Chapter 19
Waking up the next morning and I am alone in bed. Getting up, I walk to the bathroom to start getting ready for the day. I head out to the main room and see Herm giving Eliza Jane her bottle and I can't help but smile. "Morning Herm." I tell him as I kiss his cheek. "Morning babe." he says looking back down at our daughter. "Why didn't you wake me up when she woke up?" I asked. "Because, you were exhausted. I had her. She's spending time with Daddy aren't you baby girl." he coos to our little girl. I couldn't help but smile. "Awe, my big bad biker husband is already wrapped aren't you?" I tease him. He looks at me and smiles and says "You bet I am but she still ain't dating until we are dead." I look at him and laugh, "Good luck with that. Tara and I are already planning her and Thomas' wedding." I see him look up at me with a deadly look so I hold up my hands in surrender, "Kidding." He just smiles and looks back down at Eliza Jane.
Still not feeling comfortable leaving me and the baby home alone, Herm tells me that he is sending the prospect to stay with me because he has to go on a short fun. Shouldn't be gone more than a couple of days but didn't want me to be alone. I didn't fight him on it because I know the shit that has gone down lately and know how crazy things can be. He puts me with Phil, who I like because he is quiet and cleans up after himself. He is also good with Eliza Jane. "Phil, do you have any siblings?" I asked him while we are sitting and eating pizza. "Yeah. I have two younger sisters. They are about fifteen years younger than me so I helped with them a lot." he tells me. "I can tell. You are really good with the baby, and to me. How much longer do you have before you patch in?" I asked. "Three more months." he tells me. I smile and say, "Well, not much longer now and you won't get stuck on babysitting duty as much." I tell him. He just smiles and says "It's not so bad. You are always nice to me so that makes it easier." I couldn't help but smile. "I know the shit they put you guys through and you guys need to know that there people here that will take care of you. Just because they put you through shit doesn't mean we have to. But you know they look at you as family, right?" He looks at me and smiles shyly, "I do. The guys give me crap one minute and then the next they tell me that I'm doing a good job. Koz especially." he tells me. "Well, you're doing something right if he is putting you with us. He doesn't trust just anyone with his little girl." I tell him. "Or his wife." he says. I look at him stunned. No one calls me his wife. They call me his Old Lady. "You just called me his wife, not his Old Lady?" I stated. "I know. You are more than just an Old Lady and one day I hope to find someone to be as good to me as you are to him." he confesses. That gets me thinking.
A couple of days later, we are at the clubhouse and Gemma has the baby. We are spending the night celebrating the guys being home and I see Phil looking at one of the newer croweaters. "You like her don't you?" I asked him. "Yeah but she wouldn't go for someone like me." he says. "What do you mean?" I asked him. "I'm big, Savy and I am a prospect. Most of these girls only want a patched member and not one so big." He tells me. "I bet I can prove you wrong." I tell him. He just looks back down at the glasses he's drying and doesn't say anything else. Herm walks up and asked "Are you okay baby?" I smile at him and say, "Yeah. I think I am going to get some air." He smiles at me and I walk to the croweater that Phil was looking at. "Maci, you want to come outside and get some air with me?" I asked. She looks at me confused but says "Uh sure." Walking outside, we sit on one of the picnic tables. "You like being a croweater?" I asked. "Sure." she says and I am not convinced. "You don't seem like the kind of girl that thrives to be one." I tell her. "What do you mean?" she asked. "I'll be honest, I don't trust many of the croweaters but you just seem so sweet and you have been nothing but respectful to me so I am going give you some advice. Most of these women, they go after the guys that are full patch members hoping that one day they will take them as an Old Lady. But none of these guys will. Those that will, are either already taken or just don't think that they are worthy." I tell her. "I like hanging out and the sex is fun but I don't want to be a croweater the rest of my life." she confesses. "I can see that which is why we are having this conversation. See, I happen to know one of the prospects is not the kind that wants to just sleep around. He wants someone to be his constant. He needs someone to he his constant. And the thing is, he is sweet and funny and has a huge heart. He's not a patched member yet but will be in a few months. My suggestion, get to know him. Win his heart. Because, you give him an honest chance and you'll be an Old Lady as soon as he patches in." I tell her. "Who?" she asked. "Phil." I tell her. She looks at me and I see her blush a little. "I like Phil. He's always so nice to me. Doesn't treat me like I am a whore like most of the guys do." she tells me. "I tell you what, I know for a fact he has a thing for you. Come back in with me, and spend the night talking to him. Get to know him and I will make sure you get that crow." I tell her. "Really?" she asked. "Really." I tell her. She follows me back inside and over to the bar where she spends the rest of the night doing exactly what I advised her to do. Herm walks up to me later and asked "You have something to do with that?" as he points to Phil and Maci. "Maybe." I tell him.