Hey guys! Today's song is Breakeven by The Script and the ship is Larrie! Dang it's either I'm good at writing about this ship or that most of my ideas have them in it. XD Anyway, ENJOY!

I don't know how this all happened... But it did. I'm laying on my bed, barely breathing.. Just praying that she will come back to me. But I know she won't. She's dating some guy she just met and I was pushed off like some third wheel... Like she just forgot about me and moved on with out thinking, while I'm still grieving. I don't know what to do! Is there anything I can do? I never told her how I felt, I never shown how she effected me. I guess that's why they say, nice guys finish last. i just hope that this God that my mom made me not believe in, to answer my prayers. I don't want the pain of this.. I liked it more back when she never realized my feelings at all. It hurt less then any of this. I'm pretty much falling to pieces while she's having the best days of her life. But, at least she finally found a man that's gonna put her first. I tugged at the collar of my t-shirt as I looked at the clock. 12:35 P.M... I'm wide awake once again over this... I bet she has no trouble sleeping though. I got off my bed and walked over to my old lyric book that laid on my desk. I dusted it off a little bit, then opened it to a new page. I was always told by my dad before him and mom divorced, that pain is something that has to be written out, not kept inside. So I picked up my pencil and started writing away.

Once I was done, I grabbed out an old keyboard that Kim got me when I turned ten. She figured because I knew how to play it, that just in case she wasn't feeling good or something, I can take her spot if needed. I turned the Yamaha keyboard on and started playing softly. After a few seconds, I started to sing.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just praying to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake, she has no trouble sleeping
'Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even, even, no

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you?
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay?
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even, even, oww

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you?
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay?
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces

I'm falling to pieces
(One's still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame
Now I'm tryin' make sense of what little remains, oh
'Cause you left me with no love and no love to my name

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't break
No it don't break, no, it don't break even, no

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you?
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay?
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces

I'm falling to pieces
(One's still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't break even)

Oh, it don't break even, no
Oh, it don't break even, no
Oh, it don't break even, no

I sighed and leaned back in my chair afterwards. I whipped my eyes with my sleeve to get the small tears out of my eyes. "If you only knew Care... What kind of hell you're putting me through..." I shut off the Yamaha and put it back in the corner that it used to be and collapsed onto my bed. If only I knew though... That someone on the other side of the street, was feeling the same.

I laid wide awake on my bed as Kim and Konnie was at the feet of it. They came over to help me with my recent break up... I would of called Lens but, if he knew that Thomas broke up with me after two months, he would kill him. Literally. Anyway, I actually did start dating Thomas because I just wanted to see Lens reaction for the first day.. But I actually started to like him.. Till today. Seems he just wanted to date me to get his ex jealous. So I was pretty much a rebound in one way. I just hope I didn't put Lenny through any pain. I do like him more then just a friend after all, I just never told him because I'm scared of what would happen if we broke up or anything. I love him, he's my best friend, and he was always the only one there for me at tough times a lot. I just whispered something low enough that the twins couldn't hear.

"If only you knew Lens... What kind of hell I'm going through for you."