Chapter 7
Walking into the house, Koz locks the door and checks the rest of the house before meeting me in the bedroom. We undress and get into bed and he pulls me to him. "Baby, I won't let anything happen to you okay. I promise." He tells me. "I know. Believe it or not I trust you. But I'm not going to lie and tell you that I am not scared. What if he tries something?" I asked him. "You won't be alone long enough for him to have the chance. That's why we are only putting patched members with you. We all know what he looks like and what he is capable of. I got you, okay." He assures me. I snuggle in closer to him and he kisses me softly. "You are mine and I protect what's mine. I love you Savy." he tells me. "I love you too Koz. I never thought I could but I do." I tell him. We are quiet for a while just enjoying being close to each other before we both fall asleep.
"Fuck Sav, you feel so good. I have been wanting inside this sweet pussy for so long" he says as he thrusts in and out of me. I feel his hand over my mouth keeping me from screaming for help. All I can feel are his hands on me holding me facing the brick wall. I can feel the cold brick on my cheek while he is assaulting me. Feeling his hand run up my shirt and grabbing my breast. "Fuck Sav, You're pussy is so tight." He says before he gets off. "Thanks for that babe. I'll have to tap that pussy again soon." He says and walks off leaving me on the ground crying.
I woke up with a jerk and bolted for the bathroom getting sick. I feel Koz pulling my hair back and rubbing my back while I empty what little was in my stomach into the toilet. When I am done, I curl up into a ball in the floor with tears rolling down my face. "Baby, talk to me. What happened?" Koz asked me concerned. "I'm okay." I say wiping the tears from my cheeks. "Just a nightmare. I'm okay." I lie. I am nowhere near okay. I stand up and rinse my mouth out before walking to the end of the bed and grabbing a blanket. "I think I am going to go watch some TV." I tell him before walking into the living room and sitting down on the couch. Koz follows me in there. "Koz you need sleep. You have to work tomorrow. I'll text Gemma and tell her that I won't be there. I'll just stay here tomorrow." I tell him. "I'll be fine. I am not leaving you alone. I told you, I got you. I meant it." He says, sitting down next to me on the couch and pulling me into him. I feel safe with Koz but I don't know if I can do this. I don't know if I can be what he needs anymore when I can't even hold myself together.
I must have fallen asleep because the next thing I knew, Koz was carrying me to bed. I turned on my side with my back to him so he lays behind me and puts his arms around me pulling me back against him. I doze back off hearing him whisper, "I love you, Savy."
I hear the alarm go off telling us it's time for him to get up for work. He gets up and heads to the shower and I go to the kitchen to call Gemma and start coffee. Standing at the counter I see Koz walk in with just his jeans on and he kisses me good morning and takes his cup of coffee I poured him. "I called Gemma and told her that I was not working today. I explained about the nightmares. Apparently she was going to tell me to take the day anyway after Clay told her what happened." I tell him. "I don't want you being alone. I still want you to come to the clubhouse. You can rest in my old dorm and that way we know you are safe. Bring you laptop so you have something to do." he tells me. I didn't argue because I knew I would feel safer knowing he was close by. We finished getting ready and headed to the clubhouse.
Pulling onto the clubhouse lot, I head into the clubhouse to the dorm while Koz heads to the office to clock in. "Hey baby, how's she doing?" Gemma asks Koz. "Not good Gem. She woke up from a nightmare last night, sick. I don't know how to help her." he tells her. "All you can do is keep her safe and be there for her. You are doing all you can. She knows that. Let me talk to her. It helps to talk to someone that has been there. Someone that has been attacked like that." She tells him. "Thanks Gemma. She's in my old dorm resting. I didn't want to leave her home alone." he tells her. Gemma kisses his cheek and heads inside to talk to me.
I lay down on the bed but I can't sleep. I am scared to. Sleeping next to Koz incase I have another nightmare was one thing but being alone, I have no one to make me feel safe. I hear a light knock on the door. Getting up to answer I see Gemma sitting there. "Hey Gem." I greet her. "Hey baby. I think it's time we had a little talk." she tells me sitting down on the bed. I follow her to the bed and she starts, "Do you remember the night of Bobby's coming home party when I had my wreck?" she asks. "Yeah. You said you ran your car into a barrier." I reply. "Well, I didn't have a wreck. I was attacked. Young girl stopped me at a stopsign yelling that her baby was choking. I got out to help and it was a God damned doll. She knocked me out and pulled me in the van. Same van that blew up here on the lot that hurt Chibs." she tells me and I look at her in shock. "I woke up handcuffed to a chain link fence inside an old warehouse. There were three of them. Wanted me to deliver a message to the guys about selling guns to color. They had on masks and took turns raping me. More than once before Wayne found me." she tells me and I feel the tears rolling down my face. "Baby, you don't let that rule you. You take that shit back. You figure out what you need to do and you take that power back. I know you did when you let Koz in but Sweetheart, even if he is back, nothing is going to change with you and Koz. That man loves you with all he has. The guys will take care of this but you don't let that pull you back in. You decide your life. Not him." she tells me. She kisses my cheek and walks out of the room leaving me to think about what she said.
A couple of hours later, Koz comes to check on me. As soon as he walks in the door, I know what I need to do, for me. I walk up to him, kissing him with everything I have. I pull him to the bed and when he pulls out of the kiss to look at me, I tell him. "I win this time." He realizes what I am saying and kisses me deeply and starts to take our clothes off and makes love to me. When we both reach out climax, he pulls me into his side and says, "When this is done, I'm making you my wife." I was in shock but could still feel all the love in his eyes. "I love you Koz." I kiss him and we start to redress to head out to the main room.
Later that evening, we head to the house. Walking in, I feel like something is off. We walk into the bedroom and on the bed is a mess and there are pictures of me and Koz, in our bed making love. "Fuck! What the hell is that?" he says. I look closer and see that the mess is semen. "Koz, he's been in our fucking house!" I exclaim. He pulls out his phone and calls Jax. "Brother, get to my house now. Hurry!"