SORRY FOR THE LATE UPDATE! I wasn't allowed on the computer thanks to my dad wanting to play his video games... Anyway, i don't know why but I just wanted to see what would happen if I just listen to Alesana's The Lover while I write randomly.. ENJOY PEOPLES!

I laid on my bed just singing to random songs on the radio, as I knew across town Care would be with her new boyfriend. It hurts knowing that she hasn't noticed my hints that I always liked her, but if she was happy, I was at least going to act like I was. Most of the songs on the radio met my mood setting though, which was slightly heart broken but still not alright. Why is it when your counterpart is happy with her crush, after he noticed her hints, but my crush doesn't... Isn't that appose to happen me in some sorta way? Eh, I don't know and I just hate how that happens. I'm just sick of everything, not like the 'I'm sick of life and wanna die' way though. It's in that pissed off at the world but I'm still rocking on, even though I'm hurt though. I closed my eyes and sang the last words of 'The Artist by Alesana' as the radio speaker came on. "Hey everyone, thanks to Alesana having a new tour coming around, we're going to rock your ears off with all the songs off they're 'Story' album 'The Emptiness'! Anyway, here's The Lover by Alesana, number nine off 'The Emptiness'!"

Is it her? Could it be? Should my eyes believe what they see?
If you are who I think you are
I might lose my mind.
Just a kiss from her lips
And I would simply float away.
The way her hips sway back and forth,
I've got butterflies.

I started listening along to the soft singer of the band, not knowing what the 'screamer' was saying thanks to his deep voice. I knew they had a story album because I own it but, I never bothered to listen to 'The Lover'. But right away the song made me think about Care, making my stomach weak and the 'little' pain that was in my chest grow. When the singer said 'I've got butterflies', I start feeling the butterflies I always felt with Care... Weird.

Dead girls don't just appear out of thin air.
But I am victim to her sinister stare.

Please don't hate me for what I've done
Run away with me, I'll be everything that you need.
Such a pretty girl screams to me.
"Take my hand, take my breath away... "
What if my heart breaks again? (take my breath away)

The dead girls part scared me a little, but right after that, my mind went back to 'Carrieville'.. I hated it when that happened but the song just made it happen, that's when I decided to sing along with the soft singer, Shawn Milke, even though my heart was growing in the pain category oddly. But after Dennis Lee, the screamer, sang 'What if my heart breaks again?',I was speechless. It was the one part that made me think of Care the most.

Just a scent, of her skin
Unlocks forbidden memories.
The slightest gaze of fragile hand
I've got butterflies.

Dead girls don't just appear out thin air.
But I am victim to her sinister stare.

I started singing along with Shawn again as he started the verse along with Dennis again. This song will most likely be the reason why I go insane thanks to this being from a book that shows how I feel perfectly... I started doing both Dennis' and Shawn's parts now, it made my throat hurt at first, but it went away quickly.

Please don't hate me for what I've done
Run away with me, I'll be everything that you need.
Such a pretty girl screams to me.
"Take my hand, take my breath away... "
What if my heart breaks again?

I'll be your anchor, I'll be your lover.
I'll be your anchor, I'll be your lover.
And then your heart is filled with doubt
I'll bear my soul to you belle!

I was screaming out Shawn's part even though that it wasn't a screaming part, it's just that it connected with me perfectly at the moment, I couldn't stop screaming the lyrics that meant a lot to me, a.k.a what had me think of Carrie or her not noticing my hints. Anyway, I just kept screaming out the lyrics as I known it was coming to an end.

Please don't hate me for what I've done
Run away with me, I'll be everything that you need.
Such a pretty girl screams to me.
"Take my hand, take my breath away... "

I can't lose you again.
I can't lose you again.
I can't lose you again.
I'm nothing without you.
I'll never let you down,
I'll never let you down,
I'll never let you down,
Angel

I sighed at the end of the song, letting out the frustration. Seems like everything never goes right for me huh?