Random Song One Shots Chapter 48: Falling Inside The Black by Skillet, a grojband fanfic

I'm REALLY sorry I haven't updated in two days... I was really sick so the only things I could update were the messages I got from fellow writers or readers of my stories. XD So here's just something I thought up while I was listening to one of my brother's CD's from Skillet. The song is Falling Inside the Black by ,as you might already know if you read the title or what I just said, Skillet. Ship, i never really thought before hand so I'll just let my hands choose. XD WARNING: Might be depressing to a few people! Anyway, enjoy!

I was walking through the streets with my eyes burning holes into the concrete. I can't believe it... I waited, no wasted, my time waiting for her. She was the source of my strength for so long, I had everything I loved on the line, especially my heart, just to be her best friend, trying to hide what I felt for so long. And now... It's all gone. All because of.. him... Her boyfriend... Ruined everything.. And now I'm all alone, falling into this cold darkness of heart break... This must have been what Mike told me about for so long. The cold empty feeling when the one you've waited for, failed to see your feelings, breaking you apart in the inside. My question is this though... Why did he always told me it gets better? By what I seen, it hasn't. All I've been feeling is the cold feeling of depression... I don't care if I sound dark right now, the girl I cared and loved sense I was seven, just out of now were got a boyfriend who doesn't care for her and she says repeatedly, that it was love at first sight. Yeah, if that guy keeps treating her like she's trash, I agree that it's love at first sight. I know she's new to this 'love' stuff but, even a blind man can see that Lucas doesn't care for her. Well, Care has been known for being oblivious so I don't see why it's much of a big difference from her being oblivious from my feelings to Lucas's hateful vibe. *Mental Sigh* She'll learn one day that he's not good for her... Hopefully that'll happen before I fall to far into this 'dark shadow' as Mike called it before. I took a deep breath of the cold air and exhaled. I stared at the winter white cloud that was my breath disappear. "Falling in the black. Slipping through the cracks. Falling to the depths. Can I ever go back? Dreaming of the way it used to be, can you hear me?" I sang the few sentences with my eyes closed. I exhaled my breath at the end watching the cloud float up into the atmosphere. "Falling in the black. Slipping through the cracks. Falling to the depths can I ever go back? Falling inside the black. Falling inside, falling inside the black." I stared at the ground where my guitar laid in it's case. I forgot I brought it with me. I picked up the case by it's handle and walked into the park to my favorite spot, a bench under an old Willow Tree. I placed my guitar case gently on the ground after I sat down. I opened the guitar case to show the light blue guitar I got from Care. She gave it to me when she found out I was learning to play instruments when we were little. 'Sense I already know guitar and I just got a new one take this. That way when we get older, we can play together!' The voice of a young Carrie said that in my head, showing me the small flashback of when I was a kid and we were sitting on the same exact bench I am now. I smiled at the memory. I missed when we were kids. When we didn't have to worry about getting gigs, being better then Grojband everyday, having good grades or even worrying about feelings about the other... I missed being a kid just smiling, laughing and playing in the park with Care and the twins. I stared at the pale blue guitar and started playing a few cords. I've written a song about everything that happened in the last few days so I decided to play it here so I can at least try to get Lucas and Care off my mind for now. I started playing the few intro notes before closing my eyes and singing.

Tonight I'm so alone
This sorrow takes a hold
Don't leave me here so cold
(Never want to be so cold)

Your touch used to be so kind
Your touch used to give me life
I've waited all this time,
I've wasted so much time

Don't leave me alone
Cause I barely see at all
Don't leave me alone, I'm

Falling in the black
Slipping through the cracks
Falling to the depths can I ever go back
Dreaming of the way it used to be
Can you hear me?
Falling in the black
Slipping through the cracks
Falling to the depths can I ever go back
Falling inside the black
Falling inside, falling inside the black

You were my source of strength
I've traded everything
That I love for this one thing
(Stranded in the offering)
Don't leave me here like this
Can't hear me scream from the abyss
And now I wish for you my desire

Don't leave me alone
Cause I barely see at all
Don't leave me alone, I'm

(Falling in the black.)
(Slipping through the cracks.)

I breathed heavily at the end. I put so much emotion into the lyrics, that it made me have lack of breathe for a little bit. I guess that she'll never know what I feel... Maybe this 'black abyss' is where I belong... Mainly I think that 'The Big Guy' is just playing with my heart and fate, making me miserable. I then felt a hand on my shoulder. I went wide eyed and turned my head to see Care standing there. "Care? I though you were with Lucas." I put a little venom into his name but not to much so she could notice. She just smiled at me though. I looked closer at her, she had little bit of redness in her eyes, her cheeks were stained with tears and her smile, fake. I could feel my self frown. "Care, what happened between you and Lucas?" I could tell she had a tear in her eye. I got up after putting my guitar back in it's case and walked over to her. "Care? Come on, you know you can tell me anything." She just hugged me and started crying. "Lens... H-He, H-He." I rubbed circles into her back and repeated 'Shh' to her to get her to be quiet. "Whatever he did, you can tell me later when you can talk. Alright?" She looked up at me and nodded. "Good. Now, let's get you home. It's about to snow and your only in a sweater." I lightly laughed at that as she smiled. "Yeah I know, I thought I was going to stay in the heat today.. I guess I was wrong." I smiled as I took off my jacket and put it over her. "There. Now let's hurry before I freeze." She just started giggling at that. I picked up my guitar before we started walking.

My house wasn't far so it didn't take us long to get there. Lens made some lame jokes that we both laughed at which we both knew were to make me smile and to keep me from crying again. I can't believe I haven't noticed how much Lens cared for me. I should have known but I was to worried about him finding out my feelings I guess. Yeah, I just admitted I have feelings for my best friend.. And surprisingly I feel okay with it. I should of known also that he likes me.. Kim and Konnie told me that after he left band practice early after I introduced Lucas to them. I was going to break up with Lucas after I knew he liked me back but, Lucas wouldn't let me. We walked up my front door steps before turning to each other. I took off Lens jacket and put it back over his arms. "Thanks for the warmth Lens. But, I think you might need it now." I laughed lightly at his almost blue skin. "T-Thanks." We both started laughing at that. "I think I'm actually happy about Lucas being out of my love life now." He gave me a confused look. "Maybe because, I've noticed I actually have feelings for someone else." He rolled his eyes at me playfully. "Who is it this time? Riffin?" I gave him a 'Never joke about that again look' getting a laugh out of him. "No. Why don't I just show you who?" He gave me a confused look. I just took a step forward and looked at him. He still had on the same confused look. I took this as my chance. I just clenched his shirt in my hand, brought him down the only few inches taller then me he got over the years from when we were pre-teens, and kissed him. I could feel that he was shocked at first but he started to kiss back after a little bit. After a minute or so we broke apart for air. "There. Now you won't have to worry about falling inside the black." I walked into my house and shut the door to wait for him to recover. "Wait... You heard that?!" I started laughing at that. I then whispered to my self something I switched from his second verse. "Now you've waited for all this time. It doesn't seem to me as a waste of time."

2,000 words again! YAY! I WASTED MY TIME ADDING DETAILS! XD This was a long one for you guys so you won't get angry with me not updating in two days. I'm still really sorry about that, if you want more details of that, IT'S IN THE TOP NOTE. Anyway, I hoped you enjoyed this new one shot! Thanks for reading and stay musical!