." Pulling my face to look at him, he kisses my lips and walks me back out to the bar and tells Rat to stay close to me.
Walking back into the chapel, Koz takes his seat and everyone is clearly distraught and pissed. Koz looks at his brothers and says through gritted teeth, "This kill is mine." They all agree and decide to end church to give everyone time to process what they have heard before coming up with a plan. Walking up to me, Clay hugs me and tells me, "Until we get this taken care of, you don't go anywhere without a patched member. If Koz can't be with you, one of us will. No prospects. Just patched. We'll make this right sweetheart." He kisses the top of my head and walks away.
Koz walks up to me and I asked him if we could go home. He tells me yes and we head home not knowing that someone is camped out near the house, watching.